a question of upbringing


We know why no one was killed and why all the skaters lived to tell the story. We know why this is not plastered all over the news and their upbringing is not being questioned or whether they had a father at home. We know why they’re not being called thugs or animals. We know why some are allowed to voice their outrage while others are silenced…… Ok I see, it’s a bunch of white people… no need to panic and hurt anyone. Double standard ass shit. We can’t have a block party or barbecue, even a pool party, without the police coming in, breaking it up hurting people and taking some people to jail.

Realtalk though, even if Sirius hadn’t taken the fall for the Potters’ deaths, I doubt he would have been given the opportunity to raise Harry. To suggest that he would have requires that we ignore that:

  • Albus Dumbledore was essentially a law unto himself within the wizarding world at the time - for all that he tried to avoid appearing, even to himself, to be seeking power, Dumbledore was one of the most significant political figures in Wizarding Britain and, indeed, Wizarding Europe at the time. In addition to controlling the education of the vast majority of wizards and witches in the British Isles for nearly half a century, he also holds leadership positions in both the Wizengamot and the International Confederation of Wizards for Harry’s entire childhood. It took turning the Minister for Magic against him to even start to erode his power base, and even then, there was a significant majority [edit, because I can’t type apparently:] minority both within the Ministry and in the general populace that remained loyal to Albus Dumbledore over Fudge and his administration. Although it’s most explicitly tied to Slytherin ideals of ambition, there’s an almost feudal factionalism that’s present throughout wizarding British society, and no one seems to have questioned Dumbledore’s right to sponsor an organization like the Order of the Phoenix until he fell thoroughly out of favor with the Ministry. In the aftermath of Voldemort’s first fall, it probably would have been political and social suicide for anyone to question Albus Dumbledore’s right to make choices as to the upbringing of the orphaned child of two of his proteges.
  • Petunia’s status as Harry’s closest blood relative was magically significant, but probably not legally significant - if Dumbledore hadn’t unilaterally decided who got to raise Harry, can you really see any British Wizarding authority favoring the muggle relatives of a wizarding child born into a wizarding family in a custody case? Especially muggle relatives that didn’t want the kid in the first place? Harry was sent to the Dursleys entirely because of the protective blood magic that Lily worked with her death, and Dumbledore clearly overrode whatever the usual process of finding a guardian would have been in order to ensure Harry got that protection. This wasn’t a compromise or a backup plan for if another guardian wasn’t available. If Dumbledore had wished Harry to be raised within the wizarding world, he would have had no trouble finding a guardian that suited his needs. James was a pureblood; Harry is probably related within a few generations to a third of wizarding Britain. For that matter, if he hadn’t had reason to give Harry to someone else, it would have been very much Dumbledore’s style to decide to raise him himself.
  • Dumbledore doesn’t actually seem to like Sirius - he never goes so far as to badmouth the man to Harry, probably because shittalking Sirius would run contrary to his carefully cultivated image of being Wise and Fair and Above Such Pettiness. But Dumbledore seems to be frequently irritated with Sirius and clearly has little concern for his physical or emotional wellbeing, even when they’re nominally allies. Dumbledore couldn’t be bothered to find Sirius accommodations less actively traumatic than Grimmauld Place when Sirius was almost entirely dependent on Dumbledore and the rest of the Order. Would he have honored Sirius’s claim as Harry’s godfather, without really significant outside pressure? Would Sirius have been able to get backup from anyone Dumbledore would actually have listened to? Who’s going to win that battle - a probably-unemployed 21-year-old who has explosively burned bridges with his wealthy and influential family, or the man who is essentially the uncrowned king of magical Britain?

I propose instead: Sirius fails to get custody of Harry, who is sent off to his aunt and uncle as per canon. Sirius then proceeds to do an end-run around Dumbledore, instead focusing his not-inconsiderable charisma on getting into Arabella Figg’s good graces and, from there, insinuating himself into the Dursleys’ social circles. Probably this involves some intensive cramming to catch up on years of muggle studies he may or may not have actually taken but almost certainly didn’t pay attention to at Hogwarts. Depending on how much attention Petunia paid to Lily’s social life, Sirius may need to avoid her and interact only with Vernon; I have little doubt Sirius could pull this off, nor do I think Vernon would necessarily find this suspicious.

Harry grows up with occasional but reliable contact with an adult who tells him he’s neither crazy nor at fault when he starts having magical outbursts, takes an interest in his life, and also sometimes turns into a fluffy doggy when none of the other grown-ups are looking.

Vernon Dursley is utterly outraged when Mr. Black, who up to ‘till now has always seemed perfectly respectable and urbane, intercepts the third owl that tries to bring Harry his acceptance letter and hand delivers it to the kid, who is not actually surprised because Sirius has been teaching him about wizarding culture on the sly since he was like seven.

Who is Polaris?

(Ch. 129 Spoilers ahead!) So now we know that Sirius is real!Ciel (AKA our!Ciel’s twin, apparently back from the dead), that leaves the next question: who is Polaris and what is his connection to Sirius/real!Ciel?

I’m about to propose a super bizarre crack theory. Tagging @shinigami-mistress because only you will appreciate the light in the darkness that is this crack theory.

Disclaimer: I don’t think this will happen and I don’t really want this to happen either. If this theory actually comes true, I, dorkshadows, will personally swallow a copy of the Kuro manga.

During Agni’s fight with Polaris, he mentions this:

And notice Polaris’ fighting style. It’s almost like he’s holding a sword, and that doesn’t look like any fencing style…

So Polaris has incredible strength and speed, was able to sneak up on Agni, and is able to fight on par with Agni. Someone else made similar comments in the Green Witch arc:

That’s right! I’m proposing Lord Polaris is none other than:

Tanaka! Fast enough to slice bullets, strong enough to do so, and silent enough to get away with it. Now for a note of context: Besides Count Cain, Kuro has also been compared with Hellsing. Walter C. Dornez was essentially the Tanaka-character: elderly, badass gentleman butler who raised the hardened protagonist from childhood. Until the final arc, where Walter turned out to be a traitor that sold everyone out to regain his youth via science and was secretly working against them from the start.

Now, we know the Blue Sect is very advanced in technology, enough to cure rare blood diseases and literally bring real!Ciel back from the dead. And we did get this moment from ch. 103:

Yana lingers on Tanaka’s age and never brings it up again in that arc. Maybe because we’re going to see the difference in this arc. Tanaka is already this strong as an old man, imagine how unstoppable he’d be as a young man (but with all the experience of age + whatever other benefits he got from the Blue Sect mastermind).

And let’s not forget that Polaris is a butler whose speech is comparable to the way Tanaka talks:

Tanaka was the one who told Sebastian a butler can’t die before the master, and since he already “failed” Vincent in his mind, why wouldn’t he jump at the chance to save both of Vincent’s sons? And if we look through the manga, Tanaka’s the servant who’s mostly in the background- he can disappear and appear as he pleases without anyone noticing.

Ciel trusts him, Sebastian trusts him, everyone trusts/respects him. And he was a vital part of Vincent’s upbringing, which begs the question of whether or not Tanaka really is a good person. But regardless of his morality, we do know Tanaka is loyal.

And last piece of evidence for this crack theory:

The gang’s all here… except Tanaka. And unless real!Ciel walked home by himself, someone had to have brought him to the manor- it could be Bravat, of course, but there’s nothing saying it couldn’t be Tanaka.

TLDR; Polaris is Tanaka, who became young through Blue sect tech. and he’s so loyal to the Phantomhives that he genuinely thinks reuniting the twins is good for the family, and he’s willing to do anything to get it done. 

They met at a dog park.

Which is weird in and of itself because a) Dean hates driving dogs in his baby; b) it’s not even his dog; and c) He’s still pissed at Sam for skipping out on him and their dad only to come back with a dog sized golden retriever he named Bones of all things. Jesus, Sam, you’d think you’re have a little more imagination considering you hid from one of the best damn trackers for two weeks only to name a dog after something we see every day. 

Dean sighed to himself. All that and he still has somehow found himself on pooch duty in some dog park in the middle of Illinois of all things. 

“He is limping.” Dean turned to the sound of a gruff voice coming from right behind in. 

“Yeah well, he’s old.” His comeback was coming out before he got a good look at the guy he was talking to. 

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In this shadow work challenge, we will be exploring our past and delving into some of the core experiences that have helped create and reinforce our shadows. Please keep in mind that shadow work is a highly individual process and there is simply no way I could ever devise any sort of curriculum that yields impeccable results for everyone. It is up to you to give this challenge true substance. This is not a set of step-by-step instructions or specified exercises, but a collection of interrelated subjects that form a generic basis for shadow work that you will [hopefully] be able to build off of. 

The prompts included were designed to be responded to in one (or all) of the following ways: journaling, creative expression, or tarot reading. I recommend journaling and/or creative expression as the basis with tarot as a supplement, but it can serve as a stand alone tarot evaluation as well (which is why I created this Tree of Life Spread). Whatever works for you, go for it! This challenge is only meant to get your mind reeling, and as you will see it’s pretty cut and dry, so I encourage you to use it as you please– get creative and allow it to evolve as you go. 

If you feel comfortable doing so, please share your work and tag “january shadow work challenge”. I for one would love to see it, and I’m sure those who are trying to get their foot in the door with shadow work would appreciate some reference material. In any case, I thank all for participating and as always I welcome public or private feedback! 

(P.S. I did not get to work on/edit this as thoroughly as I would have liked, so please forgive me for any errors or sloppy writing in general! Also, feel free to shoot me an ask if you have any questions. Best Wishes and Happy New Year!)

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Rebirth of the “Son”: the art of Kylo Ren’s redemption

Many would say that The Force Awakens has a rather ambiguous conclusion, leaving the future of its main characters and storyline very open for debate. However, by analyzing the text — or in this case, the film — we can discover potentially eye-opening clues about the future of the Trilogy, particularly in regards to one plot-point: Kylo Ren’s redemption arc.

This meta will focus on deconstructing The Force Awakens by analyzing characterization (behaviour and dialogue) and foreshadowing and symbolism found in The Force Awakens. It will not discuss how he will be redeemed in detail, just the myriad of suggestions that we were left with.

Part 1: Characterization

This first part will deal mainly with deconstructing Kylo Ren’s characterization in the simplest possible manner. I will be analyzing his behaviour and dialogue in the context of the entire movie. Why? Because we must acknowledge every scene and every action in order to give reason to even one.

But first, let’s get a starting definition. Most people would know what “characterization” is, even if they don’t know it by name. The basic deconstruction of characterization is taught in high schools around the world. I’m sure we can all remember reading Shakespeare’s Romeo & Juliet or Steinbeck’s Of Mice and Men as a class and discussing the characters in an academic setting.

A quick refresher:

Characterization is the concept of creating characters for a narrative. […] Characters are presented by means of description, through their actions, speech, thoughts and interactions with other characters.

Characterization is broken down two separate sections: direct characterization and indirect characterization.

Direct characterization involves the author telling us what a character is like. This is generally done through descriptions, or by the characters themselves. Imagine a character saying or thinking that they “like the beach”. This would be an example of direct characterization.

Indirect characterization must be inferred by the audience by interpreting a character’s dialogue, mannerisms, thoughts, actions and interactions with other characters. Imagine a character walking barefoot along a beach, staring wistfully at the water. We can easily infer that this character “likes the beach” without having the character actually make any kind of statement.

This first section of the meta will deconstruct Kylo Ren’s direct and indirect characterization.


We must first start by summarizing Kylo Ren’s background.

“Apparently the awakening was not just for Rey, but Kylo as well. Adam Driver spoke about Kylo and his motivations. Driver said that the character was mainly motivated by the feelings of abandonment from his family.”

“Abrams also added some backstory saying that Han couldn’t stay in one place and that Leia couldn’t stop fighting. His nature as a rogue and her nature as a freedom fighter clashed. Against that backdrop, Snoke targeted Kylo because of his powers and potential. The implication was that in the absence of solid parenting, Kylo Ren emerged.”

— “Secrets of the Force Awakens” Documentary

As we all know, Kylo Ren—once Ben Solo—is the fallen son of Han Solo and Leia Organa. He was seduced to the Dark Side by Supreme Leader Snoke after he was sent to train with his uncle Luke Skywalker. Snoke viewed the young Ben Solo as the perfect focal point of the Light and Dark Sides of the Force. He was being twisted and manipulated from the shadows since childhood, but it appears as though he managed to stave off complete seduction until he was a young adult, at which point something happened. He gave in to Snoke, turned to the Dark Side and left his family in ruins.

However, he was never able to completely extinguish the Light from which he was born.

It would not be unfair to suggest that Kylo Ren is currently the most important character in the Star Wars universe. He has a direct blood relation to almost every previous main character, his betrayal tore apart the Original Trilogy heroes, and he connects every player in the Sequel Trilogy together: the fallen son to Han and Leia, the ex-apprentice and nephew to Luke, the pawn to Snoke, the Knight of Ren, the anti-villain to Rey’s hero, the man who killed Han and left Finn in a coma, and whom Rey scarred with his grandfather’s saber when she almost crossed the threshold to the Dark Side. Rey went from defeating Ren with his legacy saber to hugging Ren’s mother to boarding Ren’s legacy ship to finding Ren’s uncle, who exiled himself because of Ren. It all comes back to one character: Ben Solo.

You must remember who Kylo Ren is and what franchise we’re dealing with in order to even hope to make accurate predictions. Star Wars is first and foremost an optimistic, idealistic coming-of-age fantasy directed toward children. It presents core messages of family, love, friendship, redemption and hope.


Kylo Ren’s garbs in The Force Awakens serve the purpose of imparting vital indirect characterization. He is swamped in black clothing that covers even his face, hands and neck, leaving not even an inch of skin showing. This immediately conveys to the audience that he has something to “hide”, despite the fact that we eventually discover that he is an average human man. He could even be described as shameful, unprepared to place himself in a position of vulnerability, quite literally playing dress-up in his grandfather’s attire.

Kylo’s garments also plainly echo the real-life historic Knights Templar, which certainly begs a few questions about Ren’s upbringing with and indoctrination by Snoke. Alas, this is not the meta for that discussion, but I will leave you with this quote referring to the vows knights had to make in order to be accepted into the order, two of which I find particularly telling with regards to my own personal interpretation of the character.

“Full members of the order took the standard monastic vows of poverty, chastity and obedience.”

Like his fellow character trinity members Rey and Finn, Kylo portrays many qualities that can be attributed to children, particularly young children. He is incapable of controlling his emotions, presenting a seemingly collected demeanor only in the film’s introductory sequence. He doesn’t seem to have a firm grasp on complex human emotion, perhaps because he was never given a proper outlet to explore his more innate feelings, or because Snoke simply did not allow it. He has violent tantrums, his fists are always balled and his eyes always seem to shimmer with tears. He trusts inanimate objects more than real people, he has an obsession with relics, he watches Rey sleep, crouched on the ground, head tilted. There is an air of submission in him, as out-of-place as it may appear.

This is one of the major reasons Kylo often comes across as “weak”. He is an evocative male character, brimming with emotion that seems completely unable to tame. He is not really a man, a child or a monster, he is all three.


In the film’s opening scene, we are introduced to Poe Dameron and Lor San Tekka. Poe is a Resistance pilot who is retrieving a piece of a map rumored to lead to the missing Luke Skywalker. The mission, however, does not go as planned. Poe is captured by the First Order and Lor San Tekka is murdered by Kylo Ren.

The First Order rose from the dark side… you did not.

I’ll show you the dark side.

You may try, but you cannot deny the truth that is your family.


You’re so right.


Above we have the sequence from the final script. Kylo Ren’s response appears to be quite collected, but… why did he kill Tekka? Surely Tekka had seen the map? His mind was ripe for reading; he even could have been a valuable war-prisoner. Kylo Ren had yet to be made aware of Poe’s existence, let alone the fact that BB-8 had been given charge of the drive containing the map. Yet he killed him. Why?

Because this was a man from his past who reprimanded him about his origins, his family. There is even a small smirk visible on Tekka’s face as he converses with Ren, as he chastises him for “denying the truth that is his family.”

These are things we later come to realize bring Ren to a conflicted place, heightening the pull to the Light within him. Although his response to Tekka was swift and cold, the rage behind the action was not fueled by indifference. Hate and love are not opposites, they are two sides of the same coin, and it’s quite clear that Ren is far from indifferent when it comes to his family. This was a personal murder, not a war crime.

The movie illustrates that Kylo Ren only kills when the situation becomes genuinely personal. He leaves Poe alive after interrogating him despite having already retrieved the necessary information. He lets Lieutenant Mitaka live as well, and on Takodana he immediately goes for Rey and BB-8 without engaging in battle with anybody. This is vital indirect characterization. We are meant to infer that, while Kylo has likely killed many innocent people, we as an audience don’t see him kill impersonally. Anything beyond that is speculation.

The first sequence of the film creates an image for the audience. It would be called a character defining moment, and it’s used to great effect. Kylo seems similar to Darth Vader, perhaps with an added youthful edge. This image is quickly torn down as we witness Kylo unraveling. He goes from murdering potentially important war criminals to desperately following his “personal interests” to praying to an inanimate object. Kylo unravels like a ball of string, shedding physical and metaphorical layers until he is left a beaten, scarred, patricidal wreck at the film’s conclusion.


Immediately after murdering Tekka, Poe makes himself known when he tries to shoot Kylo Ren. Kylo stops the blaster-bolt and the two men share a brief interaction that ends with Kylo ordering the Storm Troopers to take Poe on-board. Kylo gives the Troopers permission to annihilate the village — probably one of his darkest and most unforgivable acts. While Tekka’s murder was personal and driven by secret longing, this was something very different.

Yet this scene is followed by Kylo Ren’s first clearly bizarre decision.

Kylo Ren heads back toward his ship. But then he STOPS. Feels something. TURNS AND LOOKS AT OUR STORMTROOPER for a LONG MOMENT. Our Trooper can barely meet his gaze; knows he’s doomed.

Kylo Ren then heads off – passes the FROZEN BLAST, which, after a beat, GOES FREE AND SLAMS INTO A NEARBY STRUCTURE, scaring the hell out of our Stormtrooper.

As Kylo is preparing to depart on his ship, he seems to sense something. A Trooper is disobeying him, refusing to shoot down the villagers. Ren locks gazes with him, seeming prepared to kill him… but then he walks away.

This single moment serves as the inception of the entire adventure. The Trooper breaks Poe free, and together they crash on the desert planet Jakku, where BB-8 has already encountered a mysterious scavenger named Rey.

Ren should have destroyed the Trooper, but he didn’t. Perhaps it could be argued that he just didn’t care about an underling’s actions, but it doesn’t take long for us to learn this:

Kylo researched the Trooper’s title. He knew the Trooper was showing strange “signs”, he knew the Trooper by name, yet he kept the information to himself. Why? Why did Kylo Ren let the Trooper go?

Because he felt compassion for him.

