a bit huge and big i'm sorry ; ;

Shouji’s a pretty protective guy. 

I’m sorry, but what I’m going to say is a bit harsh.

The 100 disappointed me big time. I’m, of course, biased, but it’s more than a huge love for an amazing character.

The 100 gave us such a beautiful love story between 2 girls so different from each other, yet so alike and so emotional. A story between a girl that fell from space and into a role she did not seek and a girl who was chosen to lead her people. One was taught love is weakness and the other refused to give up on the concept, she showed the other that is was possible to lead and love. They had love against all odds and they overcome the impossible.

It wasn’t rushed, it wasn’t fake in any way and it was treated right. Until they killed Lexa and became like all the other shows. The best (that I’ve seen and recently) romantic pairing between women (one is bi and one is gay) on tv and they went with killing one of them.

I expected more from such an incredible show. We finally got the treatment straight ships get, we let ourselves believe that it is possible to have it all. And then they went with the easiest, most obvious choice.

When are we going to have a same sex couple, who are two women, that both survive and be happy? I wasn’t expecting the happiness now or them to be perfect. Clarke and Lexa were complex as individuals and as a couple and that’s why we loved them so much.

Now Lexa is dead and Clarke is 100% going to end up with a boy (one that I see, or rather saw for a while, as her brother or some dude we don’t know). How original. How interesting.

I’m bitter, I don’t need to be told, but more because as a lesbian it’s seems like I’m never going to have that epic love that actually last.

A couple words on the 1dff community...

In typical Kath fashion, I’m going to throw some psychology at all of you:

In positive psychology, there are two schools of happiness and well-being theory – hedonia which defines happiness as ‘feeling pleasure’ and eudaimonia which defines happiness as ‘living well’. Ryan and Deci did an examination of eudaimonia through the lens of self-determination theory (a theory about intrinsic motivation), and found that eudaimonic happiness is dictated by three things: the need for autonomy, the need for competence, and the need for relatedness, “feeling connected to and cared about by others”. 

I’m sure you’re all like, “Kath, shut up and get to the point”, so what does this essentially boil down to? To be happy, we need to feel connected to people, to feel like we belong.

That’s what makes a fic community like ours so important – connectedness. We could all be sitting alone, writing up a novel that might one day be published in complete and utter solitude (what a concept, writing for money, wouldn’t that be wonderful…), but we’re not. And I can’t speak for anyone else but the reason why I write fic and post it on a public forum like this is because it fosters a connection with every single person who reads it and gives me feedback, the kind of connection that can be hard to find offline especially if you’re an introvert like me.

(that’s why feedback is so important but that’s an issue for another post)

We all started here because of a shared love of one direction; I think it’s safe to say we stay for the people. I have never met a group of people so warm and open and accepting, so friendly and welcoming, so supportive and encouraging, so talented and wise and outspoken and emotional and everything in between. I have made so many friends through my writing that I wouldn’t have made otherwise, fostered connections that have gotten me through some of the toughest times I’ve had over the last few years. I am the person I am today because of all of you, my fellow writers, the readers who have stuck with me from the first chapters of my now deleted first fic, every single person I have ever had the pleasure of speaking to since I first started posting fic. I owe all of you the world and I don’t think a simple thank you would ever suffice, but here it is:

thank you. you have all filled my need for relatedness. I am much (eudaimonically) happier for having met all of you.

there’s a couple of people I’d really like to thank:

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