a victim of stars

anonymous asked:

I just recently found your blog and I would love a star. I'm having some troubles with my boyfriend over a rather large mistake I made whilst intoxicated only to later realise that he's also at fault but pinning the entire blame on me so that he gets out of it and plays victim... I've been feeling terrible as of late. A star would do wonders for me right now, thank you <3

It is not all your fault, friend. I would talk to your boyfriend and find out why he pinned the entire blame on you, if you haven’t already. Let him know how much his actions have hurt you, and how they have impacted your relationship. You don’t deserve all the blame or all the guilt, and I think you might be owed an apology.

I hope things get better soon, friend. Everything will be okay, and you are supported and loved by our entire community <3

Keep on shining!
♥ Courtney

thesun.co.uk
One Direction may reunite to charity single for victims of London tower block
ONE Direction could have a mini-reunion after Simon Cowell asked all of the band to sing on his charity single for the Grenfell Tower disaster. Liam Payne and Louis Tomlinson were officially confir…

ONE Direction could have a mini-reunion after Simon Cowell asked all of the band to sing on his charity single for the Grenfell Tower disaster.

Liam Payne and Louis Tomlinson were officially confirmed to be recording lines for the celeb cover of Bridge Over Troubled Water.

Harry Styles and Niall Horan are trying to free up their schedules to take part.

The group have been on a break since early 2016, with all four members recently embarking on solo careers.

Yesterday, several music stars started the three-day recording of the record, with Paloma Faith, Craig David and James Blunt all spotted entering the West London recording studio.

More names pledged their support for the track overnight including Rita Ora, Robbie Williams, Leona Lewis and Gareth Malone.

Lily Allen, Skepta, Stormzy, James Arthur and others have already been confirmed.

A source said: “If all four [One Direction] came on board, it would be as solo acts as Liam has to record in the US.”

It comes after Paloma Faith blasted the Government for not doing enough to help victims.

The singer, who visited the devastating scene hours after the blaze took hold, said: “I don’t think £5million even touches the side.”

Weekly Reading List 21

Weekly Recommendations get posted every Thursday. All stories are character x reader unless otherwise stated. Graphic by the awesome@wonders-of-the-enterprise. This month is also Tony Stark’s Birthday. 

Avengers
Tony Stark
Tony Stark Masterlist
by @writers-square
Top of the World by @avengerofyourheart
Candy Mountain by @redgillan
Presidential 1-5,7-8 Part 6 by @kaunis-sielu (Niece!Reader

Steve Rogers
Inked by @wordshappensometimes
Pushing All My Buttons by @knittingknerdy
Talk Dirty to Me Part 6, Part 5 by @itsanerdlife
Rude by @itsanerdlife
Blind Path Home by @imamotherfuckingstar-lord
A Million Reasons by @imamotherfuckingstar-lord
Love Me Now by @redlipstickandplaid
Nancy Mulligan by @awkward-author
The Game is On by @roobiecube94
The Better Rogers by @buckyywiththegoodhair
Returning the Favor by @atari-writes
You’re Happier, Aren’t You by @girl-next-door-writes
Altar-nate Ending by @writers-square
4th of July by @avengers-fics
Babysitting by @supersoldierslover
Online Part 2 Part 3 by @bolontiku

Law and Order: SVU
Rafael Barba
Hush
, Part 2 by @8cetera
Heat of the Moment by @miamorbarba
30/90 by @ticktickbarba
Green, Green Dress by @ticktickbarba
Bad Day by @barbalyfe
Feelings by @writingdayandnight
A Chance Encounter: Unexpected Morning by @vintagemichelle91
A Chance Encounter: One Night on an Elevator by @vintagemichelle91
He’s Still Haunting Me by @evs14u
Always Mine by @rauliskafan
Impulse Buy by @locke-writes
Until the End of Time by @locke-writes
Yearning by @hiddndaydreams
Untitled by @xemopeachx
Snowed In by @xemopeachx
Terrible Threes by @xemopeachx
Drunk Confessions by @mrsrafaelbarba
Secrets Uncovered by @mrsrafaelbarba
7 months by @lt-sammi-matthews
First Fights by @svu-stories
Neighbors by @knockknockmoesuckraa
I Was Done by @evs14u

Star Trek
Jim Kirk
I’m Good by @imamotherfuckingstar-lord
The Brig by @auduna-druitt
What Is by @auduna-druitt
Designated Caretaker by @enterprisewriting
Loot Part 10 by @enterprisewriting
Bride on the Bridge by @janeykath318
Worry by @imagines-for-the-fangirls-soul
Despacito by @thevalesofanduin
Notorious by @star-trekkin-across-theuniverse
Here Kitty, Kitty by @trade-baby-blues

