when i was 20 and like not being phucked by big pharma yet i used to literally walk around awake for over 24 hours and sit in cafes and eat loaves of bread and it was so fun and special i just watched people and read and laughed by myself and walked thru nature but now i feel like extreme medication has killed something within me and made me fucking ginormous and permanently fatigued that i dont have fun doing all that anymore just out of breath and like old.