My journal today. I have this week and next week set up (which I rarely do) because it’s finals crunch time and I need to be able to see the light at the end of the tunnel. I have a 5-hour still-life class today, so that’s why I have the plant, I promise I’m not just a crazy lady who brings plants to the library.
Aries - Are you so busy fighting you cannot see your own ship has set sail?
Taurus - Sick of tea? That’s like being sick of breathing!
Gemini - Destiny is a funny thing. You never know how things are going to work out. But if you keep an open mind and an open heart, I promise you will find your own destiny someday.
Cancer - Protection and power are overrated. I think you are very wise to choose happiness and love.
Leo - Be careful what you wish for. History is not always kind to its subjects.
Virgo - Life happens wherever you are, whether you make it or not.
Libra - It’s time for you to look inward and start asking yourself the big question: who are you and what do YOU want?
Scorpio - There’s nothing wrong with a life of peace and prosperity. I suggest you think about what it is that you want from your life, and why.
Sagittarius - Sometimes life is like this dark tunnel, you can’t always see the light at the end of the tunnel, but if you just keep moving, you will come to a better place.
Capricorn - A man needs his rest.
Aquarius - While it is always best to believe in one’s self, a little help from others can be a great blessing.
Pisces - You must never give into despair. Allow yourself to slip down that road and you surrender to your lowest instincts. In the darkest times, hope is something you give yourself. That is the meaning of inner strength.
For the first time in my life, there wasn’t a pinhole of light at the end of the tunnel. I thought, I just wish everything would stop. It wasn’t in the sense of, I’m going to take my life. It was just hopelessness. Like, What’s the point? I don’t think I understood how dangerous hopelessness is. Everything hurts.
One of the things about adulthood is that my mother is no longer around in the mornings to tackle me and make me brush my hair, so more often than not it resembles what she would lovingly refer to as “a birds nest”.
Photo taken by @ashleydiscovers (whom I love for many reasons, one of which is that she also lives a mostly hair-brush-free life)
Ruler of Capricorn (co-rules Aquarius) Exalted in Libra Detriment in Cancer and Leo Fall in Aries
Time Spent in a Sign: 2 ½ years (almost 3)
Mythology behind Saturn In Roman mythology, it was Saturn, the God of Time, who was seen as the evil, brute father figure. Cronus is the Greek equivalent of Saturn, however, Saturn wasn’t as “dominating” as Cronus was painted out to be. In fact, the Romans saw Saturn as a wholly Roman God. But both Saturn and Cronus were overthrown by their sons; Jupiter, Saturn’s son & Zeus, Cronus’ son. Why? Because their sons saw Saturn/Cronus as abusive of their power and decided to put a limit or end to it.
Saturn in Astrology The notorious Saturn is always being shown in a bad light. But why? Well, Saturn is mainly about discipline, restriction and limitations. It does sound harsh because while Jupiter expands and brings luck, Saturn restricts and provides lessons. But, do not fight Saturn! Saturn brings us an abundance of knowledge, appreciation, discipline and respect in our lives. One must go through difficult times and struggle in order to truly live. Saturn teaches us all about setting boundaries for ourselves and learning self-control. Saturn is also representative of fears and authoritative figures in one’s life. So what does Saturn placed in a sign mean?
Saturn in Aries Saturn is in fall in Aries. With Saturn in Aries, we find that these people could have had trouble asserting themselves. People with their Saturn in Aries may struggle finding their sense of self at first, but hopefully will develop confidence in the end. Recognize your value, Saturn in Aries.
Saturn in Taurus With Saturn in Taurus, financial crisis’ seems to be a common theme. People with their Saturn in Taurus can struggle finding jobs or grew up surrounded by terrible financial situations or in them, but nonetheless money and stability is of importance to them. Seize the opportunity, Saturn in Taurus.
Saturn in Gemini With Saturn in Gemini, intelligence seems to be of importance, but highly doubted as well. People with their Saturn in Gemini can fear being seen as “dumb” or they can struggle communicating their ideas with others. Share your knowledge, Saturn in Gemini.
