“You’re pregnant!”
The Priest squeaked as she inspected the blood test results, smiling brightly at me. I could hear Anotella grumble something under her breath while I turn to stone. To be honest, I don’t know how I didn’t pass out right then and there. I’m still so young, I don’t know how to care for a child.. hell I don’t even know what a mother does. I never had one. The only thing keeping me from breaking down was Anotella, not because she was attempting to help but because of the constant side comments she made. It brought me back to earth, I have a living thing in my stomach.

                     This is a moment that is meant to bring happiness, but it brought fear.
So much fear. I don’t have a job and Thrasyl? He uses all his money on booze and drugs. He acts like a child though I can also say the same for myself. After all I’ve done to my body can the baby even last? All these questions ran to my head as I sat on the bed in the Hospice, staring up at the Priest who just changed my life forever. She tried comforting me, reminding me that everything would be okay. She even gave me a pregnancy book that oddly enough comforted me more.

                                      Every step I took to get home was horrifying.
I know I’m not ready for a child so how the fuck could he be? I stepped into the house to discover he wasn’t home yet, thanking the gods for allowing me to try to put my sanity back together. I believe I sat in front of the fire place for an hour before I heard the door open and footsteps lead towards me. I felt my heart drop, “You alright?” I couldn’t even look at him but the minute he saw my tears and trembling, he didn’t give me much of a choice. He grasped onto me instantly, holding me.

                                                   “What?! What happened?!”
I tried to hide it, maybe I didn’t have to tell him and just kill it. He’d never find out…”Come on Mo, talk to me please..” He sounded so scared, worried. I couldn’t hold it back anymore, it just caused me more pain. “I’m pregnant.” I finally croaked out while covering my face in shame. “Oh.. okay.” That’s it. That was the last thing I heard because, well, he passed out. Right on my lap. To be honest I was more hurt than furious, so I moved him off my lap and headed upstairs to bury myself in the sheets. I was positive he wouldn’t come up, but he did.

                                       “I’m not going anywhere, just so you know.”
Yeah, right. I felt his arms lock around me and his face burying itself in my hair, but I still couldn’t help but feel scared. “I don’t know that..” I managed to croak out causing him to hold me tighter, reassuring he wasn’t going anywhere. “I’ll prove to you that I won’t leave, someday soon.. but for now we should get some rest, we have quite the bit of months ahead of us to figure out what to do.” That was all I had to hear for all the fear, pain and regret to just fade away. Thrasyl wasn’t leaving me, and that was all I needed to know to not give up.

I can’t give up on my family.

- thrasyl

I don’t think the mountains and sky ever get tired of each other. Through the clouds and clear blue, the wind and the rain, the haze and the sunshine, the star speckled sky and the moonlit nights. I think the they are always there to appreciate each other’s company, accepting each other for exactly what they are that day. Nothing more, nothing less.

That’s the kind of love I wait for.

#nature #outdoors #mountains #sky #sunset #sungazing #angelescrest #thisismyyoga

De-calcifying the Pineal Gland

Our Pineal Gland (PG) starts shirking when we hit puberty, due to the accumulation of calcium phosphate. This happens to everyone and it is caused by nano-bacteria. Nano-bacteria accumulates on our PG and calcifies over it, blocking it from producing properly, if at all.

Calcification is caused mainly by Electromagnetic pollution and Fluoride. Unfortunately, we are all exposed to these things, some more than others. The even scarier part is that Fluoride is actually magnetically attracted to our PG, more than any other part of our bodies. It then calcifies around the gland, therefore, inhibiting its proper production of the hormones melatonin, serotonin and DMT. 

We have fluoride in our tap water, mouth wash, toothpaste…it even used to be handed out to help prevent cavities and tooth decay - which by the way, it doesn’t actually do. 

Electromagnetic pollution is everywhere too, our computers, TV’s, cell phones, power lines, everywhere. 

Heavy metals and toxins are also culprits. Chlorine, bromide,mercury, pesticides, refined sugar, artificial sweeteners, tobacco, excess alcohol and caffeine prevent the proper function of our PG. 

Benefits of detoxifying and activating your PG include

Detoxification and activation of the third eye can bring vast improvements to our life. An open third eye brings clarity, concentration, perspicuity, bliss, intuition, decisiveness and insight as well as:

-Vivid dreams

-Lucid dreams

-Easier to astral project

-Better sleep

-Enhanced imagination

-Enabling aura viewing, seeing energy, beings, and seeing with eyes closed

-Clear channels and ability to feel energy

A closed third eye, or PG, brings with it confusion, uncertainty, cynicism, pessimism, jealousy, envy and one sidedness. 

