UNTIL IT GETS THROUGH ALL OF YOU

It didn’t even occur to me that I might be attracted to other women until I was most of the way through college. I didn’t kiss a girl until I was 24. I didn’t call anyone my girlfriend until I was 25. I didn’t have an identity label I felt truly comfortable and confident in until I was 26. And hey, I’m doing pretty okay now! At 28, I’m in a serious live-in relationship with that girl, I’m out to everyone I know, and I get to write weekly articles for all you queermos to read. But when I was first figuring things out, I often found myself at a complete loss. I was constantly turning a jumbled mess of doubts and worries over and over in my head, letting them tumble around for days, weeks, months at a time. That “hand mixer to your insides” feeling you described? I totally get it, because that was my feeling too.

In retrospect, I think the thing that messed with my head the most was that my story didn’t match the coming out story I’d internalized. I know you’ve heard the narrative before: A person is born gay. This person inevitably figures out at a young age that they’re “different.” From there, they either a) stay in the closet due to discrimination, or b) bravely come out and are are welcomed into the LGBT community with open arms. This is how it works for some people, and that’s totally awesome! But it isn’t how it works for everyone, and it isn’t how it worked for me. That dissonance gave me a lot of anxiety — and based on what you’ve said, it sounds like you’ve got a bit of it too.

anonymous asked:

STORYTIME: haru becomes a professional athlete and has a meteorically successful career, until the HORRIBLE ACCIDENT that leaves him paralyzed from the waist down and unable to do the one thing he loves. for months he's in a depressive state and none of his friends can get through to him, until the day that he agrees to participate in an experimental aquatic therapy program that could restore some functionality to his legs. guess who's his therapist? fffffFFUCKIN YAMAZAKI

haha ok this is great because not only do you get the intitial annoyance from both of them when they realise who they are working with, you get the potential of a relationship start to build because of this. 

likE OK HARU GETTING REALLY ANNOYED OVER SOUSUKE BOSSING HIM ABOUT (because sousuke would have that stupid smug tone to his voice because it’s nanase and all that. )

but can you imagine just when sousuke offhandedly talks about his shoulder and the things he had to do in order to work with it again and all that and just talks about it because i’m sure sousuke hasn’t really spoken about it to ANYONE and then haru starts to open up about his feelings of his own accident to sousuke because it’s putting pressure on him about not talking about it and he just needs to talk about it to someone and then just opening up to each other and forming a bond and a relationship through it. 

what i’m saying is: this has the potential to start off hilarious and all that but it could turn into my favourite thing ever: souharu hurt/comfort/

Happy Without Me

Chapter Seven – I Should’ve Known Better

A/N: This is not going to be the most pleasant flashback. We may be all out of fluff for now. I might be able to get another one up quickly but if not it’ll only be a few days, no worries.

Summary: Sure, everyone says long distance doesn’t work. But if anyone was gonna make it work it was supposed to be them. They’ve always beat the odds – until now. Now, Amy is just walking away like they don’t have two decades worth of history. Karma doesn’t know why Amy made so many promises when she wasn’t going to follow through with any of them.

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domblainedevon asked:

Hey, Ms. Leah. I, um, noticed you weren't at the concert last night. I hope you're feeling alright? I was worried that you might've been held up with a stomach bug or something.

Oh my god, I’m so sorry Blaine! I almost wish that was the case - and I meant to go, I did! I was so excited for the show but I - well I guess I made double plans and I had dinner with Professor Clarington, instead. I didn’t realize until now!

I’m so sorry, I know you went through all that trouble to get me a reserved seat in the front..

BY THE WAY I FORGOT TO MAKE A TEXT POST ABOUT THIS

We didn’t end up getting on the T until about 10:30 because getting out of TD Garden was an absolute adventure (the game also lasted pretty long), so when we were on it was a pretty quiet ride. About halfway through, I’d started accidentally making eye contact with this guy a couple seats away. I didn’t make anything of it, but clearly I wasn’t the only one because soon enough this dude stood up and addressed the entire T, asking why people didn’t talk on trains anymore.

He literally started asking why everyone was so awkward and silent, then ended up sitting in front of me and introducing himself as Travis. He asked what hobbies I had and what I liked to do, and we engaged in conversation about writing. It was really surprising? And pleasant? And he kept playfully making jabs at this one business man a few seats away also who was trying not to smile.

At his stop he stood up, said he loved us all, pointed to said business man and said (i quote) ‘you especially, you willy, coy ass motherfucker’ then left. What a glorious human being. I will never meet a dude as cool as Travis again.

IT’S NO SECRET THAT MASASHI NAKAYAMA, CHIEF DESIGNER OF THE ALL-NEW 2016 MAZDA MX-5 MIATA, HAS A DOTING LOVE FOR HIS RED, FIRST-GENERATION MX-5.

