Bulk Film: 101

What is bulk film and why should you use it: A guide to saving money while shooting more film!

If there’s one thing film shooters know, it’s that film is expensive. It’s not as much as buying a Phase One medium format DSLR, but it’s still far more expensive than it used to be in the days or yore. Of course developing your own film at home can save you heaps on lab processing fees, but what about saving on actual film?

One of the easiest ways to save money when shooting 35mm film is to invest in bulk loading equipment. While it may technically be possible, bulk loading 120 film would not be practical for multiple reasons, particularly spooling and backing paper. However for 35mm, the process is quite simple and helps you get a lot more bang for your buck.

What is bulk film?

Bulk film is a massive roll of 35mm film that you load into empty cassettes and cut on on your own. It usually comes in 100 ft rolls, allowing you to spool between 18-20 rolls of 36 exposure film. The actual number of rolls you get from a bulk roll will depend on the type of loader you have.

So just as an example, as of February 2016 a 100ft roll of Ilford HP5 Plus 400 runs around $69. If we go on the lower end and divide by 18 rolls, that means you pay $3.83 per roll of 36 exposure. Currently, Ilford offers a 5-pack for $29.99 or $5.99 per roll, and single rolls at $8.99. Now let’s look at a 100ft roll of Ultrafine 400 black and white film, which currently sells at $35.95; again on the low end of 18 rolls you’d now be paying $1.99 per roll of 36 exposure. That’s literally cheaper than film was in the 80s and 90s - no joke.

As you can see the savings add up quickly with bulk film, even after taking into account the supplies needed to to it.  A home darkroom or complex equipment isn’t necessary to load your own bulk film. The process is surprisingly easy and economic, which is why it’s such a great option for saving money if you shoot a lot.

Here’s what you need to roll your own bulk film:

To take the above price comparisons further, let’s say you buy a set of empty cassettes for $19.95 and a bulk film daylight loader for $59, plus two 100 ft rolls of the aforementioned Ilford HP5 Plus 400, you’re still only paying $6 per roll and that will continue to go down the more you shoot since you already have the loading equipment. (Side note: you can also use a regular bulk film loader with a dark bag or a light-proof room if you happen to have one.)

Canister vs. Cassette

There can be some confusion for new film shooters between canisters and cassettes, particularly because both are available in bulk. Cassettes, pictured above, are the metal containers that hold the film. You’ll absolutely need these to roll your bulk film and put it in your camera. Canisters, however, are the plastic containers that hold your film cassettes. They can be practical for storing your film, protecting from moisture and organizing. While they are recommended, they are not essential for rolling or shooting bulk film.

Black and White Vs. Color

While it used to be possible to find some types of color film available in bulk, most have been discontinued. Black and white is far more common - making it both easier to find and easier to deal with. If you get your black and white film developed in a lab, they can keep your cassettes and return them to you with your negatives and contact sheets (or scans.) If you do manage to find some bulk color film, more power to you!

Have a look at this awesome video from Matt Day on How To Load Bulk Film:

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Tips To Make Your College Experience Cheaper

Textbook websites

  • List of websites where you can find free ebooks, specified by subject.
  • (to compare textbook prices)
  • (price comparison)
  • (offers textbook editions, like unbound ones, that are cheaper than retailers)
  • (shipping is free, as well as the shipping back to the warehouse)
  • (free e-books)
  • (searching shows the lowest price for a book)
  • (find the highest buy back site for a book)
  • (Good for English majors, discounted books shipped around the world)
  • (free digital copies of books)
  • HERE is a huge list of textbook PDFs.

Textbook tips

  • ALWAYS check to see if textbook websites have online coupons. Check outside websites like but also sign up for their email listing. They often send you a coupon for just signing up and will continually send you other coupon deals.
  • Amazon has good deals on books sometimes and they offer college students temporary free membership. Here’s a link explaining some of the details.
  • Amazon and other retailers, like Barnes and Noble also offer textbook rental. You get the book for a certain amount of time (30 days, 60 days, 90 days, etc., then mail it back to them.) Much cheaper than buying.
  • Some professors put textbooks on reserve in the library so you can check them out for an hour or two instead of actually buying them.
  • If your class textbooks are at the library and you need them for longer than allowed, you can always photocopy them.
  • Look for Facebook pages/groups with your school name and year, people are always posting online to get rid of their textbooks.
  • If your books are older/literature type books they are often available as e-books for free or easy to find at used bookstore or thrift stores.
  • Ask your professor after hours if you can borrow and make copies of the class textbook.
  • Many colleges use the Link+ library sharing program or something similar. If the textbook you need isn’t offered in the library, another school within the program can deliver the book for free. Ask you school’s librarians about it.
  • If you have a class that requires a “reader,” which is just a bunch of articles, you can usually find them at the school library or online.
  • Keep your textbooks in the best condition possible, so they sell for higher when you no longer need them.
  • If you can access your class list and the emails of your classmates early, ask if anyone would like to share a textbook. Split the price and share it or just ask to copy the chapters needed.

General tips

  • If you get financial aid, set it up to deposit into your own checking account because FAFSA ATMs are frustrating.
  • Check out the dollar stores for some college supplies. They have pens, notebooks, planners, etc.
  • Find upperclassmen who are moving out of their dorms/apartments, they often sell/give away items they are no longer going to be using.
  • Find out if your department offers free printing to undergrads. If yours doesn’t, find a friend whose department does.
  • Pretty much every school offers a MS Office license to students for free. It may not be well advertised but make sure to find out before paying for the programs on your own.
  • Bulk supply stores are usually cheaper.
  • Use your phone’s planner and alerts for assignments.
  • If you need energy boosts, it’s definitely cheaper to brew your own coffee and tea, then use a travel mug. But if you need to go to places like Starbucks, sign up for the Starbucks card so you can get free refills on certain items and get discounts for members only.
  • Find out what free courses your school offers and go to them instead of paying for a tutor.
  • At many universities there are conferences and talks almost daily, which often offer free lunches and dinners.
  • Some colleges offer free cab services so make sure to look into that.
  • Most school health care places give out free condoms and they are often given out at events too.
  • Besides math, older editions of textbooks are usually just fine and much cheaper.
  • Thrift stores are great if you need items for your dorm or apartment, they have appliances and offer testing areas in a section of the store.
  • Specific to Seattle: There’s a place called Seattle ReCreative and you can get school supplies for extremely cheap.
  • Check when stores offer back to school sales and get supplies then for cheaper than usual.
  • Get your syllabus as soon as possible so you can photocopy all the needed pages in textbooks.
  • Look for websites that offer similar information in the textbook, sometimes it’s explained better online, gives examples, or just generally better worded.
  • Buy school supplies during tax-free weekend.
  • Apply for as many local scholarships as possible and do it every year in college, not just freshman year.
  • Ask absolutely every place you go if they offer student discounts. Many places don’t advertise this, but will offer some kind of discount if you show your student ID.
  • Find out if your school has assistance options for lower income students.
  • HERE is a list of food budget tips, recipes, and websites to help.
  • Some classes have extra fees for whatever reason, for example they will charge more if certain equipment will be used. If it’s not a course you need, sometimes it’s better to find cheaper elective classes.
  • Consider community college to save money, and then transfer to a 4 year school. Or attend community college classes during the summer but make sure to always check if the credits transfer.
  • If you need to use a credit card, try to get on with cash back rewards. Also check which banks offer perks for students, like free checking or a no-free policy for low minimum balances.
  • Check out your college newspaper and signs around campus. You will often find information about free events or find coupons with discounts on near by businesses.
  • School supplies that don’t sell at stores like Walmart and Target are extremely discounted during the last week of August.
  • Always check if stores price check.
For those of you that think the PS4 gives you better bang for your buck than a PC:
  • CPU: x86-64 AMD ‘Jaguar’ 8 cores - the jaguar microarchitecture is tiny, necessitating lots of cores for even passable power. The intel xeon core has the same total bandwidth and fully 50% more processing power, for $60.
  • GPU: 1.84 TFLOPS, AMD Radeon - you can get the amd radeon 6870 for 100 bucks, which outputs just over 2 TFLOPS.
  • Memory: GDDR5 8GB - you can get an identical one for 65 dollars.
  • Hard Disk Drive: Built-in 500GB - 60 bucks or less from Western Digital
  • Accessories: For about 30 dollars you can get all the fixings, including ports, optical drives, ethernet, cooling, and power on ebay or newegg, or for ten dollars from a local scrapyard.
  • Motherboard: Any 64 bit motherboard will do, and probably be better than the PS4’s in performance. Give it twenty dollars, forty if you want to splurge.

Total: $335 approx. for a unit with a stronger CPU and GPU.

Day Forty-Two

-A woman brought up two items, one she wanted, one for price-comparison. I am used to this. However, she insisted I give her the lower-priced item for the higher cost. I think I see where she is coming from, but this is not the place for oneupmanship. 

-I will never forget the advice that one elderly woman gave another in regards to buying clearance Halloween items. Whenever I am making a decision, her voice will echo in my head, whispering, “do it, because of YOLO.”

-I was asked to double bag $80 of Halloween decorations in the largest bags we had in stock so that a woman in her sixties would be able to hide them from her husband in the car. For my next heist, I will undoubtedly be in contact with her to plan our seamless getaway.

-A kindly, sweet man in his seventies paid for his purchase with money from a large, studded, jet-black, leather chain wallet. This man keeps Hot Topic afloat.

-A man sat on my register, setting the example for two other men to sit on adjacent registers. The trendsetter remarked, “Why stand like a chump when you can sit?” My response was almost to suggest manners as a reason, but then I realized I would be playing directly into his hands and revealing my true nature as a chump.

-I was informed by a guest that, due to the fact that the counters on the registers were just slightly taller than the carts, I was guaranteed to be a VP someday. He told me that it could be for Nickelodeon, or possibly the Bahamas, but the where does not matter when this man has so much faith in me.

-Making faces at a baby strapped to their mother’s chest resulted in the infant excitedly jumping up and down as much as one can when confined to a living straightjacket. Despite all of the fun that young one was having, the warden was having none of it.

-Entering the store, a man threw his arms out and shouted, “Hello, Target,” and I aspire to take after this man and star in my own movie at every minute.

-I asked a man if he wanted me to bag his bottle of Mountain Dew. He looked at it intensely and told me not to, as he had plans for it. I hope beyond hope that his plans involved drinking it.


All of the designs I’m selling (with their respective files)! Individual posts can be found here with their respective pricing comparisons (i.e. the art included amounts to $x).

Once purchased, you have all rights to the character. You don’t have to credit my art, just don’t say you did it!

If you are interested please message me here or email me at

Etude House: Wonder Pore Freshner

So thanks to the lovely rivermoda, I have decided to stop being a lazy butt and do some reviews about my Korean skincare lifestyle that I’ve been keeping for over two years now. I have to say that it’s been an amazing experience and I haven’t had as close to clear skin as I do now in literally all my life. Granted, the occasional breakout still happens, but the overall quality (texture, brightness, etc.) has been so vastly different from the acne prone, combination-oily, dull, spotty and sensitive skin I’ve had since hitting puberty. So thank you, Korean skincare for that. Now onto the review!


Today we have the wonderfully amazing Wonder Pore Freshner by Etude House! Everyone who knows me is familiar with my obsession with this cute and fun brand, but I also love the fact that their products have worked really well for me and my skin type. I’ve been using my for roughly six months now (I know, I know, I should have reviewed before xD), I can say there have been true results. But before we get into that, what does the Wonder Pore Freshener do?

The Wonder Pore Freshner is a total solution for pore “troubles”. It is an astringent toner with antiseptic properties that removes oil, dirt, germs, and residues for clear, healthy skin.

It’s 7 effects are the following:

  • Deep cleanses pores

  • Controls sebum

  • Keeps the ideal pH balance (4.5±1)

  • Keeps the elasticity of pores

  • Refines/brightens skin tone

  • Minimizes appreance of enlarged pores

  • Moisturizes pores and facial skin

It is 6 free, meaning it doesn’t include: parabens, mineral oil, artificial fragrance, artificial pigments, talc or animal ingredients.

