THINK SNOW

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Any man who wishes to leave may leave, and no one will harm him. I give you my word. Will you fight for me? As free men? (Dany, 3.04) // This isn’t your fight. I shouldn’t be asking you. It’s not the deal we made. But I need you with me if we’re gonna beat them, and we need to beat them if you’re going to survive. (Jon, 6.07)

you know the best thing about fareeha and jesse playing in the snow together?

imagining neither of them having seen snow before, let alone touched it, and the pure wonder of it all just lights them right up

this 17-year-old from the southwest and 12-year-old from egypt are building a snowman and its sloppy as heck but it’s pure magic to them

Let it snow

Well, here we are again. Happy Secret Santa Day!! Merry Xmas to @marlodjur , this one is for you!!
Also special thanks to @hurricaneawelia for proofreading this to me!! I hope you enjoy it!

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Seattle dawned on that day covered by a white snow cape.
When Amelia opened her eyes and ran to the window just to see the snow.


Frozen water.
Only water.
But she felt like a kid just by looking at it.
She remembered the mornings when she was a child and she woke up earlier just to go out and play with the snow.
When she was at that age, she used to think the snow was a gift for her. She used to think it was magic and with snow nothing bad can happen. It was like a miracle for her.


“It’s still like magic. Today is gonna be a great day!“ 

And with that thought on her mind she started to prepare herself for work.

12 consults, 6 post-ops and 4 coffees later, Amelia was walking through the hospital when she saw Owen at the hallway.

“Hey stranger” she put a hand on his shoulder making him turn around surprised to see her.

“Oh, hey Amelia” he leaned closer to kiss her “How was your day?”

“Really good though, if we overlook the fact that you’ve been missing for two days” she said, looking in his eyes.

In that moment, Owen started to feel nervous and uncomfortable.

“Hum, yeah, I… You know emergencies and… Chief stuff… Kepner and I have been so busy here.”

“Yeah… I understand… so… tonight is Christmas night, are you planning to come home?” she said clearly mad.

“Of course, I’ll be home in time to have dinner with you, I promise." 

"You bet…” And with a kiss, she left the hallway.

“That was so close" April appeared, coming out from the scan room "When are you planning to tell her?”

“I-I don’t know April, I wanted to tell her tonight…”

“Owen, it is going to be fine, don’t be so worried…”

“Yeah, I suppose… By the way, where do you have it?”

“Oh, I have it at home. Call me when you’re done and we’ll go for it!” And in that moment their pagers sounded and they both started to run to the hall.

“Thanks Kep, you’re the best” he said honestly. 

And the paramedics entered with a wave of patients.

6pm

7pm

8pm

9pm

Beep, beep, beep. Call ended.

It was the fifth time Amelia called him.
He was supposed to be home in time for dinner and it was almost 10 pm and she was still alone.
She tried one more time.
Beep, beep, beep.
Someone answered the phone, or… Maybe not…?

“Owen?” Amelia asked when nobody answered.

She was hearing noises, things moving and hectic breathing, but no one was talking. She was going to talk again when she heard Owen’s voice.

“This is a disaster. I should be at home with Amelia, come on, we need to hurry!” he sounded nervous.

“I can’t go faster! It should be somewhere in here!”

 When Amelia heard the voice she thought it sounded familiar but she was more focused on the situation she was hearing.

“Amelia will be so pissed. The best way is to do nothing… Wait, you got it? Oh my god! Come here, I love you, I really really love you. You saved my life! I couldn’t go home without this. Thank y-”


Call ended.


Amelia sat on the floor, not really knowing what she just heard.
That was Owen, that’s for sure. But the woman…

“N-no! Get that thought out of your mind!” She said out loud. “He’s not cheating on you, come on, you know him, he wouldn’t do it…, But, he did it to Cristina… Why would it be any different with me?” At that point she was walking from one side to the other, again, and again, and again. And tears were running down her cheeks. “Come on Amelia, calm down, he will be home soon, stop crying because of something you don’t know for sure!!”

Just as she was trying to keep calm and clean her tears, he opened the door.

