a place for grief

anonymous asked:

What do you think of Harry saying SOTT is about a mom dying in childbirth. I'm just ??????? What do you think SOTT is about?

For reference:

‘Sign of the Times’ came from ‘This isn’t the first time we’ve been in a hard time, and it’s not going to be the last time.’ The song is written from a point of view as if a mother was giving birth to a child and there’s a complication. The mother is told, ‘The child is fine, but you’re not going to make it.’ The mother has five minutes to tell the child, 'Go forth and conquer.’

Harry Styles, Rolling Stone

When I read this I immediately thought he’s trying to tell us without telling us that Jay was the inspiration for SOTT and making it his lead single is a tribute to her. I mean, that’s my take on it. Makes sense to me.

She prepared her kids (which for all intents and purposes includes Harry) for her death.

Just stop your crying
It’s a sign of the times
Welcome to the final show
Hope you’re wearing your best clothes

Referencing a funeral here.

You can’t bribe the door on your way to the sky
You look pretty good down here
But you ain’t really good

Understand when it’s your time to go, it’s your time to go. Riches can’t save you. Your life may look great from the outside. But it’s not always as good as it looks. And those last two lines may be a reference to how shocked everyone was that young, beautiful, vivacious Jay had passed. It’s not all good in Harry’s hood, even if that’s what the tabloids and paps and gossips make it seem like.

We never learn, we’ve been here before
Why are we always stuck and running from
The bullets, the bullets?
We never learn, we’ve been here before
Why are we always stuck and running from
The bullets, the bullets?

We’re all whistling past the graveyard like death isn’t coming for us and our loved ones. When it comes, we’re devastated. We know it’s coming eventually, but we can’t get in the headspace of truly being ready for it. So we live on the run. Running from death. But it will catch us eventually.

Just stop your crying
It’s a sign of the times
We gotta get away from here
We gotta get away from here
Just stop your crying
It’ll be alright
They told me that the end is near
We gotta get away from here

To everything there is a season. The time of death is upon us. But don’t stay in this place of grief. It’s ok to move on. Keep living your life. 

Just stop your crying
Have the time of your life
Breaking through the atmosphere
And things are pretty good from here

Jay wants her kids to enjoy life, even though she’ll be gone. She’s going to a better place. No more suffering.

Remember, everything will be alright
We can meet again somewhere
Somewhere far away from here

It feels terrible now. But eventually, it’ll get better. And she’ll see them again someday. N.E.R.D.–noone ever really dies. Energy just transforms.

We don’t talk enough
We should open up
Before it’s all too much
Will we ever learn?
We’ve been here before
It’s just what we know

Don’t take your loved ones for granted. Share. Bond. Grow together. Do better. A mother’s wisdom.

I feel like this is where it was going with the dying mom comments. Of course, for many fucked up reasons, he obviously couldn’t say this was about Jay. But I think he dropped enough of a hint for us to pick up. It’s not the first hard time or the last? I think in Ever Since New York, Harry made it clear that hiding his relationship with Louis and engaging in fauxmances has been very painful for him and I’m sure for both families as well. The child is fine, but you’re not going to make it? Yep, all her kids are thankfully fine. The mother has 5 minutes to tell the child to go forth and conquer? That must have been what the last months of her life felt like–5 minutes. Not enough time. But she prepared them. God bless.   

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Hiraeth; (n.) a homesickness for a home to which you cannot return, a home which maybe never was; the nostalgia, the yearning, the grief for the lost places of your past.

Moodboard inspired of Hiraeth by @jungkxook

Mafia AU (Inspired by John Wick)-Submitted by Anonymous

This is not exactly a fic but more of a collection of ideas. I don’t know what to do with it. So maybe others could have a go at it.

Victor is an ex-assassin for the Russian mafia mourning the death of his husband Yuuri. Vicchan, Yuuri’s beloved poodle and sole reason why the two of them met, was left in Victor’s care. While coming into terms with his grief by visiting the first place he met Yuuri, Victor has a run-in with Yurio and his friends which ended with him losing Vicchan as well. This triggered the bloodiest war waged against the Bratva yet.

With Yuuri and Vicchan gone, Victor loses all of his mercy and morality. He slips back into his old assassin persona and becomes hellbent on killing Yurio. It doesn’t matter who stands in his way.

As the top assassin in the world and a former associate, Viktor becomes the greatest threat to the Bratva since Yurio is its heir. They scramble to set up defenses on his inevitable onslaught, call in favors for further support, and even raise a bounty on Viktor’s head.