Leonard McCoy
Wake Up Call by @madhattervanessa
Looking Up by @trade-baby-blues
Eavesdropping by @trade-baby-blues
A Helping Hand by @trade-baby-blues
My Ninja Turtle by @trade-baby-blues
Swing and a Miss by @trade-baby-blues
The Doc with the Butterfly Tattoo by @trade-baby-blues
Worst Patient on the Enterprise by @pinkamour1588
Aviophobia by @pinkamour1588
Wedding Fluff by @janeykath318
Match Making by @janeykath318
Crescendo by @goingknowherewastaken
Unexpected Guest by @medicatemedrmccoy
Unimaginable by @kaitymccoy123
Messy Part 2 by @kaitymccoy123
Silence by @locke-writes
We’re in Love, Aren’t We by @outside-the-government
There You’ll Be by @imoutofmyvulcanmind
A Night on The Town by @all-sortsa-stuff
Into the Woods by @girl-next-door-writes
Home by @auduna-druitt
A Day of Surprises by @auduna-druitt
Pains Losses, and Gains by @musingsongbird
The Fire and the Flood by @mccoymostly
Terra Nova Part 10 by @fanscribbling
A Doctor’s Pain by @goodnightwife
Leonard’s Pants by @goodnightwife

McKirk
In Darkness Part 5 by @mccoymostly

Jim x Reader X Bones
Standing Still by @trade-baby-blues
Sunshine Boys Part 2 by @trade-baby-blues
Which of the Devils is it? by @enterprisewriting

NCIS
Tony DiNozzo
Back in Town by @all-sortsa-stuff
Something Stupid Part 5Part 6 by @itswitchcraft-not-googlemaps
Weapons Training by @spaceemonkeyyxd
Spider by @spaceemonkeyyxd

Criminal Minds
Aaron Hotchner
Blanket Fort by @crimindsaspe

Tropes
Soulmate AU
Heart Skip Part 8 by @after-avenging-hours Steve Rogers

Daddy!Character

A/B/O Dynamics

Modern AU
Chandelier by @caplanbuckybarnes
Safe Haven AU by @itsanerdlife

Misc Fandoms
A Little Lesson in Expecting by @rauliskafan and @vintagemichelle91 Rafael and Natalia
Richard Madden by @fangirlfanwritings
Not A Date by @esparzart Rafael Barba
A Day in the Life by @mrsrafaelbarba Rafael Barba
Carmen Needs Rafael’s Help by @fanfictionforsvu Rafael Barba 
Barba’s Suspension by @minidodds

Karl Urban
Interlude by @bkwrm523

Chris Evans
Disney Princess Reality by @avaalons
Going to an Aquarium by @ohevansmycaptain
Visiting Boston by @ohevansmycaptain
Finding Dodger by @ohevansmycaptain
Unexpected Reader Part 4A/4B/Part 5A/Part 5B by @ohevansmycaptain
Little Ways Away, Part 2 by @ohevansmycaptain

This list comprises two weeks worth of stories. So I probably missed some. Please forgive me. 

Weekly Reading List 10

Weekly Recommendations get posted every Thursday. All stories are character x reader unless otherwise stated. 

Star Trek
Bones
Imagine Bones talking to you and his daughter by @startrekwonderer
Breathless by @auduna-druitt
I won’t bite by @medicatemedrmccoy
For You by @imagineangryspacegrump
Red by @kaitymccoy123
Safety in Numbers by @mybullshitsensesaretingling
Being Sarcastic with Bones by @youre-on-a-starship
Sing It To Me by @kaitymccoy123
Duct Tape Kisses by @melodynightsong
An Uphill Battle by @outside-the-government          

Jim Kirk
Imagine Cheering Jim up at a Bar by @startrekwonderer
Pregnant by @nerdy-izzylightwood
Take Care of You by @mybullshitsensesaretingling
Winter Blues by @star-trekkin-across-theuniverse
Snowflakes by @imaginenterprise

JimxReaderxBones 
Into Darkest Dreams by @starshiphufflebadger

McKirk
How Is It That You Love Me So Damn Much? by This_ape_writes
‘Need” is a Strong Word by Rosa_abo (Rosawyn)

Avengers
Steve Rogers
Swing by @melodynightsong
I’m Safest at Home by @marvelandassociates
Rain Makes the Flowers Grow by @opaque-daydream
Thinking of Us by @blog-of-a-multitude-of-fandoms
Bluebird by @knittingknerdy
I Didn’t Know (Not Your Fault) by @impala666
Cold Nights by @starspangleyimagines
The Inner Monologue of Captain Rogers by @goodnightwife
Lucy by @mavengers
He Fights for by @marvelandassociates
Dirty-Minded Cap by @fvckingsteverogers
Let Me Break Your Heart by @itsanerdlife (she will step all over your heart)
Super Bowl Sunday by @itsanerdlife

Tony Stark
Untitled by @writers-square
And If I Say No? by @writers-square
“Baby Stark” by @ourpeachskies

Law and Order: SVU
Rafael Barba
Stitch by Stitch by @moresvuheadcanons
Sweet Talker by @rauliskafan
How to Stop Time by @musingsongbird
Letting Go of Tension by @xemopeachx
Find Me Guilty by @mrsrafaelbarba
Barba’s Stuble by @fanfictionforsvu
The Feeling of Audible Cracks by @carisiismyhomeboy
Homecooked by @hiddndaydreams
Untitled by @evs14u

NCIS
Dwayne Pride
Chef Pride by @lucifersagents

Tony DiNozzo
None this week 

Criminal Minds
Aaron Hotchner
Plain, White T-shirtPart 2 by @madamredwrites
Nothing Without You by @theunholygrails
All the Time by @kaunis-sielu

