a better version than yesterday

Being the new chick at the gym...

I’m the girl who can only squat the bar.

The girl who barely knows what I’m doing and looks out of place

I’m probably the heaviest girl at the weight rack working on deadlifts and crunches

I’m the girl who you assume won’t be there in a couple of weeks

But here’s what you don't know:

I’m also the girl who is tired of starting over

The one who isn't here to look cute and take selfies

The girl who doesn’t give a shit that I’m sweaty and red-faced and my bun is starting to fall out.

So keep staring, judging if you must, but I’m not here for you I’m here to be a better version of me than I was yesterday.

Faster, stronger, healthier 

midnightmarionette  asked:

Angry ennard? >:)

“W-Well it’s revealed that Vlad actually has a twin brother named-”

“WHAT?!”

“Wait. Have you seen the season two premiere yet?”

“NO, I HAVEN’T!”

“Oh. Well then spoiler alert I guess? Hehe…”

  • Magiging masaya ka dito. Dito mo mailalabas kung sino ka talaga. Dito mo mahahanap yung acceptance na hindi naibigay ng mga magulang mo o ng mga kaibigan mo sayo. Dito mo mailalabas ang lahat galit mo, ang lahat ng kalungkutan mo. Dito mo mahahanap yung mga taong tatanggapin ka ng buong-buo kahit ganyan ka lang. Kahit madami kang mga maling desisyon sa nakaraan.
  • Makakaranggap ka talaga ng hate messages. Hindi na bago yun, mapa-anon man o sa mga confession blog. Hindi naman kasi lahat ma pi-please mo. Kahit naman siguro ikaw kinaiinisang blogger. Kung makatanggap ka man ng hate message, dapat hindi ka magpaapekto. Imbis na magalit ka sa nagsend ng message at mag rant sa blog mo, mas mabuti pang tanggapin mo nalang ng maayos yung sinabi sa’yo. Totoo man o hindi, be a better version of yourself than you were yesterday. Gamitin mo yun para magtulak sayo para magbago.  
  • Mararanasan mong maging inactive at mawalan ng mga kaibigan at kausap. Aanhin mo naman kasi ang maraming followers at mga kausap kung kulelat ka naman sa school. Hindi ka pinalaki ng magulang mo para magdrama lang sa internet world. Mag-aral ka din ng mabuti para masuklian mo lahat ng paghihirap at sakripisyo ng mga magulang mo. Yung mga followers naman at kausap naman nababawi, pero yung hirap at sakripisyo ng magulang mo, walang kapantay yun. Kaya maging responsable ka.
  • Dadaan ka sa mga panahon na loner ka. Yung hindi mo alam kung sino mga dapat i-follow, kung paano dapat mag blog, kung paano mag-ayos ng blog, kung papaano maghanap ng kaibigan at kausap. Tapos makikita mo sa dash mo na ang saya nila, tapos ikaw, taga-like nalang ng mga conversation ng iba. Kanina ka pa online tapos pascroll-scroll ka lang sa dash mo. Tapos magdadrama ka nalang sa blog mo ng mga kung anu anong post gaya ng That “sana may kausap din ako” feeling. That “sana may anon din ako” feeling.
I'll Face Myself ~True Sound Herodachi Version~
I'll Face Myself ~True Sound Herodachi Version~

…and then I remembered how Finale worked.

So, this is the same song as my post from yesterday, however in that version, I was using instrument banks that were purely computer generated.  This version is using Finale’s Garritan sound banks, which is basically little wav files of different instruments playing notes.  So this should sound a little better than the version from yesterday.  Enjoy!

Also worked on the next chapter today; I’m so enjoying this one.

anonymous asked:

Hi Ate K. 5 months ago, I sent you a message regarding my suicide attempt. And you told me to hold on and be strong. 3 months ago, I gave myself an ultimatum, saying that if I won't find that happiness within the span of this year, I will kill myself. 2 months ago, I met someone. She made me happy. She made me into a human that I used to be. The demons started to hide. 1 month ago, I started to get better. And now, I can finally say that I'm okay even if I still get depressed. I can now Smile :)

5 months from now, you’ll be the best version of you and everyday you will be better than yesterday AND I AM SO PROUD OF YOU :)