This might seem like a leap to some, but it’s the only thing that makes sense to me, given Kylo’s apparent inner-turmoil about the situation. Kylo also felt something for Rey—as will be discussed below. We know he dislikes the Trooper program (he thinks as much in the novelization, and he subtly tries ot tell Hux that they should be using Clones in the film). We know he hates Hux as well. It only makes sense to take into consideration that Kylo may have consciously allowed FN-2187 to go free simply because he saw himself in the rogue Trooper.

The young women and men who become Storm Troopers in the Sequel Trilogy are stolen from their families as children and brainwashed into serving as killing machines. The process should be ringing a bell in your mind, because it’s remarkably similar to what happened to Kylo Ren.

With this in mind, it should be easy to infer that Kylo may have felt compassion for Finn, and walked away as a result. The single moment haunts Kylo, and we can imagine that he may have battled with himself mentally about whether or not to inform Hux or Phasma about their rogue Trooper. Obviously a side of Ren he would rather deny emerged victorious, because Finn managed to escape, and Ren doesn’t forget it.

The next time Kylo mentions Finn, he uses the term “traitor”. He does this one more time before the end of the film, after he has murdered his father. He screams the word at Finn, who is cradling an unconscious Rey. This is an incredible example of indirect characterization mixed with direct characterization. Kylo Ren isn’t just labeling Finn an “traitor”, he’s using the term to describe himself, hating himself for going through with the ultimate act of betrayal. He punishes Finn in the forest of Starkiller Base, using him as an outlet for his frustration and masochism. He beats his own wounds physically and metaphorically.

“You have compassion for her.” (The Force Awakens novelization)

— Snoke

It is made far more obvious in the film that Kylo Ren feels some kind of attachment to the heroine, Rey. I have discussed this at great length in a separate analysis, but I’ll allude to it here simply for brevity’s sake.

Kylo Ren sees himself in Rey, just as he saw himself in Finn. When he reads her mind, he finds that he relates to her loneliness, her fear and her desperation. Ren’s sentiments of compassion lead him to place himself in a position of vulnerability two times while in Rey’s presence, and both instances are considered iconic in The Force Awakens.

First, he removes his helmet for her in the interrogation sequence. Second, he offers to “show her the ways of the Force” in their final battle. This reminds Rey that she too is capable of channeling the Force, allowing her to defeat him. These are two of Ren’s biggest mistakes, and the implication is they were born out of compassion.


Careful, Ren. That your “personal interests” not interfere with orders from Leader Snoke.

While it is difficult to say what Kylo’s motivations are right now, it’s quite clear that he isn’t Snoke’s loyal puppet. He goes against his orders multiple times. In fact, I would have trouble thinking of a single moment in which Ren does follow Snoke’s plans without fail. He seems to react upon instinct more than anything, doing whatever he sees fit, but there is an underlying idea—as presented by Hux in the above excerpt—that Kylo has “personal interests” in finding Luke that go completely against Snoke and the First Order. This line basically foreshadows Ren’s entire developmental (or unraveling) arc in The Force Awakens. 

Supreme Leader Snoke was explicit. Capture the droid if we can, but destroy it if we must.

Obviously Snoke isn’t particularly invested in finding Luke (he just doesn’t wnt the Resistance to find Luke), but Kylo certainly is. There is no way to know just what he wants from him. We’ll have to wait until Episode VIII for that information.

Forgive me. I feel it again. The pull to the light. Supreme Leader senses it. Show me again, the power of the darkness, and I will let nothing stand in our way. Show me, Grandfather, and I will finish what you started.

This is perhaps Ren’s most obvious “personal interest”. The sequence poses so many questions that have been deconstructed in separate analyses that I won’t waste too much time on it, but the implication here is that Kylo shares certain sentiments with this mask alone. It is his guardian, his relic. It is the only thing in the world he genuinely trusts, and he feels a connection to it, and a shame for not living up to its “expectations”.

Then there is one of the big questions to come out of this film: what did Darth Vader start? I have my own theories that don’t necessarily belong in this meta, but I’ll leave it at this: writers don’t emphasize an ambiguous theme in a villainous character only to reveal an equally villainous motivation. Chances are whatever “Vader started” will lead into the inevitability of Kylo’s redemption.

What girl?

The girl I’ve heard so much about

Ren believed it was no longer valuable to us. That the girl was all we needed. As a result, the droid has most likely been returned to the hands of the enemy. They may have the map already.

Throughout the Third Act of the film, Kylo Ren finds a brand new “personal interest” in Rey. Ren appears to become attracted to and infatuated with Rey as he is in some way seduced by the Light she embodies. You don’t need to look far to see that he treats her differently than he treats any other character.

When he sets foot on Takodana and hears that the girl and droid have fled into the woods, he immediately follows them. When he finds Rey he decides to take her second-hand version of the map and not bother looking for the droid itself, allowing it to fall into the hands of the Resistance. In the interrogation, he removes his mask when she expresses fear, gets way too close to her and fishes through her personal thoughts before even attempting to search for the map. In their final battle, he offers himself to her as a teacher. This characterization is some of Ren’s most unexplainable… and it only makes sense if you accept that he also appears to be attracted to her in some fashion.

“The Supreme Leader believes Ren to be the ideal embodiment of the Force, a focal point of both Light and Dark Side ability.”

— The Force Awakens Visual Dictionary

It is interesting to note that Snoke actually encourages Ren to maintain control over both the Light and Dark sides of the Force that naturally coexist within him, but Ren is completely dismissive of this notion. When he feels a pull to the Light, he expresses to Darth Vader’s helmet that it must “show him the power of the Darkness”. He also insinuates that the battling Forces he commands “tear him apart”, and actually cause him pain of some kind. He wants nothing to do with accepting the Light, which appears to manifest as unwanted link to the life he left behind.

Once more, we can see that Ren is going against Snoke’s desires.

What exactly are all these “personal interests” used to push in the context of the narrative? To create a clear distinction between Kylo Ren and the First Order, to separate him a little from the evilest aspects of the Order. He is his own character, not an extension of Snoke. He places his “personal interests” above Snoke and the First Order on every occasion. That demands a certain level of attention in itself.


The Force Awakens introduces us to General Hux, an important official in the First Order. Ren and Hux share a bitter relationship that seems to echo a sibling-rivalry, with Hux seeming to constantly interfere with Ren’s more paternal connection to Supreme Leader Snoke.

Hux and Ren are given multiple scenes together, and it becomes quite clear that the character exists as a direct contrast to Ren. We are meant to compare their reactions as they are faced with similar orders.

How capable are your soldiers, General?

I won’t have you question my methods.

They’re obviously skilled at committing high treason. Perhaps Leader Snoke should consider using a clone army.

In the above sequence, the film spells out that Ren has nothing to do with the First Order’s indoctrination of child-soldiers. Ren is specifically Snoke’s foot-soldier and a Knight of Ren, not Hux’s partner (as has been discussed, Ren hates the Trooper program). Ren and Hux barely tolerate each other. When you consider the fact that Hux is a twisted, genocidal, power-hungry, sadistic maniac absorbed with self-importance and lacking even a single redeeming quality, it should be obvious that Hux serves the purpose of humanizing Ren, of making him look “better” by comparison.

Hux watches, his eyes WILD WITH POWER AND EVIL.

TIGHT ON KYLO REN as he watches the Starkiller firing.

Hux’s Nazi speech is also entirely his own. Ren isn’t even present on Starkiller Base when the weapon is fired at the Hosnian System. He is watching it from afar, fists clenched. We are given a description of Hux’s eyes, but we cannot know what Ren’s might look like at this exact same moment. He is leaning over the window, watching the weapon fire. It is meant to make us question what Ren really thinks of all this.  

Hux repeatedly rebukes Ren for going against Snoke. He seems to have an innate desire to embarrass Ren in front of his Master. Hux is also fully aware of Ren’s wavering conviction, which makes him all the more dangerous as an antagonist.

Good. Then we will crush them once and for all. Prepare the weapon.

Kylo Ren is stunned by the moment – that isn’t what he meant at all

Supreme Leader. I can get the map from the girl. I just need your guidance.

Above we have perhaps the most telling comparison. Hux and Snoke decide to destroy the Illeenium System—where Leia Organa, Kylo Ren’s mother, happens to be. Ren is completely against the order, and even tries to offer up another solution, but he is shot down as Hux walks away, giving him a snide glower.


Despite being the main antagonist of The Force Awakens, Kylo Ren is a surprisingly truthful character. He only lies once in the entire film, and it is clear at this exact moment that Ren is an absolutely abysmal liar. He and Snoke are discussing the droid, which has fallen into the hands of Ren’s father through a series of odd coincidences. Ren reacts to the news in the following manner:

Kylo Ren reacts with subtle, but real, surprise.

He means nothing to me.

This scene is closely followed by the famous “pull to the Light” sequence in which Ren reveals that Snoke was fully capable of sensing his deceit. Han Solo does not mean nothing to Kylo Ren.

You’re my guest.

Where are the others?

You mean the murderers, traitors and thieves you call friends? You’ll be relieved to hear that I have no idea.

Kylo Ren stops, considers her… then reaches up, unlatches and REMOVES HIS MASK. Rey reacts, stunned. It takes a moment before she regains her own mask of defiance.

When Rey wakes up in the interrogation scene, Kylo doesn’t bother lying to her even once. He could have told Rey her friends were dead, but instead he expresses the truth: he has no idea where they are. He also removes his mask when she reveals her (understandable) mistrust. He is very honest with her.

… You’re so lonely… so afraid to leave… At night, desperate to sleep… you imagine an ocean. I see it – I see the island… And Han Solo. You feel like he’s the father you never had. He would’ve disappointed you.