Tropes
Modern AU
Biscuits and Gravy by @atari-writes Bones

Daddy!Character
Toddler Shenanigans by @captainjimsexypantskirk Leonard McCoy
Jack and Cuddles by @a-court-of-stydia Aaron Hotchner
The Starks by @kaunis-sielu
Tell Him by @pixiesimagines Tony Stark
Proud Poppa by @kaunis-sielu Bucky 

A/B/O Dynamics
Love and Protected by @It-sammi-matthews John Kennex
Oil and Antiseptic by @whatif-animagineblog Scotty 

Misc Fandoms
The Text by @ohbelieveyoume Barba and Lucy
Evangelina Barba by @esparzart Rafael Barba
Make Me Forget by @amarabliss Jacob Frye
Heroes by @s-eba Bruce Wayne
Bruce Wayne Request by @fangirlfanwritings
Queen of the North by @thatoneimaginesblog Robb Stark
Home Sweet Nerf Gun by @thejamesoldier Bucky Barnes (stop writing cute bucky barnes stories)

Karl Urban
Old Money by @theunholygrails Bones x OFC
Through Good and Bad by @It-sammi-matthews John Kennex
The Siren Call by @It-sammi-matthews Black Hat
After Shift by @lurkch Bones x OC

Chris Evans (apparently I had a thing for Chris Evans this week)
Coffee Confessions by @soulful-ofevans
Whose Side Are You On by @mculove1
Quarterback Comeback by @soulful-ofevans
Halftime Show by @fvckingsteverogers
Untitled by @sleeping-inthe-shadows
A Needed Night of Romance by @avengedwritings
First Steps by @thing-you-do-with-that-thing
The Patriot’s Boy by @soulful-ofevans
Disney and a Date by @poorcap

Birthday Challenge

HERE! Obli-wan! This is for you ;;;3;;; hon, I had a really hard time with your multicolor hair but it was a lot of fun!~ Hope you like it  💙 💙 💙

@oblivion-times *smooches* love you~  💙

` ° • ✧ MARILYN MONROE PROMPTS.

❛ Fear is stupid. So are regrets. ❜
❛ It’s better to be unhappy alone than unhappy with someone - so far. ❜
❛ I am not interested in money. I just want to be wonderful. ❜
❛ If you can make a woman laugh, you can make her do anything. ❜
❛ The real lover is the man who can thrill you by kissing your forehead. ❜
❛ I restore myself when I’m alone. ❜
❛ I don’t mind living in a man’s world as long as I can be a woman in it. ❜
❛ Give a girl the right pair of shoes and she’ll conquer the world. ❜
❛ No one ever told me I was pretty when I was a little girl. ❜
❛ I am good, but not an angel. ❜
❛ I do sin, but I am not the devil. ❜
❛ I am just a small girl in a big world trying to find someone to love. ❜
❛ All little girls should be told they’re pretty, even if they aren’t. ❜
❛ When it comes down to it. I let people think what they want. ❜
❛ I already know I’m better than them. ❜
❛ If I’d observed all the rules, I’d never have got anywhere. ❜
❛ I don’t know who invented high heels, but all women owe him a lot. ❜
❛ A career is wonderful, but you can’t curl up with it on a cold night. ❜
❛ It’s not true I had nothing on, I had the radio on. ❜
❛ Success makes so many people hate you. ❜
❛ Dogs never bite me. Just humans. ❜
❛ It’s all make believe, isn’t it? ❜
❛ I’m very definitely a woman and I enjoy it. ❜
❛ I’m selfish, impatient, and a little insecure. ❜
❛ I make mistakes, I’m out of control, and at times hard to handle. ❜
❛ But if you can’t handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don’t deserve me at my best. ❜
❛ It is wonderful to have someone praise you, to be desired. ❜
❛ I am trying to find myself. Sometimes that’s not easy. ❜
❛ Millions of people live their entire lives without finding themselves. ❜
❛ The nicest thing for me is sleep, then at least I can dream. ❜
❛ A sex symbol becomes a thing. I just hate to be a thing. ❜
❛ We are all of us stars, and we deserve to twinkle. ❜
❛ You know, most people really don’t know me. ❜
❛ I enjoy acting when you really hit it right. ❜
❛ I believe everything happens for a reason. ❜
❛ Friends accept you the way you are. ❜
❛ We should all start to live before we get too old. ❜
❛ If I’m a star, then the people made me a star. ❜
❛ I am not a victim of emotional conflicts. I am human. ❜
❛ It warms you a bit, but that warmth is temporary. ❜
❛ An actress is not a machine, but they treat you like a machine. ❜ 
❛ I had never belonged to anything or anyone else. ❜
❛ I learned to walk as a baby, and I haven’t had a lesson since. ❜
❛ Sometimes I feel my whole life has been one big rejection. ❜
❛ The body is meant to be seen, not all covered up. ❜
❛ What do I wear in bed? Why, Chanel No. 5, of course. ❜
❛ The truth is, I’ve never fooled anyone. ❜
❛ Respect is one of life’s greatest treasures. ❜
❛ Someday I want to have children and give them all the love I never had. ❜
❛ I don’t feel like Spring. I feel like a warm red Autumn. ❜
❛ I wish I knew why I am so anguished. ❜
❛ Sex is a part of nature. I go along with nature. ❜
❛ I know from life one cannot love another, ever, really. ❜
❛ I’ve been on a calendar, but I’ve never been on time. ❜
❛ I have feelings too. I am still human. ❜
❛ Having a child, that’s always been my biggest fear. ❜
❛ I want a child and I fear a child. ❜
❛ I think I have always had a little humor. ❜
❛ I often wake up in the night, and I like to have something to think about. ❜
❛ I’m one of the world’s most self-conscious people. ❜

anonymous asked:

I love your Shisui headcanons! Therefore I have to ask, have you got some for Obito too? :D

💕

- Really absolutely definitely has never had a crush on Kakashi.

- No, really.

- Really.

- The stalking was unrelated god damn it Rin.

- Is Touka’s grandson on his father’s side.

- That’s where his knack for weaponry comes from.

- (The first time he picks up a naginata one of the Uchiha Elders almost wets themselves in horror. Obito is just delighted not to be tripping over his own feet for once. Kakashi is Speechless.)

- Can cook the best out of Team Minato, and tries to discretely give Rin lessons. It is less than successful.

- Accidentally-on-purpose gets into pranking wars with Kushina. 

- Minato is accidentally-on-purpose their favorite victim. 

- Totally does not have a wall of pictures starring Kakashi.

- Has absolutely definitely not been fight-flirting with that one Kiri swordsman they run into on missions sometimes. Possibly with slightly alarming frequency. 

- Damn it, Rin, he doesn’t have a crush on Kisame either okay. 

- OR KUSHINA. 

- Is totally bi af, though, that’s true. 

- Would sell Kakashi for a rusty kunai, without hesitation.

- (Would also die for him, but that’s less important.)

- Is very, very good at housework and proud of it. 

- Will punch anyone who implies that he should be ashamed of it, okay, traditional gender roles are dumb and limiting.

- Has a green thumb. Several of the Elders have taken to praying fervently under their breath whenever they see him working in his garden. He’s pretty sure one of them explicitly said don’t let it be Mokuton please gods but that’s ridiculous.

- Only it’s not, apparently. Whoops. One accident in Orochimaru’s lab and look what happened. 

- Got drunk-married to the headman of Ame once, that was fun. He and Yahiko still write to each other at least once a week, and Obito swings by whenever he’s in the area so they can play up being married. 

- (Nagato, Konan, Kisame, and Kakashi are all Unamused.)

- (It’s hilarious.)

One Direction could REUNITE to join stars recording charity single for victims of the fire at London’s Grenfell Tower

ONE Direction could have a mini-reunion after Simon Cowell asked all of the band to sing on his charity single for the Grenfell Tower disaster.

Liam Payne and Louis Tomlinson were officially confirmed to be recording lines for the celeb cover of Bridge Over Troubled Water.

Harry Styles and Niall Horan are trying to free up their schedules to take part.

The group have been on a break since early 2016, with all four members recently embarking on solo careers.

Read more at The Sun

June 9

Surprise! :D

Lauren was at the TODAY Show with Halsey!

They performed Strangers as part of Halsey’s set.

ICYMI, here’s the entire performance!


Lauren looked AND sounded incredible!

She was super grateful for the opportunity!

Selfies!

We have the following people to thank for Lauren’s stunning outfit and makeup today:

A post shared by laurenjauregui (@laurenjauregui) on Jun 9, 2017 at 8:05am PDT

How special was it for Lauren to perform a song which celebrates same sex love on Pride Month?!


Lauren flew to Miami right after performing to be with her girls!

They were at the iHeart Summer Weekend.

As usual, Lauren is the victim of Dinah’s pranks. LOL.

Leo’s the star now!


Dinah, girl!


A lucky fan had the experience of a lifetime with the girls!

Of course, it would not be complete without a Fifth Harmony performance.


Lauren gave a huge shout out to their all-girl, POC band!

Lauren was tired from today but that didn’t stop her from giving her all performing!

Speaking of tired, Normani’ was tired after today’s activities, and Dinah, wanting to go out… got this response:

Chicken.


Ally’s ecstatic over the response to Look At Us Now!

The lyric video of Look At Us Now is out!


Ally also showed some love for Lauren’s performance today! <3

This sisterhood!

Here for this!

Dinah also showed Lauren and Ally some love for their solo endeavors!!!

