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Seven Things About (Rewatching) Supernatural: 9x12-9x23

Yeah, the hats in Dixon, MO have definitely improved since I was there last. 

  1. Okay, so there’s depression and stress – Kevin’s death, falling out with Sam, etc. – which might to contribute to Dean drinking more, and disordered sleep, and so on, but there’s still something there, simmering under the surface with marked!Dean at least as early as 9x12.  

    Garth’s description of him as someone who could “start a fight in an empty house” is even truer than usual.  He’s quick to suggest killing Maritza in 9x13, and kills rather than restraining Roger in 9x15.  

    Things get more pronounced after 9x16 – touching the First Blade is a trigger, but killing Cuthbert Sinclair with it I think seals the deal – and from there we see Dean’s behavior shift acutely toward violence, fugues, and general instability/inflexibility.  
  2. So while the Mark of Cain arc is usually read as an addiction arc – presumably we’re supposed to be primed for it by Crowley’s own addiction arc, and Crowley even describes them both as junkies in 9x17, which suggests it’s being written and directed as one – that’s an odd, ill fit for it. 

    Yes, some of Dean’s behaviors might mimic an addict’s cravings, but it makes little sense to stage a Very Special Season of Supernatural for Dean, who has been shown over the course of the show as a (mostly) functional substance user/abuser.   Moreover, the compulsion Dean experiences isn’t like Sam or Crowley’s blood addictions.  There’s nothing inherent in Dean (beyond his having been raised a hunter) to make him predisposed to an addiction to bloodshed.  Addiction as an analogy just doesn’t make sense. 

    What does?  Symbiosis and Parasitism.

    The Mark is not innate. It’s something passed on from one host to another.  When the host feeds it adequately – via bloodshed, preferably with the First Blade – it’s satisfied.  The host feels good, and the Mark makes changes to the host to make it more effective (reduced appetite, reduced sleep).  When the Mark goes unfed, it motivates the host to fix that by causing cravings, distress, and possibly even death.  

    (And, as we’ll see in S10, removing the Mark removes all of those signs of stress in the host.  So yeah.  Magical parasite.)
  3. I feel guilty sometimes for not liking Metatron because he’s an underdog.

    He’s only got status because he was chosen to be The Scribe.  Otherwise he’s regarded as un-charismatic, even a pretender to status.  He left Heaven and went into hiding because of real risks – I wouldn’t want the Archangels to pick me apart of info either, frankly – but where he goes with that origin story?

    Look, I don’t want to align myself with angels like Tyrus – who is also a dick for basically giving Metatron the full Mean Girls – and I’ve been the kid who got teased, looked down on, and bullied whenever I tried to be happy about who I was.  I’ve been the lonely kid who didn’t fit in.  Hell, sometimes I’m the lonely adult who feels like he doesn’t fit in.

    But Metatron?  He’s a shitty, manipulative, smug little douche who wants to control people.  His origins feel familiar, but instead of rising above he chose to become the ruling angel of the sphere of fedora-toting dickbags.

    Sympathy can only go so far. 
  4. Sam, sweetheart, you know that if I loved you any more than I do I would literally be your brother.  I know your intentions are good in 9x20 when you tell Ed that “secrets ruin relationships.”  I get how it’s relevant to your current difficulties with your brother.  None of this is in dispute even a little bit.  

    Just, uh, can we maybe talk about, say, Seasons 1-6?  Because I’m thinking about those, and then hearing this come out of your mouth, and it’s…you know…

    I’m just saying maybe if Ed knew you the way we know you he might, uh, look at you like maybe that last head injury hasn’t quite resolved itself.  Yeah.  
  5. So.  Bloodlines.

    I like Ennis.  He’s a good egg, he’s observant, it’s nice to have a man of color in a leading role.  And he is literally the only good thing about the premise.

    Yeah, there are some fun moments, and I like that they used a fan!pala to film, and the David/Violet to Dean/Castiel parallel is fun to entertain, but otherwise?  So bad.  So.  Bad.  

