you are drowning me in yourself and i am just swallowing lungfuls of water. the world is turning hazy and muffled and blurry. all i can see clearly are your eyes
there is a theory that says there are worlds and worlds in which we are different people and everything takes a strange shape and maybe we become something else. in another world, maybe your eyes don’t glitter gold when the light strikes them at the right angle and your teeth don’t scrape over my skin until they draw red and you don’t know what my blood tastes like in your mouth, and maybe i’m happier in that world but this is not that world.
you ask me what i would give you and i say anything and i mean everything and i am only a boy dreaming of stardust, but you trace fingers over my veins and take it anyways
you touch my skin and name the bones lying under it, fibula, tibia, patella, femur, leave me shuddering under your hands and i am falling, falling, f a l l i n g and it feels like everything i feel for you— all its twisted, devoted, beautiful glory and all the words that are catching in my throat like a sick cough. and hey, listen, i couldn’t breathe without you. hey, listen, you are poisoning me from the inside and i am begging you for more
i offer you everything // w.t.o