Where do we go from here?
As most of you probably have figured out by now, yesterday’s “reveal” was not a shock to me. I have felt it in my gut about MM for months….which became a conk on the head once Sam defended her on her SM. I knew then it was serious….though, for the life of me I can not figure out how it has gotten this far so fast. When did he freaking have time to foster this relationship? But that is not for me to say and not for me to judge what it is that makes a particular person special to you.
We have “heard” and “read” the denials for months, but we kept being “shown” an entirely different story. But clearly, it has been a story all along. I’m not mad, but it would be ridiculous to say that even I–a wishful shipper–were not really disappointed in everyone involved. I wanted the fairytale just as much as all of you diehard shippers. But life isn’t a fairytale and it is hard to live up to those expectations–just look at Princess Di. Anyhoo–because I have stayed here with you wonderful, intelligent, caring, generous ladies for a year as a non-believer, it is probably easier for me to continue doing so. But I can totally appreciate the need for people to feel like they need to go….it is painful when it finally sinks in that this was all a fairytale. It is hard not to feel foolish–but do not do that to yourself. This was no accident; we were presented with this fairytale…they wanted us to believe it up until the IFH, and even beyond. I’m not going to pass judgement as to the reason why because we could debate that all day–but I’m convinced there was a reason why Sam especially wanted us to believe in SC.
But we all came here for our love of Outlander and Sam & Cait. That does not have to change if we don’t want it to. The choice we have now is to learn to love them as individuals and not a unit. Cait said so herself: they are very different in their private lives…and if we look closely, we can see it is true. I am hoping that most of you will stay because we have grown very close to each other here and I know most of us will miss this. Lots of people have been saying “I was here just for SC”…but that is not true for me. I will still be here. I love this place; it has become part of my every day routine and that is the thing I would miss.
So I can understand why people feel like this today:
But I am hoping we can get past the hurt, confusion and disillusionment that is felt by most of you and we can become this very soon:
just a bunch of friends sitting around enjoying each other’s company….with alcohol.
In the meantime, I’m here for this, if anybody needs it:
Peace and love ladies…