You know what I’m sick and tired of more than anything on this garbage dump of a website? How people are constantly spouting how much they care about mental illnesses, but when someone like me who has a mental illness that can lead to communication errors or statements that aren’t clear then you’re demonized and treated like the worst human being once you slip up. And when you try to explain this to people or try to clarify what you meant, they don’t listen or claim you’re making excuses or backtracking.
As someone on the autism spectrum, getting across what I mean is not easy. I’ve gotten help with this, but I still have problems. Not to mention that I always worry that someone will take what I’m saying and turn it around because I didn’t make something explicitly clear. And seeing all these people on tumblr claim they’re supportive of autistic people and people with mental illnesses only to turn around and attack those same people they claim to support and slander them because they didn’t get their point across just pisses me the fuck off.
Because just about every time someone has started discourse with me, or sent me anon hate, it’s been because I didn’t get across what I meant to say properly. The 1shimaru sexuality bullshit is the biggest example of this, all because I tried to share my headcanon but worded things awkwardly, I was harassed, stalked, falsely accused of being on a blog I have never been a part of, called homophobic and transphobic, had tons of hate mail sent to me, and god knows how many of those people still bitch about me on their blogs after I had to block them. Not just because I thought a character was straight, but because these people took so much issue with how I worded my post because I didn’t word things the way I meant to in my head. And a number of these people claim to be mentally ill or autistic which makes things even worse!
Hell, I got out of a abusive friendship a few months ago and one of the things she’d do is get on my case whenever I wasn’t 100% perfectly clear with my words, something I can’t do! And I tried to explain this to her many times and she never listened to me!
And the fact that callout culture and the like is so prevalent on tumblr means that if you are one of those people who’s not good with words and communication who slips up? These people will make sure to tear you down and ruin your reputation OVER MISTAKES IN WORDING! Not only is that extremely abusive behavior, it’s downright ableist and goes against everything these so called supportive users claim to be for or against! Am I perfect? No, I’m not! So why the fuck does tumblr continue to persist in this abusive, ableist behavior?
Because the bottom line is, these are issues mentally ill people and people on the autism spectrum such as myself have to deal with constantly. And I’ve never seen more ableist behavior than I have on here, a website that people claim is all for supporting those who have these issues. But then again, what can I expect from a website that outright shoots down self-care and recovery methods as being “neurotypical”, tries to lie about having serious mental illnesses just to be special, glorifies self-destructive behaviors such as doing nothing all day long, claims that self-diagnosis is a great method, and other similar ableist behaviors?
Stop trying to act like you support us when we don’t even meet your standards of being good people. Fuck off.