Trust

honestly, do you want me or not?
i can’t keep sitting around stressing about who wants me and who doesn’t want me in their life. not once have i ever been sure if someone was serious about me, since day one it’s been all talk. “i want u” “i care about u” “i love u” and then they leave, they leave every fucking time. no, i’ve never been in love, no, i’ve never had something real, it’s always me helping the other person, and then we realize we were just “meant to be friends”… but maybe it’s not that, maybe it’s that they didn’t want it as bad as i did. maybe they didn’t have the passion, the motivation, or the strength that i did. “understanding love is one of the hardest things in the world” …. but one thing i know about it, is that you have to fight for it. you can’t just expect it to come easy, because it’s not. and you can’t keep giving up when it gets hard. i like to believe you have more than one soul mate in this world, maybe you’re meant to be lovers, maybe friends and either is okay. but if you find someone you have a deep connection with and someone who understands you and wants to know more about you, you should fucking go for it. talk about it, work on it, work for it, prove every fucking word you say because i swear to the entire universe actions speak so much louder than words. for example, i don’t believe one thing someone says until they prove it, thats why i always work so hard to go out of my way and prove what i say. all i know is that, love isn’t easy. it’s something you have to work for, everyone needs to learn how to open up because it’s something you have to talk about, show how you feel, prove what you say… trust and communication are the two biggest parts. but all in all… i’m here and i’m willing to work through this, work for this, i want this. i want something real. something worth it. any takers?

anonymous asked:

Here's a new interesting concern I've heard about Greg: what is it specifically made him think it was a good idea to leave 13-year-old Steven with the Crystal Gems? Especially when it's an environment where things like Sugilite happen, a fusion that verbally berates and then beats the crap out of Pearl (Steven being witness to abuse). That and the whole thing with the giant hand ship kidnapping him, his life in constant danger, corrupted monsters, etc.

I’d start with the fact that Greg had no idea that these things were going to be happening. Recall that Rose kept a lot of secrets from him, and from his perspective, Earth and the gems have been relatively peaceful for a long time. We also know that fusions like Sugilite don’t come often, and it’s rather believable that Greg had never met her before. Something the show stresses is that Steven makes a lot of the changes, and Steven is causing new things to happen that previously the gems were opposed to or didn’t even know about. 

Even the idea that Homeworld is re-emerging is completely new. The CGs thought they were gone for good, which explains their shock and fear at Peridot’s arrival in Warp Tour.

What I do think is a question worth asking is why Greg let Steven stay after these things started happening. Because in earlier episodes when the “magic stuff” started to happen, Greg was pretty averse to it, but couldn’t see the effects it had on Steven. I feel a turning point was in House Guest, when Greg did begin to understand the dangers of gem life and chose to be closer to Steven. 

Greg knows that Steven wants to be a hero. That comes with risks. Instead of stopping him, Greg decided to confront his own apprehensions and be there in Steven’s life. Be there for Steven. That his van is much closer to the gems now, instead of all the way at the wash all the time, shows that Greg is going to help enable Steven while trying his best to protect him. But Greg is only one guy. 

It runs much deeper than that. Greg trusts the gems to help look after Steven too. Rose loved them dearly and she trusted them. Greg is trusting them as well. And no, it’s not an easy decision to make. Steven is a special kid and he’s going to do great things. Greg knows he’s capable, and it’s not an easy decision watching your son go out into the field like that, but he’s not going to stop him. He’s not going to leave Steven on his own either. It’s really a lot of factors working together, factors that Greg is making sure stay together as well.

Darling, don’t give up on yourself,
on this journey of mending the broken pieces.
The years of trying to drown
is over.
darling, it’s time to rise.
Like the river,
Learn the art of letting go.
Hold hands with God.
Give yourself time to heal
then rise from the pit.
Always remember the pain
only comes to visit.
It doesn’t stay for long.
It’s a time of testing
and building your faith.
find strength in God.
Always remember,
that it doesn’t rain forever.
the Sun will find its way near you.
Better days are ahead.
—  @poeticharmonylove
Karen Owusu
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I made a Video !! Please watch it >o< I put a lot of effort into it ~ :3

It wasn’t the distance that scared her. She was scared of the idea that he’ll find someone better in between their distance apart.
—  This is killing me.
Tips for Overcoming Insecurity

1. Believe you can make progress, and start to overcome it. That is the first, and the most important, step.

2. Think about a time when you took a chance, and pushed through your fear, and it worked out well. Remember that feeling – it can happen again.

3. Look for a role model - someone you relate to - who managed to overcome their insecurities. Let them inspire you and learn from their success.

4. Let go of the past, and whatever holds you back. Just focus on this moment, and taking one step now.

5. Stop resisting change – let whatever happens happen. You may discover that it works out even better than you’d thought.

6. Let the stress fall away and allow peace to flood your mind. As you learn to relax you’ll start to feel more confident.

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I’ve been neglecting my tumblr a bit over the past months. I keep meaning to revamp it but things get in the way. Story of my life, anyhow this is a piece I did for the Gravity Falls show at Gallery Nucleus. This was a fun piece to execute, and by fun I mean tricky. It’s mixed media and measures about 30 cm by 30cm. It’s still up so check it out if you’re in Los Angeles. This was my favorite scene in the show so I’m happy I got to capture it for this very special show. 

I need trust in a relationship. You could wait four years to tell me you love me, you could make me wait 10 to meet your mom. 
But I want to be the person you tell everything to. I want my word to be above anyone else’s. I want my ears to be your diary.
I know I won’t have all of that right away, but I need trust in my relationships. 
Without it? It won’t work. End of story.
—  Taurus, Virgo, Sagittarius, Capricorn, Aquarius, Pisces
I wanted you to stay . And I think you wanted to stay too. But something wasn’t right. Maybe it was the timing. Or fate just pulling us apart. Maybe it was because I didn’t trust people and you thought I’d never trust you. But you left that Sunday morning. I don’t know which felt emptier the bed without you in it or my heart.
—  I never trusted anyone after you