Again, we’re here for this show of love:

Keep reading

Weekly Reading List 18

Weekly Recommendations get posted every Thursday. All stories are character x reader unless otherwise stated. Graphic by the awesome@wonders-of-the-enterprise

Law and Order: SVU
Rafael Barba
Stripulation by @regrettablewritings
Surprise Testimony by @mrsrafaelbarba
Barba’s Co-Counsel by @mrsrafaelbarba
Sweet Disaster by @miamorbarba
Lasting First Impression by @miamorbarba

Star Trek
Jim Kirk
Leaving is Hard to Do by @enterprisewriting
Loot Part 6,  Part 7 by @enterprisewriting
SOS by @kaitymccoy123
Jim Loving You Without Conditions by @star-trekkin-across-theuniverse
Little Red by @fascinatingfantrash
Birthday Drabble by @thevalesofanduin
The One Part 9 by @imamotherfuckingstar-lord

Leonard McCoy
Amazed by @musingsongbird
Something Just Like This by @wonders-of-the-enterprise
The Zoo by @trade-baby-blues 
Happy Birthday by @medicatemedrmccoy
Untitled by @arrowsshootyouforwards NSFW
There You’ll Be Part 5 by @imoutofmyvulcanmind
Fear Inside Me by @kimmiearrington89
Better Hands by @writingwithadinosaur

McKirk
It Started with Scrap Metal by @thevalesofanduin McSpirk
Recovery by @imoutofmyvulcanmind
Waking Up in Vegas by @randomlittleimp
Morning Surprise by @medicatemedrmccoy
Different by @thesoundofnat

Jim x Reader x Leonard
Bright Ideas by @atari-writes
Shore Leave: Beyond, Epilogue by @imamotherfuckingstar-lord

Avengers
Steve Rogers
That Goddamn Stealth Suit by @atari-writes NSFW
Traveling Solider by @atari-writes
Cuddling by @a-confused-turtle
The Idea by @sarahwroteathing
That Connection Part 6 by @itsanerdlife
Talk to Dirty to Me by @itsanerdlife
Asking For It by @itsanerdlife
Cool Down by @iwillbeinmynest
Talk to Me by @captain-purpledino
No One Else by @bovaria NSFW
Coming Home to Steve by @imamotherfuckingstar-lord
I Don’t Want to Fight the World the Alone by @editableunderpants NSFW
Untitled by @jxmsbuchxn
By Accident by @amarvelouswritings
Dancin Away With My Heart by @lt-sammi-matthews
The One With the Trust Issues by @redlipstickandplaid
No One Else by @bovaria

Tony Stark
Vegas, 1994 by @imamotherfuckingstar-lord
Bruises Part 9 by @justareader

NCIS
Tony DiNozzo
Photos & Stakeouts by @spaceemonkeyyxd
Snoring Tony by @spaceemonkeyyxd
Running Late by @spaceemonkeyyxd
A Familiar Scene by @itswitchcraft-not-googlemaps

Criminal Minds
Aaron Hotchner
Hotch Getting Protective When Someone Hits On You by @silentwaters4

Tropes
Soulmate AU
Broken Hearted: The Choice, The Escape by @goodnightwife
Heart Skip Part 5 by @after-avenging-hours

Daddy!Character
I’m Standing Right Here by @imagine-assembling-the-avengers Tony Stark
Seeing Double by @trade-baby-blues Jim Kirk
Princess Pink by @promarvelfangirl

Modern AU
Crawford Part 4, Part 5, Part 6, Part 7, Part 8, Part 9 by @imaginestartrek Leonard McCoy

Misc Fandoms
A Hard Lesson in Valiance by @rauliskafan and @vintagemichelle91 Rafael x Natalia
Saving Date Night by @of-badges-and-guns Jason Bull
Remodeled Home by @fanfictionforsvu Rafael x Sophia
Do You Want to Talk About Your Childhood? by @fanfictionforsvu Rafael x Samuel
Are You Okay by @fanfictionforsvu Rafael x Samuel 
Your’s and Jamie’s Wedding Day by @svubloods Jamie Reagan 

Karl Urban
The Steward by @randomlittleimp Leonard x OFC

Chris Evans
Beard & Glasses & Pushed Back Hair by @avaalons
Chris Turning the Tables on You by @ohevansmycaptain
Chris Fulfilling His Promise by @ohevansmycaptain
Chris Stealing Your Favorite Sweater by @ohevansmycaptain
Chris Sending You Off at the Airport by @ohevansmycaptain

Birthday Challenge

Star Trek Fairytale AU

My Requests 

tags: @thelawschooldiva

Raúl Esparza Art Masterlist

Law & Order: SVU

Behind the scenes of SVU

Law & Order

Hannibal

Trouble in the Heights

Custody

Pushing Daisies

Tick, Tick … Boom!

Leap of Faith

Company

Taboo

Arcadia

Cabaret

Chitty Chitty Bang Bang

Sunday in the Park with George

Rocky Horror Show

Anyone Can Whistle

Raúl Esparza

Others

My friends, I finally decided to make a masterpost for my Raúl Esparza and Broadway drawings. This post shows my development as an artis, since I came over here from the Fassbender fandom. It contains old and new ones, as well as good and bad. I thought of deleting the bad ones first, but then I realized, that they are also an important part of my journey, so I kept them. Yet there are a few I left out on purpose, but they weren’t important anyway. I hope you find joy in this post and I wanna thank all my friends in the Raúl Esparza fandom, who always support me and are there whenever I need them. I love to draw for each and everyone of you! :-*

PS: Please excuse any typos. I can’t believe I’ve made so many drawings by now!!

Fanfiction - A Lifetime of Her (Part III)

Part III – “You don’t know how lovely you are”

Twenty-four

The night was unusually dark, even for the end of September – the scarce light of public illumination swallowed by scraps of mist, like cold long fingers, stretching to capture an unwary victim. But the lack of visible stars caused me more dismay – the feeling of infinity I usually felt gazing above my head, of endless life beyond the flapping of butterflies’ wings of human existence, veiled beyond my reach. I felt small and locked outside of a mystery that made my life more meaningful.

I was walking fast across Princes Street, my hands buried on the pockets of my overcoat, thinking about the job interview I had endured that day – a promising position as a Math teacher for a local high school, very surprising considering my lack of experience and the fact that I was fresh out of college. The headmistress had seemed pleasant and competent, interested in knowing things about my personal life as well as my academic course – inevitably she had asked why I had took almost an entire year off school, four years ago. I had answered truthfully, reassuring her about my full recovery.

To my right I could see the Gardens and the outline of the Scottish National Gallery, one of my favourite places in Edinburgh to relax and spend some free time. Without a second thought, I decided to make a shortcut across the park, which would lead me straight to the neighbourhood where I had rented a small, yet cosy, apartment.

I saw her before I could even hear her – she was standing alone, talking on the phone, close to the museum entrance. She was wearing a long black dress with sleeves, which fitted perfectly her mesmerizing body, kissing her curves with fabric lips – her hair pinned up in a simple but elegant knot. She sounded distressed and – I thought – angry enough to make me want to run in the other direction. I recognized her instantly, even in such different circumstances than those of our last encounter – Claire.

I walked – levitated, really – towards her, without any notion of why I was doing it. Perhaps I meant to thank her for what she had done in the past. Maybe I was fascinated by the idea that, for once, I could be her saviour. She was clearly dressed for an elegant party – as I approached the building, I noticed several people in similar clothing, probably heading for some sort of gala inside.

I could hear her talking more clearly, her voice quick and deadly, like the stab of a dagger. “Fine!” She snapped, suddenly finishing her conversation. Claire looked at her phone with aversion, like she was considering the idea of throwing it to the nearby bushes.

I was near enough for her to notice my presence – without recognizing me, she quickly composed her expression and looked at her phone with pretended interest, fearing any unwanted advances from a strange man in the night.

“Claire?” I called her, as I reached the circle of light streamed through the museum’s doors. Her eyes jumped to mine and softened, as she promptly identified me.

“Jamie!” She greeted me, smiling – her lips were a soft pink with the touch of discrete lipstick. “How are you?”

“Good.” I grinned back – a gesture that almost entirely faded away as I noticed the ring on her finger. It was a sizable diamond, shining like a beacon made of crystal, outrageously dominant on her slender finger. An engagement ring.  “I couldna resist, coming to say hello.”

“It’s so good to see you!” Claire seemed honestly happy and warm – a million miles away from the cold glacier of moments before. “Are you coming to the charity gala too?”

“Ach, nae.” I gave her a lopsided smile and raised my brow. “Is that why ye’re here?”

“Yes.” She shrugged, sliding her phone inside her black satin clutch. “I was waiting for my fiancé but it seems he is…rather busy at the moment. He won’t be coming.”

“I’m sorry to hear that.” I said softly, trying to abstract myself of how magnificent she looked – dark as the night, but with millions of stars inside her. “I’m sure ye’ll have a lovely time, nonetheless.”

“I doubt that.” She replied, somewhat conspiratorially. “This night was organized by a friend of my uncle – he was kind enough to invite me in honour of his memory. Actually, I don’t know a living soul inside those doors.” Claire’s eyes darkened, sadness creeping in. “Maybe I’ll just go home and send him my apologies afterwards.”

“No!” I instantly rejected the idea. “Perhaps I could go with ye?” I suggested in a cool tone, praying that I wasn’t about to blush. I pointed to my black attire, matched with a grey tie. “I’m wearing a suit after all.”

“That you are.” She smiled, with a hint of mischief in her eyes. “Do you really don’t mind?” Claire asked, nervously adjusting a stubborn curl that had fled her hairdo. “We could just pretend you’re my fiancé. No one really knows Frank, either way.”

“Of course, lass.” I mockingly offered her my arm for her to hold. “Shall we?”

We entered the party, quickly mingling with the crowd – an assorted array of wealthy men and women, with a taste for art and philanthropy - or for ostentation. Soon enough we had located the canapé and champagne flutes, launching ourselves in a conversation about the artistry on display – or lack of it.

“So, are you fully recovered?” Claire eventually asked me over the live jazz music, that a small band was playing in the corner, a saxophone crying about the loss of an imperfect lover.

“Aye.” I nodded, offering her one of my owlish winks. “I’m so verra thankful for what ye did for me – I…”

“Don’t be silly!” She dismissed emphatically, waving her hand. “I should be the one to thank you!” And seeing my puzzled look, she leaned over and talked closer to my ear. “After what you told me, I went ahead and applied to medical school. I work some shifts as a nurse to pay my bills, but I’m a proud med student!”

“That is wonderful!” I congratulated her, squeezing her hand – soft and capable, warm under my fingers as a pulsing heart. “I’m so glad!”

I convinced her to dance, afterwards. She conceded with an amused smile. We swayed together, amongst other couples – I wasn’t an eager dancer and had no memory of a time when the idea of dancing had seemed appealing to me. But with Claire everything was natural and effortless – every move and word had the magical quality of destiny, of a life finally fulfilled. I tried very hard to overlook the shackles symbolized by her ring, the deafening warning of a tragedy I was powerless to avoid. She had wilfully surrender to the dragon – I couldn’t be her saving knight.