Weight/Amount – 250 ml


So there’s about three recommended ways for you to use this product according to Etude House, and I’ll admit I’ve only used two of those methods. But, for the purpose of being informative and helpful, I shall discuss them all.

  • TONERFirst, we have the function as a toner. This is primarily why I bought the item, since I needed a toner and a pore controlling one sounded right up my alley! For toning, I simply take a cotton ball or pad, pour some Freshner onto it, and then gently stroke my face with it in upwards and outwards motions. I don’t know how long I do this for, but my skin feels better when it’s absorbed in so I just know.

  • MIST Second, if you put the Freshner into a misting bottle (I own one from a previous product so I didn’t need to buy one. Etude House sells it’s custom sized misting bottle, but you can grab a quick one from the dollar store too), you’ve got a mist! I use this in rotation with my Etude House I’m Blooming Sebum Control Mist and The Face Shop Pure Water Facial Mist in Jeju Orange (a later review on those, promise!) and it’s super refreshing~! I like to spray this just before putting on my face cream if it’s in the sticky summer months, or during the day when my skin needs a picker-upper.

  • SHEET MASKThe third use, which I have not tried, is to soak a cotton mask in the Wonder Pore Freshner and use it like a sheet mask. I’ve been wanting to try this, but at the same time I don’t want to excessively use my miraculous toner, so I haven’t used it as a sheet mask. Maybe when I get the 500ml one, I shall. Basically though, you have one of those dime sized folded sheet masks, you pour the Freshner on it, let the mask absorb the liquid for I’d say at least 20 minutes, and then follow instructions of normal sheet masks. (If you have a sheet mask saved from an older one, like I do, gentle wash it so as not to tear it but thoroughly so it’s hygienic for use, store it in a Ziploc baggie until use, and then try this out!)


So I’m really stupid for not taking a photo of my pores before receiving the Wonder Pore Freshner and since I’ve been using this more than six months, the pictures below probably can’t explain to you how much better my skin has gotten with the use of this. However, for review purposes I tried. This is a before and after picture, where the left is a freshly cleansed “shower face” with my enlarged pores (if you could call them that anymore xD) and right after using my Wonder Pore Freshner. As I’ve said, that difference isn’t extreme, but I’ve also been using this miracle product for a long time and it’s shrunk my pores massively. There is a decrease in size, so can you image what my skin looked like before?

(Photo Warning – Extreme close up of face, please don’t get grossed out!)


  • Claims: It really does cleanse, moisturizes, tighten and prevent enlargement of pores. Those claims are 100% true from my personal testing of this product. It also is amazing at sebum control, yay! In conjunction with that, it’s been helping with my acne control, so I guess that’s five out of the seven claims confirmed? (I’m not sure how to test the pH of my skin at home so I can’t confirm or deny this claim, and I can’t say it has a brightening effect in the typical manner other Korean skincare products have so I also can’t say it does this?)

  • It comes in two sizes (250 ml and 500 ml) which are both great value for price when it comes to product.

  • Not crazy expensive. It’s great quality for price in comparison to the American brands I used to use for my skincare.

  • It has a clean, almost astringent smell? It’s kind of green and citrus-y, and though I’ve read a lot of people don’t like that smell, I really find comfort in it. The Skin Mal:gəm Fresh has a similar scent and I love that one too.


  • I bought the 250 ml because I wasn’t sure of the results this product would have, but was still expecting the press pump. Unfortunately, that feature only comes with the 500 ml version, so I was really upset about that. If you want the press pump (and who wouldn’t after results this awesome?), get the 500 ml size.

  • Difficult to obtain outside of the internet. (I wish Etude House had international stores :O )

Recommendation and Rating:

Should you buy it?

                      ☑ Yes

                       ◻ No

                       ◻ Depends

How do you rate this product (out of 5 stars)?


