Thoughts on Life and Why I do not want mine to end

So it’s six AM and I haven’t slept and I feel like absolute garbage because so much crap has hit the fan in the last week or so and there is so much negativity on the internt and I have taken a lot of ADHD meds and I think I’m going to fail one or more finals today, so I need a masterpost of reasons that I want to continue living. Please feel free to add some of your own.

  • I get to see my younger brothers/parents in under a week.
  • I turn nineteen in under a week.
  • I made a new friend this past week ( @showtunesingingchemist​, in case you were curious. I met her in real life too, which makes this even more or a win)
  • I almost have my depression under control for once
  • I have almost figured out how to pay for my own college
  • I have finally let go of the pain associated to the last girl who manipulated me
  • The song “Build Our Machine” by DAGames and remixed by SayMaxWell
  • The Hardtrance Mortal Kombat theme song
  • Star Sky by Two Steps From Hell
  • Everything else by Two Steps From Hell
  • I have over 100 NPCs created for my Dungeons and Dragons setting across five continents
  • Running with that theme, I have almost figured out how advanced technology spreads across the world
  • I’ve got positive grades more or less locked in for three of my five classes this semester
  • Subway flatbreat
  • Gyro sandwiches
  • Tortillas
  • Granola
  • Alfredo pizza
  • The gradual movement of the world towards more accepting, and the role that I have played/am playing/can play in that through my attempts at inclusive and representative writing, especially in my D&D setting (link goes to the current character roster, which you can comment on if curious)
  • My Integument class for Dungeons and Dragons is almost ready for publishing on the Dungeon Master’s Guild website with class features and four full subclasses that run through twentieth level, and I have five more distict subclasses in progress
  • The associated Integumentum Brotherhood faction is approaching a similar degree of completion as well, which is great
  • I will be done with three of my four tests by ten tonight, for better or for worse
  • I have six or seven bookmarked gifs/gifsets that can make me smile without fail
  • One of my friends offered to give me a makeover to help me calm down following my finals
  • I am going to watch Pacific Rim, my all time favorite movie, tonight
  • Robert Downey Jr./Tony Stark/Iron Man exists
  • @markruffalo​/Bruce Banner/Hulk exists
  • Chris Evans/Steve Rogers/Captain America exists
  • Chris Hemsworth/Thor Odinson exists
  • Sebastian Stan/Bucky Barnes/the Winter Soldier exists
  • Don Cheadle/James Rhodes/War Machine exists
  • Any other unmentioned Marvel characters exist
  • Ben Afleck’s Batman is great, in spite of guns
  • Alfred Pennyworth exists, enough said
  • @executivegoth​/Talesin Jaffe might still respond to the ask I sent him at some point, which would make my existence
  • I have a great sense of humor
  • I need to do laundry
  • I’m almost on summer break
  • I have a summer job lined up
  • Heroforge is amazing
  • I have improved from my previous semesters in college, regardless of whether or not I’m perfect yet
  • Every other positive thing that I have mentioned in the last couple weeks that I can’t think of here

Again, reblog and add at least a couple things. Tumblr could really use some more unrestrained positivity.


٧ دقائق في كفة ، و كل المسلسلات و البرامج العربية في رمضان و معظم الدينية في كفة .


Eargasm! Listen all the way through. You won’t be disappointed.

This is going on my writing playlist!!!

For Stormblood hype

*This one really gets you in the mood*


The fire in our eyes,
The passion never dies,
We are the chosen ones,
The children of the sun
                                             - Merethe Soltvedt [Children of the Sun]