Last day in LA! It’s insane because it’s been over a month and the time has seriously flown by. I think I completed most of the goals I wanted to. I got on track with my diet, tried to fix my relationship with my sister, spent a lot of quality time with the niece and nephew, trained the dog, and exercised. It’s totally a process. I feel like I’m slowly getting out of my depression, thankfully. I believe it happened because I had to step up to the plate and actually DO something for myself.
There were definitely times I wanted to board a plane and go back home that INSTANT. I am so glad I stuck through it and stayed. I’m a pisces, and as sensitive as that is, I have a tough spot for my sister because of our history. She’s sixteen years older that me and a very tough scorpio. I know our signs are supposed to get along. But with everything I’ve been through, we have different interests and I also have my own beef with her. I partially feel like she takes so much for granted. She has an amazing husband and two beautiful, healthy children. She doesn’t have to work but she always wants more and more. She doesn’t get up to help her husband, she really only wants to be left alone. I can’t blame her, partially because I’ve never been in her shoes.
I do know that I don’t want to be like her when I age. I want to love life and wake up every morning ready to go and prepare for my family (b’h). I tried really hard to be kind. I don’t think I tried as hard as I could have. But I juiced every morning and I prepared meals and I cleaned the kitchen, put the kids to bed, etc. I could have done better, but looking back, I don’t regret how I handled situations.
When I get home, if the flight goes well, I have a lot of things to do. Doctor appointments, therapist appointments - I’m going to several to find one that’s right for me - I have to pay bills, set up more doctor appointments, exercise, and really get my diet on track.
I read Crazy Sexy Diet and I absolutely adored it. I need to get my diet on track. I need to feed my body the best things, because your body is truly a temple. I need to get in touch with my soul. I am so separated from myself and the world. I want to find myself. That is my goal.
In April, I hope to start journaling daily (not necessarily on Tumblr), meditating, juicing, and exercising. I look forward to talking to you guys more. :)
Love and health,