Meanwhile, the Russian government and the Interpol see this as an opportunity to bring down the mafia. They become an unexpected factor in the war as they would sometimes blatantly back up Viktor or take advantage of the chaos the assassin leaves in his wake during his hunt. 

Many allies, both fake and sincere, tries to keep up with Viktor but he constantly leaves them in the dust. He prefers to work solo and he made a vow to never let anybody close again. Yuuri and Vicchan and their memories together will be enough to sustain him until he could avenge them properly. After that, Viktor looks forward into seeing them again in another life.

Notes:

- Like John Wick in the movie, Victor uses Yuri as a scapegoat for his mourning and loss. Yuuri, an ex-competitive figure skater, died because of a brain injury gained after a bad fall while demonstrating a quad jump to a young fan. It was an accident and Victor couldn’t cope properly with it because he needed something or someone to blame. He felt helpless. So when Yuri and his friends killed Vicchan, he releases all of his pent up frustration and aggression at them.

- Viktor also has a lingering resentment against the Bratva. They made him jump through multiple hoops before finally letting him retire and live in peace with Yuuri. Had they let him go sooner, he would have spent a longer time with Yuuri and Vicchan. He could have been happier for so many more years. He blames them for his “stolen time” with his husband. This resentment grew worse when he discovers during his crusade that there had been attempts on Yuuri’s life by the Bratva before. The reasons for it were unknown but the fact that they tried is enough for him to desire vengeance.

- The “war” goes on for a longer time than the movie because the Bratva is careful in this AU. Yakov knows there will be no negotiating with Viktor so he didn’t bother placating him. He also didn’t underestimate him and straightaway made preparations for the worst. Yuri is smarter as well and is more mature with his reaction against the threat of Victor. He even think of it as his “coming-of-age” test. If he beats Victor, no one will question his authority anymore even if he’s just an adopted son.

- Otabek is Yurio’s only friend and his closest body guard. The rest of people with him when they harassed Victor were just leeches that he had been forced to make nice with for the family’s sake. Those idiots were the ones that grievously harmed Vicchan. Yurio stopped them too late because he was busy with Victor. He’s not a dog lover but he doesn’t condone animal abuse and mercy kills Vicchan to end his suffering - a scene that is forever seared negatively in Victor’s memory. Once Yurio realized how much of a colossal fuck up the incident was, he punishes the idiots accordingly and manages to blackmail their families into helping them in the “war”.

- Lilia Baranovskaya works with the Russian government. She has a history with Yakov Feltsman who is the leader of the Bratva. She doesn’t talk about it but there is an obvious respect between them even if they are on the opposing sides of the law. She also personally knows Viktor.

- Celestino Cialdini and Phichit Chulanont work with the Interpol. Phichit personally knows Victor through Yuuri and genuinely wants to help the assassin.

- Chris Giacometti is a fellow assassin and the only person in the world that Victor might consider as a friend but is extremely dangerous since he is Heel Face Revolving Door trope personified.

- The entire Russian Skating Family had been and/or is still with the Bratva.

- Yuuri doesn’t know about Viktor’s life as an assassin but he can recognize the signs that he was part of the mafia before. It was easy for him to spot them since the Katsukis are yakuza. He grew up in the underworld but eventually escaped from it through competitive skating. His family didn’t resent him for not following the tradition and was truly proud of his accomplishments. Mari was instead groomed as the next leader of the yakuza.

- On their wedding, the Katsukis became suspicious of Victor until Yuuri assures them that his husband really had left his dark past behind. The man is truly enjoying the normal domestic bliss that they share together in Detroit. The family was not entirely convinced. Yuuri allows them to make only idle threats so they will finally let it go but not before extracting a promise from them in return. If ever Victor gets into trouble, the yakuza will help him as they would with Yuuri. Mari would later make good of this promise once she gets a wind of the Viktor’s “war” in Russia.

- Yuuri and Victor met during the Rostelecom Cup. Victor was on a mission at that time when he got “mauled” by an escaped Vicchan. The poodle followed him everywhere and he begrudgingly let him stay with him for a night. He later posts a picture of the dog with some details online in hopes of finding the owner because Vicchan is messing up his schedule. Yuuri later shows up at his rented apartment to pick Vicchan up. They were instantly attracted with each other. Sadly nothing else happens except for an exchange of names but Victor definitely looks up Yuuri Katsuki in his free time after that.

