I know tumblr glorifies bing watching tv shows but honestly for me when i got super depressed and into slumps of my life all i did was read harry potter 12 times and start watching every available episodes of doctor who and supernatural and friends. My therapist told me that i got so caught up in these shows because i wanted to escape what was going on in reality. I needed to get out of that loop of never wanted to leave my room because honestly I wasnt okay. I put my self in a very unhealthy routine. To the point where some days i wouldn’t eat and i didn’t even notice. I was always in my room, lights off, some show was on and i was also probably on tumblr. I see this kind of lifestyle glorified a lot on this site. Its not okay or cute to constantly just live like this. Please remind yourself to eat or go to the bathroom. If your mom says shes going to the store maybe ask to go with her. Just get back in touch with reality once in a while. I didnt even notice that i was that depressed until i started getting out more and suddenly i felt much better and i didnt need those things to be my crush anymore.
Man... sucks to see you down like this... :/ I hope things turn out okay for you and Michi.. I'm praying for her health rn... Best of luck and don't get too down!!! If you need any kind of music let me know and I'll do my best to help!