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Bruised and Battered Chapter 6

Dean Winchester x Reader

1150 Words

Story Summary: Being friends with Sam and Dean Winchester had been the best part of your life. But then they were gone, and you had nothing to distract you from the physical and verbal abuse from your parents. Years pass, and your parents suddenly vanish. When Sam and Dean come help to find them, you aren’t sure what they will do when they discover your dark past.

Catch Up Here: Masterpost

“So, everything pointed to Vampires, but the more I’ve researched, the more I’ve come to realize that might not be the case.” Sam said as you sat nervously in the back of the Impala. Cas was sitting next to you, staring at your knee that wouldn’t stop bouncing. You were a bundle of nerves. Nervous about the hunt that was your first in years. Scared at seeing your parents again for the first time in a couple of weeks. Wondering how they were going to react when they found you traveling with Sam and Dean.

“I believe it might be two types of monsters working together.” Cas answered, reaching over and placing his hand on your knee. The weight from his hand, along with the positive energy he sent your way calmed you enough that your body stilled.

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Movie Night Part 4

Character Pairing: Bucky Barnes x Female Reader

Word Count: 2775

Warnings: NSFW 18+ Smut, swearing, unprotected sex (don’t be silly, wrap the willy!) bite marks, fingering, slight oral, mention of a blow job. Fluff, yucky love stuff.

A/N: HJM, thank you so much for your request. I liked it a lot and I really hope I did it justice and brought your idea to life!

Part One - Part Two - Part Three


Click. Click. Click.

You blew out a frustrated breath and dropped your pen before the clicking drove you crazy. The stupid nervous tic had started about an hour ago as you stared at the e-mails in front of you.

Tony was not going to like what Secretary Ross had to say about the Singapore mission. The United Nations wasn’t very happy either.

You propped your elbows on your desk and lowered your head into your hands. You pressed your thumbs into your temples and tried to will the headache away.

Think happy thoughts.

Bucky popped into your head. A small smile played on your lips. He had left you with plenty to think about the night before he left for Singapore with the team.

Whoever said that romance was dead, clearly had never been with Bucky Barnes.

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A message to cishet ace inclusionists:

the LGBT community isn’t a fun club for whoever feels a little different. in a perfect world, we wouldn’t need our own separate group. the lgbt community was born out of abuse, systematic oppression, and genocide.

we’ve made the best of a bad situation but at the end of the day, this is a political alliance of people who are revolutionary simply by existing. we are here to stand up and tell people that we aren’t afraid anymore. we are unapologetically gay, bi, trans, pan, nonbinary. we are unapologetically human and out of suffering we’ve created something vibrant and beautiful; something that is off-limits to 96% of the population.

Cishet aces worming their way into our unique communities suited specifically to our own needs are detracting from our purpose and making us unsafe in our own communities. the lgbt community isn’t some super quirky cool Kweer Kidz Club for “sexual deviants” or anyone who feels left out. we’re oppressed, and just because you feel left out doesn’t mean you’re entitled to a place in my community, and it certainly doesn’t mean you’re allowed to co-opt my suffering. Considering the rampant pedophilia, homophobia, and transphobia among inclusionists, you sure as hell don’t belong here.

LGBT identity is pervasive- every fibre of my being is constantly bathed in golden gayness, and i am proud of that. i am gay and i am radiant and i am revolutionary. LGBT identity finds a way into all aspects of my life.

Asexuality, however, is an inherently sexual identity; it doesn’t affect any part of your life except for sex. You can be LGBT and asexual because LGBT identity is more than who you have sex with. You can be LGBT and asexual and you can be a cishet and asexual, because asexuality is a piece of your gender-and-sexual identity; it’s not the whole picture. LGBT aces are obviously welcome in the community, but cishet aces have no place here. You’re straight people who just don’t want to have sex. there are no laws written against you, no conversion therapy centres dedicated to making you want sex, no religious leaders condemning you to an eternity of suffering for not enjoying sex. The LGBT community doesn’t fit your needs, and you should find a different community that does.

By demanding a place at this table, you’re contributing to a legacy of the majority oppressing and stealing from the minority. we’ve been pushed to the dark places on the edge of society, so we put up walls and made our dark places beautiful. you, who don’t know our suffering, should not be able to waltz in and demand we treat you like one of us. Accepting cishets as lgbt waters down and dismantles the community.

The LGBTPN community isn’t for you. Please, just leave us alone.

Cold Feet

Dean Winchester x Reader

Drabble requested by @aquabrie from the drabble prompt list. She requested #49:  “Quit touching me. Your feet are cold.”

HERE is the last of drabble prompts people are requesting from.

HERE is the list of drabble prompts I’ve completed. 

