October-28-2012

Ways I Stuck It to the Eating Disorder Today
  1. Yesterday I had the worst hangover I’ve ever had. It went on all day long. There was a lot of sleeping and vomiting and very little eating. Even though I was feeling better this morning I didn’t want to eat because I didn’t need to yesterday, so why do I have to today? I did it. In fact I’ve been following my hunger cues and have probably eaten more than I normally would. 
  2. I weighed myself today because I was curious. I broke about a dozen eating disorder weigh-in “rules” while doing so and it was ok. I wouldn’t say I jumped for joy or anything but I didn’t dissolve into a sobbing mess on the floor either. Progress. I wasn’t a fan of the number but it hasn’t ruined my day or impacted my eating.