i don’t know if this is okay anymore but i pressed wilted petals to the softer skin and trailed idle hands over veins and stars and black holes, and


maybe i was never supposed to.

i looked at you and maybe my eyes were not quite open yet because you were a blur of hope and dreams and not quite real and


maybe this whole time my eyes weren’t really open.

your hand touches mine maybe as a goodbye but i caught hold and held on tight, i’d rather go to hell than say goodbye, my life would be hell if you said goodbye and maybe.

maybe the light is still soft and the sun isn’t fully up yet and i can still feel the moonlight however quickly its receding and 

maybe you don’t need to go just yet.

maybe the emptiness and quiet thats as heavy as our blankets was just another comforter, another protection from the monsters at night, another barrier between what could happen if we opened our mouths and spoke and 


maybe i think i love you.

- Bruised hips and lips, long silences, thoughtless eyes and brushed off goodbyes for @miss-oddity-thepoet

Watch on

“I text a postcard, sent to you
Did it go through?
Sending all my love to you
You are the moonlight of my life every night
Giving all my love to you

My beating heart belongs to you
I walked for miles til I found you
I’m here to honor you
If I lose everything in the fire
I’m sending all my love to you

With every breath that I am worth
Here on Earth
I’m sending all my love to you
So if you dare to second guess
You can rest assured
That all my love’s for you

My beating heart belongs to you
I walked for miles til I found you
I’m here to honor you
If I lose everything in the fire
I’m sending all my love to you

My beating heart belongs to you
I walked for miles til I found you
I’m here to honor you
If I lose everything in the fire
Did I ever make it through?”

Don’t worry, darling. I still see you in all that’s around. In the moonlight that shines on the frozen lake, in the raindrops of the autumn storm, in the eyes of the many strangers that pass me by.

Don’t worry, darling. You are still everywhere, you are still everything.

—  L.H

MOODBOARD: Kvothe (Kingkiller Chronicle)

 I have stolen princesses back from sleeping barrow kings. I burned down the town of Trebon. I have spent the night with Felurian and left with both my sanity and my life. I was expelled from the University at a younger age than most people are allowed in. I tread paths by moonlight that others fear to speak of during day. I have talked to Gods, loved women, and written songs that make the minstrels weep. You may have heard of me. 


literature moodboard; Kvothe

“I have stolen princesses back from sleeping barrow kings. I burned down the town of Trebon. I have spent the night with Felurian and left with both my sanity and my life. I was expelled from the University at a younger age than most people are allowed in. I tread paths by moonlight that others fear to speak of during day. I have talked to gods, loved women, and written songs that make the minstrels weep. You may have heard of me.”

Trust- Saizo x mc

Game: Samurai Love Ballad: Party

Characters: Saizo X Mc (reader)

Rating: A mixture of almost everything, I guess

Summary: Saizo is his usual, busy self and you are also a busy cook with mouths to feed. The situation never changes even if you both are married but, but what if a sudden crisis makes your simple life turns upside down? A fanfiction from Sonya.

A/N:I was intending on making a one shot pregnancy story for @moonlight-nightingale since she asked me to make some fluff but it sorta cooked itself into a hyper long fanfic so….there’s ought to be some aftermath feels right so I’m thinking if I should write a sequel, so someone please give me some advice please. Thanks again to everyone who reads my first fanfic on tumblr. It actually encouraged me to continue writing more.

Now may the story begins


【 1 month ago 】

“Saizo, Lord Shingen wants you to- Ahhhh! ”

“Opps” You see the flippant smile on his face as you dangle in the air. “I think we’re stuck here for a while.”

“S-saizo! Help!”

“Shh…you don’t want Yuki to barge in here and interrupt, right? ” he maintains his jovial smile while you sighed in defeat.

You had been meaning to get him off the roof because of Shingen’s orders, but unexpectedly Saizo was the one who pulled you on the roof with him. He had grabbed you on the wrist when you are climbing the ladder and “poof” nothing else but thin air remained below your legs as the ladder falls on the ground with a hard thunk.

He hoists you up and instinctly you tried to squirm away from his grasp but he was too strong, being a man and all. He settles you on his lap and wrapped you in a feral hug, his warm breath just inches away from your throat. You gulped.

“Now, what’s the matter dear?”