    Like, what’s with the fridging Tamara right out of the gate?  Or all of that bullshit werewolf misogyny?  And why are there so many white dudes in charge in a city as diverse as Chicago?  And why are the women either dead, ineffectual, or evil?

    Andrew Dabb is a better writer than this.  Robert Singer is a better director than this.  

    Did they just not show up?  Did they deliberately fuck this one up?  Did the network say “hey, give us something that looks like The Originals?”  Because that’s literally what this is: Supernatural aping The Originals, except it’s in deadly earnest.  

    So weird.  So terrible.
  6. You know what I love?  Castiel and Gadreel in the second half of the season.  Both of them want to be good angels, both of them believe in the original mission, both of them have checkered pasts, both of them are genuinely trying to help.  

    They’re both the most reasonable angels anyone could ask for, and it’s not surprising that Gadreel comes around and comes to TFW’s aid in the end.  His ending guts me – Gadreel, like so many before him, deserved better – but his is a redemption arc that is so well-deserved and so tragically short.  

    As for Castiel, his grief at the end of the season leads him to the simple desire just to be an angel.  Yes, there’s a strong element of killing the pain of a more human existence there – he thinks Dean is dead despite his efforts, he’s failed over and over and over, he just wants things to be better – but that’s also all he’s ever wanted: to be an angel, to do his job, to care for humanity, etc.  After the last five years, it’s not a surprise he’d ask for that peace.
  7. Weirdly, a marathon watch makes Abaddon’s fall feel less abrupt than it did watching week-to-week. Pacing episodic television is such an odd thing.  

    I do still have reservations about how graphic the kill is, though I think it’s part of a larger demonstration of how far Dean has gone because of the Mark/Blade – his assault of Falstaff later is another example – but contrasting it with Cain’s end in S10?  Yeah. 

Bonus Thing:  So get this: the night 9x23 aired sticks with me in a “social anxiety hell” kind of way.  

There’d been meta spec about the finale, and Jensen’s whole thing at upfronts about how the end of the episode would be an “eye-opener,” but I’m the only one in the house who actually consumes any of that regularly.

So we’re watching, and boom:   

And I’m like, holy shit this is amazing, which I expressed by standing up and making a noise I’m not sure I could duplicate if asked because I can’t remember if it was a whoop or words, or something only audible by multi-dimensional wavelengths of celestial intent.

Which would have been significantly less awkward if the person sitting next to me hadn’t then stood up and walked out without saying goodbye to anyone.

To this day she and I don’t really talk much.  Whoops.

Something is bugging me...

I came upon this post about sexualized violence against Sam and Dean and although yes, I’ve seen it a couple of times, especially with Amara *eye twitches* and Abaddon, that’s not what bothered me.

Although a lot of people, myself included and I have no shame, have openly said how handsome and sexy these two men are, to read this particular post and find that they call us “crazy” for talking like that about these two brothers bugs the shit out of me. Because they have no idea how wrong they are.

I mean, sure, we’ve had our smutty fics and all, but that’s not all we think about when writing Dean. Or Sam. I think we’re old enough to distinguish from “having fun” to being totally serious in our fics. And we’re not going to pretend that Sam and Dean don’t have sex because that is such horseshit. They’re grown ass men who have their needs. We’re not going to ignore that.

But we’re not going to ignore that they’re human beings with feelings. We respect the brothers too much to hurt them like that. To only “see them as a fuck-toy” like I read in that post. That’s not what they are. Not in the slightest. We may be woman and “kinky” as hell, but we’re not stupid.

I’m sorry if I’m not making any sense. It’s half past midnight and I’m just laying in bed here, but can you all see where I’m coming from?

I’m just trying to defend myself and the rest of us that, sure we write the smut, but also know that these two men are human beings with feelings and aren’t treating them like “fuck-toys” like the post says.

Fuck it. I’m not making sense. Whatever. But I stand by what I said anyway.

