anonymous asked:

Thank you so much for sharing your acct of the evening - I'm so glad it went beyond what you'd hoped for!! :') Similar to you, I'd looked into the play beforehand & read that actors cld add their own anecdotes (they just had to indicate it was their voice, not the script's) - you mentioned one off-script moment. Were there any others / did she do that often? And to get a better sense: did her approach/choices remind u of any of her prev. roles (KB, Morgenstern, Lenora, Sofia, etc.) ? Thanks xx

Those are great questions! And not exactly easy to answer due to how the script/play was written.

She didn’t add anecdotes per se. She added comments of her own on occasion; she’d say ‘this is me talking’ or ‘let me do this again’, or she’d look at the audience in a specific way so that you could tell she’d added this word or a line, to make a point here or there, or to communicate with the audience. By the same token it was actually hard to distinguish when it was her speaking versus the script speaking, because of the way it was written! There are interjections that seem added yet are actually in the script, etc. That’s the part that’s hard to explain but it leads me straight into your second question.

The script/play basically is the writer of the piece communicating both with the actor personally, and with the audience through the medium of an actor. As such, the role for the actor who presents the play really is just ‘actor.’ The role has no prescribed or pre-defined character; the actor is free to personalize the role as they see fit. It gives room for every actor who ever performs it to add their own personality to the play. And trying to present the emotionality, and the struggle the writer is going through. So it wasn’t so much Stana playing a specific role, it was Stana being an actress, and therefore I feel that what we saw a lot was the personality of Stana. She had room to be who and how she felt the role needed her to be - playful, dorky, funny, excited, serious, thought-provoking, confused, sad.
She did a touch of Beckett at one point - on purpose (she really knew her audience! ;)) and I guess you could try to interpret that you saw a Beckett, or a Carolina in, say, some of the emotional or quiet moments, but really what I saw was Stana, free to be Stana the Actress.

Monday 8:27am
I woke up with you on my mind.
You called me babe last night —
my heart is still pounding.

Tuesday 10:53pm
Today I realized we won’t work.
What we are is hurting her.
And I think she matters more to me than you do.

Wednesday 11:52pm
I broke things off with you today.
She barely said a word.
I’ve never regretted anything more than this.

Thursday 4:03pm
I shouldn’t have sent that message.
You shouldn’t have been so okay with receiving it.

Friday 9:57pm
I almost messaged you today.
I didn’t.

Saturday 8:49pm
I’m walking around town in search of alcohol.
They say that liquor numbs the pain of having a broken heart.
I want to put that to the test.

Sunday 2:32am
I heard you texted a girl you’ve never spoken to before.
I wonder if it’s because you’re trying to replace me.
I can’t help but wish you weren’t.
I thought I was irreplaceable.

—  a week with you on my mind, c.j.n.
We throw around the word never likes its nothing but a small rose petal. The word never is a doubled edged sword. On one side it says ‘I will never leave you’ and on the other it says ‘I will never love you.’
—  The Word Never