“Hey, I’m so so so sorry for being late, I…-”

“You were what? With a patient? Post-ops? Ah, no, let me guess, ‘chief stuff’…”

"What is wrong with- Amelia, are you crying?” He said approaching her and touching her cheek when she just walked away.

“No, I’m- I’m fine, it’s just… Where have you been, Owen?” She said looking into his eyes.

“I-I was at the hospital." 

"Are you sure? Because just a few minutes ago I heard you talking with a woman about the fact that I would be so pissed because of you being late and of you two looking for something you can’t come home without.”

“What..?”

“I heard you two through the phone”

Owen seemed confused when he just realised what was happening.

“Amelia it is not what you think it is! The woman you heard was Kepner! And we were just looking for…” He stopped not being sure of what to say next.

“For?” She said without stop looking directly into his eyes.

“Eh.. we’re..It was just..” he was stuck. He didn’t know what to say next. He really didn’t want to lie to her but he didn’t want to ruin anything either.

Seeing that he wasn’t going to give her a response she started to walk away. She grabbed her coat and opened the front door to go out.

“Yeah, that’s what I thought!” and she closed the door.

Owen collapsed for a few seconds and then, he ran out to stop her.


“Amelia, stop please! Let me explain myself!” He shouted.

“I already gave you that opportunity. I’m sorry to tell you that you missed it. Goodbye Owen.”

She was determined to leave when he said something that made her stop.

“I want you to marry me Amelia!”

She was surprised. What did he just said? She turned around to face him.

“What?”

“I want you to marry me.”

“Owen… You can’t just say it like that! You can’t just tell someone that just to stop a fight! You can’t-”

“I’m not, I was going to do it tomorrow, with a breakfast and a beautiful box under the tree.”

“Owen, stop, you don’t need to do this, I-”

He pulled out a small black and silver box, and when he opened it, a beautiful ring came to sight.
Amelia had no words and was starring at it with tears in her eyes.

“I was going to do it tomorrow.” he stopped and approached her. “Amelia, I love you, ever since I met you, I always have. I can’t imagine another person with whom I want to spend the rest of my life with. Maybe, this is not the best moment, and maybe you think I’m crazy but Amelia, I love you and that’s all that matters to me. So… Amelia Shepherd, will you marry me?”

“I-I I don’t know what to say I just…” She was feeling overwhelmed. This was what she had been waiting for a long time. In that exact moment, it started snowing. It was right. It was the right moment. “Yes, Owen, I’ll marry you”

A big smile appeared on Owen’s face and he put the ring on Amelia’s finger. Without waiting a second, he hugged her while kissing her.
She was crying tears of joy, and while resting her head on Owen’s shoulder and seeing the snowflakes falling, a thought came to her mind.

“It was magic after all…”

@feikuro tagged me that lovable fool

Relationship status: hit that mf like if u unlovable and single forever

Favorite color(s): blue, purple, and black

Chapstick or lipstick: chapstick altho I love me a black lipstick!

Last song I listened to: lake- the tiny while sitting outside smoking in the snow thinking about life it’s a good jam to think about  kermitting to

Favorite TV show(s): hxh, nge, hannibal, forensic files

First fandom:  idk probably yu gi oh or some shit like that

Hobbies: thinking about gingkite, jacking off, dragging my  friends via tarot cards, smoking, sleeping

I tag @macaronijesus @krulvampiresthesis @nagareboshikirari

Monday 8:27am
I woke up with you on my mind.
You called me babe last night —
my heart is still pounding.

Tuesday 10:53pm
Today I realized we won’t work.
What we are is hurting her.
And I think she matters more to me than you do.

Wednesday 11:52pm
I broke things off with you today.
She barely said a word.
I’ve never regretted anything more than this.

Thursday 4:03pm
I shouldn’t have sent that message.
You shouldn’t have been so okay with receiving it.

Friday 9:57pm
I almost messaged you today.
I didn’t.

Saturday 8:49pm
I’m walking around town in search of alcohol.
They say that liquor numbs the pain of having a broken heart.
I want to put that to the test.

Sunday 2:32am
I heard you texted a girl you’ve never spoken to before.
I wonder if it’s because you’re trying to replace me.
I can’t help but wish you weren’t.
I thought I was irreplaceable.

—  a week with you on my mind, c.j.n.