He’s also open about what he sees in her head, even going so far as to “warn” her that Han Solo would have disappointed her if he really was her father.

I’m being torn apart. I want to be free of this pain. I know what I have to do, but I don’t know if I have the strength to do it. Will you help me?

Perhaps the most controversial example can be found in Kylo Ren’s conversation with Han Solo on the catwalk. As an audience, we should have been able to infer that Kylo Ren never bothers to lie, opting instead for the truth.

This indirect characterization gives us all we need to know to understand that Kylo is in no way attempting to manipulate his father. He goes through with Snoke’s orders for a “personal” reason, in order to be “free of [his] pain.” He truly could not have kill his father on his own, and genuinely expresses to Han that he needs his help. The scene is heartbreaking on many levels, particularly when you realize that Han resting his hand on his son’s cheek is likely the first true human contact Ren has felt in years.


Adam Driver said it himself, Kylo Ren is mainly motivated by what he considers to be feelings of abandonment from his family. His sentiments about his family are complex to say the least, with Ren mentioning them several times throughout the film. As always, Ren reveals far more of himself than he intends to.

“He means nothing to me.”

As we have already discussed, this was proven to be an outright (and pathetic) attempt at a lie.

“Han Solo. […] He would have disappointed you.”

Han Solo disappointed Ren.

“Your son is gone. He was weak and foolish, like his father. So I destroyed him.”

Ren considered his father to be weak and foolish for “something”. Is this the same “something” that caused him to harbour so much disappointment in his family? We can only speculate right now, so I’ll leave it at that.

We must also notice that Ren only starts to cry when Han expresses that “we [Han and Leia] miss him”. Ren’s feelings about his mother are perhaps even more difficult to comprehend than those about his father.

Always remember that Han Solo died as any father should, loving his son, forgiving him, and hping that he can someday find his way home.

An extra layer of intricacy can be found between Snoke and Ren. There is clearly a dependence of some kind between them, perhaps because Snoke was there for Ren when Han and Leia weren’t, using his loneliness to manipulate him. The notion is quite tragic, but we simply don’t know enough about the topic yet.

Part 2: Symbolism, Metaphor and Foreshadowing

Now that we have a clear understanding of the most important facets of Kylo Ren’s characterization, this second part of the meta will focus on the artistic devices in The Force Awakens, particularly the use of symbolism, metaphor and foreshadowing that directly pertain to Kylo’s redemption arc.

Once more, a quick refresher on some important terms.

Symbolism is the practice of using an object or word to represent an abstract idea. An action, person, place, word of object can all have symbolic meaning.

Foreshadowing is a literary technique through which an author hints at what is to come.

A metaphor is a figure of speech that identifies something as being the same as some unrelated thing for rhetorical effect that, usually, provides clarity; thus, the implied conceptual relationship rhetorically highlights the similarities between two ideas.


It was revealed in an interview with Adam Driver that Kylo Ren’s lightsaber and helmet are meant to be a metaphor for his character, that he is “unfinished” and “unpolished” and appears as though he might crack at any moment. It can thus be assumed that, in order to develop, Kylo will eventually have to become “finished”, “polished” and “in control”.

Interestingly, some people use this as evidence supporting the notion that Kylo will never be redeemed, that he will become eviler and eviler until he kills Luke and Leia. Hilarious, I know.  

We must realize that treading further along the path of Darkness would not lead to Ren being “finished” or “whole”. He is the focal point of the Light and Dark, and until he accepts both sides of his being he can never be whole, he can never mature naturally or discover his true purpose. That is the true metaphor behind the saber.



To see we’re LOOKING UP AT A WARRIOR as he is STABBED BY A FIERY LIGHTSABER! He screams and falls to the ground – we FOLLOW HIM, revealing Rey again, now in a nighttime battlefield. She gets to her feet, frightened by what she sees. We PIVOT AROUND HER to REVEAL KYLO REN, and the six other KNIGHTS OF REN, who flank him!

Come back around to Rey, soaking now, as the RAIN STOPS and SUNLIGHT illuminates her – she turns to look – we PIVOT – and see…

A little girl. Rey as a child. She is sobbing, hysterical. Unkar Plutt’s meaty hand holds her thin arm. She is on Jakku, watching a starship fly into the sky, abandoning her.

No, come back!

Rey discovers that she has some kind of connection with Anakin’s lightsaber as she touches it and is thrust into a terrifying Force Back. She sees past, present and future, and is pursued by the only individual who seems to acknowledge her presence in the dream sequence: Kylo Ren. He is the focus of her vision more than anything, which is quite interesting when you remember that the saber (according to Ren) belonged to him at one point. Does Rey feel bonded with the Skywalker saber, or with Ren himself? Only time will tell.

Maz Kanata’s speech to Rey directly following the Force Back is one of the turning points of the film. Maz insinuates that Rey’s family is never returning, and that the belonging she seeks is ahead, not behind.

Dear child. I see your eyes. You already know the truth. Whomever you’re waiting for on Jakku, they’re never coming back. But… there’s someone who still could.

There is someone who still could come back. Rey immediately assumes Maz is referring to Luke, but what if she’s actually insinuating that Kylo Ren can still [come back to the Light]? It would make for a brilliant example of foreshadowing in the long-run.

The end of the Force Back scene is also edited in such a way that it appears as though the little girl is speaking directly to Ren. We hear her say “come back” before the child is revealed, and right after we see Ren approaching Rey on the rainy battlefield.

This notion opens up the possibility that the belonging Rey seeks may lie in the focus of her Force Back, in the true owner of the saber: in Kylo Ren. And who is she about to meet in the forest? Who is directly ahead of her?


“I feel it again, the pull to the Light.”

— Kylo Ren

Kylo Ren is quite the tortured soul indeed. He does everything in his power to quiet the call of the Light—which he literally refers to as a seduction—but no matter what he finds that he “feels it again”.  It seems simple enough. Ren is a Dark-affiliated Force-Sensitive who is in great inner-turmoil as a result of the longing for the Light he can’t seem to shake. However small, it is his greatest foil, his most significant element of characterization.

So what is this pull to the Light? Ren makes it quite obvious that whatever connection he maintains to his family incites it. The mere mention of Han Solo causes him to confess his sins to his grandfather’s helmet. It is a pull to his family, to his old life.

But how exactly does Ren’s “pull to the Light” ultimately manifest itself? What is most representative of the Light in The Force Awakens—or more specifically, who?


Many fans have recognized that Kylo Ren develops an unusual fixation on the heroine after first encountering her in the forest of Takodana. Some have postulated that he has an interest in her power, while others say that he is genuinely attracted to her in some fashion, be that physically, mentally or through the Force that flows between them.

I’m much more inclined to believe the second interpretation, because it takes into account Kylo Ren’s characterization and his context in the narrative. He feels genuine compassion for her, he cannot help but bond with her loneliness and her fear. These are not hallmarks of an individual enamoured by power, but rather, by something far more human. That is why combining the themes of Force-related seduction with romantic and sexual seduction are paramount to comprehending Ren’s role in the future of this Trilogy.

Rey is a symbol in herself. She represents everything Kylo Ren has denied himself. She is a beautiful young woman who is highly connected to the Light side of the Force, and he quite literally cannot help but be willingly seduced by her Light.

“By the grace of your training, I will not be seduced.”

— Kylo Ren to Snoke

This is classic foreshadowing and irony in the vein of Vader’s famous “There is no conflict” or even Leia’s “I would sooner kiss a Wookie”. When a character expresses that he won’t be seduced in this manner in the first Episode of a Trilogy and proceeds to become completely fixated on a woman who happens to represent the Light by which he expresses he “will not be seduced” they might as well be spelling out that they will be seduced. In a manner of speaking, methinks Kylo doth protest too much.

We must also remember that this film concluded with Ren being rescued by Hux in order to “complete his training”. By the grace of Snoke’s training indeed.

“There was too much Vader in him.”

— Han Solo

Too much Vader… but too much of “what” exactly? This is left open to interpretation. Vader was a Sith Lord, but he was also Anakin Skywalker, the man who gave his own life to save his only son, the Jedi who fell to the Dark Side because the Emperor manipulated his undying love for his wife. Just as Anakin was prepared to do anything for Padme, Ren may ultimately be willing to go to great lengths for Rey, regardless of whether or not his sentiments are ever outwardly reciprocated.

This definitely ties into the fact that Rey and Ren’s themes are essentially Across the Stars in reverse.

Rey is under a spotlight, practically emanating light. Her light is extending toward the crouched figure of Ren, who is watching her submissively. Ren can’t seem to take his eyes off the glowing young woman.


Although the new superweapon received a great deal of criticism from fans for being “just another lame Death Star”, Starkiller Base happens to be one of the most effective and blatant symbols in the entire movie. From absorbing a “sun’s” light as power to transforming into a “reborn sun” at the film’s conclusion, the metaphor created is both telling and very artistic.

“It uses the power of the sun. As the weapon is charged, the sun is drained until it disappears.”

— Finn about Starkiller Base

“Snoke is using you for your power.”

— Han about Ben Solo

The comparison here is just begging to be made. Starkiller Base manipulates the “light” of a sun as a weapon. In English, the words “sun” and “son” happen to be the same. This is a pun that has been used throughout English literature and even biblical texts to describe the “prodigal son”. Ren is of course the “son” (to Han and Leia), the fallen legacy who wants nothing more than to subdue the light within himself.

“I am too much I’ the sun.”

— Hamlet

The “sun” and the “son” is a powerful symbol that cannot be used lightly, but it only becomes more obvious as the film progresses:

And just then, the LAST BEAM OF SUNLIGHT streaming through the open hatch VANISHES.

