The-girl

We were talking about poetry,
one winter afternoon,
the sky the same hue as your eyes,
but with the darkness of mine.
You told me, “All poetry is about
sex, God, or death.”
I teased you,
“How could you forget about love?”


You’ve entranced
and transfixed me, my love.
You’re all my poetry
ever talks about.
So let me attempt to learn
from the masters,
I’ll try my hand
at the other topics
that consumed them.


But how can I write about sex
and not write about you?
In my head
there is a map
of your body
and a winding path
that my lips and hands
long to follow.
Your body is a fire
and I’m desperate to burn.


But how can I write about God
and not write about you?
I touch your hand like
I’m turning the pages of a holy book,
but I love you with the fierceness
of a sinner turned devout,
I love you like you’re my last chance
at paradise.
I love you because we know the ugliest
parts of each other,
but we still choose forgiveness
every single day.
Your love is the bookmark I forgot
about from the chapter in my
childhood when I believed
without reservations.
You are the miracle who taught the
atheist to have faith.


But how can I write about death
and not write about you?
If death had come for me
before my lips had brushed yours,
I would have surely walked the earth
as a ghost, unable to move on
because if I have a purpose, a calling,
it must be to love you with
every fragile cell
of my mortal body.
And someday you will die,
and I do not know if I
will still be around to see it,
but of this I am certain:
the earth
will rumble
and rupture
and crack itself open
in its grief,
and the seas will wish
they could drown themselves,
and maybe the sun
will even blow herself out
because how could she
bear to shine
if you were not around to see it?

—  everything comes back to you // L.H
You shouldn’t have fallen in love
with a dead girl,
someone who only knows how to
love as a ghost.
This is killing you,
but you’re
ignoring
the warning signs -
insisting it’s just the wind.


But no matter how many
 candles you light,
 or prayers you recite,
 I will always be more
 gone
 than I am
 there.


I’m forever
 walking through your walls,
 haunting your nights,
 always just out of reach,
 your peripheral view lover.
 You can’t let go.
 You’re still clutching my skeleton
 and calling it a relationship,
 when you should be
 burning my bones.
 We’re trapped reliving
 happier lives.


I wish I could feel more than
 echoes,
 wish I could love you as more than
 a memory.


I’m sorry.
 When I said I would stay,
 I only meant that
 I don’t know how to leave yet.

—  a love ghost story // L.H
  • The Girl: Party, what color would you say your hair is?
  • Party Poison: Oh, this is kind of like a blood orange?
  • Kobra Kid: Blood orange. He’s so pretentious. [scoffs] It’s fucking red!
she shines so bright
but it doesn’t
make the stars seem duller
no, she’s the lightswitch, the fuse,
each and every thing is illuminated
just because it saw her
smile.
tell me, have you ever seen a bluer sky?
—  everything became brighter when i met you // L.H