a people after my own heart

10

Something bitter is felt in the atmosphere… it’s hard to tell with such a smiling face.

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After a long wait, with the help of my buddy @sparksparta, I finally bring you the first part of the comic ‘Bendy in Disney!’ Thank you everyone for your support in this comic, I have been reading your tags and they really warmed my heart! <3

- Mun’s note under cut.

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bbc.com
Romania to withdraw corruption decree after mass protests - BBC News
The prime minister's announcement follows huge protests against the controversial decree.

YES! Thank God, yes! Thank you from the bottom of my heart to the hundreds of thousands of my fellow Romanians – we marched on the streets even in January frost, we protested and our voices were heard and listened to! 

Never be afraid to stand up and make yourself counted, for it is governments that must serve the will of the people, rather than their own narrow, selfish goals.  

I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again:
The women of the walking dead are so much stronger-willed than the men. Michonne never lost her will to fight, even after losing her family. Rosita was willing to shoot at Negan point-blank.
Maggie stood up after watching her husband be brutally murdered, while very sick, and told Rick to fight. Sasha had watched Abraham die in front of her, and she still made it her priority to comfort Rosita and then get Maggie to Hilltop. Carol is strong willed in living her life by her rules, and nobody else’s. Tara lost her girlfriend, fought her way back to her family, watched two people get slaughtered in front of her in her home, and still volunteered to take the blame for the bullet.
Point is, the women of the walking dead own my heart and soul.

Adoption/parental rights, next of kin, paternity/maternity leave, rights to see someone in the hospital, just to name a few … I know there are many more.

My heart breaks for lgbt people and families that they have to worry this way.

The maid of honor at my wedding is gay. We were talking on election night and her wife was beside herself (so was I). Knowing they’re worried not just for their fellow citizens but also for their own family (they have two boys) breaks my heart and infuriates me.

Knowing too that we could take such a big step backwards after having celebrated such large strides forward just makes it worse.

I pray Trump was just talk and he won’t follow through with his threats… But that also makes me mad because it just proves what an absolute LIAR President Tiny Hands is and it makes me fear him even more since we can’t trust anything he says.

You know one of the worst feelings in the world,” she said,
“It’s being mad at someone who isn’t even sorry. If there’s anything I’ve learned on this planet after almost nineteen years, it’s that people mess up. Sometimes people mess up so bad that they actually leave you doubting your own self worth, sometimes people will hurt you so much you feel like their absence has also taken away your ability to breathe. And you want to hate them, my god you want to hate their guts. But you never can and the truth is you probably never will. They’ll hurt you and they’ll have no recognition for shattering your heart like broken glass along a kitchen floor. And you know the worst part of it all? It’s that sometimes, you’ll end up wanting to forgive someone who isn’t even apologetic.
—  He never apologised but I forgave him anyway //
Excerpt of a book I’ll never write

→ ❝DISHONORED sentence starters❞

  • “We all start with innocence, but the world leads us to guilt.”
  • “The world doesn’t punish wicked people.”
  • “Do you think you’ll get your own squad after what happened last night?”
  • “When you are near, my heart is at peace.” 
  • “She had to die!” 
  • “You’re a mystery, and I can’t have that.”
  • “Our choices always matter to someone, somewhere.” 
  • “I do believe this is going to be a fabulous evening.”
  • “Careful, he’s armed.”
  • “I was born into nothing, and it’s nothing I’ll return to.”
  • “Going to a party?”
  • “Coming from a party?”
  • “There’s always more to learn about pain.”
  • “I hope you don’t mind having a lady in your room.”
  • “You were making funny faces when you were sleeping.”
  • “May all the spirits guide you, and may your enemy’s head hit the floor without you taking a scratch.”
  • “Are you hoping to stab me in the back?”
  • “I don’t know about you, but I’ve had a lovely time.” 
  • “I’ve killed a hundred of your kind, and I’ll kill a thousand more before I’m gone.”
  • “I’ve lived a long, long time, and these are the moments I wait for.”
  • “You fascinate me.”
  • “Are all artists narcissists?”
  • “Strange how there’s always a little more innocence left to lose.”
  • “I’m just a little fish in a big pond.”
  • “Are you chasing something, or running away?”
  • “You move so silently. You could be a dancer.”
  • “I have no regrets. What about you?”
  • “What happens to scary monsters in the end?”
  • “I treat every sunset as if it’s our last.”
  • “When the music stops, we all fall down.”
  • “It’s that moment just before the light goes that matters most of all.”
  • “I’m enjoying our renewed friendship.”
  • “You have no right to take this from me!”
  • “Your life has taken a turn, has it not?”
  • “All things end, all things burn to ash. But you, my friend, burn bright.”
  • “There’s blood on all the coins that pass through here.”
  • “My mother warned me never to make an enemy of a witch.”
  • “My life is yours. Kill me or let me live, if it even matters to you.”
  • “I expect a good show.” 
  • “Let’s go home.”
10

“My people, my servants, my love, even I, not a single person, loved me.Thus, I did not receive love from anyone.”

OMFG, GRIM REAPER REMEMBERS EVERYTHING (as a punishment for misusing his powers for personal reasons)! Wang Yeo’s been taking the decoction knowing that it was poison! He’s been slowly killing, tormenting and punishing himself and not only his body, but his heart and soul as well. In in the end he committed the gravest sin of ending his own life which he has spend thinking that no one ever loved him when even he loathed himself! And after 900 years he learns from the man he had betrayed and hurt the most in the world how dearly he was loved and protected! And that very man trusts him with his sister’s safety while GR breaks all the rules to tell him that Eun Tak will die soon!

This drama has just managed to kill me with all the feels! GOBLIN IS SO FREAKING EPIC! I really needed to say this because I haven’t had the chance so far. My only regret about this show is that I haven’t had the time to gush over it from the start. It has the golden trifecta of acting, directing and writing plus so much more  - an utterly sublime soundtrack, but most importantly, probably the awesomest bromance that has been ever featured in kdrama. The show truly doesn’t have a second male lead because both men are the main protagonists of the story - they have shaped each other’s personalities, lives and fates for thousand of years, they made each other into what they are…

Yes, Even You.

I wrestle a lot with insecurity.

I don’t say that as a trendy badge or a “relatable” label. I mean really: it’s debilitating sometimes and I have this shame-loop playing in my head over and over, slithering across the edges of my brain-folds.

Having just finished preaching at an incredible retreat over the weekend, with a beautiful church full of open receptive hearts, I still find that I’m beating myself up over flubbed points, the missed opportunities, and the “Why did I say it like that?” Even after I’ve preached about 800 sermons by now, I’m still learning to “find my voice,” as the poets say. (I don’t say any of this out of self-pity or for false sympathy, by the way. Some of my own criticism of myself is true and valuable.)

I have to keep remembering what God decides to do with the sermon in the hearts of people is actually none of my business. God does the changing part. I can only prepare and show up. And there’s no perfect sermon. Just an imperfect guy with a perfectly generous Father who can work miracles through dirty stained glass.

I often feel like I’m not good enough, smart enough, sharp enough—but that’s closer to the truth than I dare believe. I’m actually not enough. Not by myself. I don’t have what it takes: I never had it. He has to be enough for me. He has to be my rest when my mind goes into that vicious loop, and He has to be my resolve to get up and go again.

Even more, I still can’t believe that anyone would ask me to speak at an event. I’ve never gotten over that feeling, like, “Are you sure? Me?” But yes. Somehow God includes us into His story, even people like you and me. His answer is, Yes, you. You’re the one I want for this. You, the entire insecure weird crazy twitchy you.

I don’t think I will ever, ever get over it. I’m learning just to show up, insecure as always, and simply be grateful that I get to make noises with my mouth that might bless a few people. A new voice is forming in my head, a still small whisper that says, “Rest now, child, and resolve to breathe another day.”
— J

Every single people who joined the fandom after Bernie arrived or because they saw Berena related post on here I beg you to watch Serena’s backstory, I didn’t think it was possible for me to adore her more than I did after watching the bernie/berena storyline but I was wrong, she now owns my heart and I would die for her. She needs to be protected, at all cost! So go ahead, go catch up and come talk to me about it once it’s done, I’ll wait for you!

“Do you regret it?” She asked me.

And I always knew questions like that we’re going to come my way; but maybe that wasn’t such a bad thing after all. Maybe it was the opportunity for me to finally admit the truth to myself.

And so I told her, “no - no, I don’t regret it,” and for once I could look back on this love without a heavy heart, or words burning in my throat and tripping over my own words - instead I could accept it for what it was, “just because the end was confusingly painful, doesn’t mean I didn’t enjoy what I had. People come and go all the time, it’s just a matter of when.”

She just looked at me, with the same realization in her eyes and then she asked, “would you change anything though?”

I never told her this but there was a lot of things I would’ve changed, and there’s a lot of things I never got to say or do, but I don’t know maybe that’s for the better and so I just told her, “I think I should’ve let him go before it was too late, but uh,” and I let out a little chuckle, “it was too late.”

—  c.f. // “I never meant to love anyone more than they loved me”

dmatheson8: After four years with the Spirit I will be moving on to Seattle. As my time in DC comes to an end it is without a doubt bittersweet. The club gave me so much over the time I was there and I’ll miss so many things: The fans are among the most dedicated in the league (shout out to the Spirit Squadron), the people at the SoccerPlex and the fields they take care of are top class, and all the people that own/coach/work/volunteer/host players for the Spirit give their heart and soul to that club day in and day out. I’m proud of the people that I got to play and work with, and our push to improve on and off the field every season. It of course hurts that we didn’t reach the pinnacle last season, but I’m excited to see the club continue to push for that championship. Most of all I’ll miss my teammates and friends that play and live in the DMV.

All that said, after four years and some hard thought, I’ll be leaving the Spirit. Jim and staff have been great and there has been nothing but honest conversations during the off-season. They have been pushing to do what’s right for the club, but ultimately respected my decision. I truly appreciate all the work Jim put in to work together with me on this.This business can be a tough one, and I leave with nothing but respect and gratitude for the club.

Now I’m looking ahead with excitement to 2017 with the Seattle Reign. I am grateful as well to the Reign and to Laura for bringing me out west, and I can’t wait to begin my time there. I look forward to joining the great players, coaches, fans and people that make up the Reign. See you all soon!

6

“Physical Culture” was a 19th Century movement that can best be described as “heavy gymnastics,” as in gymnastics with aspects of what we’d call weight training today.

The creator of the magazine was Bernarr MacFadden, who was a former circus wrestler turned publisher, kind of a nut, and maybe one of the most interesting people of the early 20th Century. Bernarr MacFadden wrote all kinds of works entitled things like Weakness: A Crime, Vitality Supreme, and my personal favorite, Virile Powers of Superb Manhood. Not only was he vegetarian and a compulsive exerciser, he also believed sex and free love was healthy. Lots of orgies were held in his “healthatoriums,” and he even founded a religious cult based on his health theories, “cosmotarianism.” Kind of like how people say Crossfit or veganism are kind of cultish today.

On a scifi pulp note, his publishing empire at one point owned Amazing Stories after 1931.

Macfadden was friends with Mussolini and Franklin Delano Roosevelt. When his daughter died of a heart condition, he said, “it’s better she’s gone; she only would have disgraced me.” On the other hand, he believed doctors were quacks, and though he claimed he would be the first man to live to be 150, he died because he refused antibiotics for a urinary tract infection.

Kpop – SM Entertainment - My truth behind their lies

I’ve been thinking to post this for a while now, but every time I talk myself into doing it I back down at the last moment. You’ll probably ask me why? The answer is simple, what I’m about to say - my opinion of things - might offend a lot of people. But I can’t stay silent anymore, not after reading the insider info from 2012.

I began listening to Kpop sometime between 2007 and 2008. The first group that caught my attention was 2PM from JYP, but I shortly turned to TVXQ form SM who at the time was considered the best kpop group of the moment.
I lived in a blissful ignorance until in 2009 TVXQ disbanded and three of the five members filed lawsuits against their company, invoking as motive their 13 years long slave contracts. To say I was devastated is an understatement, but after the shock of the news wore off I began reading about the Kpop culture with its good and bad parts.

Up until that moment I have lived with the impression that the music industry in Korea was just like it is in Europe and America, but boy was I wrong.

I discovered that the Korean entertainment industry has a specific way of creating its artists. The future idols are molded to be perfect. They are chosen after a rigorous selection, then trained meticulously - and I don’t mean just in singing and dancing, but also in speech, behavior and appearance. They are trained for long periods of time, depending on the luck of the artist, and then they are offered restrictive “slave contracts”. After debut idols are forced to perform under less than ideal circumstances – long hours, through injuries and illnesses, hungry and tired. Because the short “shelf life” of an entertainer they are always working: concerts, event-packed schedules,  variety shows, appearances on the radio, interviews, game shows in order to promote their albums, photo shoots and so on. This kind of life doesn’t limit itself to music artists, but to actors, comedians, MC’s and models too. And through all this long and hard process the artist answers to their management company often under unfair conditions, because they own them. (Yvonne Yuen, VP of International Marketing for Universal Music, quoted in 2012 in SPIN : “They’re not just singers or dancers… Their system develops a holistic entertainer in all aspects: singing, dancing, acting, presentation, all of it,”)

After finding out all that, I realized that the Kpop industry is unethical and exploitative, I would go as far as saying that it violates human rights. And unfortunately things are unlikely to change as managements fill the demands of the insatiable fans with new groups every year, all respecting the same “recipe”.

Having a clearer picture of what was, and still is, happening in the Kpop industry, through the years I kept a close tab on the controversies involving SM Entertainment, from scandal rumors to lawsuits filled by its artists.

You all probably know that SM is the largest Kpop agency in South Korea. It was founded by Lee Soo Man and it is an active record label since 1995. SM name is associated with former groups like H.O.T., S.E.S., Fly to the Sky and Shinhwa, who had a huge success until 2001. Now they hold most of the largest international popular Kpop groups like BoA, TVXQ, Super Junior, Girls’ Generation, SHINee, f(x), EXO and Red Velvet.

But in spite of their success they treat their artists as disposable money-generating machines. You all know that it’s true. You don’t believe me? Let me give you some examples:

In September 2005, TVXQ’s Kim Jaejoong ruptured the cartilage in his knee and had surgery to repair the tissue, he couldn’t participate in the Rising Sun performances, but even in a cast he had to perform in their next song Tonight.

Super Junior’s Kyuhyun, Leeteuk, Shindong and Eunhyuk were involved in a serious car accident in 2007. Kyuhyun almost died from it. He had a fractured hip, punctured lungs from broken ribs, and facial scratches and bruises. He was in a coma for four days and was given 20% chances to live. Kyuhyun began participating in the group activities after roughly 5 months.

In 2010 F(x)’s Kristal (though I don’t like her, she is important to make my poit >_<) fainted on stage during Mr. Boogie performance. She also fainted on “Kiss & Cry” in 2011 after her performance on the ice.

And don’t get me started on EXO cause I just want to kill their managers. They had to perform injured or ill so many times T_T. During Wolf Jongin, the lead dancer had to perform with a waist injury. EXO-M’s Tao had to perform their comeback single, “Overdose” even though he was ill with a fever. At MAMA 2014 Chanyeol had to perform though he was sick (I think he almost fainted while resting offstage waiting for the choreography to include him again). I could go on and on and on…

And there are so many more examples… all happening for the same reasons: fatigue, lack of sleep, dieting, neglect from their management.

Are you wandering what explanations SM gave us, the fans? None. They made the artists apologize for their condition and promise that they will take better care of themselves in the future. WHAT THE F**K?!

In my opinion SM treats its artists deplorably. They demand perfection from some human beings, and from what I know no one, I repeat, no one is perfect no matter how hard he/she tried since it isn’t in human nature.

Also they don’t just limit themselves at dictating what the artists do or say during work hours, they also manage their personal lives by using the clause in the contract that says that they can’t date.

But scandals are meant to happen and from their way of dealing with, or not deal with, the fallout from these controversies you can tell just how manipulative SM really is.

Let me explain.

In late July 2009, three of the TVXQ members: Kim Jaejoong, Park Yoochun and Kim Junsu, filled a lawsuit against SM asking for the nullification of their contracts with the label. They invoked as motive their 13 years long slave contracts. And what do you know, after only a month, in august 2009, F(x) was introduced to the people.

On December 2009, after only five months since the three TVXQ members had filed their lawsuit, Han Geng of Super Junior also filed one. His reasons were similar to that of JYJ, the 13 years contract, the illnesses he had developed from being overworked, and discrimination. He wasn’t allowed to see his family, his visa was handled by SM, the unfair distribution of wealth etc. After years of legal disputes, Han Geng and SM parted ways in September 2011. And in January 2012 EXO debuted. Coincidence? I think not.

For a while things were good for SM, but then 2014 came…

At the beginning of 2014 Girl’s Generation’s Tiffany, Sooyoung, and Yoona were involved in dating scandals. The revealing of the relationships went public in rapid succession on the eve of the groups’ comeback. Hmmm… SM confirmed the dating rumors in Tiffany and Yoona’s cases, but denied that Sooyoung was dating actor Jung Kyung Ho. Yoona and Lee Seung’s relationship received a positive reaction from the fans, as did Tiffany and 2PM’s Nichkhun’s, and the group comeback was not damaged in any way. I might add that the publicity didn’t hurt one bit.

Then there was the incident with Hyoyeon. She was involved in a physical altercation with her ex-boyfriend that led to police involvement. SM did a good job at deflecting the attention from the incident though.

Some might be wandering why SM chose to confirm all these dating rumors so quickly and I’ll say that it’s probably due to the issue of the large-scale tax evasion of over $10 million USD they were accused of. And that proved to be legit, causing embarrassment and damaging the label’s reputation.

In the same year on May 2014 Kris (Wu Yifan) a member of EXO filed a similar case to Han Gengs’ against SM. In June 2014 Girls’ Generation’s Taeyeon and EXO’s Baekhyun were confirmed dating. The news didn’t please fans one bit and it all took unthinkable proportions. It was so bad that Taeyeon had to apologize to the fans for dating Baek (do you apologize for loving someone? It doesn’t take a rocket scientist to answer that question.). To soften the blow, on August 2014, Red Velvet made their official debut. But subsequently were followed by Luhan’s departure from SM in October 2014.

Tao sued SM on April 2015 due to injuries sustained during EXO performances and other health issues.

With three members of EXO leaving, SM’s stock price fell in a matter of minutes and the wrath of EXO-L was unlashed upon the company.

But things didn’t end here for SM.

F(x)’s Sulli withdrew from the group as of August 2015, after being on hiatus since 2014 in order to take a break from being an idol and regain her health.

Shortly after Sulli’s departure, SM Entertainment announced that Jessica Jung from Girls Generation has officially terminated her contract with them. And the reason they invoked was that Jessica wasn’t committed to the group. And I say bullshit; it was because of her fashion business from which they couldn’t extort money.