Han actually smiles – and reaches out for the dark weapon – but with the light now gone, KYLO REN’S EYES FILL WITH DARKNESS.

At this moment, Kylo Ren murdered his father. Starkiller Base sucked the life from a sun, casting a shadow across the planetary weapon, and across Kylo Ren. The sun’s death heralded Ren’s darkest act. As hope was lost, so too were Ben and Han Solo. The sun, the son and father fell together.

Kylo Ren is somehow WEAKENED by this wicked act. Himself horrified. His SHOCK is broken only when –

We must also take into account Ren’s reaction to killing his father. If this sounds like someone who has gone Full Dark to you… I think you missed the point of the movie.

Something amazing happens at the end of the film:

The X-wings ROAR OFF, skyward as the MUSIC SOARS, the PLANET IMPLODES – THE SUNLIGHT IT CONTAINS BURSTS FORTH, and as we get further and further distance from what was Starkiller Base, we witness the REBIRTH OF A SUN. Light restored to a corner of the galaxy.

This is about as descriptive as any script is going to get. We witnessed the “rebirth of a sun”. Rebirth of a sun… or rebirth of a “son”?

Poe and the rest of the pilots destroyed the oscillator that was containing the sun’s trapped energy and light. This happened in unison with Rey defeating Kylo in the snowy wood. In a story that surrounds the concept of Light and Dark as two sides of a coin and that involved a sun dying to symbolize the loss of hope as a character violently murdered his own father, having that same sun be “reborn” in a flurry of light is very telling. Kylo Ren was filled with darkness as the sun fell, but after being defeated by Rey (interesting how Rey’s name is also a pun on a sun “ray”) he was “reborn” along with the new sun, his father’s eternal resting place.

And if all that symbolism doesn’t drive it home for you, take a look at this Easter Egg from The Force Awakens soundtrack. Two themes are connected by a horn solo, the moment we hear Kylo Ren’s theme for the very first time in “Attack on Jakku Village” and the exact moment the sun is reborn in “Farewell and the Trip”. The same solo can be heard in both songs, referencing the theme of the reborn sun (or in this case, the reborn “son”).

Go to 4:18

The first version is more ominous, as it is combined with Kylo’s dissonant theme.

Go to 0:46

The second is hopeful and triumphant, and even melds with the Force Theme. The solos are exactly the same, however. This hard-evidence proves to me beyond a shadow of a doubt that the writers intended to have Starkiller Base’s rebirth as a “sun” represent Kylo’s own metaphorical rebirth.


Kylo’s final fight with Finn and Rey is perhaps one of the most artistically significant moments in the entire Star Wars franchise. From pursuing the duo into the icy forest to being branded by Rey, Ren is quick to reveal the results of his physical, mental and emotional unraveling as he engages Finn and Rey in battle. If a viewer has failed to comprehend Ren until this point, Ren’s behavior will go completely over their head.

Finn, Rey and Ren contrast each other beautifully. They were all children who were separated physically from their parents, and who dealt with the emotional trauma of abandonment in different ways. Finn was brainwashed, but maintained a high level of humanity; Rey dreamed every day of her family returning; Ren gave in to the Darkness that was tugging at him. Acknowledging the fact that they are all foils of each other gives their battle so much more emotional impact. They are fighting themselves as much as they are fighting each other, lost souls who may ultimately need each other to find their way home.

“It’s just us now. Han Solo can’t save you.”

The fight begins with this line. Strangely enough, it appears as though he is speaking only to Rey (translations corroborate this). However, it should be clear based on Ren’s prior characterization that he isn’t just stating that “Han Solo can’t save Rey”. In reality, he’s acknowledging the tragic fact that Han Solo can no longer save him.

“That lightsaber, it belongs to me.”

Ren doesn’t acknowledge Finn until after he has knocked Rey out after she attempted to shoot him. Finn takes up the Skywalker saber in order to protect Rey, running at his ex-superior—the man who allowed him to disobey direct orders—with a lion’s heart.


Why would Ren call Finn a traitor once again. Why would any character who just murdered his own father title someone else a traitor? Because Ren isn’t reprimanding Finn; he’s reprimanding himself, punishing himself physically and metaphorically. We already know that Ren saw himself in Finn, and he still does. He beats his own wounds during their fight, filled with self-hate and rage. Ren is grieving in his own way, his emotions causing him to lose all sense of self. He burns Finn, and finally slashes him up the spine, putting him temporarily out-of-commission just as Rey wakes up.

“You need a teacher. I can show you the ways of the Force.”

Rey and Ren’s battle is—as Harrison Ford once said—fantastic visual storytelling. There is so much occurring on-screen that it becomes almost overwhelming to take in.

It begins with Rey catching the Skywalker saber. All the tension leaves Ren’s body as he gazes at her with his old saber in her hands. It should be clear that he does not view this girl the same way he views Finn. While he was furious and masochistic in Finn’s presence, there is something very different in his countenance with Rey.

He is enamored by her Light, totally and utterly fixated. His expression is one of complete awe, and he maintains it throughout the fight.

He chases her through the wood, battling her as he attempts to disarm her. They are perfect opposites, moving in unison, dancing while in the midst of an epic clash. There is certainly a beauty to it, with the red and blue sabers seeming to create a shade of mauve just as Starkiller Base begins to fall apart. A crack appears in the planet, spewing fire just as they cross sabers.

As they attempt to stave each other off above the abyss, they seem to share a moment. It is at this point that Ren offers himself to her, declaring that “she needs a teacher” and that “he can show her the ways of the Force.” It is interesting to note that Ren doesn’t use the terms “Dark Side/Darkness” (as he did throughout the film). Of course he isn’t offering to teach her about the Light, but we are meant to question his behavior. He isn’t fully trained himself, yet he wants to teach her, to run away with her, to be with her?

Rey takes the opportunity to channel the Force for the first time, and suddenly she gains the upper-hand. She starts to chase him, stabbing at his clothes and body. She is as brutal against him as he was against Finn, and when they grasp arms and balance each other’s sabers, there is an undeniable example of symbolism. Rey is burying the dark saber in the snow, and he looks fully prepared to have it extinguished, to be rid of it once and for all.

She overcomes him physically, mentally and emotionally, leaving him scarred on the forest floor. Rey almost taps into the Dark Side, and has to stop herself from killing him, from wiping out the representation of the Darkness that took away her father-figure and first true friend.

Ren’s scar is an interesting shape, curved just like the Yin and Yang symbol. The scar is a threefold symbol of Rey’s connection to Ren, to the moment she almost crossed the threshold to the Dark Side, and to Ren’s duality. He no longer has to wear a mask to be a “monster”.

Ren is left beaten, but the symbolism of the reborn sun tells us that the Light within him has not been extinguished. There is still a chance for Ben Solo, as his mother rightfully expressed to her husband before he performed the ultimate sacrifice.

There’s still light in him. I know it

Leia is not about to give up on her son. When Han died, she reacted to Ren’s suffering more than anything (the cut happens just as Ren seems to realize what he has done). I suspect neither Luke nor his sister would be willing to abandon their living link to Han… their true legacy: Ben Solo.


Episode VII ends with Rey handing “Luke’s” lightsaber back to its rightful owner… but we must remember that this saber may very well have also belonged to Ben Solo. Again, I have to wonder if Rey’s connection really extends to the Skyalkers at all, or simply to Kylo Ren? Only time can tell.

Well… I guess that’s all I have to say on this subject for now. I’ll conclude this meta by making it clear that there is zero foreshadowing pointing toward this story taking any other direction. If the writers are competent and made use of all these classic literary techniques in good faith, then we can be assured that Kylo Ren will be receiving quite the redemption arc in future Episodes.

If not, I’ll be keeping my money.

EDITS: To add pictures/fix spelling mistakes.

thefaniestgirl  asked:

Please explain drarry I've just never understood why people think they are a good match

I understand :) I didn’t see it at first either. When I first stumbled upon drarry, I kept thinking: What? But Draco was awful to Harry! They hated each other, Draco was bully etc etc. So why would they suddenly be in love?
Well, now I have no idea how I didn’t see it :D They will forever be my otp and here is why (these are just my personal thoughts, other people might see it differently):

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4kidztv  asked:

OK I'll take the bait -- how fucked up is Kavinsky REALLY? I'm expecting at least an 5 on the Richter scale of heartbreak.

Okay, I’ll take the bait back, because I’m young and crotchety.

Note, spoilers for Dream Thieves will abound.





Readers can interpret the events of the book in all sorts of ways, obviously, but here are things that happen canonically in The Dream Thieves:

  • Kavinsky drugs his mother without her knowledge
  • Kavinsky pursues Ronan with multiple text messages and gifts that indicate he has observed Ronan closely — i.e., copies of bracelets Ronan always wears and Ronan’s driver’s license
  • Kavinsky generally calls Ronan either gay or a girl
  • Kavinsky is seen once with a girl, who he calls “bitch”
  • Kavinsky has at least one dead companion who he dreamed a perfectly obedient replacement for — it is heavily implied that Kavinsky was somehow responsible for the guy’s death.
  • Kavinsky claims to have killed his own father (but this is debatable, as Kavinsky clearly is a liar)
  • Kavinsky tries to get Ronan to give up his friends
  • Kavinsky touches Ronan’s head, taps Ronan’s teeth with a pen, leaves stuff at Ronan’s home when he knows he won’t be there
  • Kavinsky gives Ronan a drug that renders Ronan immobile and barely conscious and then, while Ronan is helpless — and only then — sensually touches Ronan’s body (Ronan tells himself this might be a dream)
  • Ronan tells Kavinsky that they will never be an item, but Kavinsky keeps texting him
  • Kavinsky tells Ronan that consent is overrated (which echoes him continuously stepping into Ronan’s space without permission)
  • Kavinsky ultimately grows frustrated that Ronan will not give in, kidnaps Ronan’s brother, drugs him, and stuffs him in the trunk of a car to provoke a reaction from Ronan.

