Ahhh, this question. I got it before something like it a while back. Well, for those who don’t know me, I’m China, the mod and artist for Spa Ponies, and creator of Cloudia if any of you care for OCs. When I first started Spa Ponies blog, I only did it because everyone else was kinda doign it, and it seemed like fun to jump the bandwagon since i was stilll kind of HORRIDLY OBSESSED WITH PONIES. I was very naive. So very naive, still am. But much so then. I didn’t know how to be my own person so i only went with the crowd and what was popular. I didn’t expect people to actually like my blog but appearently they did and wanted more. So I tried to stick it out and keep updating, but eventually, i hit a snag and started to absolutely despise anything ponies to the point where i would not even watch ponies or even have ponies on my dashboard or even discuss ponies with the friends i had made via the My Little Sweetheart project. I think the fandom became too overwhelming for me because people just expected so much out of me and i couldn’t or was too laid-back/lazy to deliever, and i saw how the fandom would treat its artists like slaves and i guess it fucking ticked me off. I’m not entirely sure.
Now? I’m kinda over it, but now I just want to move onto greener pastures, ya know? This fandom hit rock bottom a very long time ago, and I just wanted to jump ship. Hell, I even asked my pony-oriented friends if i should just close down my pony oriented blogs and they urged me not to and just leave them there incase i felt. I felt that was unfair to whoever even cares wants to read them. but really, i’ve come to a conclusion and i feel like i’m not even recieving enough recognition either, so with that and the fact that the fandom’s become kind of a cult, i just quit. Took Cloudia and am trying my best to make her more of my own character rather than an object of the mlp fandom, which is a little hard since the fandom is kinda like a virus. I really love quadrupedal cloudia and do want to keep her like this. but i am robbing her of her tramp stamp’d cutiemark.
don’t get me wrong, i did OK all the porn for her because i honestly do not care for rule 34/nsfw/lewd material, that’s not what turned me away from the fandom no, i’m open-minded about these things. i still really like the show, and love the great art for people can are able to create, and i met some really great people, but i think it’s just…a failed experiment for me. i am an artist who seeks recognition for what they do constantly, and if i see one thing isn’t working, i’m going to get off that ship faster than spider on speed (haha see what i did there?). if that sounds selfish and self-centered to you, so be it. sorry for having dreams and goals.
we had a wonderful time with ms. velvet, after she invited us over to her shop on a slow day and let us try on some outfits she had made. i wonder if rarity is aware of her…they could really make something fantastic together!
I just want to say thanks to you guys for still following my blog when I don’t really contribute anything. In good news tho I wanted to let you know I’ve moved out and have my own place now!! It’s very smol and I don’t have really any furniture but I’m hoping to get like a desk so I have a place to do work and crafts and make pony things and take pictures. I don’t have shelves yet either and all my ponies are in boxes but you’ll know when I feel up to getting them all out and having a pony spa day c: