aa. alcoholics anonymous

  • AA Member: Welcome everyone to tonight's Alcoholic Anonymous meeting. We have a new member joining us this evening. Everyone please welcome Qrow.
  • All Members: Hi Qrow.
  • Qrow: I have a question.
  • AA Member: Go ahead Qrow.
  • Qrow: Why is it called Alcoholic Anonymous when I know pretty much half of the people in here? Honestly Professor Oobleck, I thought it was coffee you were drinking this entire time, you surprised me. And Glynda! Boy howdy! Does Ozpin know about this? Also I'm pretty sure that's Roman Torchwick wearing that fake wig, the eyeliner gave it away. I know this this guy next to me runs a bar and let me tell you he is not sticking with his step-by-step program! This woman I don't know but I would like to get to know over drinks! How about it, love?
  • AA Member: Now wait a minute!
  • AA Lady: Sure!
  • *Qrow and the woman leave arm in arm leaving the group staring after them in stunned silence.*
  • Roman: Did you all know it was me?
  • Everyone: Yes!
I don’t want to be sober today.

Honestly it’s exhausting to face physical and mental pain without narcotics. I feel so defeated. I’m so fed up with my screwed up sleep patterns. I desperately wish I could sleep for more than 2 hours at a time. I need a holiday from my chronic illness. Screw that I want a break from sobriety; on days like today it’s really hard to be sober. Every fiber of my being is crying for an escape.

As desperately as my mind wants to escape I don’t want to lose control of my life. I am powerless over drugs and alcohol. So instead I will rest and eat and take care of myself; effectively giving my body the energy it needs to keep fighting.

438 days clean and sober

December 12, 2016

Finding the right words has been challenging.

Since the moment I opened my eyes this morning I was fighting back the tears. I was trying not to wake my husband with my sniffles. I got up, and cried. I mean just tears falling, and it was at that moment I realized why am I fighting back these tears today? These are happy tears. They remind me of what I’ve done to get here. The challenges and obstacles. The victories and accomplishments.

Today is all about me. And I’m gonna keep smiling and crying as much as my heart wants. Because I earned this. Today is my day.

theguardian.com
Russell Brand: my life without drugs
Russell Brand has not used drugs for 10 years. He has a job, a house, a cat, good friends. But temptation is never far away. He wants to help other addicts, but first he wants us to feel compassion for those affected
By Russell Brand

“Don’t pick up a drink or drug, one day at a time. It sounds so simple. It actually is simple but it isn’t easy: it requires incredible support and fastidious structuring. Not to mention that the whole infrastructure of abstinence based recovery is shrouded in necessary secrecy. There are support fellowships that are easy to find and open to anyone who needs them but they eschew promotion of any kind in order to preserve the purity of their purpose, which is for people with alcoholism and addiction to help one another stay clean and sober.

Without these fellowships I would take drugs. Because, even now, the condition persists. Drugs and alcohol are not my problem, reality is my problem, drugs and alcohol are my solution.”

My girlfriend kindly suggested this to me, I’ve been pondering it, tonight I’m going to find that photograph, and start nourishing my little girl.

Sometimes it’s hard to caption these posts.

So today, as we approach the holidays (trigger, trigger) I will remind myself of this. 22 months without a drop of alcohol.

I was talking to my husband the other day about my sobriety. I asked him if he thought I’d drink again. He responded with he doesn’t “think I care about drinking” and I think he is absolutely right. I don’t need to drink and I certainly don’t even want to drink.

I just keep checking off the months, one day at a time.

Just Because I Quit Drugs Doesnt Mean...
  • I think I’m better than people who cant quit
  • I’m completely healed and able to function like a “normal” human being
  • I’ve solved all of my mental issues
  • I’m able to give sound and helpful advice all the time
  • I dont feel resentful sometimes for having no choice but to quit
  • I’ll never drink, take drugs, or smoke again
  • I should be back to my “old self” within a few weeks
  • I no longer need help or support
  • I’ve found the magic cure and answer to staying clean