whys it so hard to not wear makeup? im not trying to be mean im just sincerely curious because im a youngish teenager and i usually dont wear makeup but it doesnt bother me, sorry if im being disrespectful!
you’re not being disrespectful, don’t worry!
for me it’s a mix of things - most predominantly it’s the fact i got bullied really bad growing up because i had a much more masculine facial structure/demeanor than other girls in my class. people called me a boy in disguise, called me “a man, duh” (an asinine play on my name ‘Amanda’ lol), made fun of me for having a flat chest, called me slurs, etc.
so i got really really fucked up about my appearance for a long time - i started wearing makeup in junior high to try to feminize myself to get the bullying to stop and it largely stopped comments about my face but not comments about my flat chest or my sexuality but it was at least SOMETHING. so makeup’s always been a defense mechanism for me to try and mitigate what i perceive as a constant threat of being mocked? not wearing makeup is like going outside with my bra size taped to my forehead like it’s… putting all out there in the worst way, you know?
the other major reason is because of my eating disorder and its constant insistence that “if i’m going to be this fat i should at least try and make my face easier to look at”
i’m super stoked for u that u feel comfortable not wearing makeup! don’t get reliant on it like i have. makeup is a prison lol