12 The Hanged Man – Surrender, new perspective, enlightenment; Reversed: Stubbornness.
13 Death – The end of something, change, the impermeability of all things; Reversed: Limbo
14 Temperance – Balance, moderation, being sensible; Reversed: Impatience
15 The Devil – Destructive patterns, addiction, giving away your power; Reversed: Freedom
16 The Tower – Collapse of stable structures, release, sudden insight; Reversed: Control
17 The Star – Hope, calm, a good omen; Reversed: Darkness
18 The Moon – Mystery, the subconscious, dreams; Reversed: Paranoia
19 The Sun – Success, happiness, all will be well; Reversed: Failure
20 Judgment – Rebirth, a new phase, inner calling; Reversed: Regrets
21 The World – Completion, wholeness, attainment, celebration of life; Reversed: Incomplete
Suit of Swords
• Other Names: Staves, arrows, spades
• Element: Air
Attributes: Active, male
Astrological Signs: Gemini, Libra, Aquarius
• Direction: West
Season: Pagan – Spring / Esoteric – Autumn
• Self: Mind, thoughts, intellect
Jungian Function: Thinking
Body Part: Head
Qabbalistic World: Yetzirah – the Formative World
Air is seen as the intellect, logic and reasoning. An active element, Air circulates and so cleanses; it carries your thoughts and dreams; is also expansive when hot and is said to be expressive. Your mind or thoughts can be seen as clear or clouded; speech requires breath, which requires air.
Swords represent logic, the mind and your thoughts. They deal with problems and troubles, planning, communication, ideas, your intellect and how you use it. They represent your daily and life struggles, problems in general. The very nature of a sword is aggressive and warlike. Combined with the swiftness of air, the combination can see situations arise quickly. The ability to see clearly means resolution is quick also. Swords people are great thinkers. You will find them in study, research, academia, the sciences, law courts and libraries. They love to learn and live to do it in any capacity.
Keywords: decisions, worries, problems, issues, tension, communication, intelligence, disagreements; arguments, logic, reason, cognition, ideas, inspirations, balance, equilibrium, the mind, mentalism, thinking, facts and figures, definition.
Reversed: vicious, ruthless, manipulative, cold, unemotional, spite and malice, accidents, inertia, indecision, confusion, mental blockages, biased, illogical, mental health issues, negative life changes.
Suit of Cups
• Other Names: Chalices, Grails, Cauldrons, Hearts, Vessels
• Element: Water
Attributes: Passive, female; cold, wet
Astrological Signs: Pisces, Cancer, Scorpio
• Direction: East
Season: Pagan – Autumn- / Esoteric – Summer
• Self: Emotions, love, receptivity
Jungian Function: Feeling
Body Part: Heart
Qabbalistic World: Briah – the Creative World
Water is seen as the emotions, your feelings, and your intuition. Considered passive, water can be deep or shallow; you like the ocean, are responsive to the moon; your tears can rise and fall; out of control, your emotions flood;
Cups represent your emotions, feelings, your subconscious, intuition and psychism. They deal with love affairs, all relationships, inner expression, your reactions or responses and the pursuit of happiness. Generally passive and not outwardly extrovert, creativity through expression are some of the traits of this suit. Careers are usually in the arts or creative pursuits, they are, poets, painters, florists and designers, nurses, social workers and care-givers. Cups people are happy in the background doing their own thing, though they are often actors distinguishing the limelight from private time like no others.
• King – Repression of deep feelings, possible alcoholism; Reversed: Selfishness
• Queen – Emotionally nurturing, intuitive, sensitive; Reversed: Ignorance
• Knight – Romantic, adventurous, following one’s heart; Reversed: Pessimism
• Page – Creative, inspired, learning artistic skill; Reversed: Gloomy
• Ace of Cups – emotional fulfillment, joy; Reversed: Indifferent
• 2 – Partnership, mutual attraction, compatibility; Reversed: Abandonment
• 3 – Celebration, fun with friends, laughter; Reversed: Jealousy
• 4 – Boredom, dissatisfaction with what is being offered; Reversed: Avoidance
• 5 – Dwelling on the negative, self-pity; Reversed: Alienation
• 6 – Sentimentality, kindness, help; Reversed: Discouraging
• 7 – So many choices, indecision, getting lost in fantasy, wishing and dreaming; Reversed: Lethargic
• 8 – Abandoning something in search of something better, vision; Reversed: Sacrifice
• 9 – Indulgence, self-satisfaction; Reversed: Disintegration
• 10 – Emotional bliss, happiness, attainment; Reversed: Disruption
Suit of Wands
• Other Names: Batons, Staves, Rods, Clubs, Staffs, Scepters
• Element: Fire
Attributes: Active, masculine; hot, dry
Astrological Signs: Aries, Leo, Sagittarius
• Direction: South
Season: Pagan – Summer / Esoteric – Spring
• Self: Will, actions, desire
Jungian Function: Intuition
Body Part: Genitals
Qabbalistic World: Atziluth – the Archetypal World
Fire is energy and action, passion, drive and ambition. An active element, it can cause permanent change; is expansive; can be aggressive; is pro-active and undeterred.
