imma come out n say it i dont like pearlmethyst i rlly dont- like– u can ship it i just ech i dont rlly like shippings between the crystal gems– the only exception being ruby/sapphire, like for pearlmethyst i have a similar thought against that as i do spamano and usuk- they’re not related but they’re relationship is more a family-type relationship, the crystal gems have a family dynamic- they are a family, garnet would be the mom, pearl the eldest sibling, amethyst the middle child and steven as the youngest, that’s p/ much their relationship with eachother. that’s literally the only reason i dont like pearlmethyst
I loved ts. For everything it was and everything that it could have been. With out ts i would have never of had the courage to go out into the world and do a lot that I did. I would have never met some of my greatest friends.. and my greatest enemies. I would have never met miru and joined acd. I wouldnt have made the friends in there. I wouldnt have met izi or obo or bella or jubby.
I wouldnt have met nanna. Who gave me the confidence to actually be more open about myself and take chances. If it wasnt for her I wouldnt have even joined ts in the first place.
I wouldnt have made ashcreek if it wasnt for ts and I wouldnt have met Rin Or Muffin. I wouldnt have met pixu or had the amazing chance to have my best friends mod ashcreek with me and make some of the best rps I had ever had. I wouldnt have created one of my favorite oc’s Ive ever made. And as much as I miss inessa I wouldnt change a thing in the world for all of this. I wouldnt have met poi or ash. or sky or sukee or ice or vesp or the millions of other people that I now to this day call my friends.
I wouldnt have gained the experiance to run a group like ashcreek had I not been in ts. Because of its flaws I understood what I should do to run my own group. and because of the good things about it I understood what it took to be a good moderator and a good person… how ever much that stuck with me Ill leave that up to you. I learned to be kinder then I am.. to be more accepting of people. and learned that i need to be there for people.
I also learned to be critical. to be cold when the time came for it. That I have full right to get angry when the time comes and to stand up for myself.
It also made me improve in my art. The one thing that totally and utterly keeps me going day to day when I dont have much else to do that. If it hadn’t been for the competition though it was hidden under the layers of friend ship there was always the friendly competition. It taught me to strive to make better art. It taught me that I can always improve and that I have to strive to improve. It taught me that I shouldnt care what other people thought of my art as long as I was willing to adapt to what was needed.
But all in all. Of all the things that I know about ts.. I know this
It was.. a great group. There were idiots. there was drama. There was passion. and there was a sense of being together in the group.
Honestly.. if It wasnt for TS. I wouldnt be typing this right now. I would have been a casualty of teenage suicide and I wouldnt have moved on past the first month of me being out of highschool.
I am honestly.. Thankful for ts. But I must.. and I mean.. MUST. make this point. Ts as helpful as it was.. has passed. With a wavering leader.. with mods who did way more then what they were asked to just to try and keep the group up. I fully understand why things went the way they did. But this happens.
Things die. and the world keeps turning. You’ll find other groups. You’ll lose your friends and you’ll keep the ones closest to you. Ts was a GREAT group. but it had its flaws… So does everything else..
So please.. Don’t defend it like it was perfect. But as well. Please don’t bash it as if it was the worst thing on the face of the earth.
I’m honestly so terrified of growing up. Like I have no idea what I’m going to do when I get out of highschool. I have another year and a half, but it’s gone bye so fast and ugh. I really want to go into psychiatry, but I feel like I’m going to just get overwhelmed and quit. So I’m thinking I’m probably going to just go to cosmetology, and then into special fx makeup cause that seems like so much fun but omfg i don’t want to grow up. .-.
Sometimes I wish I had someone I could call mine. Someone who wouldn’t hate me for calling them at 3am sobbing, but who would genuinely be concerned. Someone who would hold me like they’re trying to keep all the pieces of me together. Someone who would love me as much as I love them.
It’s really not that complicated.
I’m just tired of feeling like me loving someone is a chore for them to deal with.
One thing that makes me angry (and it might be totally stupid but…) is when people call Alex Vause “Alexandra” or other variation. Her name is ALEX.
Just Alex. That is what her badge says and how the attorney in Kubra’s trial call her. That’s her full name.
They won’t put a nick name in her official identification in a federal institution.
like idk no offense to anyone who mains Dominion. I literally have nothing against the faction or anyone wanting to play them like it’s your fucking game, play who you want to play. I’ve played both sides and only ended up maining exile because that’s where more of the people I knew RPed but I have just as many dommie characters and I adore them
But I just feel like I need to say this one thing. (Rant ahead I guess I’ll put it under a cut or something.)