As a hunter, you felt like you could take on anything, and probably already have. Vampires, ghouls, even Demons were a part of your everyday life. Saving people from certain death, getting covered in blood and grime. It was as normal to you as waking up in the morning.

This morning, however, you were certain you were going to die. As you lay in bed next to Dean, you couldn’t control the shivering that ran through your body. Your entire body felt like you had lost a fight to a dozen werewolves, your head pounding. This was worse than anything you had ever faced, and you felt like you could die.

With Dean lightly snoring next to you, you scooted towards him, the movements jarring your aching body. Cuddling up as close to his body, you relaxed slightly as the heat from his body radiated towards you. Getting as close as possible, you tried to control the tremors running through you.

“Quit touching me. Your feet are cold.” He grumbled, rolling away from you, leaving you even colder than before. Tired, and sick, you stood up, wobbling on weak legs. Glancing back down at the still sleeping man, you forced yourself out of your room. With your forehead clammy, your stomach rolling, you barely made it into the bathroom before your stomach emptied itself of its contents.

With your arms wrapped around your waist, you laid down in front of the toilet, too tired to make it to your room like you had planned.

Y/N?” You heard Dean calling throughout the bunker, but you didn’t answer. Minutes later, he stuck his head into the bathroom, his hair sticking up as he glanced down at you. “I woke up, and you weren’t in bed.”

“You were mean.” You muttered, being sick turning you into a grump.

“Your feet were freezing!” He exclaimed, before kneeling next to you, brushing the back of his hand against your cheek. “But you’re burning up. Why didn’t you tell me you didn’t feel good?”

Shrugging, you were able to sit up in time as your stomach emptied itself once again. Dean stayed right behind you, rubbing your back soothingly. Finally, once you started to feel a little better, Dean gently picked you up, carrying you through the hall and back into your shared bedroom. Sliding you under the blankets, he pulled you tight against him.

“But…” You started arguing, not knowing exactly what you were going to say.

“Y/N, let me do this for you. Since I was rude and sent you on your way.” He answered. With the blankets on top of you, and his warm body pressed close to yours, you felt better. With your eyelids growing heavy, you fell asleep, as his hand ran up and down your arm. “Sleep. I’ll be right here when you wake up.”

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Episode 1 - Birds of a Feather

First of all, I should note that my Dresden Files journey began with the TV show. I started watching it as it first aired, drawn in by this moment in the trailer, right here:

I loved the show, mourned when it didn’t get a second season, and thereafter sought out the books—which have since become one of those life-defining things where their story is part of your story. So I might have more issues with the show if I’d been a book fan first, but I wasn’t and I don’t. I do consider the books superior in most ways, but they’ve also had 15 books to get that way; the first couple were much shakier, and in my opinion closer to the show in quality. (…though probably still better.)

So anyway. I’m rewatching the Dresden Files TV show and writing up my observations and opinions about it, particularly as compared to the books. Spoilers for both GALORE.

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I’ve seen a lot of bi and pan girls on here say they wish they could identify as lesbians because they love girls so much and their feelings about girls are so important to them and…??

Being a non lesbian wlw doesn’t mean you love women any less! You can still date women, have sex with women, fall in love with women, and even marry women.

Being bi or pan doesn’t mean you can’t deeply love other women and make them a big part of your life! I know it doesnt seem like that, what with positivity posts focusing on your attraction to men and radfems accusing us of fetishizing women and believing we care about men too much, but fuck what those people say!

Being a woman who loves women is something extra special and by all means you should be proud of it. Just please be respectful to lesbians by refraining to identify as a lesbian if you’re not one. Nothing about being bi or pan means women aren’t important to you!

Tagged Up in Here

So I got tagged by my bestie @teslaswife! Thank you!! :D 

1. What’s your current job?

Nothing right now. Going to apply for some post-grad jobs later on this summer. I’ll claim I’m a freelance photographer and writer lol :D

2. What are you talented at?

Writing and becoming obsessed with characters I can never meet…

3. What is a big goal you’re working towards (or have already achieved)?

Also writing a book! :D Hope to someday! 

4. What’s your aesthetic?

Part weeb, part given up on life, part fashionable?? (I wear a skirt or a dress and I feel somewhat classy idk) 

5. Do you collect anything?

Quarters, stickers, and shame of my anime obsessions

6. What’s a topic you like talking about?

FMA/B, RWBY, Fairy Tail, and My Hero Academia

7. What’s a pet peeve of yours?

Loud chewers, messy people (especially), friends who backstab you, things out of line, ugh I’m terrible.. the list the goes on…

8. Good advice to give?

You’re the captain of you’re soul. 

9. What are three songs you recommend?

Glitter and Gold by Barnes Courtney, Sign of Times by Harry Stiles, Tremble by Raider (ALL AMAZING) 

10. A book that you are reading.

None at the moment…. Will read “All the Light We Cannot See” because my friend gave it to me two year ago and I still need to read it. 

I’ll just tag a few @thestaffofra @the-heart-alchemist @xennariel @gomboc123 @hawkeyedflame @littlemangalover @littleblackrose if y’all want to do it!! <3

my childhood was approximately 99% trauma and regret and hate and depression and was just a festering Badbrain Factory and its just weird for me to see childhood in media talked about like its. the best part of your life. something you want to go back to always. like sounds FAKE but OKAY

anyone else kinda terrified you’ll never be able to hold a job in the future because of your mental illness


           To the sweetest, most caring and loving puppy person i’ve had the luxury to know,
           Happy Anniversary!


The Signs as Heartbreak Quotes (Sun & Venus)


“Be careful when trying to fix a broken person, for you may cut yourself on their shattered pieces.” 


“It’s not what I feel for you, it’s what I don’t feel for anyone but you.” 


“The only thing that makes it a part of your life is that you keep thinking about it.” 


“If brokenness is a form of art, darling, you’ve turned me into a masterpiece.” 


“I hope I cross your mind once in a while just so that I won’t feel pathetic for thinking of you all the time.” 


“I hate you because I will have to wonder for the rest of my life why I wasn’t enough.” 


“Those who are heartless once cared too much.” 


“The reckless irony in how I tried to get revenge on you by destroying myself.”


“I don’t hate you, I never will. I just act like I do, because it’s easier than admitting that I miss you.” 


“The worst goodbyes are the ones never said.” 


“Maybe we feel empty because we leave pieces of ourselves in everything we used to love.” 


“If I treated you the way you treated me, you’d hate me.”

Descendant Signs 101

What? Your Descendant is ruled by Libra and Venus. It mainly represents relationships, partners, romance and who are attracted and why. Your Descendant is exactly opposite to your ascendant/rising sign and is held on the cusp of the 7th house. 

Aries: You will attract and are attracted to people who possess Mars like qualities. People who are obvious, loud, aggressive (not like punch aggressive), blunt, and bright. You will have a libra Rising, and this indecisive, fair ‘attitude’ directly contradicts with the bright, aggressive, in your face people they attract. You are attracted to very kind and generous people too though.

Taurus: People who can provide for you are attractive in your opinion, in a relationship you crave someone who can be co-dependant with you and you can equally (heavily) rely on each other. You will have a Scorpio Rising sign, and this means you love to help people become the best version of themselves, so you may be attracted to people who are not similar to you so you can help them build on qualities they lack. 

Gemini: You have a Sagittarius Rising to go with your Descendant. In relationships you like to be with someone you can feel free with, you like adventurous, constant change, and not too heavy commitment (at least at first). It will take the right kind of person to persuade you into marriage but you fall in love with the people you think are the most true and kind hearted (that’s your weakness). 

Cancer: With a Capricorn rising , the people around you are the ones you hold the most dear and near to your heart. You are attracted to people who have similar family backgrounds to you, because this is a part of your life you find important to relate on. You attract people who want to take control of a relationship, you love to have an equal involvement, but like to be treated and be the one in a back seat. 

Leo: Love can become an obsession to you, you are likely to be undoubtedly in love with love, This means you are attracted to people who are romantic, and pick out the smallest of  details. You are incredibly attracted to people who make you feel like you can do more than what you already do, people who are inspiring and kind. You attract eccentric people who don’t know how to fit in because you show them they do. (Aquarius Rising).

Virgo: You are someone who changes yourself for you partner without even realising. You fall in love and are attracted to people who point out things about you that are permanent and you don’t change. For example “I love your natural curly hair”; it makes you feel actually wanted. You attract (luckily) very kind hearted people because they know they can give you a lot of love and affection. Pisces Rising. 

Libra: You are someone who might overuse the term “it’s not you, it’s me”, but really mean it. You are attracted to people who tell you to sort your head out, and tell you not only when you are in the wrong, but when actually you aren’t. You are also attracted to people who really considers your feelings and needs. You attract lively and tenacious people, people who are fun loving and natural smooth talkers. Rising is Aries.

Scorpio: You partner will choose you because they want to really feel love. Your rising is Taurus. You are attracted to passionate people, who never do anything to make you feel jealous and concerned (unstable) in your relationship. You attract strong minded individuals. You fall in love very hard and crave the same in return. 

Sagittarius: You are attracted to people you can talk on another level with; whether this is a deep talk or an intelligent conversation, In fact, you value the conversations over anything else. You attract people with hell of a will power. You attract people you are blunt and not co-dependant. Your Rising is Gemini, so you also think a physical connection is important, and will attract partners who feel the same. 

