SOMEONE POURED WATER ON MY FACE

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yj: from the moment i was born, you were next to me. there wasn’t a day when i didn’t see you. … i kept hinting at you, that i like you, andfor you to like me back. … so i told myself, i had to confess to you. so the day of the SAT’s, i told you to meet me at the school oval at 8pm, didn’t i? that day was my d-day. but hyung told me 10 minutes before… he told me.. that he liked you. what should i do? …in this world, there are only 2 people that i love the most. one is my hyung; my hyung who gave up everything because of me. and the other is you. it was you. but my hyung likes you. what should i do?

sw: yoonjae-yah. can’t we go back to being comfortable friends like we used to be? like you said, we’ve been together since the day we were born right? i’m not very smart. you know that too right. but i know that you are the friend i treasure the most in this world. you’ll still continue to be my friend right?

Everything Grows

Everything grows- the night,
The trees, your hair.
There are weeds growing inside my ribcage,
I suspect you planted them there,
A hostile takeover of my heart,
How come dandelions have always looked beautiful to me?
I could wish upon a whole field until the seeds enveloped the air,
Making it thick and hard to breathe,
But still, you would leave me.
The night grows young,
The trees grow outwards,
Your hair grows long,
And you- you grow away from me.
I suppose you could call these overslept days
Growing pains,
Along with the angry, red knob in my throat
Whenever someone says your name,
And the way the small things like Rubik’s Cubes
And skateboards remind me endlessly of your face,
It hurts to watch things change,
But I can feel the ground beneath my toes,
Soft and fertile,
Maybe all of your bad decisions are becoming nutrients
For my unveiling,
Or maybe I shouldn’t give you that much credit,
But either way I am pouring cold water over my skull
In the summer heat, and hoping to outgrow
My mistakes.