THIS IS MY ENTIRE LIFE

This is more of a rant, but I think it’s time we had a long hard talk about the low standards in love and relationships that black women are forced to have. I mean, at this point a BW having ANY standards at all makes her high maintenance/materialistic/gold digger etc. and it’s really super pathetic. I hate how BW are just expected to not want quality things. I definitely want to be in a relationship and offer that person a better quality of life, but I feel like BM aren’t expected to.

Like, BM make all these struggle memes about McDonalds dates and car dates and I’m just??? That’s not a date??? I can go to McDonalds myself, its not quality food…and I don’t want it. And guys get legitimately mad about you not wanting the bare minimum, especially on this hellsite. “Well a guy went out of his way to give you x, so you should be happy with whatever he gives you.” OK. And? “Well a REAL woman would accept-” NO. Everybody wants to measure BW worth by what she’s willing to endure, suffer, and put up with. Courting and dating is pretty much the same in every country. Men give dowrys, gifts etc. to show that how much they value being with you, I’m not going to be forced into accepting something that’s cheap or low quality. Because sometimes quality just means spending money. The same way you gave your mom a macaroni necklace when you were 5 vs buying a purse for her birthday, she appreciated the purse more. This is absolutely NOTHING new!

Why would you WANT to offer something that wasn’t the best, or the best that you could find? Don’t you WANT to be with someone that goes out of their way your life better? It’s really only black couples I see doing this its pathetic lol. And on that note, these Pick-Me women aren’t satisfied with the bare minimum, and want women with standards accept the same garbage that they do. “Well I’m a GOOD woman because I don’t need x” OK? Why are you telling me this? Almost each and every one of these Pick-Me’s are physically, emotionally, and financial exhausted in their relationships in the long run. These Pick-Me’s are also the same ones writing 5+ pages about how much pain and suffering they put up with when their men left them. It’s exhausting lol. If you were so unhappy doing all of that, then why did you lie and KEEP doing it?

I really feel like the Black Love goals are really basic. Like, those are things you should already be doing. I defiantly want a better life than I have now. Wanting a wedding dress, a ring, a house, a nice car are standards that almost everybody should have. Everyone wants us to have the absolute bare minimum and its gross and pathetic. You shouldn’t have to struggle and suffer to be respected by someone who ASKED to be with you. I ONLY see black couples doing that. I’m 24, I don’t want to be at the bottom my entire life, or offer someone the best of me to get the worst in exchange. I’m not advocating swirling, but there’s no way I’m going to put up with this Struggle Love Olympics nonsense that’s expected of BW.

“I don’t blame you,” she said,

“I knew you’d move on evidentially, and I’m glad you’re happy, I am.. I swear.”

She broke eye contact with him as tears began to fall, pulling at her sleeves, she continued:

“But I’m still trying to put myself back together from the aftermath of you leaving, when my heart shattered into a million fucking pieces and my entire life fell apart.”

“Do you know how that feels?” She said,

“To know that I didn’t leave any effect on you at all?”


// excerpt of a book I’ll never write

the sound of music is so iconic

like

  • the nuns roasting maria in three part harmony
  • ‘the dress. you’ll have to put on another one before meeting the children’
    ‘when we enter the abbey our worldly clothes are given to the poor’
    ‘what about this one?’
    ‘the poor didn’t want this one’
  • all seven children bursting into tears at dinner while Maria sips her tea
  • ‘God bless whats his name’ (ten minutes later) ‘KURT! that’s the one I left out! God bless Kurt.’
  • maria passive aggressively praying about Liesl as she climbs through the window
  • tbh Captain Von Trapp dragging everyone around him at every possible moment like
  • ‘you flatter me captain’ ‘oh I’m sorry, I meant to accuse you’ *AIR HORN SOUNDS*
  • ‘I’m not finished yet!’
    ‘OH YES YOU ARE, CAPTAIN.’

    ‘FRAULEIN’
  • liesl rolling her eyes at kurt during the blueberry/strawberry scene
  • honestly the love story I didn’t quite get as a kid but I’m SHOOK
  • when the baroness is trying to get the captain back on track but he just interrupts her and is like ‘there’s no use’
  • BUT WHEN THE BARONESS SAYS ‘well, she’ll never be a nun’ the look of SHOCK on his face like it honestly never occurred to him that Maria was in love with him too
  • so of course hes like ‘I must find her and kiss her immediately’
  • Von Trapp ripping the nazi flag in half like YES BINCH
  • THE MOST UNDERRATED SCENE THOUGH IS AFTER THE NAZIS RUN TO THEIR CARS TO CHASE THE VON TRAPPS AND THE SCENE SWITCHES TO THE TWO NUNS
  • ‘reverend mother, I have sinned’
    ‘I too, reverend mother’
    *they both hold up coils from the nazi’s cars*

anyway this movie is the best and I love it

me: yeah idk i dont really care for romance-centric movies, they tend to be boring and unrelatable

The Shape of Water (2017) by Guillermo del Toro: has sexey fishman, who looks like a cross between abe sapien and thane from mass effect. also protagonist is mute lady who teaches fishman asl and they fall in love and escape from a tropey research facility? doug jones plays fishman ?

me: 

doodled a human orisa idea and efi as a lil’ warmup!! i know this is gonna be a popular thing to draw but i wanted to give it my shot!

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happy birthday to our sweet namjoon!
thank you for being our galaxy 

the signs as history of the entire world
  • Aries: Here comes the Assyrian empire-- never mind it's the Babylo-- Media-- it's the Persian Empire! (wow, that's big)
  • Taurus: ...they never got Ethiopia...
  • Gemini: Coming soon to a dank river valley near you
  • Cancer: It's sad. I'm sad. I miss you.
  • Leo: here's some huge heads. Must be the Olmecs.
  • Virgo: You could make a reli-- no, don't
  • Libra: It's a great idea. He was great. And now he's dead.
  • Scorpio: Don't worry about Rome, it won't fall.
  • Sagittarius: Actually, never. And also now. Nothing is nowhere. When? Never. Makes sense, right?
  • Capricorn: This whole thing is bullshit that's a scam fuck the church
  • Aquarius: What's on the menu? Communism!
  • Pisces: ...Wanna get enlightened in the middle of nowhere?