Today was tragic.
So nils had been pretty shady these past 2 days. Idk wtf happened. Haven’t been able to talk to him. But here’s the story.
So i left my bag over there from when i slept over 2 nights ago it had some clothes i needed for my photoshoot today. I left them there with the intentions of being them yesterday, but that never happened so we planned for me to get them today after he finally responded to me after over 10 hours.
I told him i really needed to get them he asked me what time. I did around 6 and if he would be home. He never answered. I get off work and literally walked from water steet all the way to 29th i texted him the entire way telling him i was coming whether he was there or not, that maybe his roommate’s would be home to buzz me in and open the door. He texted me saying he doesn’t think anyone is home. I get to his building and 2 dudes have the door open talking, so i don’t even need to be buzzed in. I walk up the steps to his apartment and knock on the door.
I hear a girls voice answer, i thought it was his roommate’s gf so im like hey its jasmine. The door opens and it’s done black chick.
I looked at her and my heart dropped. Nils was no where in sight. She says hello pretty awkwardly and cracks the door open a little more.
I open it the rest of the way and im like im here to get my bag. She steps aside and i walk in. She’s talking but my ears are ringing. Im walkingto his room and before i get there i see the door us open, the light is on and i hear the fan. My heart is pounding and im just like if this mother fucker is in his room im going to black. Before i make it to the room i see a flash of white skin in the bathroom another girl walks out. I walk right into his room, he’s not there. I start packing my shit and i here someone on there way to the room. I finish getting my things and the white girl is there, and she’s like you look so familiar.
And i have my stuff like uhhh idk maybe you saw me on ig or his ig.and she’s like idk.and im like is Nils here and they are like he’s on the roof and the black girl is looking at me like uncomfortable. Im checking her face to see if her nose is pierced cause i was 10 seconds from setting it off. Her nose was not pierced. So im like oh ok, and then they invite me up and im like i just came to get my shit. And the black girl is handing me the keys and she’s like idk if i should lock it or not. And im like yeah when you go out close the door and lock it. And i walk out. I was so heated and not thinking, i should have gone on the fucking roof and suprised the fuck out of him. Like wtf.
I know he told me he’d be working on his music but to have me chasing you telling you i needed my clothes and your home pretending your not? And you have people over chillin and im wondering wtf is going on and you’re not responding to me? Like wtf! He’s been acting mad suss these part 3 days. Telling me not to come to the bar having me wait 3 hours in the cold and rain. Not answering my texts or calls. Finding someone else’s jewelery in the bed. Lying about where you are. Like i dont deserve this shit! Why do i always subject myself to these fuckboys wtf! I wrote him a text that i knew he would not respond to saying
“Dude ur on the roof? Lol ok.
Its fine i got my stuff. Thanks.
Idk whats going on with you but this doesnt feel good. I know your working or whatever but you were home this entire time knowing i just wanted my clothes. The main door was open, go upstairs knock on the door and this girl opens the door. I didnt ask her who she was im not even sure i want to know…but wtf up?”
He’ll probably wait until tomorrow to respond. But idk man, i dont need this shit. I deserve more. I deserve a king who will treat me like his queen and not fuck around. Idgaf what we are to each other. If he had any respect me he would not be holding sit back and hurting my feelings. Like this is so fucked up. I’m so tight i can’t even cry.