Post Traumatic Stress Disorder

I want to talk
about what happened
without mentioning
how much it hurt.
There has to be a way.
To care for the wounds
Without reopening them.
To name the pain
without inviting it back
into me
—  If there is a way, I’ll take it.
what it's like to be young, not a vet and have PTSD

- you never mention that u have ptsd to anyone bc ur either scared, ashamed, or u know they’ll say “but ur not a veteran”,,,, or all three
- constantly question the validity of ur disorder?? like doc r u sure ?
- not telling anyone that ur being triggered at that moment so u just suffer alone
- ppl getting freaked out or weirded out when u react to a trigger, shying away from u n acting like ur an alien
- basically feeling rlly alone a lot of the time,,

Traumatized people chronically feel unsafe inside their bodies: The past is alive in the form of gnawing interior discomfort. Their bodies are constantly bombarded by visceral warning signs, and, in an attempt to control these processes, they often become expert at ignoring their gut feelings and in numbing awareness of what is played out inside. They learn to hide from their selves.
—  “The Body Keeps The Score” by Bessel Van Der Kolk

where’s all the support for abuse victims that were abused by friends, or even just acquaintances, but still couldn’t get away?

where’s the support for abuse victims that heard “they’re hitting you because they have a crush you!”, or “it’s just a scratch/a bruise, it’s not like they’re killing you!” even if they were crying, and begging adults to do something about it?

for victims that heard “they’re just joking, they don’t really mean that!”, and “insults can’t hurt you, ignore them and you’ll be fine!” over and over again, feeling more and more worthless every single time?

I’m here for you. Your abuse is valid, even if no one talks about it, and you have every reason to suffer from it. You’re not “exaggerating it”. You are a victim too.