Repurchase (and where to buy):

I’ll definitely be repurchasing this so long as they make this superb product. I’ll also not make the frugal mistake of only buying the 250 ml. I’ll be getting the 500 ml version for sure.

I bought mine from W2Beauty, a great site run by the lovely Alice and recommend you get it from there. There are also tons of shops on eBay that sell Etude House products, so check out shops there!


Hope you enjoyed my review and let me know if you have questions! I want ti start reviewing things more so keep an eye out for those on occasion~!

Best-ish Places To Shop Online…

If you have a couple of sites you really love you should message them to me so I can add them to my lists. :D Some of these sites I dont use but I know they are good sites by reviews from friends and trusted bloggers. I add on this list as time goes on…

Sample Sites

Womens Clothing


Fun Gifts
Archie McPhee



The Curiosity Shoppe

Art and Posters and Prints

Frys Electronics




Unique Foods

Apple Refurbished
Amazon Warehouse
Dell Outlet
Newegg Recertified
Gamestop Preowned

DEALS! Sites


Daily Deals
TravelZoo Local Deals
Google Offers

Price comparison
Google Shopping
Cnet Shopper

Stupid joke-ish T-shirts

Kids Clothing

Mens Clothing

Garden / Flowers / Plants


Crowd Sourced

Health and Fitness

Nerd Links
Edmund Scientifics


JCrew Wedding

Bing Travel

Customizable Products

My Only Sunshine. Bucky Barnes Multi-Shot.

Title: My Only Sunshine. Sequel to You Are My Sunshine

Pairing: Female Reader x Bucky Barnes. Having said that, this story focuses on Reader with some Steve (Brotherly) fluff.

Prompt: A TON of requests for a part two to “You Are My Sunshine”. I’m definitely going to have more to this series though :)

Triggers: None

Enjoy ;D

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Amazon granted a patent that prevents in-store shoppers from online price checking
Amazon’s long been a go-to for people to online price compare while shopping at brick-and-mortars. Now, a new patent granted to the company could prevent people from doing just that inside Amazon’s own stores.
By Dani Deahl

The patent, titled “Physical Store Online Shopping Control,” details a mechanism where a retailer can intercept network requests like URLs and search terms that happen on its in-store Wi-Fi, then act upon them in various ways.

The document details in great length how a retailer like Amazon would use this information to its benefit. If, for example, the retailer sees you’re trying to access a competitor’s website to price check an item, it could compare the requested content to what’s offered in-store and then send price comparison information or a coupon to your browser instead. Or it could suggest a complementary item, or even block content outright.

Amazon’s patent also lets the retailer know your physical whereabouts, saying, “the location may be triangulated utilizing information received from a multitude of wireless access points.” The retailer can then use this information to try and upsell you on items in your immediate area or direct a sales representative to your location.

Tips for beginning Witches

1. Be skeptical — Do NOT believe everything you read online or in books for that matter. Do your research and come to your own conclusions. Debates are healthy but there is no need to put down others even if they are posting a bunch of fluff. Be aware of the fluff. People do post fluff online and they do sell fluff in books too. Even with the reputable sources, do not follow everything said as though you do not have a mind of your own.

2. You do not have to go out and buy all sorts of supplies to practice – If you feel the need or simply desire to have some supplies there are always places like Walmart or other grocery stores — I also recommend thrift stores and looking on etsy. Do some price comparisons and try to figure out what you will use rather than binge buying. 

3.  When reading the how to’s, please realize that it doesn’t have to be a step-by-step kind of thing. Magick is a lifestyle not a hobby. You will learn the way that you are supposed to. Sometimes things just kind of happen that help you along your path. 

I hope this post helped someone, I could probably add a few more tips. However, it’s getting kind of late over here. 

~Blessed Be

There is a woman whose business involves buying as many clear plastic Christmas ornaments as she can, as cheaply as she can. Basically she just fills them with shit and resells them. Woops, sorry lady. Your secret’s out. 

She called several days ago to ask if they were on sale. Our manager said no. 

Then she called the next day and got our florist, who also said no. 