Here are other things that are canonical:

  • Kavinsky is a scary, terrible predator
  • Kavinsky has a very logical backstory that leads him to this place
  • Kavinsky chooses to be led to this place

Here are other, other things, also canonical:

  • Kavinsky can pull things from his dreams, has an absent (possibly dead) father, and an absent (largely useless) mother
  • Ronan can pull things from his dreams, has an absent (definitely dead) father, and an absent (largely useless) mother

I very much enjoyed writing Kavinsky — as a character, he challenged and delighted me. And I really wanted him to challenge and delight readers. One of the main ideas I’m exploring as I write the Raven Cycle is the question: how much are you a product of your upbringing? And can you overcome the terrible parts of it to become something better? All of the characters engage with these questions, which I find fiendishly interesting in real life. Kavinsky and Ronan both get the same set of circumstances and handle them in very different ways. It’s a choice.

So do I like Kavinsky? Out of all the characters I have ever written, he is one of my favorites.* Top four, probably. Or five, since four is an ugly number. But he’s a terrible person, more terrible because he chose it every. step. of. the. way. A logical backstory is not justification for trampling over consent, for kidnapping, for harassment.

Otherwise Adam would be justified in hitting Blue when he was angry, because he was hit by his father.

Kavinsky’s scale on the Richter scale of heartbreak? I’ll give him a solid 9, where 10 = absolutely zero evidence of desire to change.

These are all of my thoughts on Kavinsky. Your mileage may vary.

*ETA: I mean, people: I painted my car like his.

anonymous asked:

In Zygerria fics: Cody and Rex being extremely careful not to do anything remotely pushy towards obi-wan, even in just a platonic way. Obi-wan lowkey just wanting to curl up next to some people he trusts(in a nonsexual way, just be with people that he knows wouldn't hurt him) and highkey wishes that two of his favorite people weren't avoiding him since the tape got released(bc that's what he thinks is happening, he doesn't realize they're just trying really really hard to respect his boundaries)

He can sleep through the entire night, that’s a change for the positive.

Or so both the mindhealers and Depa tells him.

He can handle Anakin touching him though if it comes without warning he does flinch if only ever so slightly and Anakin is good at helping him remain on schedule.

Ahsoka helps too though that makes Obi-Wan feel shameful, she’s not even fifteen and here she is helping him try to recover. It makes him feel worse some days and better other days. Worse because if there’s one thing Ahsoka does not need in the middle of this war, it is to take care of her broken up grandmaster and better because she cares for him.

He tries to take it with a grain of salt and not hurt himself with the former knowledge, focusing on the latter.

So he does better. He feels better.

He spars in the great salle where people come and go and he moves through the halls and he meditates in the garden. Obi-Wan is usually left alone when he meditates happily.

And that brings him to his next step.

The commissary.

He can hear the buzz of conversation already as he slowly walks towards the hall, can hear Jedi who never leave the temple, the younglings, the to old or the to broken. Can hear the ones who have a few moments to breath on Coruscant.

Obi-Wan freezes outside the doors and looks to the blond behind him quickly, eyes slightly wide.

“Don’t push more then you want to Obi-Wan. Whatever you’re thinking in that copper head of yours, you don’t have to do this.” The blond offered quietly. “Me and you can have something to eat in your quarters like usual.”

“…I need to get better Anakin.” He rasped out.

“Getting better doesn’t need pushing to hard, to hard and you break yourself. You’re not made of unbreakable star material Obi-Wan.” The knight reached out slowly and rested his hand on the others shoulder. “We can go back if you want to.”

“But I want to go in. You say I’m making progress. Healer Liren says so too…” Obi-Wan swallowed and then looked down. “No one in there is going to hurt me, not on purpose.”

“Unthinking words can hurt just as much as an action.” Anakin squeezed his shoulder gently. “If you’re not ready, then you’re just not ready Obi-Wan. Come on, lets go back to your place. I’ll even call up Ahsoka and see if she wants to eat with us, shared meals always taste better.” He grinned convincingly to the other.

“She must have other things to do then to cater to a…to me.” Obi-Wan shook the hand off his shoulder and then stepped through the doors of the commissary, gritting his teeth a bit.

He could do this, he knew he could do this. He was going to do this.

He got into line and grabbed a tray, feeling more then seeing Anakin slide in behind him and grab a tray too.

Thanks to his shaving, it took several moments before anyone noticed him.

But when they did…

Well it was pretty clear by the hissing whisper going through several groups of padawans which spread to the Knights and then the Masters. By the time Obi-Wan had a full tray, he could feel discreet glances towards him. He wanted to hide under his bed at that moment.

“Master Obi-Wan.” He looked up quickly and nodded to the voice calling for him. “Master Mace.”

“Come sit with us?” The Korun offered. “Its just me and Depa at our table and I’d like to speak to you about some of the Senate legislation.”

“Of course, if Anakin is welcome too?” Obi-Wan mouth felt to dry and his stomach was rebelling against the thought of food even as he followed Mace to the table with Anakin right behind.

And then he almost sighed in relief when he felt most gazes stop. Okay, upside to sitting with Mace Windu at least, no excess staring as he settled down with his back to the wall.

“Are you alright Obi-Wan?” Depa questioned quietly, peering at the pale man.

“I could do better.” Obi-Wan confessed before carefully spooning some soup into his mouth. Over his head the three other exchanged looks but made no comments as it was up to Obi-Wan how hard he pushed.

“I was honestly hoping to be able to leave the temple soon. Return to the field.” Obi-Wan offered in what he felt was a steady voice while breaking apart a bread roll to dip in the soup.

“That would depend on what Healer Liren says Obi-Wan.” Mace cautioned quietly before changing the subject to the legislation he wanted to speak about. Or at least pretended he wanted to speak about. Obi-Wan gave his opinion while crumbling the bread roll slowly on his tray until Anakin placed a fresh one in front of him, giving a pointed look but saying nothing.

Obi-Wan forced down a few more bites after that look and honestly felt a bit accomplished. He was out in public, eating a decent sized meal. Perhaps he could convince Liren to let him return to field…he hoped. At least he’d get to see the clones then and…

No, no thinking of them right now. It wasn’t like he’d seen them since the Whole incident.


Okay, when a Jedi comes tearing through the clone barracks sporting a scowl, you tend to get a bit worried.

When that Jedi is Anakin Skywalker, you jump out of the way and wonder what poor vod managed to piss of Anakin Skywalker who likes them more then anyone else in the entire Galaxy.

“Rex! Cody! Where in Force blasted nutsacks are you two?!” He snapped before focusing on a trooper with blue. “Fives, where is Captain Rex and Commander Cody?”

“I um, I saw them in the north rec room sir?”

Fives and Echo watched the dark dressed Jedi march away before Echo looked at Fives with wide eyes. “What did those two do to piss of him?”

“My guess? Something with general Kenobi.” Fives shrugged and nodded at Echo’s wince. “Yeah…”

By the time he reached them, someone had warned them that he was arriving and he found them alone at a table, a sabbac deck neatly cleaned to the side.

“General Skywalker?”

“Can one of you tell me why in Force name you are both avoiding Obi-Wan?” He snapped at Rex who had spoken to him.

“Av-we’re not avoiding him sir!” Cody stood quickly, glancing at Rex before back at the General.

“No? That’s what Obi-Wan thinks.” He glared at the two.

“Oh Koth.” Rex groaned, dropping his head in his hands. “That wasn’t our intention.”

Okay, that was a saving grace for the two. Anakin slowly calmed down. “What is going on?” He grumbled.

“We…we didn’t want to push him sir. He’s been through something…traumatic.” Well at least Cody had picked up on Obi-Wan’s silver tongue while working with him. “And the last thing he needs is us two trying to…”

“What he needs is support, friends, being able to take his own decisions.” Anakin growled before rubbing his chin. “But at least your actions came from a place of concern. That’s something at least. Look, he misses both of you and he thinks because of that karking vid that you two don’t want to associate with him on a personal Level.”

“That’s not true!” Rex stood quickly too now. “Sir.” He added and Anakin gave a snort at the delayed title.

“Look just…call him, hear if he wants to meet up or something. He does, so just show up at the temple after you called him. He needs to remember that most people, the people who cares about him doesn’t care about the vid. This is hard enough as it is without people starting to avoid him…” Anakin sighed. “He needs to remember that he’s cared for and that we don’t blame him… he needs to heal.”


Tucking closer to the narrow chest in front of him, Obi-Wan closed his eyes as he listened to Anakin’s quiet voice, listening to him sing. It wasn’t a language familiar to him and Obi-Wan had a feeling that it had to do with his slave upbringing but he wasn’t going to question Anakin as gentle fingers threaded through his hair, steady and familiar even if the touch was one he hadn’t experienced before.

One moment he had been just fine, sitting on the couch with tea in hand.

The other the world had closed in on him and all he could think was how terrible he was, damaged and filthy an-

Anakin had sat down on the other side of the couch, talking quietly to him, coaxing him back to Coruscant instead of a place far off in his mind before quietly offering to hold Obi-Wan, arms open in welcome.

Obi-Wan had stared at them before sliding forward and resting his face against the narrow chest, still trembling faintly even as familiar arms wrapped around him and started to slowly stroke his hair in a welcomed touch of affection that never shyed away from Obi-Wan.