- They met again at GPF Sochi. He was free at that time so Viktor was able to watch Yuuri’s freeskate. Yuuri performed badly because he just received news about his father’s death that morning. Viktor had slipped backstage to check up on Yuuri and heard him crying in the restroom. With no idea how to help Yuuri, Viktor ended up inviting the skater for a drink. Yuuri agreed, blows off the gala and the banquet, and got absolutely smashed with Victor at the club. That night, Victor realized that he actually cares for Yuuri and wants to keep the man close to him. Their night ended with them cuddled up together in a cheap motel dead drunk and half naked. Victor wakes up first that morning and leaves. He left Yuuri his personal contact number so they could keep in touch along with some medicine and water.

- Victor and Yuuri kept in touch after that. They meet up “accidentally” sometimes when Yuuri is competing. They slowly fell in love. They had their first argument and first kiss in a parking lot before the Cup of China gala exhibition. Their first official date was in Saitama during Worlds. Victor finally decides he wants “out” in the mafia after he and Yuuri exchanged rings in Barcelona.

- Victor and Yuuri got married in Detroit. They decided to live there together with Vicchan as soon as Yuuri retired. It was perfect since they both can start a new life far away from their dark pasts together there.

- Victor became suicidal after Yuuri and Vicchan’s death until he meets Makkachin during his crusade. She’s a big old poodle he had “borrowed” from an impound he had broken into during an escape. Makkachin become his Hope Spot.

- No character is safe but between Yurio and Otabek, one will definitely die as the other lives at the end.

- Viktor earned the silly nickname “Old Man Winter” because of his silver hair. The name became synonymous to Boogeyman soon after in the underworld because of Victor’s clinical and efficient kills. No one beats his record yet of the highest body count.

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BTS x untranslatable words : hiraeth (n.) - a homesickness for a home to which you cannot return, a home which maybe never was; the nostalgia, the yearning, the grief for the lost places of your past

Hiraeth (M) | Pt.1

(n.) a homesickness for a home to which you cannot return, a home which maybe never was; the nostalgia, the yearning, the grief for the lost places of your past.

Originally posted by jungkooz

pt.1 | pt.2 | pt.3 | pt.4 | pt.5 | pt.6 | pt.7 | pt.8 | pt.9 | pt.10 | pt.11 |

Words: 12,957.

Genre: Zombie apocalypse au, smut, fluff, angst.

Summary: “I guess we’re not so different after all, huh? Brains, brawns – what does it matter when we’re all just scared of being left alone and stupidly hopeful?”

A/N: Inspired by the wonderful game The Last of Us.

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Hozier sentence meme
  • ❛ Honey, please, try to love me. ❜
  • ❛ I called your name ‘til the fever broke. 
  • ❛ Don’t you ever tame your demons, but always keep them on a leash. ❜ 
  • ❛ It looks ugly, but it’s clean. ❜
  • ❛ Babe, there’s something tragic about you. ❜
  • ❛ Innocence died screaming, honey, ask me I should know. ❜
  • ❛ But I want it, it’s a crime that she’s not around most of the time. ❜
  • ❛ Her fight and fury is fiery, oh but she loves like sleep to the freezing. ❜
  • ❛ I prayed my mind be good to me. ❜
  • ❛ With her sweetened breath, and her tongue so mean, she’s the angel of small death and the codeine scene. ❜
  • ❛ It’s bloody and raw, but I swear it is sweet. ❜
  • ❛ So tired trying to see from behind the red in my eyes, no better version of me I could pretend to be tonight. ❜
  • ❛ Would things be easier if there was a right way? Honey, there is no right way. ❜
  • ❛ I fall in love just a little, oh a little bit every day with someone new. ❜
  • ❛ My lover’s got humor, she’s the giggle at a funeral. ❜
  • ❛ There’s an art to life’s distractions. ❜
  • ❛ I raised a stone to end his pain. ❜
  • ❛ When I was a child, I heard voices… Some would sing and some would scream. ❜
  • ❛ Cause with my mid-youth crisis all said and done, I need to be youthfully felt 'cause, God, I never felt young. ❜
  • ❛ We tried the world, good God, it wasn’t for us.  ❜
  • ❛ I turned and ran to save a life I didn’t have. ❜
  • ❛ But my peace has always depended on all the ashes in my wake. ❜
  • ❛ I wake at the first cringe of morning, and my heart’s already sinned. ❜
  • ❛ Always a well dressed fraud, who wouldn’t spare the rod. Never for me. ❜
  • ❛ I was born sick, but I love it. Command me to be well. ❜
  • ❛ Freshly disowned in some frozen devotion, no more alone or myself could I be. ❜
  • ❛ I clutched my life, and wished it kept. My dearest love, I’m not done yet. ❜
  • ❛ No shortage of sordid, no protest from me. ❜
  • ❛ I have never known peace like the damp grass that yields to me. ❜
  • ❛ Two corpses we were, two corpses I saw. ❜
  • ❛ All that I’ve been taught, and every word I’ve got, is foreign to me. ❜
  • ❛ I have never known hunger like these insects that feast on me. ❜
  • ❛ You’ve done me wrong for a long, long time. But after all you’ve done I never changed my mind. ❜
  • ❛ Honey, you know that’s my love bursting loud from inside. ❜
  • ❛ I’ll tell you my sins and you can sharpen your knife. ❜
  • ❛ The purest expression of grief. ❜
  • ❛ Lord, it’d be great to find a place we could escape sometime. ❜
  • ❛ Idealism sits in prison, chivalry fell on its sword. ❜
  • ❛ I found something in the woods somewhere. ❜
  • ❛ Babe, there’s something broken about this, but I might be hoping about this. ❜
Remember the Promise, Carl Grimes.