Originally posted by itsokaysammy

anonymous asked:

Do u know any fics that are really really dirty? Kinda sound like hardcore maybe? I like it deep with sex talk and you know:)) thanks:))))

sure! hope these are dirty enough haha

Abaddon’s Waltz by eclairdeluxe - Hell hath no fury like a lover scorned. 

(this is probably the most hardcore smut you’re going to find for taekook. there’s a loooot of bloodplay, knifeplay, wax play, etc. not sure if you want it that hardcore, but here you go lol it is consensual though, so don’t worry about it seeming non-con or anything)

Stop My Heart Outtakes #1: Happy Birthday, Baby by wowoashley - A compilation of scenes in the Stop My Heart universe that didn’t make it into the main storyline, or exist before/after the main storyline. Happy Birthday, Baby: It’s Taehyung’s birthday, and Jeongguk has the perfect present for him.

five fingers on it (hit it like you own it) by prkjimin - “it’s nothing that bad, gukkie. i just want to be choked a little, maybe. pin me down, pull my hair, call me names. nothing too intense, but everyone’s too delicate, or they just don’t do it right.” taehyung complains and suddenly sitting so close feels like a bad idea to jeongguk.

Do You Even Yak? series by nikkumeul - A collection of episodes based off of real yaks.

Electric Feel by lethallergic - Curiosity is a playful thing.

only you can set my heart on fire by taetastic - He wants to give all of himself to Jeongguk and have Jeongguk take him apart piece by piece. He wants Jeongguk to ruin him.

Shameless by foolishbangtan - it started out as a simple gesture, a normal pat on the ass. neither of them anticipated this.

Call Me Sir (Or A Good Boy) by jeonggukhyung - In which Taehyung is the new science teacher and Jeongguk is a shitty teen that always flirts with him.

i wanna hold you close (tonight and always) by jiyxngie - Jeongguk is a slightly possessive boyfriend.

Depraved by SugasSugarBaby - Jungkook loves roughing Taehyung up and Taehyung loves it too.

I promise you’ll have nothing to say (nothing to say) by eclairdeluxe - Taehyung wasn’t lying when he said he’d make him cry.

Headed to Hell for the Company by Rix - A series of one-shots depicting Taehyung’s time with his mildly sex-crazed half-demon boyfriend Jungkook.

a little less sixteen candles, a little more touch me by teakookies - jeongguk, jimin and taehyung’s initiation to the alpha tau omega fraternity is a little…unorthordox to say the least.

make you wet between your thighs by MataHari / teakookies - taehyung likes to be watched and jeongguk likes to make taehyung happy. jimin is slightly terrified, but mostly aroused. part of the 30 days of maknaeline smut series

Butterfly by TheHalesNyx - tumblr prompt from anon: “Idk where to put requests but I’m in need of ot7 bottom Tae harem w/ multiple orgasms pretty please~”  Taehyung groans, the raspy sound of Jungkook’s voice incredibly attractive, despite his previous suggestion. “You… all six of you?” he asks, rolling his hips, watching as Jungkook’s eyes flutter closed, his breath hitching ever so slightly.  “Yes. Me, Yoongi, with Hoseok, of course. Namjoon and Seokjin, Jimin, too. All of us. What do you say?”

I Can Do It Better by Kruciatus - PWP. Desperate Taehyung and aggressive Jungkook. Basically just an excuse for me to write taekook smut

Pretty When You Cry by GloriousSloth - They are fucked up, but Jungkook decides he doesn’t care.

You Make Me Suffer by queenofkookies - Jungkook has a hair pulling kink and Taehyung finds out. He makes good use of the knowledge.

okay but the reason i say lucifer was such a brilliant antagonist is that he was such a self-pitying bastard that he lead half the fandom into babying him despite the fact that he tortured one of the story’s main heroes to the point of having hallucinations so awful they landed him in a mental institution

the best sorts of villains don’t only manipulate the hero; they manipulate the audience too