I was going to post a long blog post about our ’
post racial society,’ and my meeting with my advisor yesterday but I will spare you…
The short is that I don’t know what to think anymore… I feel that a lot of educated blacks have given up on black society/culture as a whole. In my experience thus far in the world of academia it’s okay for one to disregard their race for their own progression within their field. I feel like I am in the twilight zone…
I mean really… Do I really need to learn to play the game?
The idea of me trying to differentiate myself from other blacks in an effort to be more refined or something is crazy. I like what I like because I like it… Not because I would like to be less black or pretentious.
Honest to God I feel like my conversation yesterday with my advisor was some mix of the house negro intertwined with the field negro… I know thats harsh to say, but I walked away from the meeting very very confused.
The same ol slavemaster today has negros who are nothing but modern Uncle Toms. 20th century Uncle Toms to keep you and me in check. Keep us under control. Keep us passive and peaceful.
Malcolm X - The House Negro vs The Field Negro
This is like one big joke to me, that everyone is in on but me… The sad part is that my advisor is black and I did not leave the meeting encouraged and uplifted. I left the meeting discouraged and annoyed with the process before it’s even started… I feel like she wants to back me but subconsciously through the departments supposed sentiment she’s against the idea herself.
I mean really… what gives?