But now, Nakayama throws himself into the task of creating another life partner. One so captivating it could steal him away from his first love. "All the essential elements, the things that we have fought to preserve over the past quarter of a century, they are all still there,” explains Nakayama. “The proportions that make the people on board standout, the open feeling of streaking through space suspended between ground and sky, the countenance that is not haughty but intimate, and the timeless quality that means you never get tired of being with this car. But you won’t fullyunderstand it until you’re standing next to the all-new MX-5, until you openthe door and settle in behind the wheel, and until you drive it through townwith the top down.”

WhatNakayama speaks about so passionately is what Mazda calls jinba ittai, or ‘rider and horse as one’—and it’s always been thedriving inspiration behind the creation of the MX-5. Simply put, jinba ittai is one-ness with the road,the surroundings and the vehicle. It’s a sensation that’s only experienced by an exclusive club—those behind the driver’s seat of an MX-5.

ACCORDING TO NAKAYAMA, “JUST DRIVING HOME FROM WORK, THE MX-5 MAKES THE WORLD A MORE BEAUTIFUL PLACE.”

“The MX-5 has the extraordinary ability to make everyday scenery look more beautiful. It can even add a feeling of divinity to your daily life. Whether you are standing beside the vehicle looking at it, or sitting in the seat, either caught up in the driving or enjoying the ride on the passenger side—whatever the situation, your view will be filled with forms that will set your five senses trembling.”

NOW, ON THE EVE OF INTRODUCING THE ALL-NEW MX-5 TO THE WORLD, THE ANTICIPATION AT MAZDA CAN BE CUT WITH A KNIFE.

All the passion, all the exhilaration and all the painstaking craftsmanship that went into the fourth-gen MX-5 boils down to one thing: will enthusiasts embrace what we believe to be the next chapter of the pure modern roadster? It’s a question only you can answer.

Lifehack: if you go into the theaters with the mindset that books and movies are different forms of entertainment you’ll be a lot happier in life

But the truth is, it’s not the idea, it’s never the idea, it’s always what you do with it.
—  Neil Gaiman

Ive been very conflicted on how to address this. I wasn’t sure how to address it or that i even should because i was hoping it would go away. i thought i should be quiet and try not to take up too much space and let you all get your laughs out. but this is not really going away and im tired of the harassment. Last night a post of mine was reblogged by thousands of people. You may have seen it and contributed to it by reblogging it yourself. Let’s look at it:  this post was made late, late at night 6 months ago and at the time it went unnoticed and forgotten in the depths of my archive until last night when someone went through my archive (or so I can only assume), found that post and reblogged it. when it first made the rounds I got the general idea that people were reblogging it because they thought it was cute, quirky or whatever. it annoyed me then because people were reblogging it without understanding the context of that post. it is not a cute or romantic post by any means. I had just gotten out of an emotionally manipulative and abusive relationship and at that time  I was extremely romanticizing my abuser with this post. it wasn’t until it was made into a joke here that it became a real problem and it completely blew up going from a few notes to now over 5k notes: and I made a post immediately addressing it here 
in that explanation I explain that I was very depressed and suicidal at the time that I created that post and that I was romanticizing my ex. I don’t expect any of you who reblogged that post without context to be able to read my mind or know what I was going through at the time that I made that post. that is why im trying my hardest to publicly stand up for myself and explain what happened. are you all going to pretend like you haven’t made extremely personal, private, desperate posts on your personal blog early in the morning for some sort of relief? how would you feel if that got reblogged by thousands of people? without knowing it you all are making fun of me and humiliating me about one of the worst times in my life. I know you didn’t know that BUT I am trying to tell you. so please, do not reblog that post. if you have, please delete it. if you see someone reblog it, refer them to this post. spread this post because I am tired of my voice getting drowned out by the very people who are mocking me and shaming me and it is making me feel guilty for my own abuse. please try to be more mindful of the things you reblog on this site and understand that our actions have consequences attached to them. now that ive explained the context of this post, if you continue to contribute to it then you are harassing a teenage girl. if you need more information on manipulative abusive relationships here’s a link.  please reblog this post instead

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For those of you with the Pokémon Bank game, the latest event has begun. This event offers a download of the fully evolved Johto Starters, Meganium, Typhlosion and Feraligatr with their Hidden Abilities of Leaf Guard, Flash Fire and Sheer Force respectively. This distribution will run until November 30th for all players of Pokémon Bank and can be sent to Pokémon X, Y, Omega Ruby or Alpha Sapphire through their Pokémon Link feature. You get one of each per Pokémon Bank account and you need to make sure to have received all PokéMiles/BP sitting in the game’s Pokémon Link before you can receive these Pokémon.

