Lmao let me start of firstly with if you’re that low to tell a victim that, then you need to find some new hobbies.
Honestly, I can’t even get mad. This isn’t causing anxiety, triggering me, ect… nothing. What am I doing right now then you might ask? Eating my second twinkie, admiring a drawing a friend did for me of an OC of mine (Like goddamn its so good) and watching netflix at 3 am. And you? You’re here. And how honestly fucking sad is that?
I’m not going to lie to you. I wanted to die when it happened. I wanted to commit suicide and end my life. I constantly thought to myself, “Why me? Why did I deserve this? Why didn’t they just kill me?” and honestly thought I was better off being dead. I was in a shitty place for a long time. I had nightmares. I couldn’t go outside. I had to move. Change schools. Go out less.
But now? I couldn’t be happier with my life. I might have my moments but that’s because I’m human.
My friends freaked out when I told them about this message. They honestly want to strangle you. But me? I honestly think you need more help than me. I can’t even get mad towards you. I mean, I even have the whole ‘stat counter’ thing on my blog that tells me your IP and where you live. I can look at it and post it wherever I want buckaroo. But will I? No. Why not? Because. Im not going to stoop to your level. I’m obviously stronger than you.
I was raped, abused, and left for dead all at the age of 15. But I came out stronger than you. That’s clear. You can’t even come off anonymous to try and make me feel shitty that I lived.
I’m 18 now. I have a nice job. I have 3 cats and a dog I spend probably too much time with spoil too much. I get paid to do what I love now and bring joy to people when they see they’re OTP or OC’s in my stories. I have amazing friends that love me regardless of what I’ve done in my past.
And you? Honestly, if you’re that low in your life, talk to someone.
What happened to me, happened. There’s no denying it and I accept it. But it doesn’t define me and determine how I feel towards life now. I am a survivor and a fighter. What are you?