And all I was supposed to feel was grateful.
I was supposed to just shut up and be thankful that I had these great parents who wanted me when my birth parents didn’t.
But the truth is you never wanted me, either.
What are you talking about? I was a replacement for your dead baby. That’s all I’ve ever been. You got it all wrong, son. No, I’ve spent my life striving for perfection, and you know why, Dad? ‘Cause I live in fear.
That if I let up for a moment, I will remember that I am unwanted.
As you get older, you might start to find that things get harder. The world isn’t always a kind place. Especially for men like us. Take a look at the people on this mat. We are your community. When things get hard, we are gonna be the ones who hold each other up. As Randall’s father, you are his foundation. Come lie down, as if you’re gonna do a push-up. Randall, climb on your father’s back.