thought you were smart, Edwards.” Charlotte snarled when I came
home after the rain incident.
wasn’t thinking straight so I didn’t show any reaction. Instead I
just walked in and took off my soaked vans. Of course had she heard
about Caleb’s wrong accusations.
room mate continued with a cold laugh.
you really think Dan would date you?” she asked and acted like it
was the funniest thing in the world. ’Yes’
I thoughtto myself
and the thought made my heart race. Dan had basically said it himself
only about 10 minutes ago. He would have dated my back in high
school. I didn’t know what his opinion on dating me now was. If only
Charlotte knew what Dan had confessed to me in the rain she’d
probably rip my head off. Instead of telling her I just shrugged my
shoulders, seeing no use in fighting with her again now.
that?” she asked, suspiciously eyeing the sweater I was wearing. I
had nearly forgotten that I still had Dan’s jumper on. It was warm
against my cold skin. The fabric was soft and it’s smell was to die
nothing.” I answered, trying to sound nonchalant. Her icy
blue orbs evilly glared at me. Of course Dan had to give me his
signature sweater. He could have just given me his football jersey
with his name on the back, it would have had the same effect.
you think it’s a little too big, even for you?” Charlotte snapped.
have a thing for oversized sweaters.” I simply stated, before I
headed to my room and shut the door behind me.
had troubles sleeping the next few days. Every time I tried to close
my eyes Dan’s image popped into my mind. Has words echoed in my head
and my thoughts were racing. I had no idea on what terms Dan and I
were. I also had no clue how to continue and I wasn’t sure how to act
around him. The fact that I had thrown Dan’s jumper onto a chair
right next to my bed didn’t help either. It was the first thing I saw
when I woke up in the morning and somehow it made my smile a little
bit every time.
When I walked to my classes accompanied by Hayley on
Monday I was yet again the centre of attention. Countless of
student’s eyes burned holes into my body. Fingers pointed at me and I
heard people laugh behind my back. Caleb’s story spread like wild
fire. I was pretty certain that Charlotte and her friends made sure
that everybody heard that Rose Edwards slept with Dan Howell and was
stupid enough to think that they’d date afterwards. According to his
story I also bombarded Dan with texts and wouldn’t stop showing up at
his dorm. I sounded like a pathetic little girl and nobody but Dan,
me and Hayley knew that none of those things actually happened.
don’t have to walk next to me.” I whispered. I felt bad for Hayley.
She wasn’t involved in any of this, but had to witness all of it.
Everybody stared at her as well and she was now officially known as
the best friend of the library loser.
want to and I will. If those jerks don’t have anything better to do
than gossip about some bullshit than that’s their problem.” Hayley
angrily raised her voice at the last bit so the students surrounding
us could hear her.
hate that stupid Howell ass so much.” she groaned as we had finally
reached our class room.
yeah” I simply agreed although I wasn’t so sure of that anymore. I
hadn’t told Hayley what happened on Friday yet, no wonder why she
still hated him that much.
I attended all of my classes that day I put my laptop and notebook
back into my bag and headed out of the huge doors of the castle like
university building. The sun was out and there were hundreds of
people hanging out on campus. I was starving so I decided to head
straight back to my room to cook something easy, like spaghetti. On
my way across the campus I passed three very familiar looking guys.
Phil and Caleb were smoking next to Dan. They were leaning against a
big oak tree and the three of them together was definitely a sight
that most of the female students couldn’t ignore that easily. My
heart rate sped up as soon as I saw Dan stand there. He looked so
good with so little effort. It was the first time since Friday that I
saw him. I nervously bit my lip as I quickened my pace. Not really
sure if I wanted him to notice me or not I started to walk past him
and his friends, looking at my feet.
