Okay can we talk about the look that Ian gives Mickey when Mickey says that Ian had his back more than his family ever did?

 How tragic is that Ian is shocked when Mickey said that because he has realized just how untrue that is? He clearly knows that Mickey is giving him entirely too much credit. He completely recognizes that he wasn’t actually there for Mickey nearly as much as Mickey seems to remember, and he feels bad because if the limited amount of times that Ian backed him up is considered more than his family… Then Ian is finally realizing just how alone Mickey always was. Looking in Ian’s eyes and seeing that regret and that shame honestly made me forgive him instantly because it was made painfully clear that he knew how much of an ass he was and he feels bad for it (though I had already mostly excused him because he was unmedicated, but this took the cake). I feel like this is something that a lot of Ian haters seem to overlook is the fact that Ian clearly knows that he fucked up and clearly knows that he was horrible to Mickey and that he doesn’t deserve him anymore and that is just so upsetting to see him recognize that. 

Who’s to say that Ian wasn’t constantly wrestling with his guilt at knowing that in the end he wasn’t a very good boyfriend to Mickey even before this moment? (Obviously I know it wasn’t his fault, but try telling that to Ian… especially in this moment.) He recognized that he did build a wall between him and Mickey that hurt both of them. That wall was built when he broke up with him in 5x12, I argue to protect Mickey from hurting if Ian decided to remain unmedicated, but also to protect himself from the pain of knowing he would be hurting Mickey, and also to protect himself from Mickey eventually leaving (which I have no doubt Ian saw happening while his plan was still to keep off his meds). When Mickey punched him in the arm for not visiting him, I felt all of that built up pain and resentment for being abandoned and my heart broke so much. Imagine the resentment he was burying deep up until that moment. All of the visitation days he was waiting, hoping, for Ian to show up and never did. The letters he may have started but never sent because he knew he wouldn’t get a response. So literally all he had in prison was the memory of their relationship and his confidence that if he got to see Ian on his meds that Ian would be back to his Ian, or at least closer, and that they could make it work. Then my heart double broke when I saw the shame in Ian’s eyes for knowing he abandoned Mickey… 

Guys, I am so not fucking okay. I am so far from okay.

fairy tail is ending.....

and i really wish to part way with it with fond memories and i wish everyone do the same no matter how much it screw up

what i want to say is . don’t let anyone ,not the haters  nor king of lightning , bestguyever or whatever ruin such a journey for you

let’s all smile while reading the last lines of the last pages and say

“wow it’s been an adventure”

Originally posted by shunjouuromantic


“Cousins forever.”

If anyone needs me, I’ll be over in the corner, drowning in feels.


anonymous asked:

What's your opinion on some authors complaining about the Dramione fandom's nastiness, and even pulling their stories because they get hateful reviews? Do you get a lot of hateful reviews? Would you ever delete your stories because of them? Why/why not? Thank you for answering. 😊

Honestly? I think we have a batch of severely thin-skinned authors that are unable to accept any kind of feedback that isn’t just blowing smoke up their ass about how wonderful they are.

That being said in all its aggressive glory, it’s very possible that there are worse problems in some areas of fandom and I just didn’t see them, considering I haven’t updated in a few years, so it’s possible that SOME of these people aren’t vastly exaggerating.

I have gotten more than my fair share of hateful reviews. I got my very first flame, completely eviscerating my fic (claiming it contained elements it didnt, even) only days after I posted my very first thing back in 2007. I was in tears. For days. Since then, I’ve had multiple reviews and comments that have helped me thicken my skin. I mean, go to FFnet and check out the reviews on The Bracelet. They are NOT all good. I’d say it’s even about 50/50 with some being very vocal in their dislike of my characterisations. That’s not new. I posted it in 2008-2009 and it was happening then too.

The thing is, the world has assholes in it, so of course there will be some in fandom as well. So yeah, you will get trolls that just want to bring you down either because they hate you for other reasons, because of jealousy, or because they hate your pairing on sight. Or maybe they legit hate the story and just think it’s appropriate to use hateful terms to voice that. Those reviews, though? They do absolutely nothing to me these days, except maybe amuse me and make me share screenshots with my friends. They certainly don’t make me stop writing. They are the people that would WANT me to stop writing, so eff them.

Then there are the reviewers with legit concerns or criticisms. Unfortunately, I’ve seen authors go off on those far too many times, backed by their army of sycophants. That leaves a bad taste in my mouth. Have I overreacted myself in the past? It’s more than likely. Like I said, it takes time to build up thick skin. But these days, and for years now, I’ve made it my business to listen. To read the words, think about the fic/scene/character they’re talking about, and see if they have a point. And you know what? Often they do. Sometimes I dropped the ball. Sometimes I wasn’t clear enough. Or sometimes, I wrote something that I never intended to be like that in the first place. And then I have learned something for the next time. Of course, sometimes I disagree with them or it was simply a story that wasn’t for them, but then that’s that. They made their case, I considered it, and we didn’t reach agreement. No harm, no foul.

As you can probably hear from all this - No, I would never delete my fics because of a troll or a bad review. I would never delete my stories, period. They stay up as long as the sites stay up. Even if I leave, I’m not taking the stories with me. And I have to admit, I have been on the verge of leaving with all my passion and interest for writing Dramione zapped out of me. Not because of the readers, however, but because of other writers with no regard for anyone but themselves and how THEY want things done. A while ago, years actually, I found myself under attack from a fellow author for not, in her opinion, protecting my fics well enough and in essence being the reason why fandom was ending. She even brought in others to side with her. That was the day I felt like, “If this is what fandom has come to, I want no part in it any longer.”

I have however struggled to try and get my muse back and I have found new circles to run in and am happy to tell you - and everyone else that stayed through this TL;DR - that a new chapter of Secrets is at beta and should be posted sometime in July!