Wands represent creativity, energy, passion and action. They cover your spiritual pursuits, your career and creative projects. Leadership, self-growth and general optimism are some traits of this suit. Careers are usually in business, they are leaders, entrepreneurial & sales focused. Wands people like to get ahead and are generally pro-active in all their activities. With an unrivaled healthy vitality, they are often accomplished sports people.
Keywords: intuition; creativity; vitality; sexuality; spirituality; vision; energetic; outgoing; impulsive; motivational; pro-active; spirit and spirited; optimistic; enterprise; commerce; business; careers; opportunities; the thrill of the chase; competitive; growth; personal development; inspirational; enthusiastic; sexual; passionate; action; movement; initiation.
Reversed: rash; impetuous; ruthless; greedy; narrow-minded; hyperactive; brash; manipulative; conniving; mean-spirited; overly optimistic; risk takers; heartless; aggressive; selfish; misleading; sadistic; distrusting of others.
• King – Career focused, mature, passionate; Reversed: Impostor
• Queen – Confidant, focused, has zest for life; Reversed: Fatigue
• Knight – An adventurous risk taker who follows his passions; Reversed: Apathy
• Page – newly inspired, excited about life and work; Reversed: Passive
• Ace of Wands – New beginnings, creative spark, fertile ideas; Reversed: Unpromising
• 2 – Contemplation, assessing one’s life direction; Reversed: Dispute
• 3 – Reaping the rewards of your efforts; Reversed: Idleness
• 4 – Celebration, safety, the home; Reversed: Discord
• 5 – Competition, minor struggles or disagreements; Reversed: Timidness
• 6 – Success, accolades and achievement; Reversed: Disapproval
• 7 – Feeling defensive and on guard; Reversed: Yielding
• 8 – Speed, things manifesting quickly; Reversed: Stagnation
• 9 – Pessimism, gearing up for the worst; Reversed: Weakness
• 10 – Feeling oppressed, exhaustion, too many responsibilities; Reversed: Impractical
Earth is seen as the material, the physical & the sensual. A Passive element, Earth allows growth & production; promotes prosperity; is the foundation on which anything is built.
Pentacles, represent all things material and physical, what you experience using your senses. They deal with your money, business deals, material possessions, your job, arts, crafts, your home & garden. Working hard & getting the job done are attributes of this suit. Pentacle people don’t mind getting their hands dirty whether that’s working with the land or in a factory. Strong & dependable, often found in the trades, removals, farming, landscaping & homemaking.
Being A Magical Practitioner:
1. Question everything you are told and read.
2. Hell even question this post. Only YOU can decide what is right and what
works for you.
3. What may work for someone else may not work for you. What may work for you
may not work for someone else.
4. Your practices are YOUR practices.
1. Ancestral veneration is so important.
2. Communicate with your ancestors daily.
3. They will help and guide you on your journey more than you will ever know.
4. You have several guardian angels and guardian spirits built into your
existence, get to know them.
5. There is magic within you. Embrace your own power.
6. Mind your own magic. You don’t have to do what everyone else is doing. You
don’t have to explain your practices to anyone else. Do you.
1. White candles are fantastic for every single purpose.
2. You can print your own labels for glass candles and glue them on plain glass
candles. You will save money this way in
the long run.
3. You don’t need every single tool to start off with.
4. Water is life. Water keeps the flow of your magic, filters and is a conduit
to you and spirit. Keep clear glasses of water in your home. Change them often.
5. Your altar space doesn’t need to be fancy.
6. You do not need expensive herbs.
7. Mirrors and Magnets are the best tools closest to crystals to magnify and
amplify your magic.
8. The bible is a book full of spells and divination.
1. You can get most of the herbs you need from your local super market and
2. Salt: Protection or cursing. Various Powdered Peppers: Protection and
Cursing. Cinnamon: Money and Lust work. Basil: Money and Luck. Bay Leaves:
Protection and Granted Wishes. Rosemary: Protection. Chamomile: Peaceful Home
Workings. Cloves: Protection, Love, Control and Bindings. Eucalyptus:
Cleansing. Thyme: Purification, Healing.
1. Do Floor Washes in odd numbers. One series to remove the negativity and one
series to bring in good energy.
2. Curse Killer Floor Wash: Hot Water, Ammonia, Lemon, Salt (optional)
Open Roads Floor Wash: Cold Water, Florida Water, Parsley, Mint Leaves, Coconut
Water (Strained of pulp)
1. Cigar or tobacco smoke is a great alternative to sage sticks.
2. You can cleanse yourself with an egg
and a glass of water.
3. You can cleanse yourself with lemons, limes and oranges.
4. When cleansing your home make sure to open your windows and doors.
5. Start from the back of the home towards the front and then to various rooms
to confuse the negative energy.
6. A can of beer and salt will cleanse your aura.
7. When you cleanse yourself, make sure to replace what you removed with good
1. You do not need to purchase branded powders from metaphysical shops.
Money/luck powder: Bank dirt, Shredded
currency and corn starch.
Love/Passion powder: Rose petals, Cinnamon and corn starch.
Open Roads powder: Dirt from four corners of a crossroads and corn starch. Add
three dimes to bottom of container.
Cursing Powder: Graveyard dirt from criminals grave, black pepper, red pepper,
Protection Powder: Church Dirt, Psalm 91 passage from bible, Psalm 23 from the
bible grinded into a powder.
