Write-about-love

gerdavonrinnlingen  asked:

I really love how you described Quinn in the chapter you posted; I'm curious - which aspect of him to you like to write the most about? His competence, his devotion to the SW or ... something else entirely? :3

I’m so glad you liked that last chapter! Hmmm what I like best about writing Quinn… Can I say ‘everything’? XD 

I think from a writer’s perspective, I like how Quinn doesn’t have a foil in Iustitia. Gimrizh’s foil is Thutrel and Baras, Celebris and Jaesa certainly reflect and counter each other, ect, but the only person who’s really countering Quinn is himself. His over-analysis and anxiety is, in the narrative at least, his own worst enemy. He’s put down by people like Broysc, but at the end of the day, they’re just giving him rope - it’s Quinn that then goes ahead and hangs himself. 

Falling in love. It’s always something that comes unexpected. Suddenly it hits you; you’re in love, just like that. And maybe that’s what makes it so wonderful. Having absolutely no control is scary, but if you just let it happen, beautiful things can come your way.
—  L.N. | falling in love

i have thought a lot about censorship and what is “appropriate”. not a lot of people know this, but lolita was written to show what we allow on our bookshelves: there being no swear words in it meant it was free from censorship. a book about child molestation was allowed because it didn’t explicitly use the word “fuck”. he wrote it to show we don’t really care about protecting children, and it ended up being seen as a romance.

someone once told me - actually, many people have - that lgbt content isn’t appropriate for children. any content. not just kissing. i’m drowned in questions: “won’t the parents have to explain it?” “kids shouldn’t be thinking about sex at this age, or do you think differently?” “what will the kids think?”

at six i saw disney movies. people kiss and get married. i didn’t ask “what does that mean.” i didn’t ask “are those people going to have sex?” i didn’t ask anything, because i was six, and no six year old thinks twice about these things. nobody ever “explained” being straight to me, it was a fact, and it existed, and i was fine with that. why would being gay require a thesis, i wonder.

someone once told me that the one of the reasons people hate lgbt individuals is because they can’t see us as anything but sexual. we’re not people, so much as sinners. that they don’t see love, they see sex. just sex. it’s perversion, not a matter of the heart. only of the body.

i think i was in my early twenties before i saw someone like me. 

how old were you, though, before you saw violence? before you saw sexual assault on tv? i think something like that is only pg-13, and if it’s implied, they can get away with anything. i remember watching things and learning about blood, but knowing sex - sex was what was really wrong. sex was always rated r. sex was always kind of a bad word. i was told a lot that i wasn’t ready.

i had a dream last night that i made a site where people could ask any question they wanted about sex and get answered by a professional. it was shut down in moments because 15 year olds wanted to know if it should hurt, if “double-bagging” was a real thing, if this, if that. we shudder. don’t let the children know about that! 

but at thirteen i had seen enough violence it no longer struck me. i couldn’t say “fuck” but i knew that if you break your femur, you can bleed out internally in under half an hour. in school i wasn’t allowed to write about loving girls because what would the administration think - but i could write about wanting to kill myself and people would say how lovely, how blistering.

i have thought a lot about censorship. sometimes people on this site try it with me: don’t write this, don’t be so nasty. some of it is intrinsic. we know as people with a uterus not to complain about “that time of the month”, we know better than to talk about sexual assault (how shameful), we know that talking about a vagina is somehow scandalous. i can say “dick” and nobody questions me. some people only refer to the bottom half of me by “pussy”. they won’t wrap a mouth around “vagina” like it’s poison to them. even discussing this, that the language halts, that there’s an intrinsic desire to say “girls” instead of “women” - feels naughty, illicit. not for children.

the other day someone suggested i make my blog 18+. i said, okay, it deals a lot with depression and other problems that might be for a mature audience. oh no, they said, that’s not it, i think that’s helpful. i said, okay. so what is it then. well, you’re gay. you write about loving women. and i said, i don’t write about sex often and they said. it’s not about the sex. but wlw isn’t for a general audience. teenagers aren’t ready.

oh.

lolita is recommended for high school and up. i think about that a lot. i know girls who love it, who say it speaks to them on a deep level. it’s beautiful prose, after all. that was the whole point of the novel. something that looked like a rose but was intrinsically awful. i think about how if i was a model they’d want me to look young, thin, prepubescent. how my body would be sold and how through the mall i walk by images of barely-clothed women while mothers cannot breastfeed in public without fear of retribution. 

i think about how i can write a novel about violence and it will be pg-13 but if my characters say “fuck” twice it’s inappropriate. i said fuck three times so far in this post, which makes it only appropriate for adults. 