If you’re wondering what happened to all these artists, I will tell you. They all left Korea and began promoting in other countries since SM’s influence will never allow them to have a carrier there anymore.

Look at JYJ for example. Their dispute ended in 2012, but they still can’t promote on music shows in their own country, because SM’s influence is so great that no one wants to cross it.

A few days ago another scandal involving SM was made public and I wander what is going to happen next? What is this relationship between EXO’s Kai and F(x)’s Krystal meant to cover? It is true or just a fabrication?

I do not have the answers, but I pray that nothing bad will happen.

With its scheming ways SM Entertainment brought me a lot of heartaches (sigh… YunJae, KaiSoo and ChanBaek), but I’ve learnt to deal with the drama.

All the things I wrote in this post are my beliefs. I don’t say that they are 100% true, but you must admit that some things are just fishy.

I hope I didn’t bore you to death with my conspiracy theories. ^^

Red Queen

As mad as I was at Ed originally, I can’t help but think that Isabella has some kind of supernatural hold on him. She is, after all, the Queen of Hearts. Maybe she can make people fall in love with her?

Food for thought:

♡ “I’ve lived my whole life in books”
♡ “I feel like I'veknown him my whole life.”
♡ The weird Paper Doll thing

Also, even if Ed seemed rude enough on his own to stand him up without explanation -

-would Ed “I would do anything for you” Nygma really forget that Oswald “had something very important to tell him?” He didn’t even ask about it. Something is UP.

anonymous asked:

Sorry, but when is this break going to finish? I mean, it's just some of the fic being published now is just a load of crap.

Okay- Let’s get this out of the way first thing, shall we, Nonald? This message is unbelievably rude. Not because you’re trying to rush me through a break that I’ve more than earned over the last several years of nearly non-stop writing and updates. No- That I can handle just fine. It’s because of that insanely insensitive comment about the work other people are doing.

It’s things like this that are the reason I’ve decided to retire my keyboard. This fandom is entitled. You expect constant updates on multi-novel length fics. You expect professional levels of writing from amateurs. You expect us to bleed all over the fucking page for your own enjoyment, and we do it thanklessly. We publish chapter after chapter for minimal hits/kudos/comments, and we do it because it’s OUR passion. It’s what makes OUR hearts beat faster. WE love writing, so we stick around through the lack of attention, the lack of compassion, and the lack of any basic human decency.

You are not owed a single damn thing from us. We don’t do this for you. We don’t do this for hits or kudos or comments. We do this because it’s how we interact with the world and rationalize it. It helps us cope with our own lives, either by being an escape or an outlet for our experiences and feelings. We slice ourselves open and smear our fucking life out onto a page, and then we put it out there for anyone and everyone to see.

Not everyone out there has inherent talent. I sure as hell didn’t when I started writing. Go look at my Ao3. It’s all still there. From the shit I put out at first, where I couldn’t even form a coherent plot or steady characterization or even keep to one PoV in a scene, to my most recent fics where I’ve grown into something resembling moderate.

So I am absolutely the wrong person to come to about thinking that fics are crap, because I don’t see them as crap. I see them as an act of bravery from someone who’s willing to expose themselves to extreme levels of scrutiny in order to put out something that they’re passionate about. Something deeply personal and intimate. I see them as a seed of talent that someone wants to grow into something more, because it’s what they love.

I’m not going to say I read everything out there, because I don’t. There are things I don’t enjoy, and writing styles that I don’t particularly care for. But that’s not me saying those writers deserve any less respect. They don’t. They deserve to be commended, no matter their level of writing prowess, because they are brave and strong. A lot braver and stronger than someone who comes into someone else’s inbox to anonymously bitch about the quality of fics out there. How about you sit in front of your keyboard and spill your soul out for other people to complain about to you and others before you come back and say anything to me ever again?