1. Do not buy oils from the botanicas and metaphysical shops. Most are made
with mineral oil, a synthetic fragrance and colorant. If you want that, Get
yourself some baby oil, food coloring and scented fragrance oil of your
choosing. I wouldn’t recommend it though.
2. Get yourself some Olive oil, Sunflower oil, Grapeseed oil and Vegetable oil
at the supermarket along with some Vitamin E oil for preservative. You can make
your own charged oils with herbs and a few glass bottles.
3. My favorite simple oils:
Lust Oil: Sunflower oil base, Vitamin E, Cinnamon stick, red rose petals, and Vanilla
Money Oil: Grapeseed oil base, Vitamin E, Cinnamon stick, nutmeg, basil and
Protection Oil: Olive Oil base, Vitamin E, Rosemary, Basil, Eucalyptus
Life Force Oil: For when you need extra power in your magic. Olive oil base, 3
drops of blood.
Blessing Oil: Olive Oil, Vitamin E and Psalm 91 torn from the bible.
1. You do not have to have a deity in your practice.
2. You can practice secular magic. Secular magic is a practice that does not
refer to, venerate and otherwise “work with” any deities (or, in some cases,
any supernatural beings at all). This is perfectly okay.
3. If working with deity, never promise what you can’t provide.
4. Feed your spirits and deities. This can be with food, alcohol, energy,
light, darkness, anything.
5. Know the spirits and deities you are working with.
6. Listen to your intuitive pulls when it concerns your deity.
7. No one can tell you the right or wrong way to worship and work with your
deity BUT you should learn their mythos and their base wants, needs and what
Misc Magic Info:
1. Your magic will not punish you because you can’t practice every single day.
We are human, and sometimes life gets the best of us. It is okay.
2. Magic should never ever replace mental and physical health diagnosis and
services from healthcare professionals.
3. “Black magic” is a racist term used to demonize the practices of people of
color that are seen as “barbaric” or “uncivilized” to Europeans. Therefore “White
magic” is considered good and “black magic” is considered bad. Energy is
energy. Do not allow anyone to dictate your practice. That racist term is
bullshit. Our melanin is magic. Our cultures and our roots are power.
4. You can purchase a Tarot deck from Amazon. You don’t need it gifted to you.
5. ALWAYS have a fire extinguisher in your home.
6. NEVER leave candles unattended in your home.
7. Coffee grounds speed up work.
8. Meditate. Leave the fuckery of the day at the end of the day. You will thank
yourself in the long run.
9. Keep info to yourself. Not everyone needs to know what you are doing or all
your secrets. 10. Do not bring your shoes into your home.
2. Always keep your firearm pointed in a safe direction
3. Do not point your firearm at anything you are not willing to destroy.
4. Keep your finger off the trigger until you are ready to fire.
5. Never fire your weapon without being absolutely sure of your target.
6. Never fire your weapon into the air/at “nothing.”
7. Always know what is BEHIND your target (bullets can go through people, walls, etc and keep traveling at lethal speeds).
8. Treat your firearm with respect. It is a tool, not a toy. It can end someone’s life. Do not take that lightly.
Accidental gun-related deaths occur when people make deadly assumptions about their firearm and its capabilities. Don’t be the idiot who shoots his friend (or, in a recent case, child) in the face because you were “messing around” and you were “absolutely sure it wasn’t loaded.”
People who know more about guns than I do, feel free to add anything I left out.
The following uses the “Fey Boons and Banes” rules from Pathfinder Adventure Path 119: Prisoners of
the Blight. These are abilities that fey creatures can bestow upon those
they favor or curses they can inflict on those that anger them. A boon or bane
acts as a spell-like ability with a casting time of 1 minute, a range of touch,
a spell level equal to ½ the fey’s HD (maximum 9th level) and a caster level
equal to the fey’s HD. An unwilling target can resist a fey boon or bane with a
Will save: the DC is given below for an average specimen.
Aegipan (3rd level
spell, CL 6, DC 15) Aegipans are benevolent creatures, and may use their boons to reward
those who assist them on their missions of peace and protection. They may also
use this ability to assist people lost at sea or during a shipwreck. Aegipans
typically reserve their banes for the cruelest villains, who find that the sea
itself turns against them.
Boon: You gain a swim speed
equal to your land speed. You gain a +8 bonus on all Swim checks, and may take
10 on Swim checks even when rushed or threatened. This boon lasts for one day
per caster level (6 days for the typical aegipan).
Bane: When you are in the
water, you always suffer penalties to Swim checks as if you were under heavy
encumbrance. In addition, you can only hold your breath for half the normal
period of time. This bane is permanent.
Agropelter (5th level
spell, CL 11, DC 17) The peevish lumberwoods fey knows as agropelters behave much like wild
beasts, and they are much more likely to bestow their boons on animals than
they are on mortal creatures. Agropelters may sneak into lodges and lumber
camps at night to use their banes on sleeping targets—the better to kill them
with thrown clubs during the day.
Boon: You gain Throw
Anything as a bonus feat. If you do not have hands with which to make thrown
weapon attacks, you can still throw objects with your natural appendages for
normal range and damage as appropriate for your size. If you already have the
Throw Anything feat, you gain Improvised Weapon Mastery as a bonus feat. If you
already have both feats, you treat all improvised thrown weapons as being
magical and silver for the purposes of overcoming damage reduction. This boon
Bane: You become a magnet to
thrown weapons and projectiles of all kinds.Ranged weapon attacks made against you do not suffer any penalties
from cover or concealment. This bane lasts for one day per caster level of the
agropelter (11 days for the typical aegipan).