“So what happened to yer fiancé?” I asked tentatively, my hand struggling not to caress her lower back. God, it seemed so easy to touch her, to hold her against me. “Ye seemed distraught.”

“He had a meeting with another faculty assistant.” She pursed her lips in discontent, her eyes avoiding his – hiding her pain and shame. “Something about a spectacular discovery in his newest research.”

“Oh.” I babbled, trying to sound charitable. “Have ye been engaged for a long time?”

“A couple of months.” Claire sighed, her fingers accidentally brushing the back of my neck and making me shiver, preparing to confess her secrets under the protection of the music around us. “Actually, he has been invited to go to America to teach – and asked me to go with him.”

“And will ye?” I asked, almost breathless – pushing down the sudden feeling of panic, like a dark wave that threatened to swallow the skyscrapers of my soul. “Go with him?”

“I honestly don’t know.” She admitted slowly, wincing a little. “But I accepted his proposal so…I should want to go with him, shouldn’t I?”

“I dinna ken much about serious relationships.” I said in a hoarse voice. “But I dinna understand how a man can leave a woman like ye, alone, in such a night. I dinna ken how anything can be more important than being with ye.”

“It’s complicated!” She tried to argue, but her voice lacked the vigour of certainty. “He has to work a lot to get recognized. Sometimes he has to let go of superfluous things, as much as I –“

“Dinna say that!” My voice was a deep rumble, suddenly stripped of all civility. “Ye should be the priority in his life, lass. Ye are a wonderful woman.” I gulped. “Any man deserving of being with ye, should give ye the place ye deserve in his life. Never settle for less, Claire.”

She nodded, looking away to hide the sudden threat of tears. Eventually, her body relaxed and her cheek came to rest in the lapel of my blazer, silently thanking me for my support. I could feel the small movements of her lashes, the hot breath of her life so close to my heart – I never felt more alive, nor more defeated.

We talked and danced the night away – I made her twirl and laugh, until her face was less pale, more like the lively girl in the graveyard, so alive amongst my ghosts.

At the end of the night, I escorted her to a taxi – not daring to offer her my company to her doorway. I feared what the intoxicating mixture of her and the champagne might conjure up.

She smiled – skilfully tucking something inside the pocket of my overcoat – and stood on her toes to kiss my cheek in a tender goodbye. Later, feeling less overwhelmed by the lack of stars, I read her note – “In case you need it. XO”. She had added a phone number underneath the short sentence and a funny smiley face, with abundant curly hair.

I kept her note under my pillow for the next few weeks – a silent dare, urging me to take a leap of faith. I was convinced that my path was fundamentally entwined with Claire’s – it had to be a reason for the insistency of life to place her in my way. She lured me in – fascinated me.

I must have grabbed the phone, adamant on calling her, half a dozen times. Started to dial her phone number – by then carved on my brain with luminescent red ink of desire – at least a dozen more. I mentally prepared our conversation – tried different variations of casualness, honesty and tenderness. I laid awake at night, gazing at the phone, ominous and teasing.

Iffrin!” I desperately reprehended myself one night, almost a month after the gala. I clenched my teeth, breathed deeply several times, and made the call – prepared to invite her for innocent coffee.

“The number you are trying to reach has been disconnected or is no longer in service.” – said the mechanical and metallic voice that took me back to a place with no stars.

Weekly Reading List 12

Weekly Recommendations get posted every Thursday. All stories are character x reader unless otherwise stated.

Notes: I don’t generally put more than one part to a story but the ones that have multiple parts happened this week. 

Star Trek
Bones
Falling in Love With Bones by @imaginestartrek
Completed Souls by @trekken81
Enterprise Crew Goes to the Zoo by @littlecarowrites
Pleasure to Meet You, Part 2 by @residentevilfleet
Relief by @madhattervanessa
Duty of Care by @blueblobb
Imagine Getting Stuck in the Mirror!verse by @youre-on-a-starship
In Dreams by @star-trekkin-across-theuniverse​ NSFW
Terrible Ideas by @juststarfleetthings
Terra Nova, Part 2 by @fanscribbling
I Only Miss You When I am Breathin by @kaitymccoy123
Cuddle Party by @arrowsshootyouforwards
Bones Knowing Your Heart by @imaginestartrek

Jim Kirk
Jim Finding Out Your Pregnant by @babe-with-thepower
Hacker Kirk by @fandomheadrush
May We All by @atari-writes
Hopelessly Hopeful by @trekken81
Shape of You by @atari-writes
Imagine Jim Saving You From the Mirror!verse by @youre-on-a-starship
All I Ask of You by @whatif-animagineblog

