a gentle heart

I didn’t know that it was possible to grieve someone who’s still alive.
—  I’m not being dramatic it’s just that missing you is like ripping my heart from my chest
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✨  i got more paint chips for my wall & some of the names are so cute!! ✨

But it makes you feel like a tamed beast, and when you’re alone you have to physically use your hands to mould the craving so that it doesn’t have teeth, so that now it’s called longing, so that now it’s gentle. And passing eyes hold questions when they look at you but they don’t understand because not many figure out what it means, they don’t know why a monster with sad eyes looks so heartbreaking, only that it just does.
—  Are you ok?
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✨  two new purchases + my favourite possession ✨

ok so
“obi” means “heart” in igbo
“wan” means “gentle” in chinese
“ken” means “strong” in japanese
BASICALLY obi-wan kenobi means “gentle heart, strong heart” or like, “gentle and strong heart” and I’m ALL ABOUT THAT because it literally sums obi-wan up, like seriously. so beautiful. bless.

Lucien was shaking his head, panting, and whirled to us. “Get her back,” he snarled at Tamlin over the ranting of the king. A mate—a mate already going wild to defend what was his.

Tamlin ignored him. So I did, too. 

 […]

 Lucien spun toward me, and that metal eye whirred and narrowed. Centuries of cultivated reason clicked into place.I was not panicking at my sisters being taken.

I said quietly, “We will get her back.” 

A tiny snippet of hope on the horizon filled with ‘Feyre is going to use the mating bond against Lucien.’ 

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I never thought that I would be this helpless. I can’t believe I’m giving in for you.
         I never thought that you could be this reckless. I can’t believe you’re doing this to me.

I am gobsmacked.

Thank you for being an exemplary embodiment of a fiercely loyal and loving wife and mother, a kind soul in the face of unimaginable darkness, a patient and gentle heart in the midst of chaos and so many things that sought your attention. You were a shining example of class and grace and we were all lucky to live in your world. You may not have been our mum, but you were the treasured woman of the joy of so many of our hearts and lives, and you were always kind and gracious to everyone, even if they weren’t to you. I am so sorry for your family, my heart breaks for them.

Rest in peace, Jay. Thank you.