Capricorn: You have a very emotional and sensitive rising sign; Cancer. You are attracted to people who value family and get along with yours (no matter what your relationship with them is). You tend to really fall for people who don’t make you feel like you have to do anything, as you often will feel like you need to be perfect and do everything perfectly for them. You attract people who have a huge sense of humour and love to be safe and feel secure.

Aquarius: You are attracted to people who challenge and attract people who are full on and intense. You fall in love with people who wear their hearts on their sleeves and love very openly and publicly. You attract people who want a 24/7 relationship and someone to really rely on. The people who want you tend to be wanted and are fairly dependant on you to make them feel good. You also attract very understanding people. Rising in Leo. 

Pisces: Your ascendant/rising is Virgo (the virgin). You attract people who are sensual, and love the physical parts of relationships. You also attract very intelligent people, who like balanced and honest relationships, too (just pick them apart wisely). You like people to be romantic for you, especially when they aren’t naturally romantic people. You are attracted to people who are unapoligetically themselves, people you just couldn’t change even if you wanted to. 


“You could have come in a bit sooner, though!
                                                                                        “Well, I was enjoying it too much.”

When you were asked about your plans for the future for the first time, you hadn’t even had your first day of school yet and there were dozens of szenarios in your head of how you’d spend your life.
It took a few years for your dreams to be shaped, until the vary shadows formed contours and you could answer with a small smile playing around your lips whenever someone asked you about that time which still felt so far ahead.
However, in middle school, you had to realize that life wouldn’t be as easy as you had thought before; that many of the things you had once dreamed of would never be possible but then, new ideas started to form in your head and when your friends told you about the subjects their older siblings were studying at university, you almost couldn’t wait to grow up and follow your dreams.
In high school, you had learned about your abilities and the topics you’re interested in, what you are good at and which issues you would rather avoid.
Now, when you were asked about your plans for the future, you could answer with several opportunities lying ahead of you and you’d talk about the cities where you would have liked to study. Graduating no longer seemed out of reach nor sight but still far enough away to not worry about details or feel the need to have your whole life planned out.
But then senior year comes around.
The first weeks, even months, still feel relatively normal, compared to high school, even though more and more people around you have a concrete idea of what they will do after they graduate.
But in the beginning, it’s still possible to laugh it all off, to shrug your shoulders and form an alliance of carelessness with those who feel as lost as you do when it comes to the future.
And you begin to remember all those dreams you once had, especially those who will never truly leave your mind and you cannot stop asking yourself whether it would actually be possible for you to follow them;
if maybe, just maybe, you are really free to achieve whatever you want.
Yet, it is still easy to forget about it all by focusing on the tasks ahead, the final exams and the preparations for the last educational events you’ll ever witness with these people who have been a part of your life for so long.
It’s not hard to simply surpress your worries and fears but then the end of this final year in school comes closer and closer until all the ‘last times’ are beginning.
The last time studying for an exam, the last presentation or the last movie you’ll watch bored to death while doodling on your paper.
But also the last free period spent outside in the sun with the people who mean the world to you, laughing until there are tears in your eyes and your ribs hurt, the last time being late to class because all of you rather stay in the car to finish singing this one song, the last time of ever laughing about a joke of that funny kid in your math class.
And then, suddenly, there is only one week left until you will all go separate ways, hoping that your paths will cross again someday and you cannot possibly understand that this part of your life, which seemed endless back when you were eight, will actually come to an end.
—  // and it is when you are standing on that hill behind the building, looking over the place where you spent almost your whole life, that you realize that it might just be true what people say;
that good things have to come to an end to make room for even greater adventures

Sometimes I hate being trans. A lot of the time, actually. While everyone else is moving forward, you’re feel like you’re waiting, waiting, waiting. For the next GIC appointment. For hormones to show any effect. For surgery. For the next surgery. For forms and reports and assessments to be filled out.

These things take weeks, months, years. Whole parts of your life get eaten away on waiting lists for services that are already stretched to their limit. And all the time you want everything to stop - to right itself in some magical overnight miracle. You spend nights crying and asking ‘why me?’ Why am I the one who has to be stuck here? 

But you will get there. I promise you. Nobody knows patience like us trans folk. We have to be strong, mentally, emotionally and physically, because we are forced to be by our very nature. It’s something huge to bear and it’s okay if you’re not always okay. It isn’t fun, and it isn’t fair. And it’s okay to grieve - for being born with the wrong parts, or for all the times that your body restricted you in life - for the things you wish you had. Grieve if you need to. 

There is light and dark to everything in life. Being trans is no exception. Keep going. Wait and fight and grieve and celebrate and live - in the way that only we trans people know how. 

You’ll come out stronger in the end.