And so she has decided that her best plan is to call every day to see if they are on sale. She has been calling for the past four days and the answer is always no. 

And today she got me. 

“I’m sorry ma’am, but they are not on sale yet.”

“Do you know when they will be on sale?”

“They don’t tell us when the sales are until the day of, but our sales run from Sunday to Saturday. I would try calling back on Sunday.”

“What about your daily deals? I’ll miss them if I wait that long and they went on sale!”

“We do not have daily deals this week. When we have daily deals, they are advertised in the paper or in our online ad. So I would keep an eye out for those.”

“You’re telling me I just have to KEEP CALLING every day?”

“No, I think it would cut out the middleman if you just kept an eye on our ads. That way you wouldn’t have to call. However, if you need a lot of them, might I suggest buying them wholesale? Many places will give you a discount rate if you buy them in bulk.”

“No, I don’t want to buy them in bulk. I just want to buy all you have!”

“Well, I’m sorry- but if you want to be notified of our sales, a much simpler route would be to keep an eye on the ad.”

Which is when she hung up. 

I hate this. I hate this so much. And its people who buy the entire stock of something that really fuck us up for the rest of the season. Us running out of something this early means that if someone along the line wants to make one for themselves, or their kids, or as a gift to someone else- they’re out of luck. And we are not a bulk provider. The people who are here for just one or two things are who we’re trying to cater to. 

Because business runners have the option and the benefit of ordering something in bulk. 

BUT NAW. You can’t just save .29 per item and let other people enjoy their fucking holiday activities. Naw, you can’t be arsed to do literally three seconds of research to do price comparison. Naw, you can’t make smart business practices. NAW. 

You gotta be the jerk that spends the extra dollars to make sure no one else ever does the thing that you do. Because you’re fuckin’ SPECIAL. 


HEY I’m Stag, I am a 3d artist, and I’m offering you a chance at a high quality custom 3d character commission for a limited time!

My girlfriend and I are adopting two wonderful, perfect rescue kitten sisters for our new place. We want to be the best human guardians that we can possible be, and that means not only shelling out cash for the adoption fee, but also for their kitty needs and wants, and moving fees and costs. To raise money, I’m offering some rad 3d commissions!


● A high quality detailed 3d character model, including high rez textures. Semi-realistic in the style featured above!

● A turnaround animation gif, a looping idle animation, and an assortment of posed renders

● A fully rigged program file, set up for you to animate and pose the character to your hearts content!

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I am a professional artist. 3d modeling is VERY VERY time consuming and takes a lot of technical skill. Unfortunately I am unable to offer low prices because of this!

The starting price of a high quality model like pictured above is $400USD. 

For very complex characters, this price will possibly rise. I am more than happy to negotiate on price and complexity, as well as payment methods. I may lower this price for very simple character designs. I prefer at the very least 25% upfront as being able to help pay for kitten needs and moving costs immediately would mean a lot to me.

(Please keep in mind the time and effort I devote to my models. I am offering an incredibly cheap price in comparison to industry flat rates! I am also offering the original model file to offset the price - this file will be set up and fully rigged and you will be able to pose, animate and render out images of your character using this file!)

████  3D FREE GIVEAWAY  ████

Since I understand that a lot of tumblr uses are not able to afford the price, I am offering a giveaway for those who single boost and reblog!

Anybody who reblogs or likes this post will go into the running to receive a custom character 3d bust models! Those who win will get a FREE single 3d character bust up model of their character in the above style.

● Giveaway ends on 1st March

● Multiple reblogs and a like count

● Winner will be chosen at random

Here’s some additional 3d art from me as samples!


Soft ‘Hazelnut’ MakeUp Tutorial

Check out my latest tutorial featuring makeup products that My Beauty Matches recommended for me based on my skin type.
Ordinarily, I would go with my professional knowledge & experience when it comes to products that are suitable for my skin, but so many new brands are popping up and there are always new products coming out that it makes it hard to keep up! And not everyone has the knowledge of a makeup artist, so if it’s hard for me to keep up, then it will certainly leave some of you wondering where to start when it comes to choosing makeup suitable for your skins demands. 