And then Anakin had started to sing, quietly as he pulled the older man closer, offering more comfort in his actions then words alone.

“…Depa and Kit aren’t like this.” He offered quietly when the song ended.

“Depa and Kit has had years of healing and coping. And people heal differently Obi-Wan.” The blond offered in return. “Some people never recover. Not fully. But you’re doing good Obi-Wan and you know I’m here for you. The rest of the Council too.” Anakin teased the copper fringe. “Ahsoka isn’t far away and you know that our troopers has your back.”

Obi-Wan burrowed a bit closer.

“And relapses are normal.” Anakin continued. “Just…tell us what you need. Need space? Okay. Need a hug? okay. Need to throw Yoda of the Council Tower? I’m totally there for you.”

The older man couldn’t help but snort in silver of amusement. “The latter depends on if he gets to keep his hover chair or not…”

“I vote for not.” Anakin said cheerfully.

“Oh Anakin.” Obi-Wan chuckled quietly against the others clothes.

Creepypasta #1163: Not Your Average Babysitting Story

Length: Super long

Or maybe it is. Who knows.

Anyway… my name is Santana. It’s not my real name, but hey, it works. I’m 28 years old, single, living alone in a studio apartment downtown. I have three cats. I am the personification of lonely cat lady, but it’s not because of bad luck or anything. I choose to live my life like this. I don’t want kids, and almost every guy I have met wants to start a family; it’s not for me. The last guy I was ever close to asked me why I never wanted kids, but I didn’t have to heart - or metaphorical balls - to tell him why.

I like you guys. You all share your stories, experiences, etc. with an open imagination and witty comments. Allow me to share you my story; the story as to why I never want kids.

It was the summer of 2003; I was your normal 14 year old girl with not a care in the world besides wondering if Jason liked the new perfume I tried on that day. Much like every other teenage girl in the 9th grade, my first true job was a babysitter. My two friends, Ashley and Samantha, were babysitters and they told me about how much money they’d make during the summer. I guess the key is to look for the nicest house/family that was inquiring about a babysitter. They told me they made upwards of 200 dollars a week solely by watching their kids and whatnot. 

Everything seemed far too good to be true, but Samantha told me about a family about two miles from my house that was inquiring about a babysitter. The house was in a gated community - you know, those community of houses that look as if they were from the 1950s where the grass was always mowed; the yard had white picket fences, and there was an apple pie cooling in the window. Granted, it wasn't just like that, but my comparison remains the same.

The home was owned by Mr. and Mrs. Peterson and their baby boy Cedric. When I knocked on their door, I was greeted by Mrs. Peterson herself with a warm smile and a hello. She wore a floral sundress with white heels and her hair up in a bun. She gave me a hug and welcomed me into her home. I remember the home vividly, even after 14 years since this happened. 

The main hallway had a giant chandelier that hung from the top; a spiral staircase was to the left as soon as I walked in. To the right was the living room, which had two white leather couches, two white leather chairs, a table in the center, a fireplace off to the side, as well as a big television in a catty-corner. The entire house was a grand marvel that I couldn’t help but bask in its glory. Mrs. Peterson sat me down on the couch and offered me something to drink, but I declined.

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For Richer, For Poorer

Anon Request: Hi! I just came across a fic search for when james takes lily to his vault and thought that you might write this. 


Lily Evans frowned at her less-than-eloquent boyfriend as he dug through his pockets looking for something. The woman in front of them in the line at the ice cream shop also frowned greatly at them. Lily smiled at the woman before shooting James another glance; he was running his hands up and down his robes as if searching for something on his person.

“What’s wrong with you?” she couldn’t help laughing at his ridiculous face as he dug his fingers deep into his pockets.

James pulled out the empty insides of his pockets, “I forgot my money!” he exclaimed.

Lily rolled her eyes and reached for her purse, “Then I’ll pay.”

“No!” James exclaimed, yanking her from the line and she groaned as they passed two women holding nice looking ice cream cones. 

Lily stomped her feet repeatedly, trying to get James to stop pulling her by the arm. It didn’t work. He was such a boy. He couldn’t go shopping on his own, he couldn’t let his girlfriend pay for a bit of ice cream, and he couldn’t hear her annoyance as they left the ice cream shop.

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Question for the

‘Draco was the result of his upbringing and has no ethical responsibility for his own values and choices’ people: 

At what age does that change? When do you start holding Draco culpable for the bigoted things he says and does? Yes, he’s a little Lucius parrot at eleven, but what about when he gloats over Buckbeak’s execution at age thirteen? How about when he’s fourteen and taunts Harry about Voldemort’s return after Harry’s just been tortured and traumatised in the graveyard? When he sucks up to Umbridge and abuses his power on the Inquisitorial Squad at fifteen? When he looks “hungry” as Harry’s about to be tortured? Continues to call Hermione a Mudblood to her face? When he immobilises Harry and stomps on his nose at sixteen? When he uses an Unforgivable on Harry?  

At what age does Draco gain culpability for his own choices and actions? If your answer is “never”, then how can you even like him as a character when he’s nothing but an empty shell echoing his father’s beliefs?

I ask his as someone who loves Draco as a character, loves his character arc, and was thrilled by his redemption in Cursed Child. I’m just super twitchy at seeing people write off all the nasty choices Draco made during the books. 

Soulmates - part 3

Part 1 Part 2
Requested: by panic-angel3314 caramara3 phatreigns florenceivy chynagirl13 blondekel77 
Warnings: None
Words: 2700+

Finn stood there as you ran away. At first, he was so happy. He’d finally found his soulmate. The world had colour. He had dreamt about how this moment would feel. Never did he imagine his soulmate would run away from him.

“Did I do something wrong? Finn asked

“No god no” Sasha quickly reassured him “well kinda” 

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I Thought You Were Different: Book 5 (Part 3/?) (Steve Rogers x reader)

Part 2

Your first day back home at the compound was just like any other; your body healed as fast as it always did and you were back to work, starting with the team meeting and Steve’s endless diatribe of events around that world that he was keeping a sharp eye on, followed by groans of complaint that half of the morning was already over with everyone walking out before he was done.  Well, not quite everyone.  Tony had quickly caught wind of what you and Steve were planning to do with the kids, and he didn’t like it one bit; in true fashion, he had no problem with telling you so in no uncertain terms, either.

“I can’t believe that I’m taking Steve’s side on this.  This is a mistake, (Y/N).  A mistake so goddamn stupid that I can’t understand how it came from my own child. I thought I had passed down at least some of my intelligence.”

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the-cryptographer  asked:

Isis Ishtar for 002 if that's okay. Thank you~

@the-cryptographer - sorry for the delay!


How I feel about this character: I find Isis a bit heartbreaking because, with the best of intentions, she runs down the wrong path at warp speed.  She hates the future she sees and yet believes herself fated to be one of the people ensuring that it happens.  She was indoctrinated from childhood into a cult, and I don’t think she questioned any of her upbringing any more than she questioned her visions of the future.  After losing to Kaiba, I can imagine her looking back on her whole life and every decision she made and trying to figure out if she could/should have made other choices.  She’s a character that I wish well in her struggle to live without rules to follow or a future to obey.  I also like that Isis has her own reasons for being at Battle City and her own story.

All the people I ship romantically with this character: Mai, Seto Kaiba. Please see below for visionshipping. Trustshipping: Isis is one of the few characters Kaiba feels a connection to.  At Alcatraz, Isis gets through to him with her determination to die not only for, but with Malik.  I think Kaiba is right to see the parallel with himself at Duelists Kingdom, but I think the parallel here is not just self-sacrifice but guilt; both feel that they are to blame for not doing more to protect their siblings.  And I think that feeling of helplessness and self blame is the true connection between them, as is their ruthlessness when it comes to meeting their goals.  Interestingly, they are both have compelling goals at Battle City (Isis to save her brother and Kaiba to free himself from Gozaburo’s influence) and then use means to pursue those goals that if they worked would ensure their goals were never met.

The name trustshipping is a bit of a misnomer for me because Isis only trusts Kaiba because she thinks she can foresee and therefore control his actions, and Kaiba neither trusts Isis nor himself when it comes to returning Obelisk.  Interestingly, neither initially is good at trusting to other people, with Isis trusting only her own visions, even when they lead to a future she fears and Kaiba trusting in himself and his ability to change the future.

My non-romantic OTP for this character: Malik and Rishid.  I just think there is so much healing that needs to be done with all three of these characters.  And in a way, all three of them need to learn how to live without the weight of destiny on them. 

My unpopular opinion about this character: I think Isis gets portrayed as being both nicer and more omnipotent than she is.  Isis is completely and utterly ruthless when it comes to achieving her goals.  She tries to use Kaiba as a pawn that will be discarded when he has served his purpose.  She doesn’t try to warn or stop Malik from hurting people, even Rishid.  This is partly because she believes this is all inevitable, but also, I’m not sure that the fate of anyone but her family really gets through to her.  

She’s also portrayed in fandom as using her foresight to play Kaiba for a fool.  But the main point with Isis’s ability to see the future is that it’s flawed, that the future can’t be foreseen because each person has a role to play in creating their own future for themselves.  Isis herself learns this at the end of their duel and it seems such an important lesson that I don’t like to see it negated.

I like Isis for her courage, loyalty, determination and her grace under pressure, but I also think she has some real flaws and after Alcatraz has had all of her ideas of life and destiny upended and I think her weaknesses and confusion is part of what makes her compelling,

One thing I wish would happen / had happened with this character in canon: I really wish we had seen more of Ishtar siblings after Alcatraz or in DSoD, because it seems to me that the real work of becoming a family had only begun.  (At this rate DSoD would have to be a mini-series to incorporate everything I want to see!)  Anway, I really prefer portrayals that deal with her coming to grips with that.