Amadan (5th level
spell, CL 10, DC 18) Amadans are found in mortal lands as often as they are in the realms of
the fey, and so they may make friends among mortals upon whom to bestow their
boons. Particularly skilled and innocent mortals are those that make the
greatest impression on the cynical amadans, and the amadan’s influence can help
keep them out of trouble. A scorned amadan, however, will not hesitate to use
its bane to both humiliate and endanger its enemies.
Boon: You may cast mirror image as a spell-like ability,
with a caster level equal to your HD. You may do so three times; once you have,
this boon expires. If not used, this boon expires in one week’s time.
Bane: You find the most
inappropriate things hilariously funny. Whenever you enter a stressful
situation, including combat, you must succeed a Will save (DC 18) or be
affected by a hideous laughter spell.
If you successfully save, you cannot be affected by this ability for one hour,
even if other stressful situations emerge. This bane is permanent.
Bogle (2nd level
spell, CL 5, DC 14) Bogles rarely, if ever, bestow their boons to anyone. Only the most
vicious anarchists attract a bogle’s positive attention—their boon is given to
those allies in order to protect them from the bogle’s vermin shock troops.
Bogles eagerly bestow their bane on farmers and other civilized folk when they
can. A bogle defeated in combat will often feign surrender in order to curse
the foe that bested it out of pure spite.
Boon: Vermin cannot sense
you, even with extraordinary or supernatural senses (like blindsense,
blindsight or scent). If you attack a creature with the vermin type, this
effect is broken for that creature only. This boon lasts for one day.
Bane: Every night at
midnight, you must succeed a DC 14 Fortitude save or take 1d2 points of
Constitution damage, as if your body was being consumed from within by insects.
This damage does not heal naturally through rest, although spells like lesser restoration can remove it. This
bane lasts for one week.
Enenra (5th level
spell, CL 10, DC 18) Enenras are benevolent creatures that use their boons to assist those
who fight forest fires or that simply need to escape them. Arsonists and those
that use fire recklessly, however, may find themselves cursed with an enenra’s
bane and feel the heat of their own flames.
Boon: You can see through
smoke and fog as if it were not there. In addition, you gain fire resistance
10. This ability lasts for one week.
Bane: Any time you deal fire
damage to a creature or living plant, you take an equal amount of fire damage.
If there is a save for this effect (such as a fireball spell), you receive a save against the same DC in order to
take half or no damage, as is usual for the spell or ability. If you have fire
immunity or resistance, it does not apply against this damage. This bane is
Hiderigami (5th level
spell, CL 11, DC 19) The desert-dwelling hiderigami are the protectors of those arid
landscapes, and use their boons to benefit those who would protect the desert
from intrusion and exploitation. They especially favor travelers who can tell
them about other deserts in faraway lands, or teach them about the strange life
that requires frequent rains or cool temperatures. Hiderigami will not hesitate
to use their bane to thwart miners, land developers and farmers seeking to
transform the desert into a new landscape.
Boon: You become immune to
magical effects that would cause fatigue or exhaustion. You must still sleep or
become fatigued or exhausted, and physical exertion (like a forced march) can
still cause these conditions. In addition, you require only ¼ as much food and
water as is normal for a creature of your size. This boon lasts for one month.
Bane: You permanently suffer
from excruciating sunburn. You are sickened and fatigued. Whenever you take
damage from a fire spell or effect, you must succeed a Fortitude save (DC 19)
or be nauseated with pain for one round. This bane is permanent.
Summary: You were kidnapped by Hydra 10 years ago but now you’re free. You find yourself at the Avengers Tower while you recover and readjust to real life.
Warnings: language (moderate), SMUT
A/N: THIS CHAPTER CONTAINS SEXUAL SITUATIONS AND IS INTENDED ONLY FOR AUDIENCES OVER THE AGE OF 18!!! Feedback is always welcome, especially since this is my first smut. If you don’t want to be tagged in future fics please just let me know, promise I won’t be offended. Or if you do want be tagged and you’re not you can tell me that too! Hope everyone enjoys the new chapter! REQUESTS ARE OPEN!
You and Bucky had grown so close since your talk. Little by little you had started to tell him everything that had happened to you while with Hydra. But it was so much more than just sharing your traumatic stories, you had grown close physically too. You would wake each other in the middle of the night if either of you had a bad dream and hold the other in your arms until they fell back asleep. You would always sit next to each other on the couch or at dinner. Bucky would sit next to you with his arm around you just rubbing tiny patterns with his thumb into your shoulder or back as you watched movies. It became almost intimate the way you two interacted. It was so nice to have someone that just understood how you were feeling and where you were at mentally.
You woke up to Natasha and Wanda banging on your bedroom door, they had promised to take you shopping today. You groaned and felt the weight on the bed shift next to you as Bucky rolled over. Bucky had a nightmare last night and had come to your room for consoling, but you knew Nat and Wanda wouldn’t believe you if you told them nothing happened.
“I’ll meet you guys in the living room in 10 minutes” You yelled at them through the door. Bucky groaned again trying to hide his head under a pillow. “Come on get up Buck, quit being fucking lazy.” You rolled off the bed and walked to your closet to get dressed.