Source: Serebii

Breathlessly embracing, whispers of love and lust lost to the heights. They were falling and flying, soaring in the clouds, falling endlessly on and on. Fires and butterflies, igniting and straining to burst, burning and fluttering inside. Tongues tied and tying little promises. Clutching closer, closer, straining and yearning, always needing more. Trembling fingers and frantic hearts, a burst of starlight, blindingly too bright, too hot. Sighs and quiet encouragement, ribs opening, a gentle hand reaching inside, a piece of yourself you left. Surrender, surrender, there is no return, we are one.

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Very important photoset of Gaius - ToX

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sparrabeth + elizabeth leaving the pearl

10:00pm
I relate all music to our heartbreak. I should have never showed you my favorite song because whenever I listen to it now, your hummed voice travels through my ears and gets trapped in my heart.
11:00pm
I force your name out of my throat and overdose the thought of you until I don’t even know my first name.
12:00am
I notice how shattered you’ve made me. The broken parts of my body scattered around are too many to piece together with a different scent of cologne or another bottle of vodka.
1:00am
I only want you to mend me. The memories of the warmth in your touch or gentle kisses are only temporary fixes to my wounded skin.
2:00am
I realize that the one who broke you cannot be the one to fix you, and tonight another cloud of smoke from my cigarette will be my only company.
—  thawing-mind, “Phases of You”
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Odin. Lord of Lords. Father.

Rainbow wraps with tomatillo sauce by LivePureJenna ♡

Completely raw, dairy free, gluten free & refined sugar free!

Recipe: (Yields 4-6 wraps)

Sauce
2 Tomatillos
2 Green Scallions
1 Tablespoon Fresh Lime Juice (usually 1/2 lime)
1/2 Cup Zucchini (chopped)
1/2 Avocado
Blend all ingredients until creamy in a blender.

Wraps
4 Large Collard Greens or 6 Small Collard Greens
Make sure you wash the greens very well. (She used apple cider vinegar mixed with water as a veggie wash).
Flip the collard green over so that the stem is sticking up.
With a sharp, small knife, cut back from the base of stem to where it meets the leaf.  Make sure you do not cut through to the other side.  As the stem gets slimmer towards the top, you don’t need to worry about cutting it as much.

Fillings
4 Carrots
1 Red Beet
1 Yellow Beet
1/2 Red Bell Pepper (sliced)
1/2 Small Red Onion (sliced)
Cilantro (as much as your heart desires, she put a lot because its great for cleansing and purifying your body). Peel carrots and beets and put through the food processor with the shredder blade.  It you don’t have one, you can use a grater for this.
Take your collard green and lay it the same way you cut it.
Spread on the sauce in the middle of the wrap then add your fillings at any ratio your prefer.
Once filled, tuck in the side towards the middle and grab the bottom on the wrap tucking and rolling to the end.
Slice diagonally if desired and Enjoy!

Daydream Hair *New Mesh* 20 Colors

Hey everyone here’s the hair from yesterday in my last post. Today I did a few more final touch ups in blender, which took me like forever lol. I actually had to do the one I had before over and then fix the LOD in this one. So stressful but I some how managed to get through my new hair project. 

-NOTE- This is a edit of the maxis hair long wavy classic. Also this hair mesh will show up as a pink base hair until I figure out how to fix the hair preview thumbnail, but once you click it mine appears. Also this hair mesh is sadly not hat mesh compatible.

Included:

  • 20 Color Swatches. 
  • All are in maxis textures.
  • Few bonus hair color edits by me. 

-Download | Dropbox | Daydream Hair 20 Colors

Credit:

  • Sims 4 Studio for tools.
  • Blender for the meshing tools

Please don’t redistribute or claim as your own thank you!

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Thanks for folding and letting those metadata retention laws pass" Tony hissed at Shorten through nearly closed lips. He had temporarily forgotten how to use them what with being a lizard.

"It’s fantastic," he continued. "Especially after you were quite vocally against it up until recently. I hope you’re proud you’ve helped me force the Australian people to pay more for their privacy to be invaded despite it having no gain whatsoever in countries who have already tried it and we know this! We just don’t care!”

"I feel dirty…" Shorten shivered as regret spread through his body.

"Good" Tony hissed. "Gooood… you should. We all should." He leaned in closer. "Hey… you want to know the kicker?" he asked as he got uncomfortably close.

You can get around it by just using a gmail account or public wi-fi…" he whispered into Shorten’s ear. "This is literally a completely useless waste of money on many levels… and the funny thing is I won the election blaming your party for doing that sort of thing."

Charlie Matheson |

The wound is the place where the Light enters you.

― Rumi