jasper is a soldier. born and raised, literally made, for that one sole purpose. which is what rose states in tonights episode. they dont get to grow up and chose who they are. jasper has done some shitty things but that’s literally all she knows to do. when her and lapis fused it was horrible for both of them, not to mention equally mentally scarring. they both contributed to this toxic relationship. yes. both. lapis states that she enjoyed hurting and torturing jasper? (this does not make lapis an abuser but its still bad and not healthy) and in the past she has fought with the gems. this doesnt make her bad tho. because shes had time to look back on her actions and realize what she did wrong and apologize. so far jaspers had very little screen time and the first time we see her shes just there for a quick errand run, which turns into a long ass trip full of traumatic and horrible experiences. shes so different from when we even first saw her. she goes goes from fierce warrior to knee groveling desperate gem who just wants to be complete and not feel like a weak failure. i’m not excusing her actions because they were wrong. but she needs to learn and figure out why what she did was wrong.