“Well you’re not gonna be here so you really won’t know if I don’t get up or not.” He may have been tired but that doesn’t mean wasn’t still a sassy little shit.
“Fine, stay in bed, I don’t care.” You quickly threw on a pair of jeans and a t-shirt, not caring if Bucky saw. The two of you stayed in each other’s rooms so often that being modest had kind of gone out the window. You looked over and saw him snuggling back into the bed and decided to just leave him be, after all he was right, it didn’t really matter if he got up.
You met up with Nat and Wanda in the living room, then the three of you quickly ran off to start your shopping. First stop was getting you some clothes that you actually wanted to wear.
“What about this? It’s super cute and would look great on you!” Wanda held up a tiny crop top to your chest in an attempt to see if it was the right size.
“Absolutely not, when on earth would something like that ever be practical?” You took the shirt, if you could call it that, from her hands and placed it back on the rack.
“You know Y/N, not everything you wear has to be practical. Live a little, I mean at least try it on. It’s not like you’re spending your own money on it, so if you buy it and never wear it, no big deal.” Nat snatched the top back off the rack and forced it into your arms. As much as you didn’t want to admit it, she was right, Tony was paying for your stuff since it’s not a like a dead woman can go out and get a credit card. You sighed in defeat and took your stack of clothes to the dressing room to try them on. You ended up finding quite a few things that you liked through out the day, as did the other girls. Nat ended up calling a car from the tower to come take some bags from you all so you could continue shopping in peace.
“You know what we need to do next?” Nat beamed at you with a sly grin plastered on her face.
“Fucking eat.” You tossed back.
“NOOOO, well yeah, but after that, we need to take you underwear shopping.” She was almost jumping up and down she was so excited and now Wanda had a stupid grin on her face too.
“I have underwear Nat, I don’t need anymore.” You knew that they thought you and Bucky were hooking up. So they probably thought they were being sneaky in trying to take you lingerie shopping.
“Yeah but you don’t have cute underwear, just that cheap stuff Pepper and I got you.” She grabbed you by the hand and started to drag you down the street. Yet again you sighed in defeat knowing you weren’t going to talk her out of this idea, plus you honestly wouldn’t mind some cuter underwear. You did manage to get her to stop for food before she forced you into the lingerie store.
Nat and Wanda immediately started grabbing things off the shelves and racks for you to try on. God they were like animals the way they tore threw the store grabbing stuff for you. Clearly they had been here many times before.
“Alright, that should be enough for now.” Nat stood in front of you triumphantly.
You took your things and went to try them on. Thankfully most of the things they gave you were panties and bras so you did’t have to try them on to know if you liked them. You set aside a few lacy pairs of each and a few more practical cotton pairs that were still really cute, but now it was time to try on the lingerie sets. You had never worn lingerie before, back in the day when you wanted to hook up with someone it just happened, there wasn’t really a lot of foreplay or planning so it just wasn’t necessary. You kind of liked the idea though of setting out to tease someone or actually planning on hooking up with someone but lord have mercy it had been so long since you even tried to flirt, you wouldn’t even know where to start. After trying on a few pieces that were all way too complicated, you finally picked up a cute sheer, little dress with matching panties and it looked amazing on you. It made you feel something you hadn’t felt in a really long time, horny.
You had noticed a sex shop next door to the lingerie store. So when you came out of the dressing room you decided to ask Nat and Wanda to take you there next. It had been so long since you even thought about sex. You weren’t a virgin by any means, you had hooked up with quite a few men and women back in the day but it had been at least 10 years since any of that had happened. You walked up and down the aisles of the sex shop trying to figure out exactly what it was you wanted. You needed something that was going to work quick but not make a lot of noise. God, you’d be mortified if anyone heard you.
Then like magic, Wanda appeared around a corner with a box in her hand. “Here, this is the one I use, it’s super quiet but works, amaaaaazingly, but don’t tell anyone.” She thrust the box at you to take before Nat could show up. You gladly took it, thankful that she had basically read your mind and saved you lots of time and probably some embarrassing questions.
You guys got back to the tower shortly after your little adventure at the sex shop. You wanted so badly to just stay in your room to masturbate but you knew the girls would never let you live it down so you put your stuff away and went back to the common area for a few hours.
You were so distracted by the wetness pooling in your panties all evening that you must have been acting different because Bucky asked you at least three times if you were feeling okay. You kept telling him you were fine but he just wouldn’t seem to let it go. Finally enough time had passed since you got home that you could tell everyone you were tired and go to your room.
You immediately ripped off your clothes then dug through your shopping bags to find the nighty set that had gotten this all started in the first place. You put it on and stared at yourself in the mirror, you looked just as good now as you had in the store. While standing there in the mirror you reached up under the top and started massaging your breast, it was amazing as you felt your nipples harden under your own touch. You reached your other hand down your panties and started to rub circles on your clit. You were already so wet.
After a few moments of playing with yourself in the mirror you finally grabbed your new toy out of the bag and put the batteries in. It had 10 speeds and 8 vibration patters, and you were planning on experiencing every combination. You laid down on the bed, turning it on, you pressed the head of it to your clit, using your own wetness as lube to make sure it slid in nice and easily. You started moaning and whimpering as it entered you. You kept it on a low setting to start, you didn’t want to overwhelm yourself and you also didn’t want your first session in 10 years to end too quickly.
Bucky waited a few minutes after you left before going to check on you. You had seemed so out of it since you got back from shopping. He was nervous that something had happened while you were out, maybe you saw something, or worse someone and you just didn’t want to talk about it in front of the others. He made his way towards your room. Once he got outside the door, he heard soft whimpering coming from inside. Worried that you were having a bad dream, he burst in without knocking.
“O-oh my god Bucky! What the fuck!” Your torso shot up off the bed when the door flew open, the toy still between your legs.
“Shit, shit, I’m so sorry Y/N. I thought, fuck, shit.” Bucky kept trying to look away from you but the see-through nighty that you were wearing and the toy you had clearly been fucking yourself with were making it really hard for him to do so. Thankfully he had closed the door behind him so you at least weren’t putting on a show for the whole tower to see. “Um, is that new?”
“What? Yes, um, jesus christ.” You flopped back on the bed, your face turning bright pink, not wanting to look Bucky in the face any longer.
“Okay, um, I’ll just go but can I tell you something first?” Unsure of how you would react Bucky started slowly walking towards you, thankful that you weren’t looking at him, because he didn’t want you to see the growing tent in his pants.
“Make it quick Buck, I’m a little busy here.” You threw your hands over your face as you heard him moving towards you, trying so hard not to make eye contact. You peeked out between your fingers to see him standing above you. You scrunched your face, not really sure what he was doing.
“Can I?” He gestured to the toy still inside you. Flustered and confused as to where this was going you slowly nodded. “This part right here,” he pointed to the rabbit part of your toy. “Is supposed to press right here.” He pushed the toy further inside you, pressing the rabbit flush against your clit then turned up the speed. You inhaled sharply at the new sensation then let out a string of moans and curses.
“Oh my god Bucky, don’t stop,” you cried as you writhed around on your bed. Bucky was standing over you, expertly pleasuring you with the toy. You reached your hands back up to start playing with your breasts again. You heard a low grown come from Bucky as you continued to pull at and pinch your nipples. He started to thrust the toy faster and harder into you, he couldn’t wait to watch your orgasm wash over you. It didn’t take much longer before you were repeating his name like a prayer.
“I wanna taste you,” He looked at you for consent before he kneeled down at the end of your bed. Wide eyed, you looked at him and nodded. “I need you to say it baby, tell me you want it.”
“Yes, for the love of god Buck, do it, do whatever you want.” You groaned as you felt his fingers push inside you, replacing the toy that had just been there. He used his thumb to keep your clit stimulated as he watched you for another few seconds before shoving his face in your pussy. The moan he made after licking a wide stripe up your pussy vibrated through your whole body. You felt his tongue replace his thumb while he ate you out and fingered you at the same time. Between the pace his set, the expert way he tongued your clit and surprisingly pleasurable way his scruff felt on your thighs, your second orgasm came just as quickly as the first.
“Oh fuck Bucky, fuck, I need you inside me.” You were basically whining at him. If he was this good with his hands and mouth you couldn’t wait to see what he could do with his cock. He kissed his way up your torso, pulling your nighty up with him, he stopped at your breasts so he could lick and bite at your nipples. You arched your back at the sensation, running your fingers through this hair, yearning for him to touch you more. He continued on up your body, nipping at your neck and collar bone.
“Not tonight doll, another time, I promise.” His mouth roughly met yours in a heated kiss. You rolled your hips against him, grinding your still wet pussy on his clothed crotch as he laid between your legs. He groaned into your mouth, then reached his metal hand down between your legs, rubbing your clit again. “I’m serious, Y/N, we can’t do that tonight. I was not prepared for this, but if you’re not done, I’d be more than happy to keep doing what we were doing until you are. Does that sound good?” He had pushed his metal fingers inside you now and was pumping them furiously. A soft whine escaped your lips as you bucked your hips against his hand. The metal felt so cool and different against your hot skin, it was just a whirlwind of feelings and sensations that you would have never thought to pair but felt so right.
“But what about you?” You cried between the thrusts of his fingers as you started palming him through his jeans. “I want you to feel good too.” He started thrusting his fingers faster as your hand made it’s way down his pants, fingers wrapping gently around his thick cock as you slowly pumped it. As you felt your third orgasm bubble up inside, your hand started to get a firmer grasp around him and you tried to pump in time with his thrusts. You third time was just as strong as the last two as you felt the bubble inside you explode with ecstasy.
After you were done riding out your orgasm, you flipped him over on to his back and made your way down his body. You pulled up his shirt so you could kiss and nip at his well toned chest and abs while you undid his pants. “Can I do this for you Buck?” You looked up at him with doe eyes, face hovering over his crotch. He nodded, honestly a little surprised that you were so insistent on returning a favor that didn’t need to be returned. He groaned and reached towards you, tangling his fingers into your hair as you pulled down his pants and boxers. You looked up at him again, your eyes locked as you expertly wrapped your mouth and hand around his cock. It may have been a while since you had done this but it was definitely not your first rodeo. You swirled your tongue around the tip of his cock as you bobbed your head up and down. You felt Bucky flop his torso down onto the bed as he let out a low growl in pleasure. You used your hand to pump his cock in time with your bobbing head as you hollowed your cheeks around him. You used your other hand to fondle his balls as you sped up your pace. He gripped your hair tighter and let out a loud string of fucks and shits and you knew that you had pushed him over the edge when you finally felt his cum hitting the back of your throat.