Saturn in Cancer Saturn is detriment in Cancer. With Saturn in Cancer, family and home seems to be the theme. People with their Saturn in Cancer can have a lot of ups and downs in their family environment as a whole and everything seems to stem from there. Learn from others mistakes, Saturn in Cancer.
Saturn in Leo With Saturn in Leo, there seems to be a struggle with displaying exuberant emotions. People with their Saturn in Leo may struggle having a good time, seeing the positive in others or can see their friendships, relationships, even sex life fall to tragedy. There’s light at the end of the tunnel, Saturn in Leo.
Saturn in Virgo With Saturn in Virgo, there can be a tendency to hypochondria or simply falling ill pretty easily. People with their Saturn in Virgo can see problems always stemming from a health related issue, but these people are usually helpful and provide great service and management. All is not well, but it will end well, Saturn in Virgo.
Saturn in Libra Saturn is exalted in Libra. With Saturn in Libra, we see problems stem from friendships and relationships. People with their Saturn in Libra could go through tough friendships and relationships, but through this they learn valuable lessons that they can teach to others. Find your worth, Saturn in Libra.
Saturn in Scorpio With Saturn in Scorpio, control and finances seem to be a common theme. People with their Saturn in Scorpio might have struggled with controlling issues and may have been controlled or wanted to control every aspect of their life. There could have been major financial struggles as well. Learn to let go, Saturn in Scorpio.
Saturn in Sagittarius With Saturn in Sagittarius, religion and spirituality seem to be the root of a lot of problems. People with Saturn in Sagittarius could have been controlled by a higher principle or may have felt the strong need to break free and go against religious or spiritual ideals. Find your wings, Saturn in Sagittarius.
Saturn in Capricorn Saturn is domicile in Capricorn. With Saturn in Capricorn, work and the public image seems to be a common theme. People with their Saturn in Capricorn can be more on the workaholic side and go through many fails in their lives, but nonetheless they do not give up. Count your blessings, Saturn in Capricorn.
Saturn in Aquarius With Saturn in Aquarius, we can expect there to be problems in the area of friendship. People with their Saturn in Aquarius can feel like their relationships with others, especially friends eventually shatters and causing them to give up towards maintaining them. Also, they may work hard towards their goals/dreams or feel like there is no hope. You just have to believe, Saturn in Aquarius.
Saturn in Pisces With Saturn in Pisces, there seems to be a lost sense of self. People with their Saturn in Pisces usually don’t set boundaries for the people that enter their life and end up getting hurt by those people in the end. All that glitters is not gold, Saturn in Pisces.
so 2017 is here, and that means we’re all going to try to change for the better. we all know that most people don’t succeed, but why is that? my theory is that a lot of people don’t know how to keep their motivation consistent. turns out many psychologists have actually figured out a kind of equation for motivation, factors that play into whether or not we keep our resolutions, habits, and goals. i read this amazing book about this equation and“hacking” your motivation and made notes of some of the main takeaways. enjoy and happy 2017!
take advantage of “success spirals”
set yourself a series of achievable goals and then achieve all of them until you expect only success and failure is no longer familiar. this is a great way to get started living a motivated life. example: start out your new year by changing one habit that’s small enough where success is likely, and use that success to propel you to larger goals.
commit early on
choose now to limit your later options, preventing yourself form making the wrong choice in the face of temptation. signing up for a public speaking engagement that you know you should do is much easier 2 months beforehand, thereby forcing you not to chicken out when the going gets tough.
surround yourself with motivated people
have a workout or study buddy with similar goals as you. you are the average of the 5 people you spend the most time with. example: read or watch biographies of inspirational people whose lives you would like to emulate. go on a social media diet, in which you only see motivating and positive posts by motivated and positive people.
visualize the success you want to achieve, contrasting it with the life you currently live. Add in implementation intentions and process visualization for more oomph. michael phelps does this for every race, “playing the video tape” of the perfect race in his head. this allowed him to break a world record in 2008 with water in his goggles.
get into flow
flow is a psychological state characterized by being completely absorbed in whatever it is you’re doing. musicians, writers, and other creatives often report this while making their best works. how to get into flow? tasks which are too easy or too hard are not engaging, so find ways to make tasks challenging but possible. compete against yourself, or against others. getting into flow is most achievable when something is familiar to you and you can do it automatically, but it still contains mentally stimulating elements.
connect your goals to passion
look for ways to connect tasks with major life goals, so that you can remind yourself why you’re doing what you’re doing. set up extra reminders of those connections where you’ll see them (ex: every day i make my goal of saving 100 dollars i am that much closer to financial freedom). make sure you’re on a path to goals you actually want and that the journey is making you happy. If it isn’t, consider something more intrinsically motivating.
care for yourself
everything is better when you’re alert. sleep well, eat well, move your body every day, guard your circadian rhythms, and avoid burnout. cure energy lows with quality breaks, movement, sunshine, and good music. match intensive tasks with periods of high energy.
if you can’t bring yourself to do your main task, at least get some other things out of the way. it’s not perfect, but perfect is the enemy of good. get used to the act of doing consistently, rather than having things be perfect, so it doesn’t paralyze you. do not be afraid of failure, because it is the fastest way to learn.
celebrate your successes with any reward that will motivate you (treats, crazy dance parties, an hour of social media or video games?). we all know the feeling before a deadline where it seems as if our life for the next week is just a never-ending tunnel of drudgery and work.
this one is related to rewards – plan times to have as much fun as you can - this leads to more efficient recreation, and it also lets you focused on your goals during the other times, rather than just having low-grade leisure constantly tempting you as an option. ex: rather than taking a “break” every two minutes to check your instagram feed, do something that will actually burst your mood, make you laugh, or release some of the tension in your body.
“For the first time
in my life, there wasn’t a pinhole of light at the end of the tunnel. I
thought, I just wish everything would stop. It wasn’t in the sense of, I’m going to take my life. It was just hopelessness. Like, What’s the point? I don’t think I understood how dangerous hopelessness is. Everything hurts.”
“For the first time in my life, there wasn’t a pinhole of light at the end of the tunnel. I thought, I just wish everything would stop. It wasn’t in the sense of, I’m going to take my life. It was just hopelessness. Like, What’s the point? I don’t think I understood how dangerous hopelessness is. Everything hurts.”
There’s a new coliseum venue in FR! It’s a cool lookin lava field with really great familiars up for grabs but of course the bosses weren’t shown in the preview so I hung around lookin to see what it would be
Having pushed the enemies into the heavily desecrated temple of Pelor. DM: The fireball hit most of you for full damage, Sorcerer, looks like you bearly survived by making your save. Bear: I charge up to the guy and yank the fireball wand from him saying, “That’s MY SORCERER!” DM: Roll for it, str check, no attack bonus. Bear: (easily makes the check) “YOU NEVER HURT MY SORCERER!” and then I snap the wand. Everyone at the table gasps. Bear (ooc): What? Cleric (ooc): Not sure if it’s official, but when you snap a wand, all its charges go off in an explosion. DM: And just like her player, Bear has no way of knowing that would happen. So… that’s 49 fireballs all going off in her face. The temple is on fire, the main villain is gone (scratched off the sheet of loot on his body), all that stuff is gone, two henchmen obliterated, and… let’s not make it all bad. Most of the statue is missing now, revealing the stairs into the basement tunnels. Cleric (ooc): Sorry, Bear. Short life, but that was one hell of an exit. Once we put out the fires most of the party goes into the tunnels. Sorcerer (ooc): The planter box in the middle of the temple, if it’s still in good condition, I’d like to plant an acorn in it. “Thank you, Bear. You were the best bear I ever knew.” Cleric (ooc): Best bear? Heck, I think that’s the only person your character has ever shown any care or concern for in the past 9 years of gaming with you.