a wild at heart

anonymous asked:

13 white mares for chuuya

13. thirteen white mares

from the vellichor drabble challenge

thoughts: but does this make sense

His eyes are deceiving him, they must be, to see such a sign all of a sudden when years of searching had been nothing but a wild goose chase. But he blinks, and looks again, and his heart begins to race in ways only excitement and foreboding can make it do.

Thirteen is your lucky number, you had told him years. It meant nothing to him before, but that had been before he realized his heart’s designs, too late to tell you but not too late to search.

It had been hopeless, and they had told him so. He remembers the worried glances, the shaking of heads, the gentle touch of an older sibling, but had ignored them. And now -

“Don’t follow me,” you had said, the ocean waves drowning out your voice.

A smile flits across his features. He knows.

“Don’t look for me,” you had insisted, the moon peering over the mountaintops.

And when he visited your old apartment, gaze lingering a second longer on the painting he had seen a million times, he can see.

I’m not going to be here any longer.

After the birth announcement I am convinced that this “he’s always on his phone” gag is going to be so much more than a gag. It’s a recurring theme with a meaning behind it.

He’s on his phone at the baby shower. He’s on his phone while Mary is giving birth in the car (apparently). According to the announcement he’s on the phone basically all the time now.

And if the phone is his heart, then that is where his attention is focused. If the speculation is right, during these times he is perhaps doing case work on his phone. Using his heart in tandem with his head, and not ignoring it anymore.

This fits with the emotional development of TAB, doesn’t it? But, to the other people in his world, it’s not going to look good. He’s going to look aloof. Distanced. And I’m sure that’s an okay side effect for Sherlock - maybe it’s rooted in truth - that protecting and engaging with his heart also means being able to avoid the whole John/baby situation for a while. And you know the other people in his life are going to be watching him closely for stuff like this to figure out how he’s going to handle baby.

make a radical change in your lifestyle and begin to boldly do things which you may previously never have thought of doing, or been too hesitant to attempt. So many people live within unhappy circumstances and yet will not take the initiative to change their situation because they are conditioned to a life of security, conformity, and conservation, all of which may appear to give one peace of mind, but in reality nothing is more damaging to the adventurous spirit within a man than a secure future. The very basic core of a man’s living spirit is his passion for adventure. The joy of life comes from our encounters with new experiences, and hence there is no greater joy than to have an endlessly changing horizon, for each day to have a new and different sun. If you want to get more out of life, you must lose your inclination for monotonous security and adopt a helter-skelter style of life that will at first appear to you to be crazy. But once you become accustomed to such a life you will see its full meaning and its incredible beauty.
—  Jon Krakauer, Into the wild