i think about that, and how my identity is something that people suggest lines up with a swear word. that people shouldn’t talk about it. that it’s a vulgarity. bad for children, harsh, confusing.

fuck. i love women. which one makes this only for those over eighteen.

this song is UNREAL but lowkey it makes my heart hurt bcs taylor used to write about fairytales and true love and they hurt her SO bad she’s has to change who she is to the point where she says the old taylor is dead bcs people walked over her so much and took advantage of her taylor i am so so sorry

As the smoke slowly traveled out of your mouth, I saw you look at me with your glossy, bloodshot eyes. In that moment, I knew I wanted you. The drugs in your system wanted me too. Just the drugs, not you.
—  the drugs // 10:45am
Meeting someone at the wrong time is the saddest thing I have ever come to comprehend. There is this unfathomable pain rooted deep in knowing that you have to let go to continue growth separately when in your heart, you just know- you know that since the first day you were both put on this planet, you must have been two seeds planted right next to each other, the crossing of roots inevitable because what else could explain how you see the world almost identically? What else could explain how when it rains on the other, you feel it too? And it is for these exact reasons I know that us meeting was not a coincidence; we will meet again someday when we have bloomed a little stronger in order to maximise eachother’s growth.
—  Farewell for now, my flower.
BTS As Boyfriends (Based on Astrology) - Maknae Line

warning: large amounts of fluff ahead

Hyung Line version here

Jimin

  • the hopeless romantic boyfriend
  • an actual prince charming
  • libra is ruled by the planet venus
  • venus is the goddess of love and beauty
  • so expect a sensual relationship with him
  • will charm ur pants off with sweet yet sexy words
  • loves to shower u in affection and praise
  • libras live to please their partners 
  • so he’d go the extra mile to make u happy
  • so flirtatious
  • winks and butt grabs
  • spoils u 
  • brings home a thousand gifts when he returns from overseas
  • “jagi this reminded me of u. and this..and this…and this”
  • takes u to expensive restaurants
  • shows up to ur doorstep with flowers and chocolates
  • at home spa dates where he decorates the room with roses, lights candles, and gives u a massage
  • is very sociable and will always have u by his side when going to events
  • introduces u to his 2568 friends
  • carefree and lighthearted
  • couple rings, bracelets, and necklaces
  • couple selfies
  • giggle fits between the both of u that last 20 minutes
  • knows exactly how to lift up ur mood
  • always makes time to facetime/call u when he’s away
  • libras like harmony and avoid conflict
  • so arguments are rare
  • an amazing listener
  • his scorpio venus makes him a bit possessive 
  • and also very passionate and intense
  • always holding ur hand or has an arm around ur waist
  • king of skinship

Originally posted by taectless

Taehyung

  • the committed boyfriend

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She used to crave your company to satisfy her mind but now she’s a hurricane. She builds her own storms and ruins. She no longer twists and turns like you.
—  I tried so hard
to make you happy
but you never really
wanted me at all
and one day
I woke up fine
being lonely.
by @jwfeelings // Message me a word and I’ll write about it

THE GRAVE ‘Here lies Taylor Swift’s Reputation’ IS SO ACCURATE BECAUSE AFTER THIS VIDEO NO ONE CAN SAY:
• She’s playing the victim again
• She can’t dance
• She only writes about love and relationships
• She’s not talented and creative
• She can’t make meaningful music videos
• They shaded Taylor harder than she shaded herself

August 24, 2017

To the boy with the green eyes,

Remember the last time we saw each other? 
In your little blue car….
We poured our hearts out to one another. 
We cried on each other’s shoulders.
I confessed my love to you. 
You confessed your love to me. 
But you didn’t confess that this was going to be the last night I saw you. 
Two hundred and twenty-one days later, I still remember this night clearly. 

You stopped by to pick up your (very) late Christmas present. 
You knew how bad I had been, and asked what was wrong. 
We walked to your little blue car, put the windows down on that cold chilly moonlit night, and talked. 
I told you everything that was happening to me: 
My ex-boyfriend and his new guy. 
A friend that I thought I could trust. 
And a lover that broke my heart. 
I also told you I was in a very dark place. 
Do you remember what I said to you?
I’m too ashamed to confess what I did to myself. 
Please don’t make me say it. 
I don’t want to see you cry again. 
Your beautiful emerald looking eyes don’t deserve to have tears in them. 
They need to keep sparkling and smiling. 

