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Nine/Rose, hospital, amnesia

She woke up feeling groggy, layers of sleep pushing and pushing her down. It was several tries before she was able to really open her eyes. She blinked, looking at the unfamiliar bed and room she was in. Then she noticed the lead going from her arm to a bag of fluids hanging from a pole next to the bed. Then she realized there was a heart monitor on her index finger, the steady beeping in the room an echo of her internal muscle’s function.

“Where am I?” she said, or rather, tried to say. Her voice was scratchy from disuse.

A sharp intake of breath to her left drew her attention and she looked over to see a man with close-cropped dark hair sitting up in a chair, his blue eyes full of relief and amazement. “You’re awake!” he said, squeezing her hand and she realized then that he’d been holding it.

The joy in his expression crumbled at her next question. “Who are you?”

His left hand was shaking as he scrubbed it across his face in shock. The movement made the light catch on the gold ring on his finger. Automatically, her eyes dropped to the hand that he was holding. A matching set adorned her fourth finger.

“Oh, no.”

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John Smith

  • John I - Fobwatched Ten
    The Tenth Doctor used the chameleon arch to become John Smith to hide from the Family of Blood, where he falls in love with Anna and marries her.
  • John II - Fobwatched Twelve
    The Twelfth Doctor used the chameleon arch to become John Smith to hide on Earth and raise his son with Anna.
  • John III - Human John
    Anna and the Doctor put John’s personality imprint in a human body (John is a test tube baby given to parents, Verity and Sydney Smith, who couldn’t have biological kids on their own). He meets and marries Anna and they have five kids together and adopt a Zygon son. 
  • John IV - Matrix Ghost John
    After John in his human body dies, his consciousness is uploaded to a fragment of the Time Lord Matrix kept in the Doctor’s TARDIS.
  • John IV.5 - HoloJohn
    They project a hologram of John outside of the Matrix, just within the TARDIS, so he doesn’t have to be stuck in there all the time.
  • John IV.5 - RoboJohn
    They build him a robotic body and install his personality into it so he can travel with them outside of the TARDIS.
  • John IV.5 - (Robo)WereJohn
    During one of their adventures, they came across a lycanthropic virus that can apparently mutate to infect synthetic bodies, and John got infected with it.

OK guys. This moment does not have enough love. In fact, it has some unfortunate anti-love that I aim to resolve here.

Yes, this episode heavily references Girl in the Fireplace. And yes, that episode is pretty much the most anti-shippy thing to happen in canon for Doctor/Rose.


Twelve can’t remember Clara’s name at first. Nor Vastra nor Jenny nor Strax. He leaves Clara in danger and he won’t even give her the screwdriver. He does questionable things–he’s darker, I get that.

But even so, and even though he’s trying to figure things out with the bad guy, and does not have all his memories intact (’Handles’? Really, Doctor??) he CANNOT leave the bunch of roses on the floor.

The bunch of yellow roses–yellow which signifies remembrance. There are centuries-old ballads (‘Round Her Neck She Wears a Yeller Ribbon’) and old movies ('She Wore a Yellow Ribbon’) and folk songs ('Tie a Yellow Ribbon Round the Ole Oak Tree’) all about yellow being the color of remembrance–specifically in all these pop-culture cases, remembrance of a lost love.

And as he’s struggling to remember why droids harvesting parts rings a bell with him, does he look at the droid? No. Does he have flashbacks to women making double entendres with cleavage spilling out? No. (And the eventual reference to MdP is blah blah bland). But what does he do? He twirls the roses and holds them just a little bit closer. This is so reminiscent of the Journal of Impossible Things, where even as a human Ten can’t remember the name of the TARDIS, or the sonic screwdriver–but he keeps drawing roses in his journal and hers is the only face he can canonically put a name to.

Moffat may be many, many things, and do many, many things that I do not particularly like, but this… this is pretty awesome guys. This isn’t anti-shippy at all. This is shippy and sweet and subtle in the extreme.

And I love it and I really think you should too <3


Art journals in movies and television #10: “A Journal of Impossible Things” in Doctor Who (3x08 Human Nature). A dream diary, containing notes and sketches by the Tenth Doctor’s human persona, John Smith, in “Human Nature”/“The Family of Blood”. The title is handwritten on the journal’s first page. Referred to by Smith as “stories”, it is shown on screen as scribbled words and what appear to be ink sketches, recording what Smith remembers from dreams about his adventures as the Doctor. Joan Redfern retains the Journal at the end of “The Family of Blood”, and it is eventually published in 2009 by her granddaughter in The End of Time. (source: Wikipedia)

This is what’s actually written in “The Journal of Impossible Things” and why people who deny that Doctor/Rose is a real thing are just plain wrong:


II find myself wanting to draw a perfect Rose, over and over although I cannot find a Rose anywhere!

The perfect Rose 

It’s a perfect rose. 

Perfect Rose 

Rose perfect Rose 


In my dreams I keep asking a girl where to find one, and she is dressed in the most extraordinarily immodest way. 

She will not answer me, and she keeps walking away. 

I remember this girl. I have hurt her although I know her well in my dreams.

I keep dreaming of a girl

Girl in my dreams 


I remember this girl I have drawn her although I know her well in my dream 

I know her well I know. 

I know her 

She is my S-


In my dream she keeps walking away 

I see her in my dreams 

She will not answer me, & and she keeps walking away. 

My heart is broken. Just think. He’s changed his species,  forgotten his past,  forgotten almost everything.  But even  after becoming human he still remembers Rose and somewhere in the back of his human mind he’s searching her.

Rose is really love of his life. Every life. Nine, Ten, Eleven, Twelve… it doesn’t matter. His body is changing but it doesn’t matter. Because Rose is such a constant in his life.

Does it need saying?

i sometimes get really emotional about the fact that one of the Doctor’s greatest fears was Rose walking away from him. just turning her back and leaving, changing her mind about staying with him. Think about rotc/aos and how he reacts when she walks away into what he’s styled as the gingerbread house universe. He panics, thinking that this world just might have the necessary components to make her walk away permanently. 

and like…Rose knows this. She’s constantly reassuring him that she’s staying but the fear never goes away.

and then when she is gone, when she’s been ripped away after steadfastly refusing to walk away….

when she’s gone he has dreams. and like his human self writes in the Journal of Impossible Things, she’s always walking away in his dreams. His worst fear continues to haunt him.

//Okay, that got long. I like any excuse to talk about John and his story because I love him and he’s pretty much my OC. But basically, put a lot more simply than I did in the last post, what John is essentially is a personality implant. Like a computer program to be put inside a brain (which is a kind of computer, really). They basically helped parents who otherwise wouldn’t have gotten to have a biological child without their help and grew them a baby with John’s personality implant inside the baby’s head. Did John just replace a baby? Not really, when you think about it, because that baby wouldn’t have been created if the Doctor hadn’t grown it, so they didn’t replace anyone. I think John is technically a test tube baby? Probably? Idk exactly. I’m not really a scientist, I just play one.

An art project for one of my Graphic Design classes. We needed to make a CD cover and what better way to show my nerdyness then to make one for Chameleon Circuit.

The “journal” background are quotes from the show. It is suppose to look messy and unfinished.

Based on the episode Human Nature where 10, or John Smith, makes “A Journal of Impossible Things”