“J-just let me go first…! I-I can’t talk like this!” You felt your face flush and he smirked.

“Okay dear…” He lets go and you breathed in heavily. It was bad enough that Shingen’s new guests are demanding, making you rush up and down in the kitchen to only please them, but who knows that they wanted to meet Saizo. The legendary Saizo, they had called him. Yeah you knew that he is a famous ninja, and possibly the best in all of Iga. Who could duel-wield two katana spears and disappear within thin air only to appear behind his enemy and kill them. He was the lord assassin, and you are a normal cook who despise the act of killing another innocent human being. Which made you wonder how did you both ended up falling in love with each other for so long when both of you had such different points of view? And your relationship remained on a healthy status even after marriage, though his habit of teasing you never stops.

“Oh dear, now what are we spacing out for? “You snapped back to reality to find Saizo’s face just in front of you and you yelped in surprise.

“Ahhhh! Don’t sneak on me like that!” You turns your head away, but Saizo caught your chin and made you face his eyes. “Now, now who’s the one sneaking around little lady? Don’t you have something to tell me or did you just came here to because Yuki sent you to find me?”

“Saizo, Lord Shingen wants you in the guest hall right now.”

“Did he now.” He muttered under his breath and you felt his hands move rapidly towards your feet, then up to your legs, and above… The sudden action made you shudder in surprise, and Saizo tried his best to suppress his amusement.

You blushed hard as your hips began to brush over his palms delicately. You couldn’t resist the sudden need to tease him some, to just give him the pleasure in touching you; but not doing…whatever he wants to do to you. His index finger slipped inside your clit and you gasped a little, enjoying the way his nimble fingers swirled up and down inside you, the pace wonderfully even. But then Saizo pulls out so fast you are starting to think that maybe Saizo had already outfoxed your plan on teasing him as you almost cries out in frustration.

“Seems like someone’s getting sexually frustrated. ” Saizo licked his finger, covered with juice and you blushed again. “Maybe I would just go to find Shingen. ” He stood up and walked to the edge of the roof.

“Saizo! No…don’t go..!” You almost beg him, you two hadn’t been intimate for almost a month and it has indeed made you frustrated. How can you let this chance slip away when your husband actually, actually has the time to sit on the damn roof without anyone else requesting for him to finish some missions. You know that you want him and your voice ended up a husky tone. “Saizo…” the lust glinting in your eyes.

“Mmm… and why is that? I thought Lord Shingen would need me there…”

“I-I need you more.” You whisper in a volume that he could hear. “Convince me, then.” A flippant grin again and you bit on your lower lip.

“Ten servings of dango? And I’ll ask Lord Yukimura to take it easy on you for a week.”

“Hm… passable.” He shrugs.

Suddenly the world spins, and you are pinned down on the clay bricks on the roof as Saizo kissed you hungrily, you returned them as aggressive as ever. The passion that bloomed in the depths of the pit in your stomach sends you to ecstasy as he devoured you, lusting for contact, wanting more. But then it all spirals down into annoyance when you heard noises down the ground. You groaned.

“Saizo! Where are you!

Yukimura’s voice echoes from below, and Saizo paused his movements for a second, pulls himself up and adjusted himself.

“Bummer.” Saizo commented. You hadn’t had time to say anything as Saizo carried you bridal style, then rushed you off to presumably his room with you in his arms anticipating for the next moment.


【  1 month later 】

You had been running, running so hard to the only exit of the blazing castle walls. Its hard to believe the fact that a while ago you are siting with Lord Shingen’s retainers, laughing and joking with each other, but not long after a fire arrow embedded itself on the table in front of you and outside, retainers shouted in horror as they acknowledged that the Hojo clan has came to aftack.

You had panicked when you see strangers barge into the room, all armed. You tried to get away, but one of the ninjas had caught your leg, pulled you towards him and you shrieked in terror. He had almost killed you with his katana if it weren’t for Saizo who cuts him down, the bloodlust and the killer look back in his crimson eyes. “Go. I’ll meet you at the riverside.” He didn’t look back at you as you nodded, and broke into a crazy run. You ran, ran as hard as he remembered ever running in your entire life and soon you were gone from view.

“Saizo.” Yukimura, back to his senses had already grabbed his sword and rushes to him, slicing anything or anyone in his path. Saizo glanced at him.

