a big picture of my face

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So since I’m supposed to keep this kind of secretive irl, I have to shove it down all of your throats lol. But I had my first dress fitting yesterday!! My seamstress has to shorten the sleeves and is going to start by taking it in 2" on each side (as you can see in the second picture, the corset is tightened all the way and it’s still too big). I honestly can’t believe that my wedding is in less than 3 months, but the good news is I still love my dress :)

Taako and I (mostly I) decided to start a club for LGBTQIA+ beings in the BoB, but it turned out to not really be needed since literally everyone in BoB fit the criteria. But now Taako INSISTS that I have the big-ass sign we (mostly I) did in my dorm! “In case it’s ever needed, darling” and because it has a huge picture of his face on it with apparently makes it sacred??? 

When I even considered throwing it away, Taako came to my dorm at night and just starred at me at the end of my bed. I didn’t even tell anyone I was thinking about throwing it away… I have no idea how her knew.. And he’ll come and check every now and then so I take care of his sig-face well and it’s not dusty.

So now every night this huge Taako sign stares at me,,,, with it’s dead eyes,,,, I know no peace…. Help me…

Monday 8:27am
I woke up with you on my mind.
You called me babe last night —
my heart is still pounding.

Tuesday 10:53pm
Today I realized we won’t work.
What we are is hurting her.
And I think she matters more to me than you do.

Wednesday 11:52pm
I broke things off with you today.
She barely said a word.
I’ve never regretted anything more than this.

Thursday 4:03pm
I shouldn’t have sent that message.
You shouldn’t have been so okay with receiving it.

Friday 9:57pm
I almost messaged you today.
I didn’t.

Saturday 8:49pm
I’m walking around town in search of alcohol.
They say that liquor numbs the pain of having a broken heart.
I want to put that to the test.

Sunday 2:32am
I heard you texted a girl you’ve never spoken to before.
I wonder if it’s because you’re trying to replace me.
I can’t help but wish you weren’t.
I thought I was irreplaceable.

—  a week with you on my mind, c.j.n.
Move on, leave, run away, escape this place… but don’t forget about me, about us, about this town. Always remember where you come from so you can appreciate how far you’ve come.
—  c.j.n.