A/N: I made another one! I hope you guys like it as much as you have the last ones!

Summary: The reader and Carl are in a “no strings attached” kind of relationship that is as complicated as can be. Due to the disapproval of the reader’s mother they’ve been sneaking around for quite some time. Despite efforts to stop it, they both feel it turning into something more.

(Flashbacks in italics)

Word Count: 15,247

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What if the real source of Remus’s hesitation about marrying Tonks was that he was actually still in love with Sirius? What if marrying her was his way of trying to get over Sirius? What if his freak-out at Grimmauld Place in DH was fueled by a sudden outbreak of grief over Sirius, and his wish to join Harry, Ron and Hermione was actually a wish to feel like he did when he was with the Marauders, like he did when Sirius was there?

anonymous asked:

Susan for the character writing meme?

For a “what do you keep in mind while writing these characters” meme

Things I try to keep in mind while writing Susan Pevensie
1. Beauty– as a gift, a thing grown, a shield.
2. Grief– not as an ocean but as a place you can learn to live.
3. Pride– if not as a virtue, then as a fuck you.

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MAGNIFICENT CENTURY MEME: [4/5] characters: Kosem
I am Kosem, today is a new day. Centuries of an old tradition will be ending. From now on, freedoom from anxiety in place of fear, love in place of hate, happiness in place of grief. The sehzade’s tombs won’t leave this palace anymore. I am Kosem, this is my order, I’m ending the tradition of brother executing a brother. I will open a new road; I will lead. I’ll keep my promise to my late Hunkar, I’ll successfully protect what he entrusted to me. I’ll protect our sehzades, sultanas and this mighty state. I am Kosem Sultan; let everyone hear and know, I am not longer wed to Sultan Ahmed but married to the great Ottoman State!

BuckyNat Week Mini Bang Masterlist

I want to say a big THANK YOU to our 16 teams for this year’s mini bang! Everyone should go check out all of the fics and the artwork, which you can find here: BuckyNat Week 2017 Mini Bang.

as time goes by by  bucksnatalia and art by fontscosplay

Natasha came to in a dirty alleyway, a discarded newspaper beside her. She groaned as she pushed herself to her knees, rubbing the back of her aching neck. How long she’d been knocked out, she had no idea, but she was relieved at least to see a car driving by on the road ahead of her – an old car, but a car nonetheless. At least she hadn’t been shot back to the time of the dinosaurs or anything. 

She reached for the newspaper, scanning it for the date. 

Her eyes widened when she found it; February, 1943. “Shit,” she said under her breath.

SHIELD is once again messing with things it shouldn’t be, and this time, it gets Natasha sucked back into the 1940s.
 
At least her cute future boyfriend is there to show her around?

Bright Lights, Big City by joerobards and art by dreaminglikeeames

After James died as Captain America, the Winter Soldier and Black Widow have been hard at work. The Zephyr Project was a secret the Red Room had buried deep within James’s head, and uncovering the secrets of it wasn’t going to be easy. Their recent lead has lead them straight to the Los Angeles County Art Museum. Between Breathing lights and the Rain Room, a run in with a few HYDRA agents turns out to be a little more than they had expected.

Dreaming Aloud by eustaciavye28 and art by coffee-your-teapot/loonymoons

Anxiety and grief have their place, Dr. Yelba told him when he broke down in one session. There is no shame in tears, in memories, in feeling. We must find a place to keep them, before they get overwhelming.

Bucky found his peace with Natasha, in ways he never thought he would.