You sat up and wiped your mouth, while Bucky just laid there still recovering from his orgasm. You chuckled silently at him, looks like you still have the magic touch when it comes to oral. You got up, went to the bathroom then brushed your teeth. When you came out Bucky was getting dressed. “What are you doing?” You arched an eyebrow at him.
“Well, I don’t want people to think anything weird about me leaving your room tomorrow.” You knew he was just trying to respect your privacy but it was silly.
“Bucky, you literally slept in my bed last night. No one is going to think anything of it and even if they do who cares.” You walked over and gave him a reassuring hug then pulled him back towards the bed. “Just stay here tonight, please.”
He didn’t try to fight you on the matter, just slipped his pants back off and climbed into his usual spot on your bed. You smiled contently at him as you slipped into bed next to him, curling up in his arms. You didn’t think the two of you had been loud enough for anyone else to hear you, except maybe Nat, who was in the room next to you. Shit, boy, were you going to hear about this from her tomorrow. Whatever, it was totally worth it and you were definitely hoping it would happen again.
1. When a human comes into a time of low food intake, their body will begin to break down and consume itself from the inside
2. The average human has bones that, inch for inch, can stand up to more direct force than stone.
3. A handful of years after young humans finally show their teeth, they all fall out again to make room for a bigger, stronger set.
4. Humans are apex predators and have an average biting force of 138 pounds.
5. Humans can live birth up to eight infants during one gestational period.
6. Humans are slow-moving tactical pack hunters that typically exhaust their prey over a prolonged period- A well-practiced human can track and pursue their prey for up to 100 miles in the span of a single 24-hour day.
7. When startled or otherwise aroused by danger, a human’s body will release copious amounts of adrenaline, which drastically increases strength, speed, and sensory intake.
8. When faced with extreme conditions or the rare sociocultural demand, humans have been known to participate in the cannibalization of one another.
9. While typically land dwellers, humans can also develop an impressive aptitude for swimming, climbing, and gliding- their versatility is only in competition with their tenacity, as humans can be found in very nearly any climate at all from burning heat and solar radiation, to solid frozen deserts composed entirely of solid water.
10. While humans are only physically capable of very limited regeneration of lost parts, they are able to transplant the organs and tissues from other species and each other into others.
11. On the same string, some humans have assimilated cybernetic replacements and enhancements in and onto their bodies and limbs. This has been applied to anything from cardiovascular distress to amputation.
12. Humans emit an incredibly low-frequency light that is generally only visible under very specific conditions.
13. Young humans over many cultures engage in hunting and stalking activities for instinctual practice, group bonding, and personal entertainment.
14. Human teeth are designed for both cutting and grinding, and can consume most other living organisms, barring toxicity.
15. Many humans intentionally consume poisons in order to experience altered mind states.
16. Every twelve hours, a human enters a stationary trance in which they experience vivid auditory and visual hallucinations. It is theorized that this functions as a survival simulation which prepares them for potential danger.
17. When a human dies, the remains proceed to self-destruct almost immediately.
18. Humans survive on the mutually beneficial parasitic relationship that exists between them and countless millions of individual microscopic organisms that compose the majority of their body mass.
1 cup chia seeds (not nessasary but add additional protein)
1 cup sliced almonds
dash of cinnamon (to speed up metabolism)
5 - 8 cups oats (I usually use a mix of rough cut and fine ones) – precise amount will vary depending on the size of the bananas – constancy is fine when the batter is more sticky than liquid
(frozen) berries to taste
Mix everything up in said order. Fill the batter in some cupcake liners (silicone works best – paper is also fine). Bake every for ca. 25-30 minutes until the tops turn slightly brown. Let them cool down before eating.
I usually take one to go for breakfast as you can prepare them for the whole week up front. Super easy and healthy breakfast! Enjoy!
I wake up to incessant beeping from my phone and glance at it. Shit! I’m late for work. I hurriedly throw on clothes, brush my fingers through my hair and grab my bag, locking my apartment door behind me. I’m halfway to the cafe I work at when I remember what woke me up. I pull out my phone and scroll through the notifications.
Penny: Simon!!! Call me when you get this
Penny: Aren’t you supposed to be awake right now?
Penny: Don’t you have work today?
Penny: I’m in town so I’ll stop by at some point. Call me
Looking down at my phone, I don’t even see the guy in front of me until I bump into him. Startled, I drop my phone. He must have also been glancing down because his phone clatters to the ground next to mine.
“I’m so sorry,” I say as I crouch down to grab my phone. “I should have been paying attention, I’m just late and my friend-”
I freeze when he crouches down beside me and my eyes meet his. Startling grey. I’m suddenly unable to remember what I was saying.
He smiles, tucking his hair behind his ears.
I smile back and pocket my phone.
“I should, um. I mean, I’m late. So…”
He nods and slowly pushes himself back up .
“Try not to run into anyone else,” he says.
I blush and head to work, slower this time.
Work is fine, I’m clumsy and slow but the other barista, Agatha, makes up for it.
It’s not until I get off work that I remember Penny’s texts.