“Cover ______, she needs help.”

“But there are too many of them.” Yukimura surveyed the room, there’re six of them; minus five dead men. “Can you fight them off? ” Yukimura parryied a stray ninja who was intending on ambushing Saizo and Saizo smirked.

“You underestimate me dear.” Saizo gave him a flippant smile. “Go. Now.”

“What are you two chattering about? Fight!”

One of the ninja, obviously fed up by Saizo’s carefree demeanor, tries to strike him but Saizo sidesteps, and brings the offending guy down, the blood spraying on his face.

“A bit of a chatterbox, are we here. Now who’s next.” Saizo raises his swords as Yukimura rushes to you.


“Where are you little girl… come on out… I won’t hurt you…” The ninja crooned, his voice penetrating the stiff air and you hear a door close. “Where are you, Lady Kirigakure?” You adjusted your position slightly, not daring to make a sound.

“Hm… I wonder if you are here…No? Oh well…” His voice echoed from the back of the corridor and you remain slient, hidden in the crook of the kitchen stove. Oh for good heaven’s sake why oh why did you have to turn into that corner? Then you wouldn’t have a deadly ninja on your tail. You shivered slightly at the ninja’s eerie voice and tried your best to breath slowly, lightly while pulling out a dagger Saizo had gave you for emergency needs from your obi tie. You pricked up your ears to listen, preparing to strike when the need arouses.

Some wavering footsteps, A door opened, the repeated calls, Door closed, footsteps coming close. Your heartbeat loud as a drum. A creak, some cursing from the man and another boom, the second door closed.Your heartbeat getting louder and louder as the cycle repeats and repeats and you huddled in the narrow hiding corner, holding the dagger tightly, willing the terror inside you to go away, to leave you alone. Same noises, same sequence, same pattern which made time torturous, till it was unbearable.

“Boom” . A door closed again and you waited for the mumblings to start.


No footsteps, no mumblings, no voice. Only slience. As if nothing was lingering outside there, finding, waiting for the kill. But you know better.

You barely could register anything but your heartbeat. He’s near, he’s coming. It was predictable like the foreboding smile when people gave the killer punchline. You gripped your dagger and braced yourself for the upcoming outburst and ceased your breathing. Footsteps coming, quietly but audible, slowly, nearer, wrapping your heart in a chain of fear.

“Creak”. You hear the sound of the cabinet opening beside you and you stopped breathing for a second. Another second, and another.

“Nothing here.” You hear him say after a moment, just a millimeter away from you and you almost sighed in relief. You are safe.

Footsteps treads on the ground, A low cough near the door, Door opens and closes. You sighed in sound relief as you breathed evenly out, pulling back the air that was denied from you minutes ago. Now all that you have to do now is get out of this room and go to the riverbank-

“Hello there. ” a ghostly pale face appeared just inches before you.

“AH…!” You shrieked as a hand grabbed your arm and you are being pulled out of your hiding spot, facing the ninja. “LET ME GO…!” He laughs maniacally as your hand gets stuck in the little opening and he pulls you even forcefully, getting your hand out and in the process your dagger drops. It was a matter of time for him to leave you vulnerable, even though you managed to make some minor damage with your hairpin, but still, that wasn’t enough. Soon you are lying on the floor in your kitchen, facing the man, too weak to run or to get back on your feet. After a moment of eternal staring, he broke the ice.

“Well you should know, Lady Kirigakure.“He sheathed his blade "It was a pain to find you, and also a pain to catch you.” He smiled a cold smile, his blade in hand as he hovered on you. You knew he is going to kill you, yet you still felt a bit of satisfaction by looking at the deep cuts on his wrists.


He raised a eyebrow. “What?”

“Why do your clan wants to invade Takeda castle? ” your voice calm, but inside you’re screaming and thrashing around. No matter what, even if you die, you want to know why. If it concerns politics you would try to leave a last message for Lord Shingen to know but if it concerns Saizo….

“….I guess I should tell you then, since you’re going to die. "The ninja paused for dramatic effect "The Hojo clan wants revenge. You know exactly what I mean by that, don’t you? "And he smirked.

”…what-“ You paused for a moment, then you realized.

"Yes girl… your husband took our Lord Kotaru. And he seems to forgot his mission from Iga ehh? What was that again? To kill the fake Lady Kiku?” He smiled again, a malevolent smile. “What a traitor, yet he didn’t die. It was Kotaru who paid the price to kill you, even if he did follow orders. Someone has to pay the price for that, isn’t that right, Lady ______?”


Well as so you know, debts are meant to be paid. Missions are the same, even aborted ones, we just have to finish it.“ He raised his katana. "I’ll just have to kill you and Lord Saizo, Iga is too soft regarding these matters so how about passing the mission to kill you to me?” He smirks, then gave you a death glance. “Die.”

Your eyes squeeze shut as you saw the blade rushing towards you but it never landed. Then you hear a loud thunk and someone holded you in that someone’s arms. You opened your eyes.

“Saizo! ” He was covered in blood, the ninja lying on the floor, pulsing as blood flows freely from the hideous wound on his chest.

“In the end I’m the one who has to find you, little lady.” He mutters but you can see the relief in his eyes.Then he pushes you behind him protectively.

“Let’s go, Yukimura is finding you with Sasuke now. We’ll have to meet up.”. You nodded, and you walked behind Saizo until you saw it. Without hesitation you reacted and pushed Saizo away from you to the side while the shuriken lodged itself directly on the small of your back. You gasped.

“______!” You hear him shout your name as you choked blood on the floor, suddenly feeling light. Saizo scrambled to you and threw his katana towards the man. It lands squarely on his chest and he stares at Saizo within deadly stares, a winning smile on his face. He had had the last laugh now, you guessed in your blurry mind.

“Die” Saizo says, ruthlessly as he holds you in his arms. He feels so good, so good that you want this moment to last forever… You gasped again for air and you feel yourself slipping away, bit by bit.

“B-beware… Saizo.. ” The man smiles. “Th-is isn’t…t-he….end” With that the man uttered a dry laugh, then he slumped over, and at the same time you feel darkness surround you in a misty veil and you lost all senses of touch and sight.

【   Three days after the battle】

“Ngh…” you mumbled, head throbbing in pain as you woke up to a strange sight: Saizo, Lord Shingen and Sasuke sitting all around you looking at you. Their glances made you uneasy and you ended up questioning them.

“W-why are you all staring at me like this?”

“Well, firstly we are worried about you. Did you know how long have you been in a coma?” Lord Shingen asked.

“Uh… how long?” You tries hard to remember, but your head won’t cooperate. “

"It was terrible, _____! Your heart stopped!” Sasuke cried out. “There was a lot of blood…and..!”

“-and Saizo gave you emergency first-aid” Lord Shingen finished. “Although it may not be pretty…”

“So… how many days I fainted…?” You asked.

“Three days.” Saizo spoke and you turned to look at his pale face which had dark circles under his eyes, the face that you had most wanted to see.

“Saizo….! You’re okay!” You tried to sit up from the bedding, but pain shoots over your back to your chest and you winced, plonks back into the futon with tears in your eyes. Saizo immediately rushes over and caresses your hair.

“Don’t move anymore.” Saizo took a wet towel then rubs it on your forehead and you feel a bit better, distracted by the coldness. “You better get some rest…it won’t be easy from now on.” He suddenly kisses you and you looked at him in shock while Sasuke hid behind Lord Shingen’s back repeating “eww"s over and over. You blinked.Saizo was getting a little cuddly today, that’s for sure.

"Saizo, what happened? ” you murmured. He didn’t say anything, his hands slowly traced down your skin to your abdomen and he caressed the mound of flesh gently.

“Well, that’s the second thing that I wanted to tell you.” Lord Shingen says. “But I think I’ll better let Saizo do the talking. Now how about we give you two lovebirds some alone time?” With that Lord Shingen and Sasuke leaves and you raised a eyebrow while looked at Saizo. Saizo moves his hand away and places them on your hands, looking down at you with those warm, loving eyes that he reserved only for you.

“What happened, Saizo? ”

“______, You’re pregnant. You are going to be a mother.” Saizo smiles and you look at him in disbelief.


He sighes. “When was the last time you had your period sweetheart?” You looked at him, calculating the days. You widened your eyes. You were a week late and you didn’t even noticed. When did he found out about it? You wondered.