So when I was introduced to I was so excited to see everything in one place when it comes to shopping online for Beauty. 
Not only do they have 100′s of retailers, but they have 1000′s of brands to choose from. And they are the No.1 price comparison site for beauty! 
You no longer need to spend hours on the net searching from website to website trying to work out the cheapest option with the fastest delivery time, you can now find the product you want on My Beauty Matches, and they will show you the cost of the product included post & packaging, as well as the delivery times all in one place. AND…. you can buy it directly from the website all on the same page. Genius! 

If you would like to see how it works and how to get started, then check out my tutorial. I explain everything on there in more depth, and I then go on to show you a makeup look you can create using some of the products that was recommended to me via the site! 

You can click here to go and check out the site for yourself!
They also have a facebook page, and a twitter account. 

Famous Last Words

Summary: In a world where the last words your soulmate will say to you are written on your wrist, fearful and introverted Phil works in a bookstore. His greatest fear? The words counting down the seconds until he meet his soulmate, someone called ‘Dan.’ But it isn’t until he befriends a university student that he nicknames ‘Bear’ that Phil realizes that surviving through fear isn’t the same as living.

A/N: It’s very clearly not Sunday, but I have multiple assignments and exams coming up which means procrastinating by writing phanfiction. What I said last chapter about FLW going on hiatus has kind of started now, in the sense that because of the end of school chaos chapters are going to pop up whenever they’re finished.

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Chapter Eleven  

     Phil had never been good with words in the sense that he knew what he wanted to say, but somewhere between where the ideas floated in his subconscious and where they actually emerged from his lips they were lost. So as in most cases when he wanted to say something that he ran the risk of fucking up if he tried to say in person, he decided to leave Bear a sticky note.
      The marker lay uncapped on the table beside his hand as Phil reached for his coffee, taking another sip. He rubbed his eyes, fighting back a yawn as he swiveled in his chair. Ever since Bear had left the insomnia had returned worse than ever. Which, to be fair, was part of what he wanted to tell him.
      After Bear had left Phil’s flat over a week ago, Phil had spent a lot of time thinking. What he had said technically wasn’t a lie–he wasn’t sure if he was in love or what anything meant, and he still wasn’t convinced that he wasn’t broken and fucked up. At the same time Phil had found himself thinking about Bear more than he had been previously, which meant that the university student was always on the edge of his thoughts in some way or another. Phil wasn’t sure if it was love or not, but there was something about the way Bear made him laugh and the world stop that was electric in a way that he’d never felt before. He hadn’t forgotten the dangers of the words, and there was a part of Phil that couldn’t shake the feeling that any chance at a relationship was doomed before it had started.
     Although in the end maybe none of that mattered, because if there was one thing Bear had taught him it was that while living came at a price, the price paled in comparison to the difference between surviving and living.
      So despite the nagging voice in the back of his mind telling him that he was being stupid and that he’d live to regret it, Phil had eventually come to the decision that maybe he was ready to try if Bear was.

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anonymous asked:

hi! just wondering how you manage to read all of those books? like do you have a website? or do you just have extreme amounts of money you never talk about? love all your book recs btw!

I do not have extreme amounts of money nor a website! this is my website! hello! welcome! what I do have is lots of friends who also love books and serve as my personal little libraries, and some good luck/Canny Skills™. as much as I desperately want to Keep The Industry And Bookshops Alive by only buying all my books in hardback full price from Waterstones, that is just not realistic. none of us are fucking millionaires. and frankly, my dear, I love reading far too much to be so self-sacrificing. 

okay. here is how I get all my books: 

- aforementioned friends! find someone (or multiple someones) in your friends group who loves books as much as you do and set up some sort of Book Co-op. share and share alike. you spend half as much money if you’re lending books back and forth, especially if there’s a whole NETWORK of you! I’m slowly but surely borrowing books from every single person I work with. it’s great. (also works with online friends: friends send friends epubs!) 