Edwards.” I heard somebody say, making me turn around. At first I
thought I was experiencing a deja vu, but this time at wasn’t Caleb
who shouted my name.
you okay? You seemed pretty upset last Friday.” Phil asked me
concerned as soon as I faced him. I saw Dan stiffen next to him and
Caleb just grinned smugly.
the hell are you doing Philip?! I was trying to avoid you.’ I
internally groaned. How could he be the only one to not know what
happened? Why must he also be so nice?
did I make you cry, sweetheart?” Caleb teased and Phil furrowed his
eyebrows together in confusion. He looked between me and Caleb as if
he was trying to connect invisible dots between us. I felt my blood
boil again as I stared back into Caleb’s hazel eyes.
thought Dan and you just had another fight?” Phil questioned me,
looking more confused than ever. In the corner of my eyes I saw Dan
flinch as his name was mentioned, but then he continued to stare at
the grass in front of his feet. He was clearly avoiding my gaze and
that kind of hurt. Maybe I did want him to notice me after all.
worry Phil, it’s obviously forgotten now.” I said more to Dan than
head immediately shot up at the comment I made. A little hint of
panic in his eyes gave away that he understood what I was secretly
accusing him of. I saw his eyes widen as he realized that he might
have screwed up again.
I walked away from the three of them after muttering a bye, I heard
Dan ask Caleb for one of his cigarettes.
in my room I realized how worked up I actually was. Oh, yes I hated
Caleb with passion now and I was also a little bit mad at Phil for
being so naïve and oblivious, but most of all I was yet again
disappointed in Dan. To be fair I wanted to ignore him at first as
well, but after Phil called me over he could’ve said a simple hello,
right? I wasn’t asking for him to punch Caleb in the face for being
such an asshole. All I wanted was him to acknowledge me. When I
entered my room to change into some comfy clothes I immediately
noticed Dan’s jumper on my chair. This time though it didn’t make me
smile. Instead I felt anger fill my veins.
minutes later I had entered the boys dorm again. I walked up three
flights of stairs until I reached Dan and Phil’s room. God, why do I
always end up here?
was way too upset to be nervous. I tried to shove away my feelings as
I slowly knocked on the door a few times. Phil was the one to answer
it seconds later. He smiled at me like always. I didn’t understand
why he was friends with Caleb and Dan. Maybe he was just nice to me
and a dick to everybody else?
I just wan-” I started but Phil interrupted me by inviting me in.
had a weird feeling in the pit of my stomach when I entered the
living room of the flat. I had already been here on Friday and being
reminded of that made me feel a bit uneasy.
was sitting on the couch and much to my disliking he was talking to Caleb.
Both of them stopped in the middle of their conversation when they
and I can give you two a moment alone if you want.” Phil offered,
catching the way Dan and I were staring at each other with intensity.
alright. I just came to give Dan his jumper back.” I simply stated
with zero emotion in my voice.
noticed the dark grey fabric that was slung over my left arm . Horror
was written all over his face. He gulped hard and one could see that
he was trying to find the right words to say. He repeatedly opened
and then closed his mouth without saying something.
you finally given up on him, sweetheart?” Caleb snarled with a
smirk plastered across his stupid face. He wasn’t even a part of this
took you forever to realize that Dan would never-” he teased me.
The story was repeating itself. But shortly before Caleb could tell
me that Dan would never date a loser like me ,just like his high
school friend had a few years ago, Dan changed the story.
Caleb could end his sentence Dan suddenly threw a punch directly to
his face. Without a warning his fist forcefully collided with Caleb’s
sharp cheekbone. The sound of bones crashing against each other
filled the air as well as a loud yelp.
dude.” He winced in pain.
I just stood there, staring at both of
them in shock.
cheeks were red in anger and his hands were still formed into fists.
There was a dangerous sparkle in his eyes.
Caleb had regained his composure he blinked at Dan unbelievingly.
the hell was that for?!” he shouted in rage, but Dan completely
ignored him. He jumped up from his spot on the couch and walked
towards me, guilt was visible in his eyes.
don’t want my jumper back, Rose. It’s yours and I want you to keep