He narrowed his eyes. “I only knew about it when the doctors examined your condition after I gave you first aid. Honestly, aren’t you supposed to count your periodic days little lady?” Again, he answered your question in your mind and you sighed.

“Saizo…. how long?” “A month old.” He replies, eyes wandering to a distant place. When it cames back to your face he looks at you and says “I’m sorry.”

“For what?” You asked

You almost got yourself killed, ______. For me. And our child would’ve died too. It was all my fault that you had that shuriken in your back and I couldn’t do anything to save you.“his sad eyes bore into yours and you released a sigh.

"You’re unexpectedly honest today Saizo. ”

“Am I now…” he grins, but you can tell he’s still feeling guilty about the Hojo ninja incident. This was Saizo, he wouldn’t show his emotions with that poker face of his, but that doesn’t mean that his feelings wouldn’t leak out of him.

“Honestly Saizo, stop thinking about that, would you?” You place his hand to your cheek and he shifted his gaze on your face, suddenly unsure of himself. “Its okay, I’m safe, you’re sound and so is our baby. So what is the point on getting upset for?” You caressed your abdomen lovingly. “See… as long as we’re together, as long as we protect and love each other, it’ll be okay. You had did enough for me, Saizo. If you didn’t gave me first-aid that day I wouldn’t be here talking with you.”


“No buts now Saizo. Its all right.Hadn’t we talked about these types of situations before we got married? ” You still could remember that day, when you convinced him to marry you. You had known that being a wife of a ninja may cost you your life, but on the other hand you know Saizo will always be beside you in these situations, protecting you.


“Saizo.” You persisted. “I chose this life with you, and I would never ever regret my choice, even it woud cost my life. I’m willing to do anything Saizo, if its for you. Just, just trust me that things will be okay. Okay?” You gaze at him, waiting for a response.

Saizo looked at you, then pulls you to him. You glances at his face, seeing him trying to relax. Even if he seem invincible, the lord assassin could be weak at times, and these are the times when you have to support him, as husband and wife.


“Hm? ”

“I trust you,” His voice as cool as ever, a edge of kindness hidden beneath it all. “-but don’t you ever, ever do anything stupid like this time again. Understand?”

You nodded your head. “Understood”

He smirks

“That’s a good girl.”


…so I unexpectedly wrote a lot. And I hope Saizo’s character match with his because I don’t want to butcher my favorite SLBP man…. *if I did I’m very sorry (ノД`)シクシク*

Anyways… I hope you like this fic. And thanks to whoever who took a chunk of your time to read my amateur fanfic. You made my day :)

anonymous asked:

(1/2) one: I LOVE YOU and you know that, the sun to my moon, matter to my dark matter, until whichever end our sempiternal life might lead. | two: who left first? I searched for your reflection in earthly moonlight, tried to find refuge in words, reached deep into the place of my heart where you used to be, but you weren't there. | three: sister--and you will always be--we may not fell from heaven like the morningstar, but no one has ever loved a sin as much as i loved you. (cont)

(2/2) four: lover–what you were–we had been so many things together, across the ages, soul to soul. you are Artemis, Iseult, Shinta, and I will forever chase you across the stars. | five: my sin, my ghost, never say that your darkling boy didn’t miss you. come back to me. || H.M

{daps theme of the week // “no one has ever loved a sin as much as i have loved you” - codependent siblings.}

. the dead anon poets society .

Whiskey the Tiniest Cat followed me out to the ger last night and delightedly joined me. This morning I woke up crammed into a tiny corner of the bed, having ceded the rest to her, but she was gone. At 5 she showed up trilling little proud noises at me and I realized she had brought me a dead mouse.
I mean. What can you do? I petted and praised her, and she preened a bit. After half an hour of me not eating it, though, she went ahead and did so.
So now I have a mouse tail and a couple of mouse organs on my floor…
Whiskerino, you’re the best. (She is currently, hyped up on mousie guts, trying to climb into every box and shelf in the place.)


anonymous asked:

He and I are toxic. The thing is I don't know which one of us is more toxic. Lately I've been in the business of fucking up. I want someone to love me pure and simple. To hear my laugh and think of bells chiming and to see moonlight Dance off my skin and envy it. I want to be love wholly and correctly and I want to love someone that way too. Why can't I do that with him? I do not deserve someone who's not out to get their heart broken.