How We Get There by steverogersnotebook and art by lasenbyphoenix

When Bucky needs to get from Chicago to California, Steve remembers Natasha’s dream to drive across country along Historic Route 66. He sets them up for the drive, hoping it will give Bucky the inspiration he needs to move on from the motorcycle hit and run that cost him his arm, and changed his outlook on life. If anything can, he knows that an extended road trip with Natasha who will likely drag Bucky into every tourist trap along the way, just might do the trick.

I Called Him Mine by pastismyown and art by geisterschloesser

Natasha has spent the last few decades mourning the loss of her soul mate, a man who was taken from her before she even knew who he truly was. All of that is about to change.

If Love Wants You: Everything Your Mouth Remembers by blessedharlot and art by falcon-hill

Bucky threw his gaze to the far wall. “If this…” He trailed off and shook his head vigorously. “If this fix doesn’t work, Natalia, I don’t want you here.”

“If this fix doesn’t work,” Nat explained gently, “and I’ve done the triggering…”

She stepped closer to him, close enough that Bucky could feel her body heat radiate across the bare flesh of his arm. He could feel the soft currents of her breath brushing his skin.

She continued. “Then you’re under my control, taking my commands.” Her smile curved further into something mischievous. “I’m good with that scenario,” she whispered. 

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It’s post-MCU Civil War, and Bucky has complicated new medical advances and relationships to navigate.

Jigsaw Falling Into Place by lostinastainedglassdaydream and art by mirandaleiggi

Loose ends are something she hates. Amidst everything, it’s one thing she cannot afford.

And the fact there’s multiple ends missing, means she has to take a detour to find them.

Pancakes by yeleenabelovaaa and art by erisandbtheapple

After Natasha drops Bucky off after the events on the moon (BW issue 10 by Waid…), robots attack New York and they struggle to reconnect over the rubble of their relationship.

Paris, 1956 by wikiaddicted723 and art by chichots

The Algerian War spills over the streets of Paris, and the KGB’s best assets have been sent to pour fuel into the fire. Posing as the ideal married couple–young, beautiful, and nauseatingly in love–the Black Widow and the Winter Soldier must prevent the Algerian Peace Envoy from ending the conflict.

Unknown and overlooked in a foreign country, away from the ever-looming threat of their handlers, they take a moment. Resume their affair.

Reason to Hope by bucks-metal-fate and art by yawpkatsi

Over missions together, moments of training and moments of intimacy, Bucky and Natasha work to reacquaint themselves all over again, and while it’s not all smooth sailing, some moments definitely leave behind a reason for both Bucky and Natasha to hope that the life ahead of them is worth all the loss and pain of their pasts.

Remember The Time by kingaofthewoods and art by mushewhosta

What do Michael Jackson, the Lindy Hop, and two Soviet assassins in love have in common? Surprisingly a lot, actually.

A shameless romp through the years, with the King of Pop providing a soundtrack.

Then and Again by drivingdeanwinchester and art by mirandaleiggi

Starting over is often easier said than done, but everything old need not remain that way. Of course, there’s no growing without the growing pains. Thin Mints and Lego bouquets make the process a little more enticing.

Therapy by iheartbuckynat and art by squidfeathersart-blog

As part of his treatment in Wakanda, Bucky undergoes psychotherapy sessions. While trying to unravel the Winter Soldier, he begins to explore a memory of a mysterious woman he knew in the late 1950s.

We’re Both of Us Beneath Our Love by sierranovembr and art by pathulu

Many thought that the saga of James “Bucky” Barnes was over after his explosive exit from the dance scene five years ago. Barnes electrified the community when he became the youngest principal dancer in the history of the American Ballet Theatre at the age of 19. After a shocking injury, he walked out of ABT, turning his back on the company that had nurtured him since he was a boy and giving a series of blistering interviews condemning the company’s treatment of their dancers.

Natasha Romanov left her nest at Moscow’s Bolshoi Ballet at the start of a less controversial journey. She has floated among companies as lightly as she floats though grand jetés on the stage. Though recently she seems to have found a new home at the Royal Ballet, and at Barnes’ side.

Within The Ashes by laurelsalexis and art by karendrawsheeyay

Post-tws. Nothing makes sense with Bucky. He wonders if it’ll ever make sense.

The Wolf and the Sparrow by derriere-extraordinare and art by octozoid

Some people live their whole lives without awakening the magick within them. Natasha and Bucky are not among them.

Nat has been closed off to any relationship ever since the Incident, but when she meets Bucky at her gym and he won’t leave her alone, she can’t help but give into their connection. And it changes everything.