McKirk
From Your Fences Part 3 by @mccoymostly

Avengers
Steve Rogers
Nightmare by @vibranium-ass
Untitled by @gruzovoy-vagon
The Way Their Fights End by @goodnightwife
Valentine’s Day Mini Matchmaker by @avengerofyourheart
Absolution by @sebastianstandoffish
Imagine Saving Steve From an Awkward Situation by @sharonisantisocialimagines
Make It Up To Me by @unabashedcandymaker
Scared to Be Lonely by @nikky-the-writer
Strip by @this-ginger-has-no-soul
Musing by @theunholygrails
Mr. President by @vibranium-ass NSFW
Civvies by @after-avenging-hours
The C Word by @itsanerdlife
Baby Come Home Deleted Scenes by @itsanerdlife Updated
Retirement by @imamotherfuckingstar-lord

Tony Stark
Sleepless Nights by @redlipstickandplaid
Forgetting Maya Hensen by @dblukauskis
Dark Bloom (For A Moment, I Was Lost) by @hellomissmabel

Law and Order: SVU
Rafael Barba
Just Say You Won’t Let Go by @moresvuheadcanons
The First Move Happy Ending by @mrsrafaelbarba
Late Night Whispers by @musingsongbird
Did I Stutter by @mrsrafaelbarba
Coax, Part 2 by @hiddndaydreams
Untitled by @moresvuheadcanons
Prosecution Rests by @mrsrafaelbarba
A Frosty Silence by @mrsrafaelbarba
Lights Will Guide You Home by @thatgirlwhosalwayssinging
Peace of Mind by @ohbelieveyoume

NCIS
Dwayne Pride
The Chase by @traceyaudette
Oh Honey by @lucifersagents

Criminal Minds
Aaron Hotchner
Drunken Cuddles, Part 2 by @crimindsaspe
Missed Me by @crimindsaspe
Happily Ever After by @axstheticminds
Scars by @traceyaudette
Peppermint by @kaunis-sielu

Tropes
Soulmate AU
The Meet Cute by @redlipstickandplaid​ Tony Stark
House by @assembledavengersimagines Steve Rogers

Daddy!Character
Sleepy by @chrisevans-imagines Chris Evans
Dad & Daughter by @theimpossibleg1rl​ Chris Evans

A/B/O Dynamics
Breaking Tony by AvocadoLove Stony
The Natural Order by @outside-the-government  Leonard McCoy NSFW

Misc Fandoms
Captain’s Log by @trekken81 Jim Kirk 
Lion on Ice by @meganlpie Robb Stark x Reader 
Make Her a Stark by @littlemisscaptainfandom Robb Stark x Reader
Colita De Rana by @esparzart Rafael Barba x Victoria

Karl Urban
Respect Authorities by @It-sammi-matthews John Kennex

Chris Evans
Imagine Chris sending you on a scavenger hunt, Part 3, Part 4, Part 5 by @ohevansmycaptain
My Valentine by @chrisevans-th NSFW
Art on the Wall by @chrisevans-th​ NSFW
Chris Comes Home For Your Birthday by @ohevansmycaptain
I’m A Lucky Guy by @theimpossibleg1rl
Little Girl by @avasparks NSFW
Unruhestifter by @travelwithwords

Birthday Challenge Updated

Star Trek Fairytale AU Updated

My Requests Updated

tags: @thelawschooldiva @annalisehartmann 

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Friends of Manchester bombing victim Martyn Hett are selling a T-shirt to honor his life — and wit

  • Friends of Martyn Hett, a victim of the Manchester bombing and social media star, have decided to pay tribute to his life — and sense of humor — with a touching T-shirt.
  • Over on GoFundMe, Hett’s friend Philip Normal is selling a T-shirt for 25 British pounds, with 20 pounds going towards Hett’s family or a charity of their choosing.
  • “Following a cry from social media that we produce it as a t-shirt, we thought it would be a fitting tribute to offer this design, with all profit going to Martyn’s family or a charity, organization or project of their choice,” Normal wrote on the GoFundMe page. Read more (5/31/17)

Do you know what I really, really want to see in the next Star Wars?

I want Finn, a ranking member in the Resistance, fighting with Poe and using his knowledge of the First Order to fight back against them. And then, maybe on a mission early in the movie, while he’s running from blaster fire and pursuit, he rounds a corner and comes face-to-face with a single Stormtrooper. 

The trooper has him dead to rights. There’s no way Finn can raise his blaster in time. So he stares into the blank, emotionless helmet and waits for the shot.

Except. Nothing happens. The trooper is perfectly still, sights trained on Finn, until- after a long, tense wait of- they slowly lower their blaster. 

The Signs and Endings II:

Aries: Lethal augmented reality video game like one of those 80s movies.

Taurus: Accidental self-decapitation whilst showing your friends your cool new halberd.

Gemini: A series of events leading up to someone going on a quest to smite you. You will be smote.

Cancer: You don’t remember what happened, but you find yourself among twisted trees.

Leo: You didn’t read the warning label on the new blender and died a horrific finely pureed end.

Virgo: You tried talking to it.

Libra: Lead poisioning. Wait, hang on there’s a typo. The stars really said bread poisioning.

Scorpio: A rare victim of what is now known as “turbo smallpox”.

Ophiuchus: Overdose of vaccine autism. Just kidding, you get beaten with a rock. A rock!

Sagittarius: Reverse necromancy.

Capricorn: A drive by given the wrong address.

Aquarius: Someone fucked your brains out. You spent three years in a vegetative state before your family pulled the plug.

Pisces: Peacefully, on a train to somewhere new.