What can we do to detoxify/cleanse our Pineal Gland?

- Drink natural spring water or distilled water - use a filtered shower head if possible 

-avoid artificial sodas, food and drinks

-Use fluoride free toothpaste

-Use salt water instead of mouthwash; it’s just as effective

-Eat healthier, organic foods where possible

-Take blue/green algae (strong detox)

-Take fermented skate liver oil or organic blue ice skate liver oil (strong detox)

-take chorella (heavy metal detoxifier)

-take melatonin

-eat plenty of raw chocolate (the higher the percentage of cocoa the better)

-consume raw lemon juice

-consume raw apple cider vinegar

-eat plenty of raw garlic (soak in lemon juice/apple cider vinegar to deodorise)

-Take vitamin K1 (leafy greens) and K2 (liver, egg yolks, cheese)

-take iodine 

-use natural deodorant

-Practise yoga/meditation

-Soak in the suns rays (gazing at the sun during the first 15 minutes of sunrise and last 15 minutes of sunset will do wonders for your PG) 

Keep in mind you don’t need to do allthese things to detoxify the PG. Use your own discretion and intuition. If you suffer from ailments, or are on medication it is advisable that you contact your physician before applying some of the above if they are completely new to you :) 

Sungazing For Health.

At sunrise and/or sunset, when the sun is closest to the earth, sungazers stand barefoot on the earth and look directly at the sun for 10 seconds. Every day, 10 seconds are added and some sungazers eventually reach a duration of 44 minutes.

The theory is that the sun is the force of all life, and staring at it can infuse the body with large amounts of energy. So much so that one of the sungazers featured in the film, Hira Ratan Manek, claims to have gone eight years without eating. He has been “eating” a steady diet of solar rays, and claims that this is all he needs for nourishment.

Our ancestors understood the relation between the sun and health. From the Aztecs to the ancient Egyptians, many past societies revered sungazing as an esoteric practice for high-ranking priests and shamans. Today, it is experiencing a resurgence in popularity and sungazers claim it has its benefits.

Boosts production of melatonin and serotonin.Research shows sungazing stimulates the pineal gland as the direct sunlight hits the eye, moves through retinal-hypothalamic tract, and then hits the brain. This stimulates the pineal (“master gland”) and boosts the secretion of melatonin and serotonin, our “feel-good” hormones.

Increased energy levels. Modern day sungazers say the practice has boosted their vitality. This is probably related to the secretion of the aforementioned hormones.

Increases the actual size of the pineal gland. Not only can this practice boost hormone levels, it has also been shown to increase the size of the pineal gland. Normally, as we age, the pineal gland shrinks. However, brain scans of a long-term practitioner of sungazing show that this 70 year-old man has a gland three times as big as a normal man.

Promotes weight loss. One of the historical theories for sun gazing was that the body and mind could be nourished by the sun, reducing the need for food. Similarly, some modern day sungazers say they have lost excess weight, and some even report a total loss of the desire and need to eat.

Considered the most powerful and highest source of ethereal energy available to humans, the third eye (pineal gland) has always been important in initiating psychic powers (e.g. clairvoyance and seeing auras). To activate the ‘third eye’ and perceive higher dimensions, the pineal and the pituitary must vibrate in unison, which is achieved through meditation, chanting and/or sungazing.

When a correct relationship is established between the personality, operating through the pituitary, and the soul, operating through the pineal, a magnetic field is created. The pineal can generate its own magnetic field because it contains magnetite. This field can interact with the earth’s magnetic field. The solar wind at dawn, charging the earth’s magnetic field, stimulates the pineal gland. This is why the period between 4 and 6 am is the best time to meditate and why sunrise is the best time to sungaze. At these times, the pineal stimulates the pituitary to secrete Human Growth Hormone. That’s why alot of sungazers have reported to have experienced rapid nail and hair growth, restoration of hair color, and general rejuvenation. (by the way, Wheatgrass Juice is like synthetic Sunlight).

“You should sit in meditation for twenty minutes every day - unless you’re too busy;
then you should sit for an hour.”
~ Old Zen adage

I love meditating. I meditate outside a lot. Mostly in the half hour or so before the sun rise, then sometimes I sun gaze. Although, I don’t do it as much as I should.