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Dear Taylor, Love Kaitlyn

Hey Taylor, 

I know I’ve already written you and I know a lot of my friends are helping the post get notes in hopes that you’ll see it (no, I haven’t given up yet). 

My name is Kaitlyn, I’m from Canada (more specifically Ontario) and I’m going to be 16 in October. The 1989 tour will be my second time seeing you! (We failed to get tickets for the Speak Now and Fearless Tours) but my mom surprised me with Red Tour Detroit tickets at Christmas a few years back and that still happens to be the best night of my life. 

A little bit about how you’ve changed my life: quite simply, you’ve done so much for me. I could sit here for hours and talk about how you’ve changed my life but the most incredible thing you’ve done for me is the first time I heard Picture To Burn in the car was the first time I fell in love with music. 

Before then I was rather indifferent to music, I didn’t really have a music taste or style, I liked whatever my mom or dad had put on in the car, but there was nothing that was really me. I knew that the girl on the radio singing about the stupid old pick up truck was really going to be something one day, I just never imagined she would be 7 time Grammy winner Taylor Swift. 

I am so beyond proud to be a fan of yours, I love you more than anything in the world, Taylor. Your music has done so much for me, even though I’m making a lot of progress with my happiness and finding out who I want to be, I’m still not quite there. I struggle with severe depression and chronic panic attacks, it’s hard for me to make friends, carry out conversations and feel like I have a place in this world (no pun intended). I still remember carrying around my little battery powered MP3 player listening to your debut album and Fearless, because that was all that you had. Your music spoke VOLUMES to me, and even though I didn’t know a lot about you (or me for that matter) I knew that eventually I’d figure it out and I knew I was not alone. 

In 2005 my baby cousin was born, my mother and her sister are extremely close so eventually she became more like my sister. I had her listening to music as soon as she could understand, and she developed a connection to you in 2011. Since then, we listened to all of the music you had together, we sang off key and had the time of our lives together. The thing is, my cousin was very very sick and she was struggling with a rare blood disorder called Fanconi Anemia, and there is no cure. We knew she’d be in the hospital for a long time, and that there was a good chance she would not be coming home. 

Shake It Off came out a few months before she went in for her Bone Marrow Transplant, Piper learned all the words and we watched the music video and would sing every time it was on the radio, sometimes we would put it on and dance around the kitchen. Piper and I were very close, I was her role model and even though that was a lot of pressure for me, I managed to do okay. When she was in the hospital, 1989 came out and I knew Piper would be ecstatic to hear the new Taylor Swift music. Though, I did not purchase her album when I got mine on the first day, I did get her one, she wasn’t awake to hear it but the doctors promised she could hear everything we said. When I walked in with the CD I sat next to her bed and said “This is it, this is what we have been waiting for since Red. This is 1989 and it’s the new Taylor Swift CD and I know you’ll love it as much as I do” (I made sure they played the album from beginning to end for Piper and played Shake It Off at least 3 times a day for some motivation). 

Even though Piper passed away on January 13th 2015, I know that she loved the album. She will never get the chance to see you perform but I know that she loved you and everything you are doing. Piper was a mini me, she found love in your music and she found herself in your lyrics, I’m beyond grateful to have such a successful, beautiful and down to earth role model such as yourself. You have given me a chance to find myself, inspire me and those who I loved. 

You are the reason I hang on with things get tough, seeing your smile and hearing your voice are the things I live for. Without you and what you have done, I wouldn’t be alive to write this note, and one day hopefully tell you in person. I can’t wait to shake it off on October 2nd. 

Thank you for everything taylorswift

With lots of love, 

Kaitlyn