Trigger warning;; (Personal issues,violence, drug use)
Okay back in 2010/2011/2012 I was on some really bad drugs. Meth and opiates mostly. Since then, in late 2012 I got clean and moved the fuck away.
2014 I had to come back, and obviously it’s been harder to stay clean but i’ve managed. Anyway I haven’t seen my family since christmas since I live an hour away and work a fulltime job, I have no car. Nor do they have cars (or jobs.) My mum calls me today crying, Apparently she went to check on my sister and her 4 year old daughter and while her daughter was sleeping, my sister was apparently shaking and freaking the fuck out. Thinking shit was crawling all over her. Mind you i’ve been on drugs a lot, and on meth I may have had one or two bad experiences and usually i’d be like, okay, she’ll be okay. But the fact that it was Just her and her daughter is what upsets me.
Deep down my sister is a good person. She knows what she’s doing is wrong but that’s when addiction comes into play. She doesn’t think she’s hurting anyone, even though she just got evicted from government housing?? Oh right, because she was letting a fucking fugitive stay in her house (WITH DESTINY THERE. (the daughter)
So now I have to find a way there, so I can try and talk some sense into my sister. I don’t know if I can and it’s all really fucking overwhelming because E V E R Y O N E in the family is looking to me.
I already know my grandma is making her and Destiny move in so she can keep an eye on them. But in all honesty, based on how i’ve been told, my sister is screaming at my mother, and blacked out in jail last month and doesn’t remember fighting two cops, and sending a girl to the hospital.
I’m afraid her detox will kill her. I’m afraid if she doesn’t get her fix she will black out (as she has always blacked out when she was angry) and do something to my grandma and/or Destiny.
I’ve never been afraid of my sister, but now I have to face her and either talk some sense into her or we’re both just going to be beating the shit out of each other.
I really need some kind words, maybe some help? Rehab facilities in Tennessee?
Im freaking out.