My OTP: I’m going to blame @pharaohsparklefists for getting me into visionshipping with her Mai and Isis as cop and life partners in Playing with Fire (Link: http://archiveofourown.org/works/7688419/chapters/17514520) .  I think their personalities work together so well.  They are both very invested in appearing confident and poised, but in such different ways – and both use confidence as a facade to cover up a lot of insecurity.  I could see Mai’s in-your-face brashness playing off really well with Isis’ more dignified style.  I think they are perfect for any action AUs – in addition to detectives, I would love to see them in a “Leverage” style Robin Hood AU, with Isis as the suave grifter/computer hacker and Mai is a cat burglar - and they both get chances to show off their fighting skills and plan the jobs together as a sort of a two person Leverage team…  

I get that in canon there are obvious issues given that Isis’ brother is Malik, but I like the pairing because of I think it has a great match of personalities.  And honestly, even in more canon centered things, the combination of two characters who are perfect for each other, but who are also faced with a serious obstacles makes for one angsty pairing and I’m a sucker for that, so…

My cross over ship:  It’s not so much a crossover ship, but I would love to see them in the Leverage universe.  If you wanted to round out a full five person Leverage team, in addition to grifter Isis and thief Mai, Kaiba could be the hacker/engineer, Jounouchi, the muscle, and Yami and Yugi could share the mastermind role. 

A headcanon fact: Malik and Rishid will wear sweatpants and T-shirts, but even around the house, Isis has never learned to feel comfortable in slouchy casual clothes.

Where does the whole “Parker does not like touching” thing come from though? I am not taking into account Sophie’s words in The Maltese Falcon Job because this is Sophie talking.

What bothers me with such a reading of the character is that if you thread her development in the show, Parker does what exactly? Overcome her issues with touching? Not liking being touched is not an issue, it’s a personal mileage. It doesn’t need to be fixed or overcome.

It may be a defective reading of the show on my part, but from what I remember, very early on, Parker has no problem having her forehead felt by Sophie, or pushing Hardison, or being touched by Nate, or poking Eliot, or taking Josie’s head, or generally sitting very close to her team members. None of them are really touchy-feely in the first place; they are strangers, they are criminals and, most of all, professionals. Leverage Inc. is no Club Med in the beginning. Leverage is a slow-burn when it comes to ALL the relationships. It would be odd for them to be all over each over by episode 4.

What I do get from her –and especially because of and after The 12-Step Job- is that she never considered touching as a way of expressing affection and love. And it figures, the way she was brought up. As a consequence she does not see the point of touching people without a purpose and she does not consider it a danger either –like other people on this team. She knows she is fast enough to avoid being harmed or touched by whoever would want to approach her without her wanting it -cue, fork stabbing. She is a very physical person; the way objects and people interact on a physical level with her is paramount to her – instant pudding, licking donuts to test them, poking Sophie to ensure she’s alive: Parker often needs to touch and feel to experience. She just does not equate, at first, wrapping your arms around someone with “I care about you”.

This is also why Parker did not hug Hardison in The Grave Danger Job; by season 4, Parker is much more comfortable with touching as a way of expressing deep affection and the implication of such a hug at that moment would have been too much for her. Hardison loves people and pours out his love in his hugs, his devotion in hands at the small of the back, his affection in awkward or mastered high-fives, but he is also the most careful of boundaries in the group. And Parker knows it when she flees from Hardison’s touch in the cemetery. Because Parker is afraid to care about people. Touching is not an issue, caring is and it hurts so much.

But you know who is very obviously uncomfortable with touching and being touched? Eliot, Nate and Sophie. Eliot who knows just how fragile bodies are. Nate who is wary of how powerful a message of love touching can be. And Sophie who uses touching as a weapon.

Yet, she delivers the astonished “Parker, touching?”. Do the math.

Why I believe it’s unlikely that Chuuya has been abused in the past

Now, this theory is from a psychological standpoint. I find it even more unlikely that Asagiri-sensei-or any author, really- would write a story with psychology in mind. However, I’m going to throw this out there anyways. Make of it what you will. Just please, please be respectful.

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i was called upon to write anime recommendations.

Sailor Moon: a great show to watch if you want to see a cat talk shit on her dumbass owner/resident superhero for 200 episodes.

Death Note: a great show to watch if you’re 17, have decent grades, and recently decided you’re a nihilist.

Monster: a great show to watch if you want to feel vaguely sad about communism.

Revolutionary Girl Utena: a great show to watch if you feel like questioning every single aspect of your gender, sexuality, upbringing, family life, friendships, relationships, and life goals, and ultimately conclude that the world is a cruel, cruel place. (But actually it’s a masterpiece and every human should watch it.)

The Wallflower: a great show to watch if you want to feel ~UTTERLY DELIGHTED FOREVER AND EVER AND EVER~

Elfen Lied: a great show to watch if you thought Kill Bill Vol. 1 was holding back.

Romeo x Juliet: a great show to watch if when you had to read Romeo and Juliet you kept thinking “this play would be vastly improved if Juliet was a gender-bending vigilante hero and Shakespeare himself made super meta cameos throughout the production.”

Darker than Black: a great show to watch if you want some seriously gnarly “would you rather” prompts.

Ano Hana: a great show to watch if you’re nostalgic about your childhood and want that nostalgia to be emotionally exploited.

Gundam SEED: a great show to watch if you wish the CW would set one of their middling teen dramas in space, with robots.

Shingeki no Kyojin: a great show to watch if you like feeling disgusted and terrified at the same time. Also if you like yelling.

Sailor Moon Crystal: a great show to watch if you really like to feel disappointed.

Psycho Pass: a great show to watch if you just took your first college literature class and really want to feel the satisfaction of understanding a “Gulliver’s Travels” reference.

Fate/Zero: a great show to watch if you never want to be happy again for the rest of your life.

Fate/Stay Night (2006): a great show to watch if you love hilariously ham-fisted metaphors for sex.

Fate/Stay Night: Unlimited Blade Works: a great show to watch if you ARE THE BONE OF YOUR SWORD/are a teenage boy in need of wish fulfillment.

Sword Art Online: a great show to watch if you want to learn how not to write a second arc.

Cowboy Bebop: a great show to watch if you need to turn your swag on.

Rose of Versailles: a great show to watch if you want the groove of the 1970s and all the sparkles of Shoujo forcibly injected into the history of the French revolution.

Puella Magi Madoka Magica (aka Utena Lite): a great show to watch if you recently discovered feminism and are starting to feel a type of way about it.

Neon Genesis Evangelion: a great show to watch if you want to trigger your existential crisis.

Steins;Gate: a great show to watch if there is an OTP in the fan fic called your life.

Code Geass: a great show to watch if you want to know what it feels like to have an orgasm that lasts for 18 hours and 20 minutes (approx. run time).

a-filthy-skeptic  asked:

Did you see the Laci video?

I mean, fair play to her for making this video. I think we just need to wait and see how that translates for her in the future.

It also answers a few of my own questions about her. I didn’t know that she had a strict Mormon upbringing. That explains her (sometimes extreme) sex positivity and push of feminism. It sounds like she genuinely was taught that she was lesser for being a woman in her own family and close community, so in her rebellion, it makes sense that she’d translate her own personal experiences and then extrapolate to every woman’s experience. Plus, she has Iranian ancestry that I didn’t know about. That background will link in, too.

I think it’s unfair that there are comments about her just wanting to stay “relevant.” Maybe that’s the case, maybe it isn’t, but I think it’s fairer to reserve judgement and then see where she goes from here. If the video’s genuine, then it’s definitely a positive step, so kudos to her.

anonymous asked:

Hey since you enjoy talking about your oc's can you talk a bit about Felix? He seems really cool :)

He seems really cool? that’s a real accomplishment for someone with a heap personal difficulties about as big as the ship he works on. Starting with mass daddy issues closely followed by his problem with authority, ever increasing sex addiction and on going habit of running away from his problems. He would be thrilled to hear that you think he’s cool. Shepard certainly doesn’t. But to be honest u’re probably not that far off, outside those things Felix is actually not that easily rattled, been almost always cheerful, confident and a natural born survivor. He is one of the crews non-human members belonging to a species called the Verien who although they look remarkably human have anatomical and culture differences that disturb most vintage human society. Felix personally is the crews carpenter, hired by Daisan because not only was Felix cheap but also exceptionally talented both in his craft and as a translator on account of knowing 7 different languages, one of which is Saras’s native tongue (this accounts for his particular friendship with her). His linguistic skills, although never utilized by Helen, do have an edge in helping his big mouth get him in trouble by aiding his ability to vocalize some level of mischief and or questionable logical. On account of his Veiren upbringing he also fails to understand difference in gender and how to identify it, labeling it stupid and boring and can be seen looking remarkably smug when the crew shares his pain in the face of species that have several genders and pronouns to match. Thus he calls everyone ‘they’ much to Helens disgust. His near stubborn ignorance branches outward to most subjects of etiquette and social taboo including his complete disregard for utensils, occasional clothes, withholding intrusive questions and personal space. Despite all his bluntness Felix is notably kind, hugely affectionate, holds no judgement, is patient and has a vast capacity for love and bravery. His extreme character means that some members of the crew such as Daisan have an immediate fondness of him while others, particularly Helen, would like very much to shoot him. His favorite things to do include carving combs, spoons and boxes, annoying Shepard and getting laid as much he can at every port they stop at.