I'm sad for you and your relationship with your father as I believe a girl's relationship with her dad is the most important one. Times and parenting were different. I would give my eye teeth if my father could have told me he loved me or gave me a kiss (only one on my wedding day as well). Yet, I do not doubt for one second that this man loved me beyond human comprehension. His albeit silent but unwavering love gave me the strength to be a woman who respects herself above all else.
No… Don’t be sad about it!
It is what it is. I am the person I am today because of it. I’m grateful for the strength it imbued me with. Suffering creates great character. I like to think. 😉 To deny the complete truth is harmful. I have found to face it and embrace it and validate it makes it less of a burden. I am happy to share my past with others if it gives them a sense of solace. I’m not looking for pity…. But for grace. I’m messy. You’re messy. And yet, we can still laugh and love. Tomorrow the sun will rise. Yada yada.