The airport scene has always made me an emotional mess, but it completely devastated me when I realized some things.
At first this sounds like Yuuri wants Victor to stay coaching him forever, even past the Grand Prix Final. But I realized it’s actually something else entirely.
Remember this line from episode 7?
Yuuri placed fourth in Rostelecom and didn’t podium. While I’m sure Yuuri logically knows Victor won’t stop being his coach, especially because he qualified for the Finals, anxiety, as we all know, rarely listens to logic.
So in reality, what Yuuri is asking is:
“Even though I didn’t make the podium, please don’t step down like you said you would. Please remain as my coach until the GPF, after which I will retire.”
Oh yeah, that’s another important and often missed thing: Yuuri has been planning retire for a while. It’s been hinted at many times throughout the seriesーeven in this very episode.
Now this next part here is what really makes me Feel Things
When Yuuri tears up, I always thought he was crying because Victor is being really sweet and they’re so in love and very emotional after being reunited. But now, looking into it, it’s actually devastatingly sad. Because here is what Yuuri is thinking:
“I’ve already decided I’m going to be retiring after the Final and I’m going to break your heart and I’m so sorry but it’s something I have to do.”
“Let’s enjoy what we have while it lasts and not think about the future for now, because it’s only going to hurt both of us.”
And now i’m hurting and I’m sure you are too i’m sorry