After we cried together, I confessed my love to you. 
I didn’t expect you to say anything. 
I didn’t expect you to feel the same way. 
I just wanted you to listen. 
I remember looking into those dazzling green eyes, holding your hand, and telling you: 
“I know this sounds cheesy. And I know that it may not seem true. But this is the truth. I promise. I love you. I love you so much. And I want to let you know that I will always love you. No matter what. I don’t care if you’re with someone new. I don’t care if I’m with someone new. I don’t even care if I haven’t talked to you in months, or even years. I will always love you.”
You didn’t say anything. 
You just looked at me with those watery green eyes.
You nodded and a tear fell down your cheek. 

Then, I asked you what you wanted from me. 
You said:
“I honestly don’t know. I don’t know what I want. I never know what the right choice is. I never know what the right thing to do is. I always hurt you. I don’t want to keep hurting you. We had a lot of fun. And that’s all I wanted at first. And that’s what happened. I liked you. I really did. A lot. Then things changed. I wanted to hang out with you every day and be with you every day. And we did that. I wanted to be closer to you. And we did that too. Then stuff happened, and I got scared. I don’t know. I was scared to be happy. I didn’t want to be in a relationship. I wasn’t prepared at all for how I felt about you. I didn’t know how to take it to the next level. I didn’t know how to be your boyfriend.” 

These words still bring tears to my eyes.  
It’s as if we are star-crossed; forever living different paths in our lives that don’t have any connection in the end, denying us of any chance of living a life together. 
But how can that be when we are existing at the same time?
You’re alive. 
I’m alive. 
And I have never felt more alive with anyone else than when I’m with you. 
Just the way you look at me with those alluring eyes is what convinces me that you are in love with me too. 
So why aren’t you with me now? 
Why are you with someone else? 
Is it because she can give you a family?
Is it because you want to believe she’s the one for you?
Not just you though, for your whole family. 
She’s someone they will accept. 
Nobody would accept me into your family. 
I think we both know that for sure. 

Two hundred and twenty-one days have passed since that night happened. 
I’ve gone through many stages of:
Hating you. 
Worrying about you. 
Wondering if you’re dead.
Wondering if you’re alive. 
Pretending you’re dead. 
Wishing for your presence. 
All while still loving you. 
It’s torture. 

I don’t know if I should give up. 
But a part of me feels that I will never find anybody like you. 
Nobody’s going to look at me the way you did. 
Nobody’s going to touch me the way you did. 
Nobody’s going to care about me the way you did. 
And nobody’s going to understand me the way you do.
Every time I talk to someone new, I compare them to you. 
I know that’s wrong, but it’s true and I can’t help it. 
That’s when I start to believe that they’re not good enough for me. 
Because I need to find somebody that’s so good that they make me forget about you…
I know that’s not fair and I think that’s what keeps me from letting people in. 
I put this steel cage around my heart when you left me, and you’re the only one with the key to open it. 
I just wish you would talk to me. 
I wish you would tell me to move on, but your silence speaks louder than words. 
It drives me crazy; leads me to believe that I did something wrong, but I didn’t. 
Maybe it’s your way of keeping me in the sidelines when things get bad with you and her. 
I don’t see how that’s fair, but I love you so much that I don’t care. 
I’ll take any excuse you give me to come back, so long as I get to see your face again. 

I’m sorry. 
I’m sorry for getting close to you. 
I’m sorry for burdening you with my problems. 
I’m sorry for loving you. 
I’m sorry for all of this. 
Maybe things would’ve been simpler if we just didn’t meet. 
But as people say, “Two souls don’t just meet by simple coincidence.”
I start to wonder why you came into my life. 
Or was it I that came into yours?
I wonder if you’ll ever come back to me, even as a friend. 
I miss you. 
I miss you so dearly. 
Please stay alive while I exist. 
Whether it’s a year or ten, I will wait for you. 
Because I love you, and I want to believe that we are meant to be together. 
I want to wake up every morning to those lovely green eyes of yours. 

I wanted to tell you that I forgive you.
I forgive you for pretending that I don’t exist.
I forgive you for leaving me with no explanation.
I forgive you for choosing her over me.
I forgive you  for falling for me.
I get it now.
We are just simply not meant to be.

You know me…
I always have so much to say to you.
I could write books about my love for you. 
But I have one more important thing to say….

Happy birthday. 

Love always and forever, 
The boy with the brown eyes 

She’s made out of particles that construct planets, and she has the power to build universes. He’s made a home in her world, and she’s the reason for his oxygen.
—  he lives off
her breath
by @jwfeelings // Message me a word and I’ll write about it
101 Ways to say “I Love You”

1. “Be safe.”

2. “This song reminded me of you.”

3. “You can have mine.”

4. “Text me when you’re home.”

5. “I prepared this for you.”

6. “I just wanted to hear your voice.”

7. “Stay with me.”

8. “I’m here for you.”

9. “You don’t see just how lovely you are.”

10. “Take my jacket, it’s cold outside.”

11. “I don’t deserve this.”

12. “I’ll wait.”

13. “It’s not heavy.”

14. “Try some.”

15. “Watch your step.”

16. “Sleep earlier.”

17. “Don’t drink so much.”

18. “Is your seatbelt on?”

19. “Just because.”

20. “See you later.”

21. “Let’s not say goodbye.”

22. “I was in the neighbourhood.”

23. “If anything, call me.”

24. “Take a deep breath.”

25. “You can do it.”

26. “I brought you an umbrella.”

27. “Stay there. I’m coming to get you.”

28. “We’ll figure it out together.”

29. “Sweet dreams.”

30. “Rest well.”

31. “You’re important too.”

32. “I noticed.”

33. “Try some.”

34. “That’s okay, I brought two.”

35. “I think you’re beautiful.”

36. “You can tell me anything.”

37. “Don’t keep it to yourself.”

38. “Can I hold your hand?”

39. “Can I hug you?”

40. “Can I kiss you?”

41. “I want you to be happy.”

42. “I believe in you.”

43. “I checked your horoscope.”

44. “This reminded me of you.”

45. “Drink this, you’ll feel better.”

46. “You don’t have to say anything.”

47. “I hope you like it.”

48. “I don’t mind.”

49. “Are you sure?”

50. “You don’t have to if you don’t want to.”

51. “Don’t worry about me.”

52. “Don’t stay up too late.”

53. “I’ll do it for you.”

54. “Sit down, I’ll get it for you.”

55. “Are you feeling better?”

56. “You’re warm.”

57. “We can share.”

58. “It looks good on you.”

59. “I love it when you smile.”

60. “Do you want to come too?”

61. “Do you need a hug?”

62. “Are you hungry?”

63. “Don’t skip meals, it’s not good for you.”

64. “Don’t be so hard on yourself.”

65. “You’ll be alright.”

66. “Hang in there.”

67. “Who cares? You matter the most to me.”

68. “Your grades don’t matter as much as your mental health.”

69. “We can get better together.”

70. “I prayed for you.”

71. “I’m so blessed to have you in my life.”

72. “What did I do to deserve you in my life.”

73. “Their opinions shouldn’t matter.”

74. “Stay strong.”

75. “I promise. Pinky promise.”

76. “I dreamt of you.”

77. “Did you sleep well?”

78. “There’s so much I want to do for you.”

79. “I see a future with you.”

80. “It’s okay because it’s you.”

81. “Time moves faster when I’m with you.”

82. “I’m afraid of losing you.”

83. “You’re silly, but I like silly.”

84. “Don’t get worked up over this.”

85. “Stop getting into fights, silly.”

86. “Does it hurt?”

87. “Do you need ointment? An ice-pack? A massage?”

88. “When you’re hurt, I’m hurt too.”

89. “Let’s travel the world together.”

90. “You won’t ever be alone.”

91. “You’re my favourite person of all time.”

92. “I want to introduce you to all of my friends and family.”

93. “It feels right to have you next to me.”

94. “I want to stay with you until we’re grey and old.”

95. “I know what kind of parent I want to be already.”

96. “You’re my one and only.”

97. “I respect you.”

98. “I miss you so much.”

99. “Whatever I want is right in front of me now.”

100. “I do.”

101. “I love you.”

suddenly everyone’s asking for suggestions I kinda love yall for being so open minded??? okay bb idk how you’re not a shinee stan yet, but I’m gonna turn you over to the dark side so grab a snack and take a seat and let’s start~~


Meet: SHINee aka the group that saved kpop

Originally posted by sataeminism

• A 5 member group who debuted in 2008 under SM Ent. with their legendary song, Replay (I still cry when I listen to it esp with RDD right after)
• they’ve said many times that business comes before their personal friendships with each other, and we all believe this is why they’ve stuck together for so long and had an amazing career so far
• some members have gotten in fights during their rookie years, but ofc now you can tell they’re basically like family to each other and they’re each others biggest fans
• the members are all amazing actors, songwriters, producers, and singers and all are hella multi-talented


Meet: Onew aka grandpa Jinki

Originally posted by duevangogh

• oldest, the chillest yet most savage leader
• almost killed Jonghyun once when he flung a pen at his eye, he was aiming for Minho
• such a great actor wow
• has the most beautiful and breathtaking smile you can almost hear your heart breaking when he does it, esp when they perform 1 of 1
• he’s legit so chill and laid back and lets his grandkids roast each other, but he’ll come for you if you disrespect him or any of them
• he’s enlisting in the military soon, pls pray for him and support him


Meet: Jonghyun aka the misfortunes of bling bling

Originally posted by partycardigann

• probably the most pervy and sexual idol out there (ye I know yall seen that video on him n taemin tsk tsk tsk me 2)
• but he’s actually a puppy who’s been let off the leash??? Like he’s a sweetheart
• is in love with key and he’s their biggest shipper
• wrote so many sexual songs and gave them to EXO and Taemin “here u go I have like another 27 songs stashed under my pillow, u go sing about being a playboy”
• almost died krumping bc Minho sprayed the whole floor with water whole jjong was jumping
• is SHINee’s biggest fanboy and he’s an actual sunshine (he’s the shortest too but I don’t wanna point that out bc he’s butthurt about it shh)


Meet: Key aka wtf are u wearing u shady binch 

Originally posted by celes-tae

•  yall better not miss any of his instagram lives bc that’s when he’s about to spill all the tea on everyone
•  loves makeup n fashion n himself n his dogs <3 actual queen of beauty skin care and shading everyone
•  he’s a great actor as well, and it’s like he’s even more savage when the rest of shinee isn’t around and he’s doing solo stuff
•  his vocal range is actually amazing and we’ll fight anyone who thinks he’s not as talented as the others
•  supposedly he made out with Jonghyun while he was drunk one time, I ??? 
•  babys taemin like he’s 2 yrs old, he used to be so protective of him and he still is and I’m a mess


Meet: Minho aka flaming charisma

Originally posted by manwalage

• the most competitive idol and no one can tell me any different
• a soccer superstar, his dad is a coach too…and he blesses us with so many sports campaigns and CF’s (well he’s like one of the top models in Korea rn too just throwin that out there)
• it really hurts me when people say he only got into shinee for his looks
• he’s so talented and takes his career and the group very seriously, despite him being competitive sometimes, he’s really mature and every kpop group who matters look up to him
• will diss you and burn a hole through ur head if you insult him
• what’s image??? What’s reputation???? Shinee knows no limits, their mission is to expose everyone


Meet: Taemin aka SHINee’s actual baby

Originally posted by herewegobebe

• he’s not actually innocent bruh don’t let his face fool you…but then again he’s a real angel sometimes
• shinee lets him get away with roasting them bc he’s their son n they love him (plus he never talks or opens his mouth unless he’s about to expose someone)
• he gets shy and nervous very easily and he’s mentioned that sometimes he has bad anxiety when promoting alone for his solos
• has been besties with EXO’s Kai for like 12 years and they love each other so much it hurts (pls watch their Pretty Boy performance I beg u)
• shinee used to walk him 2 school everyday bc he was bullied
• everyone in the industry who’s passionate about dancing looks up to him bc he’s such an amazing performer, he puts his heart n soul into every dance and performance I actually am in love with this man help me I can’t get up
(I’m sorry I wrote so much about him abshdjdk I could write essays about why I love him)


they were the group that got me into kpop in the first place with RDD and they’ll always have a special place in my heart, pls love them<3

As much as we would like to, there are some people we simply cannot write a love poem about… Because they’re not like a flower, or a bird, or the stars or any other poetic analogy you can think of.
They are simply who they are… They defy description… and that is precisely what we love about them the most.
Ever since she swallowed the universe, she had clouds trapped in her stomach and the taste of metal running against her tongue. But one day, she knows the sun will burn her throat and flowers will grow in her lungs.
—  she’s been lifting
the weight of the world for others
but she’s done being stepped on
by @jwfeelings // Message me a word and I’ll write about it
“Please,” she cried, her head hanging, “don’t ever forget me.”

A moment passed. He didnt know what to say, so she continued.

“Don’t forget me, okay? Don’t forget me, the girl who worked so damn hard to make you happy. The girl you thought would be forever. Please, I’m begging you, don’t forget about me.”

“I’d never.” He whispered, almost as if he didn’t want the world to hear. Almost as if he didn’t want her to hear.

“Why would you ever think I would?” He broke the silence, filling it only to temporarily stop her tears from falling until she finally answered.

“Why wouldn’t you?”

—  forgetting is a habit of the human brain // the story of a new us | a.m