I take out my phone and immediately see three missed calls from a strange number. The phone starts buzzing in my hand, another call, and I hesitantly answer.
“Oh thank Crowley.” A familiar voice says. “I ran into you earlier today and I think we accidentally switched phones. Could we meet up?”
“Oh!” I say, looking at my phone screen. The lockscreen is different. “Um, yeah. Would tomorrow work?”
“Ebb’s cafe at-” I glance at my schedule. “4pm? I’m off work then.”
There’s as pause before he replies, “Yeah that works. I’m Baz by the way.”
“Simon,” I say.
“Okay, see you tomorrow Simon.” He hangs up and I slowly drop the phone to my side and grab my bag. I closed up the cafe tonight so I lock the door behind me and head home.
I actually wake up on time the next morning and get ready at a leisurely pace, checking myself over in the mirror a few more times when I remember I’m meeting up with that guy - Baz - today. I grab my bag and sling it over my shoulder before heading off.
Both Agatha and Ebb are working today as well.
“Hiya Ebb!” I call, wrapping her up in a big hug.
“Simon!” Ebb says, wiping her eyes slightly. “I swear you get taller every time I see you.”
I laugh, “Ebb you saw me last week when you were in. You see me every week.”
Ebb nods and rubs at her teary eyes again. I smile and grab my apron, moving to turn on the espresso machine. Around 8, business speeds up and I’m kept busy between attending to customers and glancing at the clock.
Agatha notices of course and nudges me as she passes with a customer’s order. “Got a hot date or something?” she asks.
I can’t help the blush that blooms across my cheeks. The clock ticks closer and closer to four, and the cafe slowly gets less crowded. I’m wiping down tables when the bell jingles signaling someone walking in.
I glance up and see dark hair and cheekbones, all sharp edges and handsome features.
“Baz!” I say, hurriedly dropping the towel I’m using and wiping my hands on my apron.
“Give me just one moment.” I hurry behind the counter and shrug off my apron, grabbing my messenger bag. Agatha peers out of the kitchen and sees Baz, catching my eye to wink at me.
I glare back.
Baz is literally a stranger I bumped into and stole a phone from, now is not the time to be focusing on his looks, or his deep voice, or the fire that lights in my stomach when he looks at me…fuck.
I set my bag on top of the counter and Baz comes to the other side, sliding my phone across it towards me.
I start rummaging through my bag to find his and watch out of the corner of my eye as he leans against the counter and casually runs his fingers through his hair. I can’t help but think how soft it must be.
“So…” he starts. I glance up for a moment before continuing to look through my things.
“I got a lot of messages from this Penny last night. I finally took the liberty to let her know what had happened, she seemed really worried about it.”
“Oh, yeah. I was supposed to message her. Sorry about that.” I say.
“She your girlfriend or something.”
I pause and look up, meeting his eyes straight on. My cheeks grow red and I stammer out, “N-no. I don’t like- I’m not- I’m not dating anyone.”
Baz smirks coolly and nods, as if he gets some sort of inside joke or something.
It frustrates me because I want to know what he’s thinking.
“S- so what about you? You have a girlfriend, or something?” I shrug.
His smile grows. “Or something?”
“I don’t know.” I mumble.
Baz ignores the question in favor of staring out the window and I continue to search my bag. I finally give up.
“Look, I think I left your phone in my apartment. I must have taken it out of my bag last night. I could run and grab it or you could just come with me?”
“I’ll come.” He says.
I walk around the counter and he follows me out the door.
“Bye Simon!” Agatha calls and then stage whispers “good luck with your date.”
I flip her off as I shut the door.
“Your date?” Baz asks as we set off down the sidewalk.
“N-nothing.” I say. “Agatha just likes to tease.”
Agatha had had a field day when I first came out to her as bi. She had actually been the first to come out to me as ace, when she broke up with me. But we still get along pretty well. Actually, we get along much better now that we’re just friends.
It’s a short walk to my apartment, only ten minutes.
We pass the place I first ran into him and I can’t help but smile to myself. I have a cute boy coming back to my apartment with me because I’m so clumsy.
I unlock the door and kick it open, heading to my bedroom to try and find his phone. Baz pauses in the doorway and looks around, as if he’s mapping the place out in his head. After a bit, he walks a few steps further and shuts the door quietly.
I turn and dig through my bedside drawer, trying desperately to remember where I’ve put his phone.
“I know I had it…” I mumble to myself, turning. Baz has suddenly appeared right behind me, well in front of me now. He’s so close I can feel his breaths against my cheek. My eyes automatically wander to his lips before snapping back up to his eyes.
“I think I’ll go…” I gesture towards my living room, “check in there.”
Baz slides out of my way and follows me back out.
“Aha!” I say, spotting it on the counter.
I hold it out to Baz and he takes his phone, his fingers brushing mine.
“Thanks,” he says.
I nod and shove my hands in my pockets.
“Sorry about all this.” I say.
“Don’t worry about it.” he smiles at me, “It was partially my fault as well.”
I walk him to the door slowly, trying to draw out my time with him.
“Bye Baz.” I say as he walks out, “Try not to run into any strangers.”
He turns. “I don’t know. If they’re all as cute as you I don’t think I’d mind.”
I’m pretty sure I stare open-mouthed for minutes after he walks away.
Baz: I hope you don’t mind I took the liberty of putting my number in your phone