The Past is a Grotesque Animal
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The Past is a Grotesque Animal || of Montreal

The past is a grotesque animal
And in its eyes you see
How completely wrong you can be
How completely wrong you can be
The sun is out, it melts the snow that fell yesterday
Makes you wonder why it bothered

I fell in love with the first cute girl that I met
Who could appreciate George Bataille
Standing at a Swedish festival discussing “Story of the Eye”
Discussing “Story of the Eye”

It’s so embarrassing to need someone like I do you
How can I explain I need you here and not here too
How can I explain I need you here and not here too

I’m flunking out, I’m flunking out
I’m gone, I’m just gone
But at least I author my own disaster
At least I author my own disaster

Performance breakdown and I don’t want to hear it
I’m just not available
Things could be different but they’re not
Things could be different but they’re not

The mousy girl screams, “Violence! Violence!”
The mousy girl screams, “Violence! Violence!”
She gets hysterical cause they’re both so mean
And it’s my favorite scene
But the cruelty’s so predictable, it makes you sad on the stage
Though our love project has so much potential
But it’s like we weren’t made for this world
Though I wouldn’t really want to meet someone who was

Do I have to scream in your face?
I’ve been dodging lamps and vegetables
Throw it all in my face, I don’t care

Let’s just have some fun, let’s tear this shit apart
Let’s tear the fucking house apart
Let’s tear our fucking bodies apart
But let’s just have some fun

Somehow you’ve red-rovered the gestapo circling my heart
And nothing can defeat you
No death, no ugly world

You’ve lived so brightly
You’ve altered everything
I find myself searching for old selves
While speeding forward through the plate glass of maturing cells

I’ve played the unraveler, the parhelion
But even apocalypse is fleeting
There’s no death, no ugly world

Sometimes I wonder if you’re mythologizing me like I do you
We want our film to be beautiful, not realistic
Perceive me in the radiance of terror dreams
You can betray me, you can, you can betray me,

Teach me something wonderful
Crown my head, crowd my head with your lilting effects
Project your fears on to me
I need to view them
See there’s nothing to them
I promise you there’s nothing to them

I’m so touched by your goodness
You make me feel so criminal
How do you keep it together?
I’m all, all unraveled

But you know, no matter where we are
We’re always touching by underground wires

I’ve explored you with the detachment of an analyst
But most nights we’ve raided the same kingdoms
And none of our secrets are physical
None of our secrets are physical
None of our secrets are physical now

20 Songs Inspired By Sylvia Plath (a mixtape)

Today marks the release of Belle & Sebastian’s wonderful new album and one of its most memorable tracks is “Enter Sylvia Plath”, named after the tortured 20th century writer. Famous for her dark, confessional poetry and mythologized by her tragic suicide at the age of 30, Plath became an icon for angsty youth and budding wordsmiths everywhere, inspiring Stuart Murdoch and many other artists along the way. Here’s 20 songs referencing or inspired by the life & works of Sylvia Plath. Listen to the mix on Spotify.

01. Belle & Sebastian - Enter Sylvia Plath
02. of Montreal - Colossus
03. Braids - Plath Heart
04. Paul Westerberg - Crackle & Drag
05. The Antlers - Sylvia
06. Little Boots - Mathematics
07. Manic Street Preachers - Faster
08. Joshua Radin - These Photographs
09. The Bangles - Bell Jar
10. The Envy Corps - Sylvia [the Beekeper]
11. Lady Gaga - Dance in the Dark
12. Breath Owl Breathe - Sylvia Plath
13. Alpha - Back
14. Rocky Votolato - What Waited For Me
15. Anna Nalick - Drink Me (acoustic)
16. Emmy The Great - Sylvia
17. Tears for Fears - Johnny Panic and the Bible of Dreams
18. Jeffrey Lewis - So What If I Couldn’t Take It
19. Kimya Dawson - Time To Think
20. Ryan Adams - Sylvia Plath

Listen to this playlist on Spotify


the heroes series : KEVIN BARNES

I’d like to do a series of portraits of all the artists that changed my life in some way. Well - it’s impossible to draw all of them, there are so many ! But among them, there is Kevin Barnes, the neurotic genius behind Of Montreal. His music is the soundtrack of my soul. Amen to that. 

“We want our lives to be beautiful, not realistic.” - The Past is a Grotesque Animal by Of Montreal


09. [Iggy Azelea Vs Lorde Vs Schoolboy Q Vs Of Montreal Vs Chi City Vs Godspeed You! Black Emperor] #old guys just discovering their camera’s on their smartphones and the first selfie they take where they look too surprised #koolaid, please stop filling your little bottles all the way to the top #anyone who leaves a review online is insane

By Jonny Wanser off of #HTMT IV (2014)

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