And, to address the first part of this message, people seem to be misinterpreting what this break is for me. This is a break to get my head together before finishing the last two bits of fic I will ever write for this fandom, not because I want to write them, but because I’d already promised to. After those are done, so am I. Don’t expect anything else from me after those, especially not within this fandom.

Little Free Library

Synopsis: @onceuponanovel: They reach for the same book.

A couple meets through the little free library. Leaves mysterious notes in a favorite copy.

For @onceuponanovel

Not beta-ed.


Belle French hurried to the small house-shaped structure erected on a beam, at the corner of Main and Elm. Her best friend Ruby Lucas tagged along behind. After she checked on the Little Free Library, she and Ruby planned to have a big breakfast at Granny’s.

“Please hurry, my stomach is making gross noises.” Ruby patted her flat stomach.

Belle held up an index finger, begging for a minute, and opened the door to the small house. Her heart sank. The ten books that she had donated from her own private collection were still in the exact same order that she had left them a week ago.

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i’m in a really good place right now. i was driving home tonight by myself after a long day, with the windows down and my music loud. i realized i’m finally okay with being by myself. i enjoy my own presence. my heart is exactly where it belongs, in my own chest; instead of in somebody else’s hands. i finally let everything go, all the weight of my heavy past, and all the people in it. i feel so light.

I read that sometimes
when someone receives a heart transplant,
the heart, on a cellular level,
still has memories of its first home.
 
People suddenly remember directions
to places they have never been.
They can suddenly play the piano.
One man dreamed of his donor’s death.
His body, now fluent in a new language.

And I wonder what my own body will remember
even after it has been asked to forget.
If when I die, if when my body is sectioned up,
half given to the dirt and half given a new purpose,

I wonder, if some stranger with my memories
will suddenly begin to jolt awake in the middle of the night.
Sitting up, her arm outstretched, somehow knowing
She is still reaching for your face.
Voice Final

 I have so many things to say but I know this post will be a mess coz of my unorganized thoughts and the boiling thrill after finishing the last episode just now.

 The drama got such a sick ending in case of Taegu… like wow…the classic music in the basement surrounded by patients and the evil doctor. The raw crazy killing itself. The place very similar to his own “playground”.

 I will only talk about Taegu’s character coz it was brilliant. I heard Jaewook is good in psycho roles, but he was over the top for real. Taegu was creepy, powerful and cold-hearted, killing people naturally without feeling any guilt. But at the end, in this last episode he showed how weak and hungry he was for love and admiration.

 We have many real serial killer cases like his. You can have mental issues caused by your genes, but with theraphy, care and control you may can keep it low and bareable. If you have a calm and supporting environment around you.

 Taegu’s behavior came from his shocks from his childhood. First witnessing a murder then “survive” his mother’s death. Since he was a kid he was naive and innocent, probably looked up to his father or idolize him, learn the manners, well-being and human behavior from him. And it was bad. He found his dad’s odd-doing normal. He didn’t question his acts, he grew up into this, it fuelled his mental problem more and brought out the monster from him. Maybe he was rich, controlled many people, did what he wanted all the time, but there was no one on his side for real. He gotten all the people beside him by threatening them, buying them with money. His dad was afraid of him since he was a ticking bomb without the timer, not knowing when he will explode again and again.

 He carved for attention caused by his own work and not his dad’s paved out route. Remember when he found Gwonjoo’s evidence board about himself. He was happy. Somebody noticed him, admired his doing, even if it was in the opposite way. He toyed with humans, he wanted to bring out something different from them, watching their dying and struggling. Seeing them in fear and desperation made him immortal, who has full control over everything.

 Lastly he played his big final game, he became childish and fragile. Maybe this was the first time when somebody understood him. When Jinhyuk was caressing his hair and describe the main points what caused Taegu’s evilness. Until then everybody just slept on his mental problem, everybody around him turned their heads and closed their eyes, they just cleaned up after him.

 Taegu was evil and rotten, but on the inside he was a pitiful and weak person in help.