- NEVER UNDERESTIMATE YOUR LOCAL LIBRARY! I went to my local library and got a new library card (after paying an outstanding 8-year-old fine of 6p) in 2014 and never looked back. if they don’t have something you want they can ask a different branch to send it over, or you can request something brand new and they’ll try to get it for you! you love books! they love books! it’s like browsing a weird, uncool Waterstones, except EVERYTHING’S FREE! 

- charity shops. charity. shops. I will not walk past a charity shop. every single charity shop in the UK has a bookshelf, and generally the books people give away to charity are the ones they got for Christmas and read once or didn’t bother to read at all, and those are generally ones people grabbed from the Buy One Get One Half Price table at Waterstones. in short: NEW/ISH AND POPULAR PAPERBACKS FOR LIKE A QUID. my last charity shop jaunt I brought home William Boyd’s Any Human Heart and Andrew Smith’s Stand-Off and spent about £3.50. I almost bought a pristine, untouched, mint condition copy of A Gathering of Shadows. for £2. CHARITY SHOPS!!!

- if you live in a city (or a big/trendy town), I can guarantee you have at least five secondhand bookshops. find them, take an afternoon, wander around. if you’re really lucky, everything’ll be alphabetised to make your life even easier. it might even be sorted… by genre. mmm. it’s also worth finding any local independent bookshops and popping in for a browse rather than defaulting to Waterstones when you need to buy something new – the books’ll definitely be pricier than a secondhand bookshop or charity shop (though not pricier than W’stones), but if you’re going to give anyone money for Brand New books it should be independent bookshops! 

- speaking of Waterstones, while working there I abused my seasonal staff privileges somewhat by signing up to as a bookseller. I don’t know if it’s possible to sign up to it without something to prove you work in a bookshop/in the industry, but if it is you TOTALLY SHOULD. (and/or try to cheat the system somehow. ahem.) publishers put books up on NG and you can request an epub to read and review. they don’t always give them to you – sometimes it’s a regional thing, or, as is probably the case with me, they check to see how many reviews you actually leave and they’re like On Your Bike, Missy – but a lot of the time they do! 

- if you’re an ebook person, you absolutely need to sign up to BookBub! they email you once a day with great ebook deals. on actually good books. there’s some questionable ones (ISN’T THERE ALWAYS?), but today there’s Ruth Rendell, Hilary Mantel, Sara Raash’s Snow Like Ashes, Anthony Doerr’s All The Light We Cannot See, John le Carré, Bernard Cornwell… i.e. good people and good books. I love my daily BookBub email! 

- Epic Reads, the YA social media bit of HarperCollins, does something called FIRST5 which is super cool – every week they send you the first 5 chapters of a YA book, one chapter every weekday morning. it’s the perfect try before you buy fandango, and they send you decent stuff, too. last week’s book was V. E. Schwab’s This Savage Song, which is awesommmeee. (if you’re in the US, they also do $1.99 YA ebook deals!) 

- is god’s gift to thrifty readers who love impulse buying books in the middle of the night. type in the book you want and it’ll literally give you a list of secondhand book websites that have copies and do a price comparison. (which can be misleading. my heart nearly exploded out of my chest when I saw that it had found me a copy of Sodomy and the Pirate Tradition for £1.17, but it neglected to mention the $63 postage.) 

- honestly ~*~SECONDHAND BOOK WEBSITES~*~ are the way, the truth and the light. is a great way to find a specific book you want (especially if it’s something a bit weird or out of print: see Sodomy and the Pirate Tradition for full details), but I tend to head straight to AbeBooks. also, while I think amazon is The Devil and I avoid buying directly from them where books are concerned, I’m a frequent flier at the amazon marketplace. I’m constantly buying ex-library books from random places I’ve never heard of in America. nobody wants them because they’re all stamped inside and thousands of people have groped them. BUT I WANT THEM. I WANT THEIR WEIRD HISTORY AND OLD BOOK SMELL. I WILL CHERISH THEM. find the book you want on amazon, click on where it says ‘x Used & New From £x.xx’ and boom. buy your copy of Six of Crows from Second City Books in Aurora, IL.

SO THERE YOU HAVE IT. books on books on books on books