Then you deserve to love yourself enough to leave this person. That’s how you both grow from this experience. We only live once, so you use your life like a paintbrush and remember that some soft strokes won’t always be your last and some mistakes can be painted over, but if you never attempt to finish this painting–

You’ll always be art that is abandoned.

But then again, like Leonardo da Vinci once said:

Art is never finished, only abandoned.

People: Oh Jaspar are just internet people stop being stupid.

Stop being stupid? So it’s stupid that they legitimately saved a suicidal and depressed girls life? It’s stupid that they make me so happy and warm inside? It’s stupid that they’ve given me a reason to stay alive just so I can thank them? Do you wanna know what’s stupid? What’s stupid is that you don’t get how happy I am because of them and that they are my sunshine and moonlight. That they are my world. That’s what’s f*cking stupid.

Answer questions w/ songs

Thanks to @baekhyunsbabe for tagging me! ^_^

The artist I’m selecting: EXO
What’s your gender: My Lady
Describe yourself: Beautiful
How do you feel: Lucky One
If you could go anywhere, where would it be: Heaven
Favorite mode of transportation: Cloud 9(???)
Your best friend: Baby
Favorite time of day: Moonlight
If your life was a TV show, what would it be called: They Never Know
What is life to you: Love, Love Love
Relationship status: Call Me Baby
Your fear: Heart Attack

tagging: @suavesehun @ahbaekhyun @kpopmelody @my-fandom-musings @sebyun

Tagged by @crazypitches thanks! ❤️

Rules: Using only the song titles from one artist, cleverly answer these 11 questions then tag 10 people.

My artist is Ariana Grande

What is your gender? Dangerous Woman

Describe yourself? Best Mistake

How do you feel? Thinking Bout You

If you could go anywhere, where would it be? Into You LOL

Favourite mode of transportation? Side to Side

Your best friend? Better Left Unsaid

Favourite time of day? Moonlight

If your life was a tv show, what would it be called? Leave Me Lonely

What is life to you? Problem(atic)

Relationship status? Only 1

Your fear? Almost is Never Enough

Tagging @dwarfolsen
@thegrimllama @clarkestiddys @nerdkru @(kam pls tag kales bc idk her url) and @becamitchill

I was tagged by @pentaholic4lyfe

Thank you! <3

The rules: Put your music on shuffle and answer these questions with the song that comes up. When you are done tag 10 people.

Title of the first song describes how you’re feeling:

…Baby One More Time - Britney Spears

Second describes your love life:

THE QUIET - Troye Sivan (very true)

Third will be played at your wedding:

Chandelier - Sia

Add “In my pants” to the title:

Moonlight “In my pants” - Ariana Grande

Will be played at your funeral:

Young God - Halsey

Is your theme song:

My House - Flo Rida

Will be played when you think of someone you love:

Don’t Tell ‘Em (feat. YG) - Jeremih

Add “with a shovel and a screwdriver”:

Monsters “with a shovel and a screwdriver” - Timeflies (that’s scary)

Describes your week:

Heaven - Beyonce

This will be played when you miss someone:

Let Me Love You (feat. Lil Wayne) - Ariana Grande (kinda accurate)

And I tag: @stripedgalaxy @sup3rfruitmusic @super–fruity

I was tagged by @whoawoozi, thank you Tiffany, and sorry for doing this a bit late u__u

The artist I’m selecting: EXO (No surprise there XD)

What’s your gender: My Lady

Describe yourself: Monster (asdkhgasahgfdsga)

How do you feel: Hurt

If you could go anywhere, where would it be: Heaven

Favorite mode of transportation: Cloud 9

Your best friend: Angel

Favorite time of day: Moonlight

If your life was a TV show, what would it be called: Drop That (to be more specific, “Drop That pc/phone and study!”)

What is life to you: Unfair

Relationship status: What is Love

Your fear: Don’t Go

I am tagging @creepybaekkie @bootyfulohsehun @glorious-soobooty @elluts @kaibaibou @ikimashou @2yuehong @chanssoo  @the-baekery @glamforus @jongdaees @lay-me-down-and-lovemeright @daegutaegu @karkkitarina @wiingharusarido @ayegoodboy @tae-adoro @xiubabes @goldenchenrise @302917